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Tony woke up with a problem.
Not a small problem.
Not a problem that could be solved with a movie, a carefully curated playlist, or a deeply unnecessary amount of research.
A problem that had a name.
Steve.
Tony stared at his ceiling.
“No.”
The ceiling, unhelpfully, remained a ceiling.
He rolled over.
This was stupid.
He had spent weeks helping Steve fall in love with someone. He had created plans. He had made lists. He had watched approximately seventeen romantic comedies in the name of research, which was a sacrifice no one seemed sufficiently grateful for.
And now, apparently, the person Steve had been trying to make notice him was—
Tony pressed his face into his pillow.
“Nope.”
He lifted his head.
“Absolutely not.”
He dropped it again.
A muffled sound came from the pillow.
It might have been a scream.
It might have been a prayer.
It was probably both.
---
By the time Tony got to school, he had developed a strategy.
It was a good strategy.
It was a mature strategy.
It was a strategy that would allow him to handle the situation with dignity.
He would act normal.
He would not stare at Steve.
He would not overthink every word Steve said.
He would not bring up the conversation from yesterday.
He would not confess his feelings in the middle of the hallway like some kind of emotionally unstable protagonist in a movie with a terrible third act.
He would simply go about his day.
Like a normal person.
Like someone who had not spent the entire previous night staring at a notebook page that said:
**I think it was always Steve.**
Tony shut his locker.
Steve was standing beside it.
Tony nearly jumped out of his skin.
“Jesus Christ.”
Steve blinked.
“Morning?”
Tony pressed a hand to his chest.
“Don't do that.”
“Do what?”
“Appear.”
Steve looked around the hallway.
“I've been standing here.”
“Exactly. Menacingly.”
Steve smiled.
Tony's brain, which had been functioning at a reasonable level approximately three seconds ago, immediately stopped.
*I did all of that.*
*Because I was trying to make the wrong person notice me.*
Tony looked away.
“Morning.”
Steve tilted his head.
“You okay?”
“Fantastic.”
“You sure?”
“Never better.”
Steve studied him for a second.
Tony could feel it.
The looking.
The *you are being weird* looking.
He hated that Steve was so good at it.
“I slept great,” Tony added.
Steve's eyebrows rose.
“I didn't ask.”
“Good. Then we're all caught up.”
Steve laughed quietly.
Tony stared at the floor.
This was going terribly.
---
The first class of the day was English.
Tony had always liked English.
English was predictable.
There were books. There were essays. There were discussions about symbolism that he could usually turn into an argument if he tried hard enough.
English did not ask him to confront the fact that his best friend might be in love with him.
Unfortunately, Steve sat beside him.
And unfortunately, Steve was currently passing him a worksheet.
Tony looked at it.
Then at Steve.
Then back at the worksheet.
“What is this?”
Steve blinked.
“An assignment.”
Tony stared.
“Right.”
Steve leaned closer.
“Are you feeling okay?”
Tony took the worksheet.
“Why does everyone keep asking me that?”
“Because you're acting weird.”
Tony pointed at him.
“See? That's exactly what I'm talking about.”
Steve smiled.
“Okay.”
Tony looked down at the paper.
The assignment was about romantic poetry.
Tony closed his eyes.
Of course it was.
Of course the universe had decided to personally attack him.
The teacher began talking about metaphor.
Tony wrote the date at the top of his page.
Then, without thinking, he wrote:
**Metaphor:**
*Steve Rogers is a problem.*
He stared at it.
Crossed it out.
Underneath, he wrote:
*Steve Rogers is a very large problem.*
He crossed that out too.
Steve glanced at his paper.
Tony immediately covered it with his arm.
“What?”
“Nothing.”
Steve looked amused.
“Okay.”
Tony hated that word.
*Okay.*
Steve said it like he meant it.
Like he wasn't trying to pry.
Like he was giving Tony space.
Which somehow made everything worse.
---
At lunch, Tony sat with Natasha and Clint.
He had selected the seat with the best view of the cafeteria entrance.
This was not intentional.
It was tactical.
Natasha looked at him.
Tony looked back.
She looked at the door.
Then at him.
Then at the door again.
“Really?”
Tony frowned.
“What?”
“You're doing it again.”
“Doing what?”
“Waiting for Steve to walk in.”
Tony scoffed.
“I am not waiting for Steve.”
Clint looked up from his food.
“Then why have you looked at the door nine times?”
Tony opened his mouth.
Closed it.
Opened it again.
“Maybe I like doors.”
Natasha nodded slowly.
“Of course.”
“I do.”
“Big fan?”
“Huge.”
Clint took a bite of his sandwich.
“That's nice.”
Tony glared at both of them.
“You're being very judgmental.”
Natasha leaned back.
“You've been acting strange since yesterday.”
“I'm always strange.”
“Different strange.”
Tony groaned.
“Can we please retire that phrase?”
“No.”
“It's a terrible phrase.”
“It's an accurate phrase.”
Tony stabbed his fork into a piece of lettuce.
Natasha watched him for another second.
Then she said, casually:
“So. Did Steve say anything?”
Tony froze.
Clint stopped chewing.
Natasha's expression remained completely neutral.
Tony slowly looked up.
“Why would you ask that?”
“Because you look like someone who has been emotionally inconvenienced.”
“That's not a thing.”
“It is now.”
Tony looked down at his tray.
“He said some stuff.”
Clint swallowed.
“What stuff?”
Tony's fingers tightened around his fork.
“Nothing.”
Natasha raised an eyebrow.
Tony sighed.
“He said he was trying to make the wrong person notice him.”
There was silence.
A very specific kind of silence.
Tony looked up.
Natasha was staring at him.
Clint was staring at him.
Tony's stomach dropped.
“What?”
Natasha blinked.
Then she leaned back in her chair.
“Oh, my God.”
Tony pointed at her.
“Don't.”
“You know.”
“No, I don't.”
“You know.”
“I know nothing.”
Clint looked between them.
“Wait, what?”
Natasha ignored him.
Tony lowered his voice.
“I'm serious.”
“So am I.”
“Natasha.”
“Tony.”
He stared at her.
She stared back.
Then she said, very gently:
“It's you.”
Tony's entire body went still.
Clint looked at Natasha.
Then at Tony.
Then back at Natasha.
“Oh.”
Tony stood up so quickly his chair scraped against the floor.
“I need to go.”
Natasha didn't even look surprised.
“Where?”
“Somewhere else.”
“Tony—”
“Nope.”
He grabbed his tray.
Clint blinked.
“Are you taking the tray?”
Tony looked down at it.
Then at him.
“I'm committed to the bit.”
And he walked away.
---
He made it approximately thirty feet before Steve appeared.
Tony stopped.
Steve stopped.
There was a pause.
Steve looked at the tray in Tony's hands.
“Lunch going well?”
Tony looked down.
“Fantastic.”
Steve glanced toward the cafeteria.
“Where are you going?”
“I'm taking a walk.”
“With your food?”
Tony looked at the tray again.
“It's been a stressful day.”
Steve smiled.
Tony hated that.
He hated how easy it was for Steve to smile at him.
How normal it looked.
How completely unfair it was that Steve could stand there and look like Steve while Tony's entire internal structure was collapsing.
Steve's expression softened.
“Can I come with you?”
Tony's heart did something deeply embarrassing.
“Why?”
Steve blinked.
“Because I want to?”
Tony looked away.
“Right.”
Steve waited.
Tony sighed.
“Fine.”
They walked down the hallway.
For a while, neither said anything.
Tony focused on the tray.
Steve focused on Tony.
Tony could feel it.
“You're staring.”
Steve looked ahead.
“Am I?”
“Yes.”
“Sorry.”
Tony immediately regretted saying anything.
“No, I—”
He stopped.
Steve looked at him.
Tony looked away.
“It's fine.”
Steve nodded.
“Okay.”
There it was again.
That word.
Tony wanted to throw his tray into a wall.
Instead, he kept walking.
---
They ended up outside near the courtyard.
The lunch crowd was thinner there. A few students sat on benches, talking quietly. Somewhere near the far side of the building, someone was playing music from their phone.
Tony sat on the edge of a low wall.
Steve leaned against the railing beside him.
For a moment, it felt almost normal.
Almost.
Then Steve said, “You know, you don't have to avoid me.”
Tony stared at his lunch.
“I'm not avoiding you.”
Steve gave him a look.
Tony sighed.
“Okay. Maybe a little.”
“Why?”
Tony picked at the edge of a napkin.
“Because.”
Steve waited.
Tony hated him for being patient.
“Because you said a thing.”
Steve nodded.
“I did.”
“And then I thought about it.”
“Okay.”
“And now I wish I hadn't.”
Steve's expression changed.
“Why?”
Tony laughed weakly.
“Because it's complicated.”
Steve looked at him.
“Is it?”
Tony turned.
“What?”
Steve shrugged.
“I mean, maybe it is. But you keep acting like it's something terrible.”
Tony looked away.
“It's not terrible.”
“Then what is it?”
Tony opened his mouth.
Nothing.
Steve waited.
Tony stared at the ground.
Then he said, quietly:
“I don't know.”
Steve nodded.
“Okay.”
Tony looked at him.
“Stop saying okay.”
Steve blinked.
“Okay.”
Tony closed his eyes.
“I'm going to kill you.”
Steve laughed.
And there it was again.
That laugh.
That stupid, warm, familiar laugh that Tony had known for years.
The one that had always made him feel better.
The one that now made him feel like his chest was too small.
Tony looked down.
Steve's voice softened.
“Tony.”
Tony didn't answer.
“I'm not trying to make you uncomfortable.”
“I know.”
“I just don't want you thinking you have to figure everything out by yourself.”
Tony swallowed.
That was the problem.
Steve always said things like that.
Steve always made it sound easy to be honest.
Steve always made Tony want to try.
And Tony was beginning to suspect that wanting to try was the most dangerous part.
---
After lunch, Tony made a decision.
He was going to talk to Steve.
Not confess.
Not necessarily.
But talk.
Like a normal person.
He would ask what Steve meant.
He would listen.
He would not panic.
He would not run away.
He would not make a joke.
He would not turn the conversation into a discussion about movie tropes.
He would simply ask.
That was all.
Simple.
Easy.
Completely manageable.
He found Steve after his next class.
Steve was at his locker, putting books away.
Tony approached.
Steve looked up.
“Hey.”
Tony stopped in front of him.
“Hey.”
Steve smiled.
Tony immediately forgot every word he had ever learned.
Steve waited.
Tony stared.
Then he said:
“Your locker is open.”
Steve looked at it.
“Yeah.”
Tony nodded.
“That's dangerous.”
Steve blinked.
“What?”
“Security issue.”
Steve stared at him.
Tony stared back.
Then Steve started laughing.
Tony covered his face.
“Oh, my God.”
“Sorry,” Steve said, still smiling.
“No, it's fine. I'm just—”
Tony stopped.
Steve's smile faded slightly.
“Just what?”
Tony lowered his hands.
There it was.
The moment.
The actual moment.
He could do this.
He could say it.
He could ask.
“What did you mean yesterday?”
Steve's expression softened.
“About what?”
Tony stared at him.
Steve's eyes flicked over his face.
Then he said, quietly:
“You know what I meant.”
Tony's stomach twisted.
“Do I?”
Steve nodded.
“I think you do.”
Tony looked away.
“That's not fair.”
Steve frowned.
“What isn't?”
“You can't just say things like that and expect me to—”
Tony stopped.
Steve waited.
Tony's heart pounded.
“Expect me to what?”
Steve's voice was gentle.
Tony looked at him.
And for one terrifying second, he thought Steve might say it.
He thought Steve might make it easy.
He thought Steve might look at him and say:
*It's you.*
But Steve didn't.
Instead, he said:
“I don't know what you want me to say.”
Tony laughed.
It came out sharper than he intended.
“Right.”
Steve's expression changed.
Tony immediately regretted it.
“No, I didn't mean—”
“Tony.”
“No, it's fine.”
“It's not.”
Tony looked away.
Steve closed his locker.
“Can we talk?”
Tony's chest tightened.
“About what?”
Steve stared at him.
Tony knew.
He knew exactly what Steve wanted to talk about.
And he was suddenly, violently afraid of it.
“Not here,” Steve said.
Tony nodded.
“Okay.”
---
They went to the back stairwell.
It was quiet there, mostly empty between classes. The fluorescent lights hummed overhead. Tony leaned against the wall, arms crossed tightly over his chest.
Steve stood a few feet away.
Neither spoke.
Tony stared at the floor.
Steve waited.
Tony hated that he was making Steve wait.
He hated that Steve was being so patient.
He hated that he had no idea how to begin.
Finally, Steve said, “You wanted to ask me something.”
Tony nodded.
“Yeah.”
Steve waited.
Tony took a breath.
“What did you mean?”
Steve's eyebrows lifted slightly.
Tony forced himself to continue.
“Yesterday. When you said you were trying to make the wrong person notice you.”
Steve looked at him.
Tony's throat tightened.
“Did you mean—”
He stopped.
Steve's expression softened.
“Tony.”
Tony shook his head.
“No, just—let me finish.”
Steve nodded.
Tony looked at the wall.
“Did you mean me?”
The silence that followed was unbearable.
Tony could hear the lights.
He could hear footsteps somewhere above them.
He could hear his own heartbeat.
Steve didn't answer immediately.
And that was enough to make Tony's stomach drop.
Tony laughed once, shakily.
“Okay.”
Steve's eyes widened.
“Tony—”
“No, it's fine.”
“It's not—”
“No, I get it.”
“You don't.”
Tony looked at him.
Steve stepped closer.
“Tony, I—”
“Then say it.”
Steve stopped.
Tony's voice cracked.
“Just say it.”
Steve stared at him.
Tony's eyes burned.
He looked away before Steve could see.
“Please.”
Steve was quiet.
Then he said:
“Yes.”
Tony froze.
Steve swallowed.
“Yes. I meant you.”
Everything stopped.
Tony stared at him.
Steve looked terrified.
Not dramatically terrified.
Not movie terrified.
Just Steve.
Steve, who was usually so steady, suddenly looking like he had no idea what to do with his hands.
Tony's mouth opened.
Nothing came out.
Steve continued, quietly:
“I thought you knew.”
Tony let out a sound that was almost a laugh.
“Oh, my God.”
Steve's expression tightened.
“Tony—”
“No, I—”
Tony pressed a hand over his mouth.
Steve took another step closer.
“Are you okay?”
Tony dropped his hand.
“No.”
Steve blinked.
Tony laughed again, but this time it sounded more like disbelief.
“No, actually, I am not okay.”
Steve looked at him.
Tony shook his head.
“You—”
He stopped.
Steve waited.
Tony stared at him.
“You like me?”
Steve's expression softened.
“Yeah.”
Tony closed his eyes.
“Oh, my God.”
Steve gave a nervous laugh.
“Is that bad?”
Tony opened his eyes.
“Is that bad?”
Steve shrugged helplessly.
“I don't know.”
Tony stared at him.
Then he laughed.
A real laugh this time.
It burst out of him, startled and disbelieving.
Steve smiled.
Tony immediately pointed at him.
“Don't smile.”
Steve's smile widened.
“Why?”
“Because this is a crisis.”
Steve laughed.
Tony covered his face again.
“This is so bad.”
Steve stepped closer.
“Tony.”
Tony looked at him.
Steve's voice was gentle.
“It's not bad.”
Tony's throat tightened.
Steve continued.
“I've liked you for a long time.”
Tony went still.
Steve looked down for a second.
“I just didn't know how to tell you.”
Tony stared at him.
Then he whispered:
“Long time?”
Steve nodded.
“Yeah.”
Tony laughed weakly.
“That's—”
He stopped.
Steve waited.
Tony looked away.
“That's really inconvenient.”
Steve smiled.
Tony groaned.
“Don't.”
“Sorry.”
“No, you're not.”
Steve's smile softened.
“No.”
Tony looked at him.
And suddenly, all the jokes stopped working.
Because Steve was looking at him like he mattered.
Like he had always mattered.
Like this wasn't some ridiculous misunderstanding that could be solved with a movie and a clever line.
Like this was real.
Tony swallowed.
“Why didn't you tell me?”
Steve looked down.
“I was scared.”
Tony blinked.
“You?”
Steve gave him a small smile.
“Yeah. Me.”
Tony stared at him.
Steve continued.
“You were always talking about girls. And movies. And how everything was supposed to work.”
Tony winced.
“Right.”
“And I didn't want to ruin anything.”
Tony's chest tightened.
Steve looked at him.
“So I thought maybe if I asked you for advice, I'd get to spend more time with you.”
Tony stared.
Steve shrugged.
“It was a stupid plan.”
Tony let out a shaky laugh.
“Steve.”
“Yeah?”
“You asked me to help you date me.”
Steve's face went red.
Tony stared at him.
Then he started laughing.
Steve covered his face.
“Oh, my God.”
“No, because—”
Tony couldn't stop.
“You literally asked me to help you make me fall in love with you.”
Steve groaned.
“I didn't know how else to do it.”
Tony laughed harder.
Steve looked at him.
Then, quietly:
“Did it work?”
Tony's laughter stopped.
The question hung between them.
Steve's expression softened.
Tony looked at him.
And for the first time, he didn't look away.
---
Tony had spent weeks trying to solve Steve's love life.
He had treated it like a movie.
Like a formula.
Like there was a correct sequence of events that would lead to a perfect ending.
He had thought the problem was finding the right girl.
The right date.
The right grand gesture.
The right moment.
He had never considered that the answer could be something he had been standing beside the entire time.
Something he had known.
Something he had loved.
Tony swallowed.
Steve was still looking at him.
Waiting.
Tony's chest hurt.
Not in a bad way.
In a way that made him feel like something inside him had finally stopped fighting.
He took a breath.
“Yeah.”
Steve blinked.
Tony's voice was quiet.
“Yeah, it worked.”
Steve stared at him.
Tony laughed weakly.
“Unfortunately.”
Steve's smile appeared slowly.
Tony looked down.
“I mean, I think it worked before that.”
Steve's smile faded into something softer.
“What?”
Tony shook his head.
“No, I—”
He stopped.
Steve waited.
Tony looked at him.
“I think I've been in love with you for a while.”
Steve went completely still.
Tony's heart pounded.
He had said it.
He had actually said it.
And now there was no taking it back.
Steve's eyes widened.
Tony immediately panicked.
“Okay, that sounded—”
Steve stepped closer.
“Tony.”
“No, because I don't know exactly when it happened, and I don't know if that's a normal thing to say, but—”
“Tony.”
“And I know I've been acting insane, but you can't really blame me because you literally asked me to help you date me, which is—”
Steve laughed.
Tony stopped.
Steve was smiling.
Not laughing at him.
Just smiling.
Tony's throat tightened.
Steve said, “I can't believe you just said that.”
Tony looked away.
“Yeah, well. Don't make me do it again.”
Steve's smile softened.
“I won't.”
Tony nodded.
“Good.”
There was a pause.
Then Steve asked, quietly:
“So what now?”
Tony looked at him.
“What?”
Steve shrugged.
“What do we do?”
Tony stared.
Then he laughed.
“Are you asking me for dating advice?”
Steve smiled.
“Maybe.”
Tony shook his head.
“Oh, my God. You're impossible.”
Steve's eyes stayed on his.
“Probably.”
Tony looked at him for a long moment.
Then he said:
“I don't know.”
Steve nodded.
“Okay.”
Tony pointed at him.
“I'm serious. Stop saying okay.”
Steve laughed.
Tony smiled despite himself.
Then Steve's expression softened.
“We could figure it out.”
Tony looked at him.
“Figure what out?”
Steve's voice was quiet.
“Us.”
Tony's chest tightened.
He looked down.
Then back up.
“Yeah.”
Steve smiled.
“Yeah?”
Tony nodded.
“Yeah.”
For a second, neither of them moved.
Then Tony said, “So, just to be clear.”
Steve raised his eyebrows.
Tony held up a finger.
“You liked me.”
Steve nodded.
Tony held up another.
“You asked me to help you make someone else notice you.”
Steve nodded again.
Tony held up a third.
“And that person was me.”
Steve smiled.
Tony stared at him.
“This is the stupidest thing that's ever happened to me.”
Steve laughed.
Tony's smile widened.
Then he said, “I hate that it worked.”
Steve looked at him.
“Do you?”
Tony's smile faded.
He shook his head.
“No.”
Steve stepped closer.
Tony's heart started pounding again.
Steve's voice was barely above a whisper.
“Good.”
---
They didn't kiss.
Not yet.
Which, Tony would later insist, was a completely reasonable decision.
There were several factors to consider.
The stairwell was not particularly romantic.
The lighting was terrible.
Someone had left a half-empty water bottle on the windowsill.
And Tony was still trying to process the fact that Steve Rogers liked him.
Steve Rogers.
His Steve.
His best friend.
The person he had spent weeks trying to help fall in love with someone else.
The person who had apparently been in love with him the entire time.
It was a lot.
So, naturally, Tony said:
“We should probably leave before someone finds us.”
Steve nodded.
“Probably.”
Tony started toward the door.
Then stopped.
Steve looked at him.
Tony turned back.
“Wait.”
Steve raised his eyebrows.
Tony stared at him.
He had something to say.
Something important.
Something that had been sitting in his chest for weeks.
He took a breath.
“I wasn't avoiding you because I didn't want to be around you.”
Steve's expression softened.
“I know.”
Tony shook his head.
“No, I don't think you do.”
Steve waited.
Tony looked down.
“I was avoiding you because I did.”
Steve went quiet.
Tony swallowed.
“Because I wanted to be around you too much. And I didn't know what that meant. And I thought if I figured it out, everything would change.”
Steve's eyes stayed on him.
Tony laughed weakly.
“And then I figured it out, and everything changed anyway.”
Steve smiled faintly.
“Yeah.”
Tony looked at him.
“I don't want to ruin this.”
Steve's expression softened.
“You won't.”
Tony shook his head.
“You don't know that.”
Steve stepped closer.
“No. But I know we can talk about it.”
Tony stared at him.
Steve continued.
“And I know I'm not going anywhere.”
Tony's throat tightened.
That was the thing.
That was the sentence that made something inside him go quiet.
*I'm not going anywhere.*
Tony nodded.
“Okay.”
Steve smiled.
Tony pointed at him.
“Don't.”
Steve laughed.
---
The rest of the school day passed in a blur.
Tony attended classes.
Technically.
He took notes.
Technically.
He answered a question in history and was fairly certain the answer had nothing to do with the actual question.
At one point, Natasha passed him a note.
Tony opened it.
**SO????**
Tony stared at it.
Then wrote:
**NO.**
Natasha took it back.
Read it.
Looked at him.
Wrote:
**THAT IS NOT AN ANSWER.**
Tony snatched the paper.
**IT IS THE ONLY ANSWER YOU'RE GETTING.**
Natasha wrote:
**DID HE SAY IT?**
Tony stared at the words.
His heart did something stupid.
He wrote:
**YES.**
Natasha read it.
Her eyes widened.
She looked at Tony.
Tony looked straight ahead.
Natasha wrote:
**AND????**
Tony hesitated.
Then:
**ME TOO.**
Natasha stopped.
She looked at him.
Tony stared at his textbook.
He could feel her staring.
Then she wrote:
**OH MY GOD.**
Tony took the note.
Folded it.
Put it in his pocket.
And refused to look at her for the rest of class.
---
By the final bell, Tony had reached a conclusion.
He needed to do something.
Not because Steve had asked him to.
Not because there was a deadline.
Not because some movie had taught him that the final act required a grand gesture.
But because he wanted to.
That was new.
That was terrifying.
That was—
“Tony?”
He turned.
Steve stood beside him.
Tony blinked.
“Hey.”
Steve smiled.
“Hey.”
Tony looked at the clock.
Then at Steve.
“Are you going home?”
Steve nodded.
“Yeah.”
Tony's stomach dropped.
It was ridiculous.
Steve was going home.
He went home every day.
This was not a dramatic departure.
There was no airport.
There was no plane.
There was no final train leaving the station.
There was a school parking lot.
There were buses.
There were parents picking up their kids.
There was a very ordinary end to a very ordinary school day.
And yet—
Tony felt like something was slipping away.
Steve adjusted the strap of his backpack.
“I'll see you tomorrow.”
Tony stared at him.
Tomorrow.
Right.
Tomorrow.
He could wait until tomorrow.
He could go home.
He could think about it.
He could write a list.
He could make a plan.
He could—
Steve turned to leave.
Tony's heart lurched.
“Steve.”
Steve stopped.
Turned back.
“Yeah?”
Tony stood there.
His mouth went dry.
He had no idea what he was doing.
He had no plan.
No notebook.
No movie.
No carefully rehearsed speech.
Just Steve.
Standing there.
Waiting.
Tony took a breath.
“Can we talk?”
Steve's expression softened.
“Sure.”
Tony looked around the hallway.
Students were leaving. Lockers slammed. Someone shouted goodbye from the other end of the corridor.
It was loud.
It was messy.
It was completely uncinematic.
Tony hated it.
Then, somehow, he loved it.
Because this was real.
And Steve was here.
And Tony didn't need a perfect moment.
He just needed to stop running from the one he had.
---
They walked outside.
The afternoon sun was low enough to cast long shadows across the pavement. The parking lot was filling up, cars pulling away one by one.
Steve stopped near the sidewalk.
Tony stopped beside him.
For a moment, neither spoke.
Then Steve said, “What's up?”
Tony looked at him.
“Don't say it like that.”
Steve blinked.
“Like what?”
“Like this is a normal conversation.”
Steve smiled a little.
Tony shook his head.
“It's not.”
Steve's smile faded.
“Okay.”
Tony closed his eyes.
“Sorry.”
Steve waited.
Tony looked at him.
“I keep doing that.”
“Doing what?”
“Making everything weird.”
Steve shook his head.
“You don't.”
Tony laughed.
“Steve, I have made this entire situation weird.”
Steve smiled faintly.
“Maybe.”
Tony pointed at him.
“Thank you.”
Steve's smile widened.
Tony took a breath.
Then another.
“I don't know how to do this.”
Steve's expression softened.
“Do what?”
Tony looked down.
“This.”
Steve waited.
Tony swallowed.
“Being honest. About you. About me. About—”
He stopped.
Steve took a small step closer.
“You don't have to say everything at once.”
Tony looked at him.
“I know.”
“Okay.”
Tony glared.
Steve laughed.
Tony shook his head.
“No, because every time you say that, I feel like you're being reasonable, and I don't appreciate it.”
Steve smiled.
“Sorry.”
Tony looked away.
Then he said, quietly:
“I think I was scared.”
Steve's smile faded.
Tony continued.
“Not of you. Not really. Just… of what it would mean if I was wrong.”
Steve nodded.
Tony looked at him.
“And then I thought I was right, and that was somehow worse.”
Steve's eyebrows lifted.
“Worse?”
Tony laughed weakly.
“Yeah. Because if I was right, then I had to do something about it.”
Steve's expression softened.
Tony looked down.
“And I didn't know what to do.”
Steve was quiet for a moment.
Then he said:
“You could've told me.”
Tony laughed.
“Wow. Revolutionary.”
Steve smiled.
Tony looked at him.
Then his expression softened.
“I know.”
Steve waited.
Tony swallowed.
“I just didn't think you'd—”
He stopped.
Steve's voice was gentle.
“Didn't think I'd what?”
Tony looked away.
“Want me back.”
Steve stared at him.
Then he said, very quietly:
“Tony.”
Tony's eyes burned.
He hated that.
He hated how close he was to crying over something that was supposed to be happy.
Steve stepped closer.
“Look at me.”
Tony shook his head.
“Don't.”
“Tony.”
“No, because—”
His voice cracked.
He stopped.
Steve waited.
Tony looked at him.
And Steve's face was so open, so gentle, that Tony couldn't keep pretending.
“I didn't think you'd want me back,” he said.
Steve's expression changed.
Tony laughed shakily.
“Which is stupid, because you've been trying to tell me for weeks, apparently.”
Steve smiled faintly.
“Yeah.”
Tony looked down.
“I just—”
He stopped.
Steve waited.
Tony took a breath.
“I tried so hard…”
The words came out before he could stop them.
Steve went still.
Tony stared at the pavement.
“I tried so hard to think of someone else.”
His throat tightened.
“But it was always you.”
Silence.
Tony's eyes burned.
He looked up.
Steve was staring at him.
Tony gave a shaky laugh.
“There. That's the thing. That's the whole thing.”
Steve's expression softened.
Tony continued, words tumbling out now.
“I kept trying to make it about someone else because that was easier. I could make lists. I could make plans. I could pretend I was helping you with some girl and not—”
He stopped.
Steve's voice was quiet.
“Not what?”
Tony looked at him.
“Not fall in love with you.”
Steve's breath caught.
Tony's eyes filled.
He looked away quickly.
“And I know that sounds ridiculous because we've been friends forever, and maybe I should've figured it out sooner, but I didn't. I didn't figure it out, and then you started saying things, and I started thinking about things, and then you almost kissed me, and—”
Steve blinked.
Tony stopped.
Steve's expression changed.
“You remember that?”
Tony stared at him.
“Steve.”
Steve's face went red.
Tony laughed through the tears threatening his eyes.
“Of course I remember that.”
Steve looked down.
“Right.”
Tony shook his head.
“You almost kissed me.”
Steve nodded.
“Yeah.”
“And then Bucky walked in.”
Steve closed his eyes.
“Oh, my God.”
Tony laughed.
“No, because I thought I was going to die.”
Steve looked at him.
Tony's smile softened.
“And then I spent the entire night trying to convince myself it didn't mean anything.”
Steve's voice was quiet.
“Did it?”
Tony looked at him.
“No.”
Steve's expression softened.
Tony swallowed.
“It meant everything.”
---
For a moment, neither of them moved.
The parking lot continued around them.
A car door slammed.
Someone laughed.
A bus pulled away from the curb.
The world, offensively, kept going.
Tony stared at Steve.
Steve stared back.
Then Steve said:
“I don't think I've ever been happier to hear someone say something.”
Tony laughed weakly.
“That's a terrible thing to say to someone who's just had a breakdown.”
Steve smiled.
“Sorry.”
Tony shook his head.
“No, you're not.”
Steve's smile widened.
Tony looked at him.
Then, quietly:
“So what now?”
Steve's expression softened.
“I don't know.”
Tony blinked.
Steve shrugged.
“We could go on a date.”
Tony stared.
“A date?”
Steve nodded.
“Yeah.”
Tony looked around.
“Like a real one?”
Steve smiled.
“Like a real one.”
Tony's heart pounded.
He had planned dozens of dates for Steve.
He had researched them.
He had categorized them.
He had made lists of activities, conversation starters, emergency romantic gestures.
And now Steve was asking him on one.
Tony laughed.
“Oh, my God.”
Steve's eyebrows lifted.
“Is that a yes?”
Tony looked at him.
Then he smiled.
“Yeah.”
Steve smiled back.
Tony pointed at him.
“But I'm planning it.”
Steve laughed.
“Of course you are.”
“And no movie montage.”
Steve tilted his head.
Tony hesitated.
“Okay, maybe a small one.”
Steve smiled.
Tony nodded.
“Very small.”
---
They stood there for another minute.
Neither seemed particularly interested in leaving.
Tony looked at Steve.
Steve looked at Tony.
Tony's heart started doing the thing again.
He hated the thing.
He loved the thing.
He was going to have to get used to the thing.
“So,” Tony said.
Steve raised his eyebrows.
“So?”
Tony swallowed.
“Are we—”
He stopped.
Steve waited.
Tony looked away.
“Are we doing this?”
Steve's expression softened.
“Yeah.”
Tony looked back.
“Yeah?”
Steve nodded.
“Yeah.”
Tony smiled.
Then, because he was Tony, he said:
“Okay, but if you tell anyone I was emotionally vulnerable in a parking lot, I'll deny everything.”
Steve laughed.
“Deal.”
Tony nodded.
“Good.”
Steve stepped closer.
Tony's breath caught.
Steve looked at him.
“Can I kiss you?”
Tony stared.
Then he laughed.
A startled, disbelieving laugh.
“Are you asking me?”
Steve smiled.
“Yeah.”
Tony shook his head.
“You're unbelievable.”
Steve's smile softened.
“Is that a no?”
Tony looked at him.
“No.”
Steve's eyes stayed on his.
Tony swallowed.
“It's very much not a no.”
Steve smiled.
And then he kissed him.
---
It was not cinematic.
There was no rain.
No dramatic music.
No sudden crowd of people cheering.
No perfectly timed song swelling in the background.
It was just Steve.
Warm and familiar and somehow completely new.
Tony's hand caught the front of Steve's jacket.
Steve's hand settled lightly against his shoulder.
And for one brief, impossible second, Tony forgot how to think.
Which was honestly a relief.
When they pulled apart, Tony stared at him.
Steve smiled.
Tony blinked.
Then he said:
“Oh.”
Steve laughed softly.
Tony looked at him.
Then he laughed too.
“Oh, my God.”
Steve's smile widened.
Tony shook his head.
“That's so annoying.”
“What is?”
“You.”
Steve laughed.
Tony looked at him.
Then, quieter:
“That was—”
He stopped.
Steve waited.
Tony smiled.
“That was really good.”
Steve's expression softened.
“Yeah?”
Tony nodded.
“Yeah.”
Steve smiled.
Tony looked down.
Then back up.
“Can we do that again?”
Steve's smile widened.
“Yeah.”
Tony pointed at him.
“Don't make a big deal out of it.”
Steve laughed.
And kissed him again.
---
When they finally started walking toward the parking lot, Tony felt like he was floating.
This was ridiculous.
He was aware of that.
He was also aware that he had never been happier in his life.
Steve walked beside him, their shoulders brushing every few steps.
Tony looked down at their hands.
Then at Steve.
Then back at their hands.
Steve noticed.
Of course he noticed.
He always noticed.
“Do you want to hold hands?”
Tony looked at him.
“What?”
Steve smiled.
Tony stared.
Then he scoffed.
“Wow.”
Steve blinked.
“What?”
“Using my own advice against me.”
Steve laughed.
Tony shook his head.
“You're learning too much.”
Steve held out his hand.
Tony looked at it.
Then, slowly, he took it.
Their fingers slipped together.
Tony stared straight ahead.
Steve smiled.
Tony could feel it.
“Don't,” Tony said.
Steve laughed.
“I didn't say anything.”
“You were thinking.”
“Maybe.”
Tony squeezed his hand.
Steve squeezed back.
And Tony, for once, didn't have anything clever to say.
---
They reached Steve's car.
Tony stopped beside it.
Steve turned toward him.
“I'll see you tomorrow?”
Tony smiled.
“Yeah.”
Steve looked at him.
Tony looked back.
There was a pause.
Then Steve said:
“Tony?”
“Yeah?”
“Thank you.”
Tony blinked.
“For what?”
Steve smiled faintly.
“For all of it.”
Tony's chest tightened.
He looked away.
“Yeah, well.”
Steve waited.
Tony shrugged.
“Someone had to teach you.”
Steve laughed.
Tony smiled.
Then he looked at Steve.
“Although, for the record, your original plan was terrible.”
Steve raised his eyebrows.
“My original plan?”
“Yeah. Asking me for dating advice?”
Steve smiled.
Tony shook his head.
“Terrible.”
Steve laughed.
Tony continued.
“You could've just told me.”
Steve looked at him.
Tony's smile softened.
“I would've listened.”
Steve's expression changed.
“Yeah?”
Tony nodded.
“Yeah.”
Steve smiled.
Tony looked down.
Then back up.
“Eventually.”
Steve laughed.
Tony pointed at him.
“Don't get cocky.”
Steve smiled.
“Wouldn't dream of it.”
Tony stared at him.
Then he laughed.
“Liar.”
---
Steve opened the car door.
Tony stepped back.
Then Steve paused.
“Wait.”
Tony looked at him.
Steve leaned down and kissed him once more.
Quick.
Soft.
Enough to make Tony's brain stop working again.
When Steve pulled away, Tony stared at him.
Steve smiled.
“See you tomorrow.”
Tony blinked.
Then he pointed at him.
“You can't just do that.”
Steve laughed.
“Do what?”
“Leave.”
Steve looked amused.
“I have to go home.”
Tony stared.
“Right.”
Steve smiled.
Tony shook his head.
“This is going to be a problem.”
Steve's smile widened.
“Probably.”
Tony sighed.
Then, because he couldn't help himself:
“Text me when you get home.”
Steve's expression softened.
“Okay.”
Tony pointed at him.
“I'm serious.”
“I know.”
“And don't just say ‘okay.’”
Steve laughed.
Tony smiled.
“Good.”
Steve got into the car.
Tony stepped back.
The engine started.
Steve rolled down the window.
Tony looked at him.
Steve smiled.
“Bye, Tony.”
Tony smiled back.
“Bye, Steve.”
The car pulled away.
Tony watched it go.
Then he stood there for a moment, completely still.
And then—
“Oh, my God.”
He covered his face.
A group of students walked past.
One of them glanced at him.
Tony lowered his hands.
“What?”
The student kept walking.
Tony looked back toward the road.
Then he laughed.
He couldn't help it.
He was in love.
Steve was in love with him.
And somehow, impossibly, those two things had finally managed to meet in the middle.
---
That night, Tony opened his notebook.
The same notebook.
The one he had started on the first day.
The one filled with plans, lists, movie references, and increasingly desperate attempts to solve Steve Rogers' love life.
He flipped through the pages.
**Favorite snack.**
**Movie night.**
**Grand gesture.**
**Reasons to be near her.**
Tony smiled.
Then he turned to the page from the night before.
The page where he had written:
**I think the girl was never the point.**
**I think it was always Steve.**
He stared at it for a moment.
Then he picked up his pen.
Underneath, he wrote:
**Update:**
He paused.
Then:
**It was Steve.**
Tony smiled.
Added:
**It is still Steve.**
He stared at the words.
Then, after a moment, he crossed out the entire section.
Not because it was wrong.
Because it wasn't a problem anymore.
He turned to a fresh page.
At the top, he wrote:
**NEW PROJECT:**
He paused.
Then, beneath it:
**Figure out how to date your best friend without making it weird.**
Tony stared at the page.
Then added:
**Difficulty level: impossible.**
His phone buzzed.
Tony nearly dropped the pen.
He grabbed it.
A message from Steve.
**Home.**
Tony stared at it.
Then another message appeared.
**You?**
Tony smiled.
He typed:
**alive unfortunately**
Three dots appeared.
Then:
**Good.**
Tony laughed.
He typed:
**you know, for someone who apparently liked me for years, you are TERRIBLE at texting**
Steve replied:
**I'm learning.**
Tony stared at the screen.
Then he typed:
**yeah?**
A moment later:
**Yeah.**
Tony smiled.
He looked down at the notebook.
Then back at his phone.
And for once, he didn't need to write anything else.
---
The next morning, Tony arrived at school exactly seven minutes early.
This was unusual enough that Bucky immediately noticed.
“You're early.”
Tony shut his locker.
“I'm punctual.”
Bucky squinted at him.
“You're never punctual.”
Tony smiled.
“I contain multitudes.”
Bucky stared.
Then he looked past Tony.
Steve was walking toward them.
Tony's smile widened before he could stop it.
Bucky's eyes narrowed.
“Oh, no.”
Tony looked at him.
“What?”
Bucky pointed between them.
“No.”
Tony blinked.
Steve reached them.
“Morning.”
Tony smiled.
“Morning.”
Steve leaned down and kissed him.
Right there.
In the hallway.
In front of Bucky.
Bucky stared.
Tony pulled back.
Steve smiled.
Tony looked at Bucky.
Bucky looked at Tony.
Then Bucky slowly said:
“Oh, you're kidding me.”
Tony grinned.
“Good morning to you too.”
Bucky looked at Steve.
Then at Tony.
Then back at Steve.
“You—”
Steve smiled.
Bucky pointed at Tony.
“You were the girl?”
Tony froze.
Steve closed his eyes.
Tony stared.
Bucky's expression changed.
Then he whispered:
“Oh, my God.”
Tony covered his face.
Steve laughed.
Bucky looked between them.
Then he threw his hands in the air.
“I KNEW IT.”
Tony lowered his hands.
“You absolutely did not.”
“I DID.”
Steve smiled.
Bucky pointed at him.
“You asked him for dating advice?”
Steve looked away.
Tony started laughing.
Bucky stared.
Then he looked at Tony.
“You helped him?”
Tony nodded.
Bucky's mouth fell open.
Tony smiled weakly.
“It's been a long few weeks.”
Bucky looked at Steve.
Then at Tony.
Then he shook his head.
“I hate both of you.”
Steve laughed.
Tony grinned.
“No, you don't.”
Bucky pointed at him.
“Don't make me regret being right.”
Tony smiled.
Steve took Tony's hand.
Bucky stared at their joined hands.
Then he sighed.
“I'm going to school.”
Tony nodded.
“Great plan.”
Bucky walked away.
Then turned around.
“WAIT.”
Tony looked at him.
Bucky pointed at Steve.
“YOU OWE ME TWENTY DOLLARS.”
Steve blinked.
Tony stared.
Bucky walked away again.
Tony looked at Steve.
Steve looked at Tony.
Then they both started laughing.
---
Later, Tony would insist that the entire thing had been a success.
Not a perfect success.
There had been confusion.
There had been avoidance.
There had been a deeply humiliating amount of emotional repression.
There had been several moments where Tony had considered moving to another state.
But, ultimately, the plan had worked.
Steve had noticed him.
Tony had noticed Steve.
And somewhere between the movie marathons, the grand gestures, the terrible advice, and the almost-kiss that had nearly killed him, they had finally figured out what had been right in front of them the entire time.
Tony had spent so long trying to make Steve's story work.
Trying to find the right scene.
The right line.
The right ending.
But maybe that was the thing about real life.
Maybe it didn't need to be perfect.
Maybe it didn't need to follow a script.
Maybe sometimes the person you were trying so hard to help fall in love with someone else was the person you were supposed to fall in love with all along.
Tony looked at Steve across the cafeteria.
Steve smiled.
Tony smiled back.
Then Steve mouthed:
*You okay?*
Tony rolled his eyes.
But he was smiling.
And this time, when he answered, he didn't say *perfect.*
He said:
“Yeah.”
Because he was.
For once, he really, really was.
Fin.