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Running away was easy.
At least, it was supposed to be.
And it was! Shou was having a great time traveling around the world and seeing places he's never been before.
Trying out new cuisines, different hobbies, meeting new people- when it comes to time, things are always moving forward.
Nothing ever stays.
It was 7 pm, and Shou had just come back to his hotel room after a long day out. Heading straight to his bed and immediately letting his back hit the soft mattress.
"Man...that date was so lame."
He muttered. Dating around in general has been a bit of a...bore.
Especially the one we went on today, he doesn't understand why it bothered him so much. It wasn't that person did anything wrong but when he made a joke they just... Didn't get it???
Shou knows it's irrational be annoyed at something as small as that- but... Damnit it did.
It did a lot.
'At least when it he didn't get it, it was still amusing... "
Ugh. There it is again.
It's been months since he last talked about him.
Since he last heard his voice.
He swore he's gotten used to that by now- at least, that's what he keeps telling himself.
Shou continues to mindlessly stare at the ceiling, while he tries to think of anything else- but no matter what it always leads back to shigeo.
It was frustrating.
The only thing that would replay in his head was those three words.
Those three words that changed everything- because he was too hesitant on committing in the long run.
Worried he'll just... Never find himself.
He swears he doesn't miss Shigeo.and that this was for the best- he was right to leave without saying a word. But...
But if you were to put a gun to his head to spill the truth... He'll admit it.
He's not over him.
'...why did I go, when I had you right there. '
He'd always ask himself.
As much as he's used to sleeping alone, sometimes he'd miss when he'd wake up and there was shigeo, lying on his chest. He always seemed so peaceful sleeping there that shou would just hold him there, making sure not to wake him.
Ugh. He's so stupid.
This all could've been avoided if he had just texted him back- if he'd just typed out that apology and asked if they could talk things out everything wouldn't end up like this.
He's lost many things before, but none of them ever hurt as bad as this.
Sometimes he just wishes he could just go back to where Shigeo is and just tell him that he loves him. But he can't. He can't reach him.
Not that he tried anyways- but he knows it wouldn't work out in the end.
Shigeo probably hates him now- and he doesn't blame him.
even when Shou tries someone else, he'll always miss him.
But he can't stay stuck in the past forever. So he'll continue to do what he always does, run.