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For a moment, the words seemed to reach the room without their meaning. Students stared at him. A goblet tipped over near the Gryffindor table, and pumpkin juice ran between the plates. Then someone shouted a question, another voice answered, and the Hall dissolved into noise. Fear spread quickly; so did the search for someone who could say what everyone was supposed to do.
Harry kept his eyes on Quirrell.
The Defence professor was leaning against the doorway, one hand braced against the stone. His turban sat crookedly on his head. His face had gone so grey that, for an instant, Harry wondered whether Quirrell himself had been attacked.
He certainly didn’t look as though he were joking.
“Quiet!” Professor Dumbledore's voice cut through the commotion. “Prefects, keep your Houses together. Nobody is to leave their group. Professor Flitwick, please see to the younger students.”
The teachers were already moving. Dumbledore rose from the staff table and began issuing instructions to the Heads of House. Snape swept towards the entrance, his robes snapping at his heels. McGonagall was directing students into groups, her face set in a way that discouraged questions. The adults did not stop to agree in public; each took up a part of the emergency as though the division of responsibility had been settled long before Harry arrived at Hogwarts. Harry noticed that Snape favoured one leg for a step before his stride evened out. It was so slight that Harry might have missed it if he hadn’t been watching him. Then Snape was gone through the doors, and Harry had no time to wonder about it.
They looked as though they knew what to do. Harry could not tell whether that confidence came from a plan or from the fact that everyone else was waiting for them to act.
Harry wished he knew what to do.
He searched the Gryffindor table, then the benches behind it. He looked between the other Houses and towards the doors, hoping to spot Hermione standing somewhere with her arms folded, annoyed with the world and determined to let everyone know it.
She wasn’t there.
He remembered her leaving the feast: the way she had wiped at her face, and the stubborn set of her shoulders when he had tried to speak to her. He had been annoyed with her earlier. That didn’t make the image of her walking away any easier to bear.
Leave me alone, Harry.
He had let her walk away because he thought she wanted space. At the time, respecting her choice had seemed simple. Now it felt like a mistake, though he could not have known what would happen next.
Now there was a troll in the castle, and he had no idea where she was.
Harry turned to Ron. Ron was looking across the tables, too. When their eyes met, he seemed to understand the question without Harry having to ask it.
“She’ll be somewhere,” Ron said.
“Where?”
“How should I know?”
“You were the one who made her cry.”
Ron flinched. The noise of the Hall seemed to fill the silence between them.
“I know that.”
“Then we should find her.”
Ron glanced towards the prefects, who were gathering the first-years. “The teachers will find her. We should go with everyone else.”
“And if she’s still wandering around the castle?”
“Harry, there’s a troll loose.”
“I heard.”
“Then you know why we shouldn’t be wandering around looking for someone!”
Harry looked back towards the doors. He could see students being ushered away from the tables, some frightened, others excited by the sudden commotion. Nobody seemed to have noticed that Hermione was missing.
Perhaps a teacher had found her already. Perhaps she was on her way back. Perhaps—
The sensible thing was to trust the people who knew the castle, but that meant believing Hermione had been accounted for. He had seen no one looking for her.
He barely knew Hermione. They had spent weeks together, but most of their conversations had involved her explaining things he hadn’t asked about. He understood why Ron found her irritating. There were times when Harry found her irritating, too.
That wasn’t the point.
She had been upset enough to leave them both behind. Now she was somewhere in a castle neither of them knew well, with something dangerous loose inside it.
Harry couldn’t sit at a table and hope for the best. He was frightened, and he knew that leaving the group was exactly what the teachers had told them not to do. But the possibility that Hermione was alone somewhere in the castle made staying put feel less like obedience and more like choosing not to know.
Ron watched him for another moment. His face was pale, and his mouth had tightened into a line.
“Fine,” he muttered. “But if we get caught, I’m telling them this was your idea.”
“You can tell them whatever you like.”
Harry moved before he could change his mind.
They slipped away while the prefects were occupied with the other first-years. Harry glanced back once. Ron was following, though he looked as if every step took him further from what he knew was sensible.
Neither of them spoke.
The castle felt different without the crowds.
The usual sounds of Hogwarts—the shuffle of feet, the calls from portraits, the distant clatter of students moving between lessons—had dwindled. The noise from the Great Hall faded behind them, and the corridors seemed much larger without people in them.
Their footsteps echoed off the stone.
“Which way?” Ron whispered.
Harry stopped.
He had been so certain that they needed to leave the Hall that he hadn’t thought beyond the doors.
“I don’t know.”
“Brilliant.”
“Do you have a better idea?”
Ron opened his mouth, then shut it again. His gaze moved down the corridor as if the castle might offer them a useful sign.
Harry tried to put himself in Hermione’s place. She had wanted to be alone. Where would she go if she wanted somewhere to cry without anyone seeing her?
The library seemed unlikely. Hermione liked books, but even she probably wouldn’t choose a room full of people when she was upset.
“There are toilets on this floor, aren’t there?” Harry asked.
Ron gave him a look. “There are toilets on every floor.”
“Which ones are nearest the Great Hall?”
“The girls’ bathroom’s down that corridor, I think. Near the old classrooms.”
“Then let’s try there.”
“Why would she go there?”
“Because she wanted to be alone.”
“She could be anywhere.”
“Then we’ll look somewhere else.”
Ron muttered something under his breath, but followed.
It was a poor plan. Harry knew that. They were two first-years in an enormous castle, looking for a girl who might be anywhere, while a troll was somewhere inside it. Neither of them had any idea how to deal with one. The teachers had given a clear instruction, and Harry was choosing to disobey it. He could already imagine how that would sound when someone asked for an account of the evening.
If they were wrong, they would be punished for leaving the others. If they were right, there might still be time to get Hermione out. Harry could not make the choice feel clever; he could only make it.
They passed a suit of armour. It rattled as they went by, and Ron jumped so sharply that he nearly collided with Harry.
“It’s only armour,” Harry whispered.
“I know.”
“Right.”
“It’s a stupid place for armour.”
Harry might have laughed if the circumstances had been different. Instead, he kept walking.
They were almost at the next turn when a heavy scraping sound came from beyond it.
Then came a crash.
Both boys stopped.
Ron caught Harry’s sleeve. “Was that—”
Another crash shook dust from the stonework.
Harry’s stomach tightened. The sound had come from the direction of the old classrooms.
He thought of Hermione, alone and crying.
Then he ran.
“Harry!” Ron hissed behind him. “Wait!”
Harry rounded the corner and nearly slipped on water spreading across the flagstones. A door stood open ahead. One of its hinges had been torn halfway from the frame.
Something enormous moved inside.
Harry stopped so suddenly that Ron slammed into his back.
For a second, neither of them understood what they were looking at.
The troll’s shoulders nearly brushed the top of the doorway. Its skin was the colour of dirty slate, pulled tight over thick muscles. Sparse clumps of hair stuck out from its head. A wooden club hung from one massive hand, scraping along the floor whenever it moved.
The bathroom had been smashed apart.
A sink lay on its side near the entrance. Water poured from a broken pipe, flooding the tiles. One of the cubicle doors had been battered inwards.
And in the far corner, crouched between the sinks and the wall, was Hermione.
Her face was white. One hand covered her mouth; the other pressed against the tiles behind her, as if she could somehow force her way through them. She stared at the troll without moving.
The troll raised its club.
Harry didn’t think.
“HEY!”
His shout came out far louder than he expected.
The troll turned.
Harry grabbed a loose piece of broken wood and hurled it at the creature’s head. It struck the troll’s shoulder and bounced off.
The troll stared at him.
Harry had never wanted to be somewhere else so badly.
Then the creature took a step towards him.
“Run!” Harry shouted at Hermione.
She didn’t move. Her eyes remained fixed on the troll. Harry wasn’t sure she had even heard him.
He snatched up another piece of wood and threw it. This one struck the troll in the face.
The creature roared.
The sound went through Harry’s chest. The troll swung its club, smashing a sink into fragments. Porcelain burst across the floor.
Harry darted sideways.
He had no plan beyond keeping the troll’s attention. If it looked at him, perhaps Hermione would have time to get out. He was not brave in the way stories made bravery sound. He was frightened, improvising, and too committed to the next few seconds to consider what would happen if he survived them. There was no time to decide whether he liked Hermione, or whether she liked him. She was a person in danger, and that was enough.
The troll turned with alarming speed. Its club came down against the edge of a stone partition, cracking the masonry.
Harry stumbled backwards. His heel caught on the broken base of a sink, and he fell hard on his side.
He scrambled up as the club swept across the room.
Harry threw himself out of its path. The club struck a stone support beside him. Something cracked overhead.
He heard it before he understood it: a sharp split, followed by the grinding of stone.
Harry looked up.
A section of the damaged partition was pulling away from the wall.
He tried to move.
The stone crashed across his legs.
Pain shot through his knee. Dust filled his mouth, and the impact drove the breath from his lungs. For several seconds, all he could do was gasp.
Then he tried to pull himself free.
The debris shifted slightly, scraping against his shin, but the largest piece didn’t move. Harry shoved at it with both hands. It might as well have been part of the castle.
His wand was in his right hand. He didn’t remember drawing it.
Harry’s first instinct was to retreat. His second was to look past the troll and check whether Hermione had moved. The second instinct won before the first could become action.
Harry stopped struggling.
The club hung from the creature’s hand. Its small, dull eyes settled on him, and it began to lumber across the flooded floor.
Harry tried to raise his wand. His arm shook. The tip barely lifted from the tiles.
He knew spells. A handful, anyway. He could make a feather float and move objects across a room. He had come to Hogwarts to learn magic, and until now, some part of him had assumed that meant there would be a way out when things went wrong. Lessons made magic seem like a sequence of problems with answers. The troll was not a problem set, and nobody had taught him what to do when the answer was simply that he could die.
He couldn’t think of a single spell that would stop a troll from bringing a club down on his head.
“Oi!”
The troll paused.
Hermione had come out of hiding.
She was trembling so badly that her first attempt to speak came out as a squeak. She swallowed and tried again.
“Over here!”
The troll turned towards her.
“That’s right!” Hermione shouted. Her voice cracked. “Come and get me!”
She snatched up a broken piece of pottery and threw it against the opposite wall. It shattered.
The troll bellowed and swung around.
Hermione ducked behind a row of sinks as the club smashed through the first one. Water sprayed across her robes. She scrambled away, slipped on the tiles and caught herself against the wall.
The troll followed.
Harry strained against the stone.
“Hermione!”
She glanced at him. Their eyes met for half a second.
Then she turned back to the troll and shouted again.
Ron reached Harry’s side and dropped to his knees beside the fallen masonry. His face was nearly as pale as Hermione’s.
“Can you move?”
“No.”
Ron grabbed the edge of the stone and pulled. His hands slipped on the wet surface.
“It’s stuck.”
“I’m aware.”
“Don’t be sarcastic!”
“I’m not trying to be!”
Ron looked at him, breathing hard, then put both hands against the debris again.
It didn’t budge.
The troll smashed another sink. Ron jerked his head towards the noise.
“We have to do something,” he said.
“Try magic.”
“What?”
“Move it with magic!”
Ron stared at the stone. Harry watched the idea reach him.
“Wingardium Leviosa,” Ron said.
He raised his wand.
“Wingardium Leviosa!”
The stone shuddered.
For one hopeful instant, Harry thought it was rising. Then it dropped back into place, jolting his leg and sending pain through his knee.
He cried out.
“Sorry!” Ron said, horrified.
“Do it again!”
“I’m trying!”
Across the room, Hermione was darting between the sinks and cubicles, trying to keep the troll away from Harry. She wasn’t moving gracefully. Twice, Harry saw her stumble. Once, she nearly went down beneath the sweep of the club and only saved herself by throwing her weight against the wall.
The troll was getting angrier.
It smashed another sink and swung towards her, forcing her back into the narrow space beside the cubicle doors.
Ron tried again.
“Wingardium Leviosa!”
A corner of the stone lifted, but Ron’s wand jerked sideways. The debris tilted, scraped along the floor and fell.
Harry bit down on a cry.
Ron stared at the stone as if it had betrayed him.
“I can’t get it up!”
“You can,” Harry said.
He had no idea whether that was true.
“No, I can’t!”
“Ron!”
“What?”
“Look at me!”
Ron turned. His face was red, his eyes bright with panic.
“Just lift it,” Harry said. “You don’t have to throw it at the troll. Just get it off me.”
“I know what I’m supposed to do!”
“Then do it!”
Ron flinched. For an instant, Harry thought he had made things worse.
Then Hermione shouted from the other side of the room.
“Ron! Listen to me!”
The troll had cornered her against the wall. She held a broken piece of wood in both hands, as if it might do her some good against the club. Her arms were shaking.
“Your wrist!” she shouted. “The movement is wrong!”
Ron stared at her.
“What?”
“The movement! You’re flicking your wand too sharply. It isn’t a whip!”
The troll raised its club.
Hermione ducked behind the edge of a cubicle. The club smashed through the wooden door, splintering it across her back.
She cried out and stumbled forward, but she was still moving.
“Ron, please!” she shouted. “It’s swish and flick! And concentrate on lifting the stone, not on getting the spell right!”
Ron looked down at his wand.
Harry watched him take a breath. It was short and ragged, but he took it deliberately. His grip loosened. He looked at the stone instead of Hermione, the troll or Harry’s frightened face.
“Right,” he muttered.
He raised his wand.
“Swish and flick.”
The movement was smoother this time. Not perfect, but controlled.
“Wingardium Leviosa!”
For one breathless second, Ron looked astonished that his own hands had done what he asked of them. Then the effort took over again. Harry was still trapped, and Hermione was still in danger.
It lifted slowly, grinding against the broken masonry, then came clear of Harry’s legs. Ron’s eyes widened. He held the wand steady, his whole arm trembling with the effort.
“Keep going!” Hermione shouted.
Ron lifted the stone higher.
Harry dragged his legs free and scrambled backwards. As soon as he was clear, Ron let the debris fall. It struck the floor with a crash that made all three of them flinch.
Harry lay on his back, gasping.
His knee throbbed. His hands were scraped, and his robes were soaked through. He had never been so glad to feel the cold floor beneath him.
Ron stared at him.
“You’re out.”
Harry looked at his legs, as though he needed to check. “Yes.”
“Your legs are out.”
“Yes, Ron.”
Ron let out a sound somewhere between a laugh and a sob. Then he turned towards Hermione.
She had just scrambled clear of the shattered cubicle. Her hair was coming loose around her face, and a thin line of blood marked one cheek.
Ron ran to her.
For a second, Hermione looked as though she expected him to say something awful. Instead, he grabbed her shoulders, then seemed to realise how tightly he was holding her and loosened his hands.
“You did it!” he blurted. “You actually did it!”
“I told you how to do it,” Hermione said breathlessly.
“Yes, well, I couldn’t have done it without you, could I?”
She blinked at him.
Then she gave a small, disbelieving laugh.
Ron laughed, too, still holding her shoulders. His expression seemed unable to settle between terror and relief.
Harry pushed himself upright.
For one brief moment, the three of them had forgotten the troll.
It hadn’t forgotten them.
A low growl rolled across the bathroom.
Harry turned.
The troll stood beside the wreckage of the sinks, its club hanging from one enormous hand. It had noticed them again. It took a step forward, then another, blocking the clearest path to the door.
Ron and Hermione were trapped near the cubicles. Harry was several feet away, with a broken sink and the fallen partition between him and the troll.
He tried to stand. Pain flared through his knee, and he stumbled against the wall.
He couldn’t reach them in time.
The troll raised its club.
“Move!” Harry shouted.
Ron seized Hermione’s arm and pulled her sideways. There was nowhere to go. The wall was behind them, the troll in front, and broken furniture littered the tiles.
Harry lifted his wand.
He tried to think of a spell. Anything that might knock the troll backwards, bind its legs or make the club disappear. Flitwick’s voice came back to him, patient and high-pitched, explaining the relationship between a wand movement and the intention behind it.
"Magic isn’t merely the recitation of words, Mr Potter. The words and the movement help give your intention shape. But if you do not know what you mean to accomplish, you will struggle to accomplish anything at all."
At the time, Harry had thought the explanation obvious. Of course you had to know what you wanted to do. He had been more concerned with keeping his feather in the air than with the philosophy of spellcasting.
Now there was no time to work out the right words.
He looked at the troll.
Then at the ceiling.
He wanted the creature to stop. He wanted the club out of its hand. He wanted Ron and Hermione somewhere it couldn’t reach them. He wanted the enormous, terrible thing to fall before it could take another step.
Harry pointed his wand upwards.
“Fall!”
It wasn’t a spell. Not one he knew. It was barely more than a word forced out of his throat.
For an instant, nothing happened.
Harry’s arm shook. The troll took another step.
Then something cracked above them.
A long fracture appeared in the ceiling, running from one stone beam to the next. Dust drifted down in a fine grey cloud.
Harry stared, unable to understand what he was seeing.
The crack widened.
“Get down!” he shouted.
Ron dragged Hermione to the floor. Harry threw himself behind the broken sink just as the ceiling gave way.
Stone and plaster crashed into the bathroom.
The noise was deafening. Debris struck the troll across the head and shoulders, driving it to its knees. Its club slipped from its hand and hit the floor. The troll roared once, a deep, furious sound that shook the remaining glass in the windows.
Then it collapsed beneath the rubble.
Silence came in pieces. Smaller stones continued to fall. Water dripped from the broken pipes. Somewhere beneath the debris, the troll made a low, unpleasant groan.
Harry stayed curled behind the sink, both hands over his head.
He waited for the next blow.
It never came.
When he finally raised his head, the bathroom looked as though part of the castle had fallen into it. The ceiling above the troll had disappeared into a ragged hole. Dust hung in the air. Chunks of stone, splintered wood and broken porcelain covered the floor.
Harry stared at his wand.
He had pointed it at the ceiling. He had wanted the ceiling to fall.
And it had.
He looked at Ron and Hermione. They were still crouched on the floor, staring at the troll.
“Is it dead?” Ron whispered.
“I don’t know.”
“Did you—”
“I don’t know.”
Harry’s voice came out sharper than he intended. He was shaking now. His knee hurt, his hands hurt, and his heart seemed to be pounding in his throat.
He had thought he was going to die.
Not in some distant, abstract way. He had thought it while the troll approached and he lay pinned beneath the stone, unable to move his legs or lift his wand. There had been no clever answer, no time to find a way out. Just the creature coming towards him and the certainty that he couldn’t stop it.
Now it lay beneath a collapsed ceiling because he had told the ceiling to fall.
He had no idea what it meant.
A shout came from the corridor.
“Harry Potter!”
His stomach dropped.
The bathroom door flew open.
Professor McGonagall entered first, followed by Professor Snape and Professor Dumbledore. McGonagall already had her wand raised. Snape came in close behind her, but his next step caught awkwardly; he shifted his weight off one leg before continuing towards the troll. Harry noticed the hitch again. Snape’s face gave nothing away, and his black robes swept through the dust as though nothing were wrong. Dumbledore’s gaze travelled over the room, taking in the collapsed ceiling, the broken sinks and the three children.
For a moment, nobody spoke.
McGonagall looked at Harry, then Ron, then Hermione.
Finally, her eyes settled on the troll.
“What,” she said very quietly, “has happened here?”
Harry opened his mouth.
Nothing came out.
Snape had reached the edge of the rubble. He planted his feet carefully before examining the troll with his wand trained on its head, then cast a spell that lifted a section of stone from its shoulder. The creature groaned but did not rise. Harry watched Snape shift his weight again, guarding the same leg. Whatever had happened to him, he clearly did not want anyone asking about it.
“Alive,” Snape said shortly. “Unconscious, I think.”
“See to it that it remains so,” Dumbledore replied.
He approached the children. His face had lost its usual mildness. There was nothing comforting in his expression just then.
“Are any of you badly hurt?”
Harry tried to stand. His knee buckled, and he caught himself against the sink.
McGonagall was beside him at once. “Don’t move.”
She examined his leg with her wand. A faint warmth spread through his knee, easing the sharpest of the pain, though it did little for the trembling in the rest of him.
“Bruised, possibly strained,” she said. “We shall have Madam Pomfrey look at it properly.”
She turned to Ron. “Your hands.”
Ron looked down as if he had forgotten they existed. His palms were scraped and reddened. McGonagall murmured another spell, then examined Hermione’s cheek and the tear in her robes.
“Nothing appears to be broken,” she said, though her voice remained tight. “You will all be examined in the infirmary.”
Harry glanced up at the ceiling.
“Professor?”
McGonagall followed his gaze. Her expression grew even more severe.
“Yes, Mr Potter. I can see the ceiling.”
Harry shut his mouth.
Dumbledore looked at the hole, then at Harry’s wand. He said nothing, which made Harry more uncomfortable than a question would have. The Headmaster had noticed something and chosen not to discuss it in front of the others. Harry could not tell whether that was kindness, caution, or simply how adults handled things they did not understand.
McGonagall drew herself up.
“Now, I should like to know why three first-year students were not with their House when a troll had entered the castle.”
Nobody answered.
Harry looked at Hermione. She had lowered her eyes, her hands clenched in the folds of her robes.
He could explain. He could tell them Hermione had been missing, that he had been worried, that Ron had come with him. He could explain the troll, the debris and the spell. All of it would be true.
But none of it would make the first decision sound sensible. They had left a group of students being escorted to safety and walked straight towards a dangerous creature because Harry had decided he couldn’t leave Hermione alone.
McGonagall waited.
Harry swallowed. “We came looking for Hermione.”
“Why?”
“She wasn’t in the Great Hall.”
“That does not answer my question.”
Hermione lifted her head.
“It’s my fault, Professor.”
McGonagall turned towards her.
“I went to the bathroom because I was upset. I didn’t know there was a troll in the castle.”
Her voice was steadier than Harry expected, though she kept twisting the edge of her sleeve.
“Why were you upset?”
Hermione’s eyes flickered towards Ron.
He looked down at the floor.
“I—” Hermione began, then stopped. “It doesn’t matter now.”
“It matters if it explains why you were alone in a part of the castle that should have been empty,” McGonagall said. Her tone softened by a fraction. “But we shall discuss it after you have been seen by Madam Pomfrey.”
She turned back to the boys.
“You were told to remain with your House. You were not trained to confront a troll. You had no means of knowing where it was, how to deal with it, or whether you could survive an encounter.” McGonagall spoke with the clipped precision of someone who needed them to understand that the instruction had not been a suggestion. “The order was given to protect you and to make certain we knew where our students were. You made both tasks harder.”
“We know,” Ron said quietly.
“Do you?” McGonagall asked.
Ron flinched.
Harry looked at the rubble. The answer was obvious. He hadn’t known what he was doing. He had been frightened and had tried anyway. If Ron and Hermione hadn’t acted as they had, he might still be pinned beneath the stone.
Or worse.
“We couldn’t just leave her,” he said.
McGonagall’s mouth tightened. For a moment, Harry thought she would tell him that it hadn’t been his decision to make.
Instead, she looked at all three of them. Some of the anger in her face gave way to something more complicated.
“No,” she said. “You could not. But there is a difference between trying to help someone and rushing blindly into danger. You were very fortunate that this ended as it did.” Her anger had not disappeared. She needed them to understand that good intentions could still leave other people responsible for the consequences.
Harry thought of the ceiling falling.
“Was it fortunate?” he asked before he could stop himself.
Dumbledore’s eyes rested on him. Harry had the uncomfortable impression that the Headmaster was weighing not only the damage but the question of what, exactly, Harry had done to cause it.
He did not say whether he meant the collapse, the magic, or Harry’s decision to use a word instead of a spell. The uncertainty stayed with Harry as firmly as the pain in his knee.
Harry didn’t like the sound of that.
Snape returned from the troll. “It will need to be moved. The corridor is blocked, and I would prefer not to have the creature waking beneath half the bathroom.”
“Quite,” Dumbledore said. He turned to McGonagall. “Minerva, would you take the children to the infirmary? I shall see to the troll.”
McGonagall nodded. “Come along. All three of you.”
Harry pushed himself away from the sink. Ron moved to his other side, ready to catch him if his leg gave way again. Hermione hovered nearby, looking as though she wanted to help but wasn’t sure whether Harry would let her.
He was too tired to mind.
At the doorway, Harry looked back once.
The bathroom was a ruin. He had helped save Hermione. Ron had freed him. Hermione had helped Ron. And Harry had brought down part of the castle.
It felt nothing like a victory.
It felt like something he would be explaining for the rest of his life.
Madam Pomfrey declared all three of them fit to survive the night, which was not the same as declaring them uninjured.
Harry’s knee was badly bruised. Ron’s palms needed a salve, and Hermione had a cut on her cheek and a sore shoulder where the broken cubicle door had struck her. Madam Pomfrey was particularly displeased by the amount of dust in their hair.
“I spend my evenings mending children who have fallen off broomsticks, tripped over staircases and tried to see whether they can swallow Fizzing Whizbees whole,” she said, directing a cleaning charm at Harry’s robes. “I do not expect to be treating three first-years who have taken on a troll.”
“We didn’t take it on,” Ron muttered. “It was already there.”
Madam Pomfrey gave him a look that sent him retreating behind his blanket.
They remained in the infirmary while the professors dealt with the troll and the castle was declared safe. McGonagall returned once to ask a few more questions, but she didn’t conduct a full interrogation. There would be time for that later, she said. For now, the three of them were to rest. Harry noticed that she asked what they had seen and done, not what they had heard other students say. It was a small distinction, but it made the questions feel less like an attempt to find a culprit and more like an effort to establish what had actually happened.
Harry had no intention of sleeping.
Whenever he closed his eyes, he saw the troll’s club coming down. He felt the weight of the stone across his legs and remembered the awful helplessness of trying to shift it. Then came the sound of the ceiling breaking, and he would open his eyes again to make sure he was still in the infirmary.
He had never been so frightened in his life.
He had also never been so relieved to find someone alive.
Hermione sat on the bed opposite his, her hands folded in her lap. She had barely spoken since they arrived. Ron sat beside Harry, picking at a loose thread on his blanket.
For a while, the three of them said nothing.
Then Ron cleared his throat.
“Hermione?”
She looked up.
“I wanted to say…” He stopped and rubbed his palms together, then winced when the salve stung. “I wanted to say I’m sorry.”
Hermione waited.
Ron looked as though he would rather face another troll than endure the silence.
“What I said earlier,” he continued. “At the feast. Calling you an insufferable know-it-all. It was cruel.”
Hermione’s expression tightened, but she didn’t look away.
“I was angry because you corrected me, and I felt stupid. But that doesn’t make it your fault. You were trying to help, and I made you feel awful for it.”
He swallowed.
“I shouldn’t have said it. I’m sorry.”
The words came out unevenly. As soon as he had finished, he looked down, as though he had used up all the courage he possessed.
Hermione watched him for another moment.
“You did make me feel awful,” she said.
Ron nodded. “I know.”
“And you said it loudly enough for everyone to hear.”
“I know.”
“I wasn’t trying to make you look stupid.”
“I know that now.”
She looked at him sharply. “You didn’t know that before?”
Ron went red.
“I thought you were showing off. Or—well, I thought you wanted everyone to know you were better at everything.”
Hermione opened her mouth, then closed it again. Harry wondered whether she was about to argue with him. He wouldn’t have blamed her. Ron had hurt her, and helping them survive the troll didn’t mean she owed him forgiveness.
Instead, she took a breath.
“I’m not better at everything,” she said. “I just read the instructions.” She sounded defensive, but there was something else beneath it: a need to explain that knowing the answer had never meant she wanted anyone to feel small.
“I know.”
“And sometimes I correct people before I’ve thought about how it sounds.”
Ron looked up. “You do.”
Hermione narrowed her eyes.
“Sorry,” he said quickly. “I didn’t mean—”
“No. It’s true.” She looked down at her hands. “I can be rather… bossy.”
Ron seemed surprised by the admission.
“A bit,” he said.
“Ron.”
“Sorry!”
A small smile tugged at the corner of Hermione’s mouth, though it didn’t quite reach her eyes. Ron noticed it and seemed to take it as encouragement, then immediately looked down again, embarrassed by how much he wanted her to smile properly.
She was not pretending the insult had vanished because they had survived the same danger. Forgiveness could be a beginning without being a clean slate.
“I won’t.”
She held his gaze for another second, deciding whether she believed him.
Then she nodded.
Harry felt something loosen in his chest.
Ron turned towards him.
“And I’m sorry to you, too.”
Harry raised his eyebrows. “For what?”
“For being an idiot at the feast. And for arguing with you when you wanted to find Hermione.” Ron picked at the blanket again. “You were right. We couldn’t know she was safe.”
“You did come with me.”
“After arguing about it.”
“You still came.”
Ron looked at him. “I nearly didn’t.”
It was the first time that evening he had admitted something without trying to make himself sound better.
Harry considered him. He remembered Ron laughing with him on the train, sharing sweets, explaining things about the wizarding world that Harry hadn’t known to ask about. He remembered Ron standing beside him in the bathroom, trying again and again to lift the stone even when he was frightened.
He remembered the insult, too.
“You shouldn’t have said what you said to her,” Harry replied. “But I’m glad you came.”
Ron nodded. “So am I.”
Harry held out his hand.
Ron stared at it for a moment before shaking it. His palm was rough with dried salve, and his grip was awkward, but he held on firmly.
Hermione watched them, then shifted along the edge of her bed.
“So,” she said, “I suppose we’re all friends now?”
Ron looked uncertain. “Is there a test?”
“Not unless you count surviving a troll.”
“Then I’ve definitely passed.”
“You nearly dropped a stone on Harry’s leg.”
“I got it off him!”
“After I explained how to do it.”
Ron opened his mouth, then, to Harry’s surprise, laughed.
“Fine. You can have that one.”
Hermione smiled properly this time.
Harry found himself smiling, too.
It was strange how quickly things could change. Only a few hours earlier, he had been sitting at the Gryffindor table, wondering whether he and Ron could be friends at all. Hermione had been somewhere else in the castle, crying because of something Ron had said. Now they were in the infirmary, arguing about who had saved whom, as though the whole thing were a disagreement over a game.
It hadn’t been a game. Harry could still remember the weight of the stone across his legs.
But he could also remember Ron’s face when the debris finally lifted, the sheer relief in his eyes. He could remember Hermione turning back towards the troll, terrified but unwilling to leave them to face it alone.
Neither of them had left him there.
He hadn’t left Hermione alone, either.
That seemed to matter.
Madam Pomfrey appeared at the end of the ward and told them that if they intended to talk, they could do so quietly. Ron immediately lowered his voice to a whisper that was somehow louder than his normal speaking voice.
Hermione pointed this out.
Ron whispered even more loudly that he was being perfectly quiet.
She rolled her eyes, but when Madam Pomfrey turned away, Harry saw her smile at him.
Ron caught the smile and grinned back. When Hermione glanced away, he rubbed at the place on his shoulder where the broken cubicle door had struck her, as if he could still feel the impact himself.
Harry looked between them, then towards the tall windows. The grounds beyond were dark. The reflection of the infirmary lamps made the glass look like another room laid over the night.
He was happy.
He had been frightened, hurt and nearly crushed beneath a piece of the castle. He had done something with his wand that he couldn’t explain, and he suspected the professors would have plenty to say about it.
Still, he was happy.
For the first time, he had people who would come looking for him and try to help, even when they were scared. They could be irritating, thoughtless or wrong, and still come back and apologise.
Ron was funny and generous with what he knew. He had tried to lift the stone even when it seemed impossible, and he had been cruel to Hermione because he couldn’t bear to feel foolish. People did not become one thing just because they had done another.
Both things were true.
Harry didn’t know what to do with that yet.
He thought of Neville, who had thanked him for returning the Rememberall and had never once made him feel that he owed him anything. He thought of the other students at Gryffindor, some of whom had spoken to him kindly, and a few who seemed interested in him for reasons he couldn’t understand.
He wanted to know them, too.
Ron and Hermione were his friends now. He didn’t need to make them his only friends. Friendship was not a House assignment, and gratitude did not have to become a debt that narrowed the rest of his life.
The distinction was small. Harry couldn’t have explained it properly if anyone had asked, but he knew it mattered.
Across the ward, Hermione was asking Ron whether he had really thought the troll would be defeated by shouting at it.
“I wasn’t shouting at it,” Ron whispered. “I was distracting it.”
“You were shouting.”
“It worked, didn’t it?”
“It didn’t do anything.”
“It distracted you from how badly I was doing the spell.”
Hermione laughed before she could stop herself. Ron looked pleased with himself, and for a moment he seemed to forget to make a joke of it. He simply watched her, surprised by how much better the sound made him feel. Then he turned towards Harry as if remembering that he was there, too.
“Anyway,” he said, “next time we find a troll, you can be the one who distracts it.”
“Next time?” Harry asked.
“I’m not planning a next time.”
“Good.”
“Unless we get points for it.”
Hermione groaned. Harry laughed, and Ron joined in.
The sound felt ordinary. Nobody was talking about the Boy Who Lived or asking him to explain what he had done. For a few minutes, he was simply Harry, sitting with two people who had nearly been killed beside him and were now arguing about House points.
They wouldn’t always get along. Ron could make Harry laugh, but he could also become defensive in ways Harry didn’t yet understand. Hermione could be kind and clever, but she could make a person feel as though every mistake were being recorded for later use.
They weren’t perfect.
Neither was he.
For now, though, he had friends. He had a place at Hogwarts, a bed waiting in Gryffindor Tower, and people who would notice if he were missing.
Harry leaned back against his pillow. His knee throbbed beneath the blanket, and his hands still smelled faintly of stone dust.
Above him, the infirmary ceiling was perfectly intact.
He looked at it for a long moment.
Then he turned away.
Whatever had happened in the bathroom, he would have to understand it eventually. But not tonight.
Tonight, Ron was telling Hermione that he could probably lift a much larger stone now that he understood the spell, and Hermione was explaining why that wasn’t how spellwork functioned. Ron was listening, even if he pretended not to be. When she reached to straighten the blanket over her sore shoulder, he stopped talking and asked whether it hurt. Hermione seemed surprised by the question. She said it did, a little. Ron immediately looked as though he wished he could take the pain back, and offered her the better of the two cushions without making a fuss about it.
She accepted it with a quiet “Thank you.”
“You’re welcome,” Ron said, suddenly awkward. He picked up his own cushion and sat on it crookedly, which made Hermione laugh again. He laughed too, though he was blushing. Neither of them called attention to the moment, and neither seemed quite ready to look directly at the other for very long.
Harry closed his eyes, smiling.
He had found his friends.
And, for the first time, he understood that finding them didn’t mean he had to stop looking for anyone else.