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Today was,
Acceptable
I have fucking school tomorrow.
I hate school.
Anyways first of all, I had gathering today, which lasted so long. I just got home a couple hours ago and we left at 8 am.
At least since I was there for so long I got to come up with ideas for stores and drawings. Ezzie heard that I go to a new school now and asked if I knew someone. I recognized the name and I stupidly said yes and that she was in some of my classes. Ezzie proceeded to try and take a picture of me when I told her to stop so she could send it to her friend. That could have gone horribly wrong, but luckily I convinced Ezzie to stop..
Mom took a long time to get out the car and head over to the seats I had picked out when it was starting. During the program I think I saw her crying a couple of times, it was probably because she’s disappointed in me but I couldn’t tell because my brothers sick right now so she could have gotten sick from him. I’m not completely sure. I felt a bit sick overall though.
Also, the car ride to the place took a hour, so that made this even longer.
After we made it back home, we immediately went to dinner over at jimmy’s fine diner, which I had an awesome cheeseburger at. I ate a bit fast and felt like I was going to vomit though so I kinda just drank water the rest of dinner.
Then finally I went home and just chilled for a bit.
THEN I REMEMBERED,
“Oh shit it’s Sunday.”
SHIT ITS SUNDAY!!! I HAVE SCHOOL TOMORROW!!
I really despise school. I mean I have friends but they’re kinda dumb. My classes are draining. And everyone else there is shitty.
It makes me want to vomit my guts out honestly I hate it so much.
God can school possibly get any wor
Actually no it definitely can.
Uuuggggshhhhh
Nate stared up at the ceiling, laying on his bed as his laptop warms his stomach.
“Grhhhhh.
I need to go to bed”
Nate closes his laptop and stares at the ceiling.
He cannot see anything due to it being 11:20 pm writing this, making it hard to see anything.
He blinks sleepily
red
Opens his eyes quickly.
He could have sworn he saw something.
He looks at the ceiling.
red drips from the ceiling and hits his face as he hears the weaps of his mother
drip
drip
they grow louder and more suffocating
All because of Nate.
You did this.
It was all your fault.
Theres no escaping or denying it.
“it- no,
no, no, this is not real and I know that”
Your right
This
Isn’t real.
ALL THE PAIN
AND SUFFERING
YOU’VE CAUSED OTHERS
DUE TO YOUR GREED
YOUR SELFISHNESS
YOU’RE SELFISHNESS
THE WALKING DEFINITION
YOU TAKE
TAKE
TAKE
“no...”
TAKE
UNTIL THERE IS NOTHING LEFT
Is though.
Admit it you fucking bitch.
You fucking waste of flesh and intelligence.
All you’ve done is Make others suffer.
And all you care about is other people noticing you feel bad
And coming
To comfort you.
All about you.
“please- just,
Be quiet. For once. Just-
let me rest.”
Check your texts
“…”
“What.?”
Do something useful for once in your goddamn life and check your motherfucking texts
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