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Few months later
‘’Hey.’’ Kihyun jumped into Shownu’s lap, making himself comfortable, finding a good position.
Shownu instinctively wrapped his arms around Kihyun. ‘’Hey you too.’’
‘’Waah, Shownu-hyung and Kihyun-hyung are being gross again.’’ Jooheon shrieked.
‘’Ah Jooheon, didn’t notice you were here too.’’ Kihyun snickered.
‘’It’s all because of your heart eyes man.’’ Jooheon tried to mimic the way Kihyun is around Shownu. It only made Kihyun blush and stutter. He loves to show off, but he still gets shy when someone teases him about it. Jooheon surprisingly is the one who does it the most.
***
‘’I never thanked you for staying by my side through everything. After all the things I did, betrayed your trust, hurt you, you still stood by me, even when I did everything that should have pushed you away.’’
‘’Ki…’’
‘’I’m not done yet hyung.’’ Kihyun cut him off, smiling gently. He has a lot to say. Mostly he needs to let know Shownu that his unwavering love was one the reasons he never let go.
Shownu looked at Kihyun. Giving off the vibe of I’m here, I’m listening.
‘’So, thank you for keeping me alive, making me fight. I almost threw away my dream I worked so hard to accomplish. I almost threw away all my friends. But most of all, I almost lost you.’’ Kihyun’s voice cracked at the end. He took in a breath before continuing. Didn’t even notice that Shownu grabbed his hand and clutched it.
‘’I missed waking up to your warmth, the wave of comfort and safety you brought. I can never repay you for this.’’
***
‘’Okay, I guess that’s it Kihyun. Our last meeting has ended. I can tell you are really healing this time around. It was wrong to let you get back to work so quick the first time.’’
Kihyun just nodded in acknowledgment. It’s not like he is going to disagree with his doctor.
‘’Just know that my door is always open for you if you ever need me. By the way,’’ she looked at KIhyun, ‘’how are you and that handsome guy of yours?’’
Kihyun’s cheeks immediately turned red.
‘’Ah, that good I see.’’ The psychologist giggled. ‘’Tell him I wish you the best.’’
‘’Thank you so much for everything.’’
He stood up and was ready to leave, but turned back to give her one last glance. ‘’I’ll never forget anything you did for me.’’ Giving her a bright smile of his.
***
The second Kihyun got out of the psychologist office he noticed the lack of someone’s presence. He took out his phone and saw a message from said someone.
I’m waiting for you at the park – sh
‘’Why did you leave?’’ Kihyun asked out of curiosity.
‘’I had to get something. Give me your left hand.’’ Shownu said.
Kihyun lifted his left hand.
He felt something being put around his ring finger.
‘’I saved up a lot for this. You said you’ll move in to my room if I have a ring.’’
Kihyun was stunned, he couldn’t think clearly.
‘’Was…was that not okay? I’m sorry…’’ Shownu started to panic, did he fuck up.
Finally Kihyun came back to earth.
‘’Ah no no it’s, it’s perfect.’’ His eyes were shining with tears. The pure happiness he felt in that moment was too much.
‘’But Wonho and Changkyun?’’
‘’Don’t worry, I talked to them and they agreed to switch.’’ Shownu told Kihyun who was obviously worried about it.
He took Kihyun’s delicate hand, and slipped the ring on his finger, and it fit perfectly. Of course it did, Shownu had been sneaky about getting the size right.
Kihyun couldn’t take this distance between them anymore, so he wrapped his hands around Shownu’s neck, questioning look in his eyes, asking for permission.
And since more often than not, they don’t need words to talk, Shownu finally kissed Kihyun.
It was more than perfect for their first kiss. The dark past behind them, only brightness ahead.
Kihyun pulled away first because unlike Shownu, who has swimmer lungs, he needed air.
Shownu stared at Kihyun, and the way his eyes glistened under the sunlight. How his face was blushing up to his ears. How his smile light up Shownu’s entire world.
And Kihyun kissed Shownu again, and again, as if he was trying to make up for all the time he lost.
‘’Hey hey, Kihyun, I’m not going anywhere,’’ Shownu laughed in between the kissing, ‘’you really are something Ki.’’
‘’Sorry Hyunwoo.’’ Kihyun said, but he didn’t look sorry at all, with his mischievous smile.
‘’Come on let’s go, I have the whole day planned out.’’ Shownu pulled Kihyun by the hand, rambling about all the places he wants to take Kihyun to.
By the end of the day when they got back to the dorm, tired, but happy, not once did they let go of each other.
All the lights were out in the place. It was pretty late so it made sense.
They creeped up to Shownu’s, and now Kihyun’s room.
Shownu collapsed on the bed after changing his clothes. Kihyun took a bit more time, he was still shy.
He eventually slowly laid down next to his leader, his teammate. His friend… his boyfriend.
‘’I, uh.’’ Kihyun looked away from Shownu like it hurt to look at him. ‘’Hyu…Aaa, Shownu…’’
‘’What is it?’’ Shownu looked alert at this.
‘’I love you Hyunwoo.’’ Kihyun blurted out and turned his back to Shownu in embarrasement.
‘’Ki,’’ Shownu wrapped his arm around Kihyun’s frame, ‘’I love you so much.’’
Nothing else was said, both of them fell asleep with a smile on their face, and peace in their heart.
Shownu was the steady rock keeping Kihyun at bay, and sane. Even when Kihyun drifted away when the illnness took hold, he came back, he always comes back. Things never got so bad like they used to, because he knows what to hold onto, what matters more than a moment of silence. His dream he fought with everything he had. His family he loved more than anything. His teammates and friends who always looked out for him. His Shownu, his home, the one and only who never left him, so Kihyun will always try his hardest to never lose himself again.
EPILOGUE
‘’Hi monbebe, I can’t believe it’s been 10 years since we debuted. Every anniversary has always been so special, we were always so surprised that we had been together as Monsta X for a year, two years, three years. And now we are celebrating our 10th. It’s only possible thanks to your support. I love you Monbebe, bye~’’ Shownu ended his short video message to the fans.
‘’Still a man of few words.’’ Kihyun commented and handed him a coffee cup. ‘’10 years and you are still the same.’’
‘’So are you. You will spout some cheesy lines to the fans.’’ Shownu took a sip from his drink.
‘’Well you should be glad that I keep the best for you.’’ The shorter said, making his way to his place, Shownu’s lap.
‘’I’d get jealous over our fans if you told them half the stuff you tell me.’’
‘’I love monbebe, but I love you more Hyunwoo.’’ Kihyun stood up. ‘’Let’s go, we have a special stage for our fans to get ready for.’’
‘’Right after you!’’
The gold band around Kihyun’s ring finger matched the one on Shownu’s.
A lot of things happened, Monsta X got their win, and another and another. They gained more and more popularity, but they still stayed the same humble boys. Only wiser. They still have that spark, that youth in them after everything they have been through.
And Kihyun. Kihyun got better as time went by. When the public found out about Kihyun, surprisingly enough he got a lot of support and people wishing him the best on the recovery.
Shownu and Kihyun had their own version of a wedding after having been together for 5 years, it’s not like they could have an actual one with the current laws in the country. But it was enough, in their hearts it was enough. And everyone who mattered, supported. Fans suspected, the public doesn’t care and it was enough.
‘’We will shine for another 10, 20 years. We will Shine Forever monbebe.’’ Kihyun closed the app after saying good night to the fans who stayed up watching their anniversary live.