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recently jonghyun's been having trouble sleeping.
his body is aching and his mind is tired but somehow he just can't manage to fall asleep. jonghyun lies flat on his back, eyes boring holes into a random spot on his ceiling.
nothing ever feels right anymore.
and maybe, when aron and minki and dongho are all asleep, jonghyun locks his door and turns on his nightlamp and plugs his earphones in. he turns on his phone, face illuminated by the light from his screen, as he punches in numbers he knows by heart.
his phone rings once, twice, three times, before his call gets directed to voicemail. jonghyun closes his eyes, breathing deeply as minhyun's voice washes over him.
it's been 42 days since you packed up and left with my heart, how much longer til you return?
and if he presses the call again button over and over and over again, no one has to know.
how much longer til i can hear your voice right next to me, how much longer til i can see you again.
not through a video,
not through a screen,
how much longer til you return to my side where you belong?
and if jonghyun falls asleep late at night with his door locked and minhyun's voice in his ears, he considers it a success because at least this time he managed to get some rest.
if the members wake up to find jonghyun's door locked, they know better than to speak about it. instead, they make jokes, tease him about what he could be hiding. never once do they bring up his dark circles that get worse each day, or talk about how jonghyun is lagging behind during practice, too tired to focus fully.
and if minhyun wakes up in the wannaone dorms with over forty missed calls from a number he knows by heart, he's smart enough to know better than to speak to anyone about it.
he simply clears his notifications, opens an app (a blinking 458 days left appears on screen), and waits.