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As news spread around that Alexandria Woods - rightful heir of Polaris Enterprises - was alive the speculation of the press began.
What happened to the only daughter of Alexander Woods?
How she survived on her own?
Did she really grow up among apes?
So many things that the press wanted to get answers to by stalking Polaris and flooding Anya with question after question.
Some reporters even travelled to the Congo to try to get an exclusive about the elusive jungle girl to no avail.
The moment Lexa woke up after her wounds were treated in the hospital, she panicked. She had no idea where she was, and Clarke was already gone. Lexa ripped the IV’s out of her arm and tried to escape. While doing so, several members of the hospital staff ended up hurt. Indra called Abby right away to ask for help regarding Lexa’s sudden outburst. She didn’t trust just anyone with Lexa’s safety, and that made Clarke relieved that Lexa wouldn't be left to her own devices.
Abby had recommended they return Lexa to the village, but instead of using her tent, it was better for her to use Clarke’s temporary room at Indra’s.
A month later Indra called again to let them know that Lexa seemed more relaxed as the lingering scent of Clarke remained on the pillow, making Lexa a very happy girl. Still those first months were so rough for a girl who was used to being in the jungle by herself. After that first problematic event Anya had sent the specialist her mother recommended to begin Lexa’s immersion into society, and Titus, to continue her tutoring. That was the last update she ever had regarding Lexa.
However, Lexa always found a way to make herself present. As September arrived so did Clarke’s birthday. To her surprise, she received a bouquet of flowers with a simple card.
“Happy Birthday, Clarke. Anya told me this is an important day. She said to buy flowers. I don’t know how to do that, but Anya promised she would do it for me. Lexa.”
The next time Lexa made herself present was during Christmas. Clarke had picked up her phone Christmas morning thinking it would be Wells to change their plans at the last minute, but when she saw the unknown phone number she got a big surprise when she answered.
“Hello?”
“Clarke!” She heard on the other end of the speaker.
“Lexa?”
“Hello, Clarke!” Lexa said happily. “Raven suggested that I should call you today and say Merry Christmas. So umm, Merry Christmas Clarke! Indra reminded me to do so!”
“Because you wouldn’t shut up.” Indra grumbled very close.
“Yes, also Indra helped me to dial your number. I still don’t understand how to use this thing, but I am happy to hear your voice.”
Clarke was a puddle of tears on the floor, not believing it was indeed her Lexa.
Lexa’s accent and fluency was so much better, her pronunciation improved but the way Lexa said her name had remained the same and Clarke loved it.
“Clarke? Are you crying? Did I make a mistake? Is it wrong day?”
“No, no. It’s the right day. I ah, they’re happy tears because I missed you so much, Lexa!”
“I miss Clarke too.” Lexa said and after a beat she began rambling. “Titus is an ass, but I am learning many things. Costia is very pretty and helps me a lot too.”
“Wait! Who?”
Lexa always said Clarke was pretty and now she was with someone who Lexa considered very pretty? Clarke didn’t like that at all.
“Costia. She is my friend and I tell her everything. Costia will help Lexa to become Clarke’s mate so we can-”
“Okay give me that, Lexa. Those calls aren’t cheap, you know? I have no time for your romantic nonsense!” Indra complained, and Clarke could picture the roll of her eyes as clear as day.
“NO!” Lexa shouted and by the scrambling sounds Clarke imagined Lexa and Indra were fighting for the phone.
“I want to hear Clarke!”
“Not with my money!”
“Lexa, hey it’s okay. Thank Indra for the help and I can’t wait to hear from you again. Bye Lexa.”
“Bye, Clarke!” Lexa said, and with that the call was over.
Clarke chuckled remembering how hilarious it had been. Definitely the best Christmas ever, except for the fact that when she asked her mom about Costia, she learned that the woman wasn’t a 40 something year old but a younger woman in her late 20s who was very pretty.
“Are you going to eat that?”
Clarke blinked coming back from memory lane, looking at the page she just drew. Every time she drew Lexa’s eyes, her hands, even her face made her get lost in memories. She closed the book to pay attention to her friend looking at her with amusement.
“Aah?”
Wells pointed with his chin her still wrapped sandwich.
“Ah yeah, I was just um drawing.”
Wells shrugged. “When are you not? Lunch is almost over, and you’ve been absorbed for some time in your sketchbook.”
“Yeah, I know.” Clarke took a bite of her cold sandwich.
“Gosh, you keep daydreaming about jungle girl every day,” Wells laughed shaking his head. “No wonder you can’t beat my ass at chess anymore.”
“Shut up! I’m out of practice that’s all and don’t call her jungle girl!” Clarke ignored Wells and finished her meal.
///
The city of Polis was surrounded by a chain of mountains. Rivers cut through the green of their deep forests ending in a body of water encasing the few skyscrapers and suburban neighborhoods.
In the middle of it all was Arkadia High School, were Clarke Griffin was a student in her senior year.
It wasn’t a hectic place to live in. People minded their own business, it was thriving, and the nature surrounding it allowed for an easy escape of the daily routines. The return home wasn’t as exciting as Clarke had hoped it would be. Meeting Lexa had changed everything for her. And as the months passed, she realized that she missed her so much more.
Thankfully, Wells Jaha, her best friend, always kept her entertained and distracted. She also kept a tight friendship with Raven, who texted her on a daily basis.
The routine had kept Clarke grounded. Wake up and get ready for school, eat breakfast with her mother before she departed for the hospital and then ride her bike to school, before returning home to do homework, on the weekends she would hang out with Wells or Facetime with Raven.
This was what allowed Clarke to continue moving on without completely drowning herself in the emptiness she felt in her heart. She hadn’t heard anything regarding Lexa since her call last December. She had no idea if Lexa was still in Africa or if Anya managed to bring Lexa home.
Yes, she and Lexa were only friends, and she wasn’t entitled to know anything related to her; however, Clarke hoped that at least they would be kind enough to tell her how she was doing. They were a week into March and she was losing hope of hearing back from anyone connected to Lexa. Not even Raven had heard anything. Anya was tight lipped, which was understandable, with the press hunting down anyone who could provide information, Clarke was grateful that Anya had kept their names out of the press during interviews, maintaining the privacy they had and enjoyed.
Clarke rode her bike to her home after another strenuous day. She had to finish an essay and then she would call Raven for a bit. She imagined how fun it would be to take Lexa for a ride on her bike and to teach her how to use one. All those things she wanted to do and couldn’t.
She took the last curve into her neighborhood before reaching her street. She could see fancy black SUV parked near the house. Clarke assumed her mother had some guests from the hospital. She left her bike right outside the garage and pulled out her keys to open the door.
“I’m home!” Clarke shouted from the entrance as she removed her shoes and walked in her socked feet towards the stairs.
She was going to head upstairs to her room when she saw her mother and a couple, a big burly bearded man and a younger woman.
This didn’t look like a meeting with co-workers. Clarke frowned, disconcerted about who were these people and why they were in her home.
She quickly went upstairs to get changed into more comfy clothes and to drop her backpack on her desk.
Clarke looked at her reflection in her dresser. “If they are reporters I swear to God I’m going to kick them out of here.”
There was only one way to find out.
///
“Uuh, hey mom. Good afternoon.” Clarke noticed the hushed voices of their conversation.
“Hey, sweetheart. How was your day?”
“It was okay.” Clarke shrugged. “I had no idea we were having visitors, mom.”
“Yes, that’s on me. I hoped we could speak promptly with Dr. Griffin and you, Clarke.” The woman spoke, she had a dulcet tone, very beautiful hazel eyes and full lips, wavy black hair tied in a bun and her cheekbones were dusted with freckles, over light brown skin.
Clarke furrowed her brows unease. “How do you know my name?”
“Excuse my manners.” The big, bearded man spoke next. He stood up and Clarke was slightly intimidated by his height. “I’m Gustus Woods. Nice to meet you Clarke.”
Clarke widened her eyes. “Gustus as in…”
“Yes, I’m Lexa’s uncle.”
“Oh, is Lexa okay?” Clarke forgot about the presence of these people and worried for
Lexa. “Did something happen?”
The man chuckled, holding his belly. “Lexa is more than fine. It’s the reason why we’re here speaking to your mother, please sit down.”
Clarke moved awkwardly to join her mother on the couch.
“What about Cage Wallace and Mount Weather?” Clarke inquired.
“Do not worry about that scumbag. He has been dealt with.” Gustus said with a glint in his eyes.
Something told Clarke that was all she was going to get which was perfectly fine by her.
“Hello Clarke. It is truly wonderful to finally meet you. I’m Costia Smith, Lexa’s psychologist.”
“Ah, you’re Costia. Hello.” Clarke offered a tight smile. She now understood Lexa. The woman was beautiful indeed.
“Clarke,” Gustus took Clarke out of her thoughts. “Lexa’s immersion into our world has been going well, however, as of late, it’s been beyond difficult. We had followed the recommendations of Costia here who has been working with Lexa closely and that’s why we’re here with you and Dr. Griffin.”
“I see.”
“Yes, Lexa left quite the first impression. I’m amazed by how much she knew by the time I started to work with her. The 4 months I spent with her in Africa had been revealing to me. Her behavior is tightly ingrained in the jungle where she grew up with her fellow apes. Definitely a challenge to help her form new habits, but thanks to you and your mother Lexa had a good starting point.”
“I don’t understand. If Lexa is doing well in her learning, then why are you here?” Clarke asked.
“We decided to bring Lexa to the States 2 months ago. She has been living with us in New York and it’s been too much for her.” Gustus sighed. “Living in four walls of concrete with nothing but buildings around made Lexa feel confined. That’s reason why she tended to escape through the windows to climb up.”
Abby gasped covering her mouth shocked. “Oh my God!”
“Yeah,” Gustus gave out a nervous laugh. “Tell me about it. I almost had a stroke the first time she disappeared, and Indra found her on the roof.”
“Lexa feels imprisoned in a way. The change of scenery, the weather, the amount of people, everything has been 180º for her.” Costia explained.
“Yes, I expected as much.” Abby said in agreement.
“I believe that a smaller city like Polis that has a natural scenery will help Lexa to adapt and to continue her growth and learning. We were asking Dr. Griffin the possibilities of Lexa staying with you until Anya can get Lexa her own apartment in Polis. In a hotel, Lexa wouldn’t be comfortable without someone she trusts, and I know you both are important to Lexa.”
“YES!” Clarke replied faster than a bullet. “Mom, please. Lexa can stay with us and I can help her like we used to after I come back from school!”
“Clarke, you’re a couple of months shy of graduation. Lexa will demand a lot of your time. I know how much you care about her, but I don’t want that to interrupt your school work.” Abby was stern.
This was a very important topic and she was right.
“I know mom. I promise I’ll keep working hard as usual. You won’t see any negative effect and I already sent all my applications for college.”
“It will be for no more than a month at the longest.” Gustus added. “Anya has been already looking for a place, so it won’t take longer than that. Besides, Lexa will continue her work with Costia and her tutors. Lexa will be just as busy.”
“Very well. Lexa can stay with us. We obviously need to prepare the guest room and studio for her.” Abby accepted.
“I’ll pay in advance for the trouble.” Gustus pulled out his chequebook. “This should be enough for her food and accommodations.”
Abby widened her eyes. “Ah, I think this is more than enough. Mr. Woods.”
“It’s no trouble, Dr. Griffin.”
“Then it’s decided!” Costia beamed. “Lexa will be here next week, so you have time to prepare for her arrival.”
“I can’t wait to see her again!” Clarke was so happy. Seeing her Lexa after 8 months apart.
///
After chatting a while longer with Gustus and Costia, Clarke could see how happy Gustus was and how much he cared for his niece. Costia? Clarke had her doubts about the specialist working with Lexa.
“Now Clarke,” Costia smiled. “I need to speak to you regarding Lexa’s feelings. May we speak in private?” Costia asked Abby.
“Sure, let me offer you coffee Mr. Woods.” Abby guided Gustus towards the kitchen leaving Clarke alone with Costia.
“Your name has been a constant in every session I’ve had with Lexa. You’re very special to her.”
“She’s special to me too.”
“I understand that Lexa has been very enthusiastic about you two becoming mates?”
Clarke nodded because her throat was dry and her face a dark shade of red.
Costia chuckled lightly, and it was a really nice, easy laughter to hear. No wonder Lexa opened up to her. Costia irradiated calm and confidence. Clarke didn’t like that.
“Lexa has been motivated in her studies because of it and I quote ‘to be the Lexa I need to be’ so I applaud you for stepping back when you did and encourage you to keep that special friendship you two have.”
“I ah, yeah, I get that. I’m only her friend. Lexa knows that.”
“That’s good. Lexa is very fond of you, but you need to remember that Lexa grew up among apes. We could consider Lexa an alpha female inside her troop; therefore, her behavior is dominating and protective of the fellow females, and she could be aggressive towards males that may approach you because of that, possibly any female as well that seems competition to her.”
“Oooh.” Clarke reached understanding.
“Until I can work more with Lexa about how things work in a human society I need you to be careful.”
“Yeah uuh sure, but I assure you Lexa would never hurt anyone on purpose.”
“She wouldn’t, but she’s a very instinctual being. She will react first and ask questions later, which is what I’m trying to change. Lexa didn’t hesitate to kill when those men kidnapped you, correct?”
Just the memory of that horrible day made Clarke tremble. “No, but Lexa was only protecting me, and she stopped hitting Emerson when I told her. Look Costia, I know you’re a professional and all that, but I know Lexa. I appreciate the concern, but I guarantee it’s not needed.”
Costia narrowed her eyes and simply nodded. “Lexa is docile, but she can get dangerously violent and hurt someone, Clarke. Lexa has been learning a lot about what she can and can’t do but sometimes her instincts will kick in.”
“I get what you’re saying, I really do but I promise Lexa won’t go berserk anytime soon. She’s not a beast, Costia. Lexa is noble, that’s who she is, not a monster from the jungle. When you start treating her like a person and not someone that needs to be fixed you’ll truly see Lexa.” Clarke said with confidence before she departed to her room already tired of this nonsense.
Clarke would never ever doubt Lexa. She understood that Lexa had to act slightly different than a normal human due to her upbringing in such harsh, raw conditions. She was aware that Lexa could showcase violence and anger, but Lexa was also logical and a very good listener. That’s what set her apart from an animal. People sometimes forget that.
///
“Clarke sit down already!” Wells rolled his eyes at Clarke’s antics.
“You’re going to wear a hole on the carpet, sweetheart. Lexa will be here, relax.”
“I know mom. I can’t wait. I’m so happy to have her back with us!”
“Yes, but remember that Lexa has a lot of work to do and I don’t want any of you fooling around. Is that clear, Clarke?”
“Yes, mom.”
DING DONG!
“It’s them!” Clarke ran to the front door and opened it excited.
“Did anyone call for a mechanic?” Raven grinned seeing Clarke’s shocked face.
“Raven! Oh God. You’re here!?” Clarke launched herself to hug her friend.
“Yup, who better than Reyes to drive Lexa of the jungle with discretion from New York?” Raven shrugged cockily.
“Come in! Abby said happy to see Raven. “Make yourself at home.”
“Raven meet Wells. Wells, this is Raven who I met in the Arkadia program.” Clarke introduced her best friend.
“Nice meeting you.” Wells shook Raven’s hand.
Clarke turned around waiting for Lexa but no one else came in. “Aah, where’s Lexa?”
Raven looked at the open door. “She must be exploring. Lexa was impressed by how different Polis is and is kinda chirpy now.”
Clarke walked outside to the garage where Raven parked. She checked the car, but it was already empty.
She didn’t see anyone strange around either. Moving around the yard she checked the bushes in case Lexa was behind one of them.
“Lexa?” Clarke called as she returned to her porch, using the shadow of the tree in her front yard to avoid the scalding sun.
“Lexaaa?”
“Clarke!!!”
“Fuck!” Clarke jumped startled, clutching her heart from the scare and turned around to find a smiling Lexa hanging from the branch above. She was wearing a button up shirt with the sleeves rolled up to her elbows, her grey chino pants also rolled up to her knees and she was barefoot. Her hair was slightly shorter and arranged in a combination of wavy loose hair and braids. Other than that, she looked the same with her deep green eyes.
“You need to stop doing that, Lexa.”
“Clarke.” Lexa said as she let herself go and landed in a squat. She stood up slowly, taking a tentative step forward.
“Hey you.” Clarke opened her arms and Lexa walked into her.
Quickly nuzzling her nose into Clarke’s neck, inhaling the scent that Lexa missed the most.
“Clarke.” Lexa whispered like a prayer.
“I’m here.” Clarke closed her eyes and pulled Lexa tighter against her. Enjoying the warmth and the sweet musk of her body.
“Alright you two, ew ew ew. Cut that out!” Raven walked outside to open the trunk of her car. “Come and help me here, Lexa.”
Lexa reluctantly let go of Clarke. She softly traced her cheekbones. “I missed Clarke very much.”
“And I missed you too. Now go help Raven so I can show you the house.”
“Clarke’s home!” Lexa smiled.
Clarke walked back inside her house to wait for Lexa to get all her bags.
“Damn, Griffin. You look suddenly bright!” Wells joked.
“Oh, shut it Wells.” Clarke rolled her eyes.
“Happiness suits you. I couldn’t stand your broodiness for long.” Wells looped his arm around Clarke’s shoulders in a friendly embrace.
Lexa came in with her bags leaving them on the living room. “Clarke I-”
Suddenly Lexa dropped her bags and tucked her chin in, letting out a low growl and jumped towards Wells, tackling him to the ground.
“Jesus Lexa!” Clarke gasped.
Lexa was on top of Wells pulling him from his shirt, baring her teeth close to his face. Wells raised his hands in the air in surrender.
“Wooah calm down, okay?”
“Lexa no!” Clarke pulled the brunette away, with certain resistance on Lexa’s part. “Lexa, dammit. Let him go!” Clarke commanded.
Only then Lexa let go. Huffing and clenching her fists she moved apart, but keeping her body close to Clarke “He touched Clarke! I protect Clarke!”
“I know Lexa, but he wasn’t doing anything unwanted.” Clarke offered her hand to Wells to hoist him up. “Wells is my best friend. Remember what I told you about friends?”
Lexa gave a short nod, her eyes on Wells, watching his every move.
“Friends care for each other so it’s okay if he hugs me or reaches for me. He isn’t a threat to me or anyone, Lexa. You have to learn not to attack right away. Okay?”
Lexa sighed, her eyes still observing Wells with mistrust, but Lexa would never deny any request to Clarke. Reluctantly she answered “Okay.”
“Well that went better than expected.” Raven said, leaving the last bag in the living room.
“Holy shit, you weren’t kidding she was strong, Clarke.” Wells rubbed his neck. “I’m double her size and she kicked my ass.”
“Yeah, sorry about that. Lexa still needs to get used to more interactions with more people, but I promise you she isn’t like this.” Clarke apologized.
“Why don’t you take Lexa to her room, Clarke.” Abby offered. “I’ll prepare some sandwiches while you help her unpack.”
“Alright, let’s go Lexa!” Clarke extended her hand to Lexa who was quick to lace her hand with Clarke, throwing daggers at Wells over her shoulder.
They carried her bags to the guest room and Clarke showed Lexa the closet and her drawers to store her clothes.
“I know this room is small, but the bed is comfortable, you have a window to the backyard and you can enjoy the fresh air in the morning if you open it. Here you can store everything you need, and the restroom is the last door in the hall to the left.”
Clarke was opening the night table drawers to show Lexa how much space she had.
“Are you listening?”
“Yes. I get comfortable now.” Lexa said as she unbuttoned her shirt and removing it before she got to work on her pants. Tossing them aside quickly.
“Woah. Lexa warn a girl!” Clarke removed her gaze. She forgot Lexa was comfortable enough to walk naked around her all the time, so this was nothing for the brunette.
“I don’t like these clothes!” Lexa crossed her arms over her chest.
“What do you like?” Clarke lifted her gaze to marvel at the lithe body of Lexa. Strong legs and arms. She finally could appreciate the gorgeous tattoo on her right bicep and her fingers itched to touch it. Her muscles were firm thighs and abdomen and she was soft in all the right places. Lexa was truly a masterpiece.
“I can’t climb or run with the suits. I prefer this.” Lexa said pointing at her bralette and panties.
Clarke laughed, “Lexa you already know that you need to wear clothes when you’re outside.”
Lexa pouted. “Yes, I know Clarke. I just don’t like it. I liked the shorts and tops you bought me back home, but Titus say those aren’t worthy of a Woods.”
“Well, Titus has zero fashion sense. If you like the shorts we can go get you some more, okay?”
Lexa nodded.
“I ah, I’ll leave you, so you can put on something a little more comfortable and we’ll meet downstairs with my mom and Raven to get some lunch and catch up.”
///
Waking up to meet Lexa right before she went to school was doing wonderful things to her mood. Every single day was magical.
Lexa spent most of her day with Titus who was basically her main tutor. Raven would come in the afternoons to help Lexa with basic math. Indra joined later to continue working on Lexa’s language classes and whenever Clarke had free time she would teach Lexa art. On Friday’s Anya would drive Lexa to her appointments with Costia and then the cycle would repeat again and again.
During the weekends Wells and Raven would join them to watch movies. Lexa still held some kind of contempt for her best friend, but at least Lexa wasn’t trying to kill him. However, Lexa fought to be the one seating besides Clarke whenever the man was around and always made low growling sounds when he kissed her goodbye.
Lexa’s excitement for every single animation she watched on the big flat TV screen on her living room was palpable and such a joy to observe.
However, they couldn’t always watch movies. Lexa was as busy as Clarke was with school, if not more.
Exhaustion began to show on Lexa’s face by the dark circles under her eyes. The pressure was starting to get to her and Clarke was doing her best to make sure Lexa was okay. Sometimes in the afternoon they would have bike lessons, or Clarke would take Lexa to eat ice cream. Anything to make Lexa happy. But still that smile was starting to fade, and Clarke was wondering what could be going through Lexa’s head.
Going out with Lexa was also very taxing on her. Lexa was full of curiosity and of course strangers didn’t understand why Lexa approached them so freely. She wanted to learn, to try to untangle the mystery this world presented her but not everyone would be as kind to her in return.
Lexa began to stop requesting going out and that’s when alarms started to ring on Clarke’s head. When Lexa remained in her room looking through the window instead of running and playing in the backyard. According to Costia it was all part of the process of adaptation, but Clarke felt it was something else.
“Lexa?” Clarke asked before going inside her bedroom.
“Yes, Clarke?” Lexa lifted her head from the desk. She was drawing in one of the books Clarke gifted her.
“How are you?”
“I am okay. I am drawing.”
“It looks really great. Your technique is improving.” Clarke walked behind Lexa to look at her work.
It was apparently two stick figures that resemble herself and Lexa in the jungle. Clarke smiled but noticed to the side there were older drawings that were sadder.
“Can I look at these?” Clarke asked.
Lexa nodded and continued drawing.
The other drawing portrayed Lexa’s stick figure in the city surrounded by buildings. The colors were dark and the face wasn’t happy.
“You don’t like the city.” Clarke returned the drawing and sat on the edge of Lexa’s bed. “I hope that at least you are feeling comfortable in Polis. Tomorrow we should go for a swim in the lake, what do you say?”
“No, thank you.” Lexa answered flatly. “I have to study. Titus told me I can’t fool around anymore. A Woods is disciplined.”
“Ah uhm, well, there’s nothing wrong with a bit of fun. If you change your mind let me know. Now come to eat dinner.”
Clarke was filled with so much uncertainty.
///
The same pattern continued for the next few weeks and Clarke tried to discuss it with Titus, but the man was very stubborn and ignored her. The next time Anya came to town Clarke was definitely going to share this with her. For now. she had to focus on Lexa and see if she could find a way to make her smile again.
“Yup, that’s good!” Clarke observed the effort of Lexa working on her calligraphy. She was trying to write her name during their late-night practice. Even when school was being a pain in the ass, Clarke always made sure to make time for Lexa.
“Now what is the last letter?” Clarke asked looking at the already written letters L - E - X.
“A!” Lexa answered.
“Okay try it now.”
Lexa grabbed the pencil and with slow traces she began to draw the capital A.
“Very good!” Clarke praised checking the watch on her wrist. “Well it’s pretty late, you have to go to bed. Anya says that she found a place for you that you might love and is coming here to take you to check it out tomorrow.”
“I don’t want to leave. Lexa likes Abby’s breakfast.”
Clarke laughed. “I bet! Anya told me you’re moving close by. We’ll be neighbors. She sent some pictures to my mom. There are so many trees and the lake is really close.”
Lexa curved her lips, but the smile wasn’t reaching her eyes. “I like being neighbors with Clarke!”
Clarke frowned, wondering what was going on with Lexa. “Of course you do! Now brush your teeth, bathe and off to bed!”
Lexa thankfully didn’t hate taking baths now. Not since she discovered the bath bombs, courtesy of Raven. Lexa loved the bubbles and spent a long time playing in the bathroom with her animal toys. It was pretty interesting to hear how Lexa emulated the sounds of each of her animal collection to perfection. But tonight, she wasn’t as excited.
Clarke decided not to pry at the moment and give Lexa privacy.
Minutes later Lexa came out wearing nothing but her towel to pick up her pj’s. “Clarke! Hair!” Lexa said offering the brush to Clarke.
“Alright. Take a seat.”
Obediently Lexa took the chair in her desk and Clarke sat behind, she began to gather the wild chestnut wavy hair strand when she noticed the infinity symbol on her neck.
She had never seen anything beyond the tattoo on her arm due to Lexa’s use of button ups all the time.
“Woah. That’s new!” Clarke said while untangling the usual knots.
Lexa tilted her head.
“Your neck tattoo.” Clarke clarified, finishing with the last knot.
“Yes, I got new ink some time ago.”
“Okay you’re all set.”
“I show Clarke my story!” Lexa said. She turned around and let the towel fall to the floor.
“Oh!” Clarke gulped down she had no idea the tattoo was on all her spine. Also considering that Lexa was fully naked, for old time’s sake.
Lexa pushed her hair over her shoulder to give a better view to Clarke who approached looking at the design and not at those strong buttcheeks and very tanned, long legs.
“It’s beautiful.”
This time Clarke couldn’t contain herself and began tracing her fingertip over the top of the design.
“Airplane falling and crashing on the ground which is big circle. Small circles represent Lexa in the jungle throughout the years wandering around. Infinity symbol because Lexa will remember this journey forever. Lexa never forget Clarke.”
“You’re still sappy.” Clarke said blushing. “Now dress up and go to bed.”
Lexa quickly headed to the restroom to put on her pjs and moved to the bed.
“Want me to read you a bedtime story?” Clarke asked.
“No, thank you.” Lexa declined politely.
“Okay. Good night, Lexa.” Clarke said feeling deep inside that Lexa was definitely changing somehow.
“Good night, Clarke.”
///
After Anya showed Lexa her new place Lexa seemed satisfied. Knowing that there was a forest right behind, and a gorgeous lake pretty close by made Lexa feel less imprisoned.
However, that didn’t stop the changes that Clarke was beginning to notice in Lexa.
Lexa was more guarded, even with Wells around she wasn’t her usual over-protective friend. Lexa was quieter, she would smile at an invitation from Clarke to go out and decline politely. Not even pizza could get Lexa to agree to hang out with Clarke and her friends.
Lexa was acting so out of character and Clarke couldn’t understand for the life of her what was going on. Lexa was going to move out from the Griffins in a couple of days and Clarke was going to stop seeing her as frequently. Lexa was immersed in lesson after lesson that she wasn't sure Titus was going to allow her to even visit Lexa. That bald man wasn’t a fan of her, always blaming her for Lexa’s lack of concentration. Clarke couldn’t care less what that man thought of her.
Clarke and Lexa had been living under the same roof for 5 weeks. They had remained friendly towards each other. That was the plan. However, Clarke couldn’t deny that she was deep here. Her feelings for Lexa kept growing. Every touch from Lexa ignited a spark, her body reacted accordingly. With her sweet smile Lexa conquered her.
Clarke was almost done with school and was making plans for the summer before going to college. She wished to spend time with Lexa and maybe explore her feelings for the brunette. If only Titus wasn’t such an ass maybe they could really spend some quality time together.
For now, the only temporary fix to her situation was to fly solo. At least until she was brave enough to tell Lexa how she really felt for her.
Clarke sighed, tired of rolling on her bed. She hit the mattress, frustrated with so many thoughts flooding her head. She checked the clock on her night table and it was pretty late or extremely early, depending how you would look at it.
Clarke huffed, “Okay, I need to do this. I just need some quick release.” She said to herself trying to push past the embarrassment of admitting how hot and bothered she was by the green-eyed girl.
Slowly, Clarke slid her hand down her body, beyond the elastic band of her boxers. She whined feeling the wetness already pooling between her legs.
“Oh hell!”
Clarke exhaled softly moving her hand underneath her shirt to feel herself up. She closed her eyes and pictured those beautiful plump lips that she was dying to kiss again. That silky hair, how smooth would it feel between her legs.
“Fuck!”
She began flicking her thumb over her small bundle of nerves, making her gasp. Her breathing was becoming erratic, but she needed more. She pictured Lexa’s gentle, calloused hands running over the expanse of her body. Showering her with love and tenderness.
“Lexa!” Clarke began thrusting her hips as she dipped a finger inside. “Lexaaa.”
Clarke started to pick up a rhythm, moving her hips in cadence calling the name of the girl she needed. The girl she desperately wanted.
“Oh God, Lexa”
“Yes Clarke?”
“HOLY SHIT!” Clarke snapped her eyes open to meet green eyes already settled on her.
Lexa was furrowing her brows, she was squatting on the carpet forearms resting on her thighs.
“What is it Clarke?”
“Aaaaaah, nothing!!” Clarke cleared her throat sitting herself upright and making sure she was covered by her blanket while she fixed her pj’s underneath.
“I heard you calling me. Are you in pain?”
“No, not at all. I uh, I was… umm. I was thinking of you. A- a dream.” Clarke explained. “Why are you awake?” Clarke quickly changed topic.
“I am a light sleeper, Clarke. Jungle was a very dangerous place. I heard you in pain, so I came.”
Clarke chuckled “You came?”
“Yes, Clarke. I’m here.” Lexa said as a matter of fact. The innuendo flying over her head.
“Well at least one of us did.” Clarke cracked in laughter.
Lexa hearing the sound relaxed a bit, removing that crease in her forehead.
“Well um since you're here, what about we talk? That might help us with sleep, don’t you think? I promise there are no predators around, Lexa. You can lower your defenses and also, you have me.” Clarke offered.
Lexa nodded with a sheepish smile.
Clarke moved to one side of her full bed and lifted the blanket to welcome the brunette.
As soon as Lexa was comfortable she nested her face into Clarke’s neck.
“I was scared Clarke would not think of me after you left.” Lexa confessed.
Clarke chuckled. “I could never forget you. Why would you say that?”
Lexa shrugged avoiding giving an answer.
“Lexa?” Clarke rubbed her hand on Lexa’s back soothing her. “I know something is going on with you. You can always trust me. Tell me, what’s wrong?”
Lexa hesitated, Clarke didn’t push, giving the time to Lexa to make a decision.
After some silence she finally spoke. “Titus said I am weak for listening to my heart. That you’re bad influence. I am Alexandria Woods and I have to behave like it not like an animal.”
“Titus can suck it!” Clarke rolled her eyes. She really disliked that guy.
“Costia says I have to grow up and behave better among people, that no one will like me if I don’t change. Anya is always worried because of me and the company.”
“Hey, Anya loves you very much and she worried because she cares and Costia knows you’re a woman through and through, we already like you so I wouldn’t listen much to her anyway.” Clarke blushed because yeah, she was very aware of how much of a woman Lexa was. “But she wants you to act like we do - err, like normal people. However, she doesn’t get that’s your normal. This is who you are.”
Lexa removed herself from underneath Clarke’s chin to be at eye level with her resting her head on the pillow, she licked her lips shyly. “I still like Clarke more than friends. I want to mate Clarke one day but…” Lexa seemed suddenly ashamed and Clarke hated that expression on her pretty face.
“Lexa, you can tell me anything.” Clarke encouraged giving her full attention to the brunette.
“I know I am trouble, Clarke.” Lexa sat dejectedly. “I understand how hard this is for Anya and Gustus. I am burden for them.”
“You aren’t a burden for anyone! You’re family and they want nothing but the best for you!”
Lexa shook her head. “Clarke, I recently stopped using diapers. I am still learning to write and read! I am useless!”
Clarke’s heart was shredded. Lexa might not show it but of course she had a good perception of people’s thoughts, that might be why she stopped hanging out with her on the weekends. Lexa assumed she was embarrassing Clarke and her family.
“Everyone laughs at me because I am fool! I don’t like using shoes, people fear me because they only see a savage! I don’t fit in this world!”
“No Lexa, you’re part of this world. You grew up somewhere else and that makes you special. Doesn’t mean you don’t belong here with the rest of us.”
“I can’t have you because I am holding you back. I will never be good enough. Clarke needs an equal!” Lexa moved away from the bed, “I know you are my friend, Clarke but you will be better off without me.”
“Lexa, no wai-”
Lexa shut the door leaving Clarke alone.
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Clarke went inside Lexa’s room right away, desperate to talk with Lexa because that wasn’t true. Lexa was being filled with so much nonsense and she was doubting her feelings.
When she opened the door to Lexa’s room she found the bed empty. Clarke got scared Lexa had escaped and ran downstairs to look for Lexa.
“Lexa?” Clarke turned on the lights of the living room, but it was empty, she checked the windows were tightly shut just in case.
“Lexa, where are you?” Clarke moved into the studio and restroom, but they were empty as well.
“Clarke?” Abby walked out of her bedroom. “What’s going on?”
“It’s Lexa, mom.”
“What is it?” Abby asked more awakened.
“Lexa believes she’s a burden to all of us. She thinks we’ll be better off without her and that’s not true, mom!”
“The front door is locked so she must be in here, Clarke.” Abby wiped the sleepiness from her face. “Lexa is like a fish out of water right now. She must be feeling the weight of a legacy she never asked for. It’s not an easy task to become Alexandria Woods and she might miss her simple way of life.” Abby sighed and quickly put on a robe. “Check the backyard and I’ll check the garage since she loves to tinker things with Raven there.”
“Costia and Titus have been pushing Lexa too hard to assimilate her into our culture, mom. I’m not going to let her deal with that again if Lexa doesn’t want to. She’s an adult and she can decide if she wants to continue or not. She’s capable to make those decisions now. You gotta help her, mom!”
“That’s true. Lexa has shown more maturity and I think we should all listen to what she has to say. Anya will understand whatever decision Lexa wants to make but for now the most important thing is for you to talk with her.”
“Okay.” Clarke nodded and did as her mother said.
Thankfully, Lexa was sitting as expected on the branch of the tree in her backyard, staring at the moon above them.
“She’s out here, mom!” Clarke shouted.
“Oh, thank God. I’ll make some hot cocoa while you talk with her, okay? It’s cold outside so don’t linger, honey.”
“Lexa? Can I join you?” Clarke asked making sure her presence was known as she walked to the backyard.
“You should go to bed, Clarke. I am okay.” Lexa said as she hid how she wiped the tears running down her face to make herself look strong.
“No, you’re not.” Clarke said. “Sit with me?” and took the spot underneath the branch where Lexa was.
Lexa jumped down and sat beside Clarke, sitting shoulder to shoulder.
Lexa looked at Clarke, brows furrowed. “I don’t understand what you see in me, Clarke. I should go back home, to the jungle.”
Clarke knew this was the moment to be honest with Lexa. The last time she came clean, Lexa was unconscious in a hospital bed. Lexa was always so brave to open up about her feelings with Clarke. It was time that Clarke did the same.
“You’re my world, Lexa. I uh, I made a mistake…” Clarke said with a small smile. “I thought I was doing what was right for you. I thought that you becoming the Lexa you were meant to be was going to be the solution to my own messed up feelings.”
“You are going to college. I am behind classes and holding you back. I am not Alexandria Woods yet.”
“That’s the problem. You didn’t have to become Alexandria because you are already the Lexa you’re meant to be.”
Lexa frowned. “I don’t understand, Clarke.”
“You’re the one I want, Lexa. You taught me to see the world in a different light and you make me happy. You match me in every way even when we are so different - when you climb trees and scare the shit out of me or when you make those scary growls; heck, even I love when you run in your underwear in the backyard. You are my equal.”
Clarke offered her open palm to Lexa and Lexa joined her palm with Clarke’s. A reminiscence of the first day they met.
“You see? We’ve been equal since day one, Lexa. I’m sorry I failed to see it. Most importantly I want you to keep being yourself. I would never ask you to change, not for me and not for anyone else. I’m sorry if I ever made you feel bad because of it.”
Lexa shook her head. “No, need. I get it. I have to be adult!”
Clarke chuckled. “You are an adult, Lexa. Raven and my mom were always right. I treated you like a child, but you stopped being one years ago. I was scared of hurting you but actually it was me the one who was scared. I’m really sorry and uh, I want you to know that nothing will change the way you make me feel.”
Lexa maintained that stubborn crease in her forehead missing the meaning behind Clarke’s words.
Clarke rested her hand gently on Lexa’s cheek and tilted her head in her direction, Clarke leaned in slowly giving time for Lexa to reject her if that’s what she wanted. Lexa remained still and that’s when she closed the gap between them trying to convey her message to the confused girl.
She really missed kissing Lexa’s lips. Butterflies erupted in her belly and she knew this was the right thing to do. To hell with Costia and her recommendations, Titus could choke and fuck the world who didn’t understand Lexa. Lexa was who she was, and no one could change her.
Lexa responded slowly, always so careful. Getting acquainted quickly with each other, as if no time has passed at all. It was a sweet, wonderful kiss where their lips danced awkwardly around each other.
Lexa cupped the nape of her neck, being more confident, keeping her in place, opening up her lips that Clarke began to suck greedily. However, tonight wasn’t the time and place to use tongue though, so Clarke pulled away before things heated up.
“I love you, Lexa. I’m sorry for doubting your feelings. I know you feel the weight of the world right now, but you’re not alone. Not anymore. We’re a team and even when the world might want to change who you are, you taught me that you can’t tame a wild heart. You’re my Lexa and this is the one I love. Not a fancy entrepreneur but you - the bravest and kindest woman ever.”
“Clarke loves Lexa?” Lexa asked still in disbelief.
Clarke pushed a chestnut lock from Lexa’s forehead and pecked her lips. “Yes. I love you just the way you are. I want to keep reading you stories before bedtime and I want to teach you to paint and show you my world through art if that’s what you want. No one is going to make you do anything you don't like. I don’t give a fuck if Titus opposes. I only know I’m choosing to be with you because you’re my Lexa.”
“Clarke, are you sure?”
“You’ll be my mate after I graduate from college and if you still want to help Anya with the company that’s great and if you want to go back to the jungle then that’s fine too, but with me, okay? You can take all the time in the world to decide what to do and I’m not going to allow anyone to pressure you. It’s your choice, Lexa.”
“I don’t want to disappoint my family. My parents.”
“Anya and Gustus love you very much and if you decide this isn’t the place for you they will support you. Anya got you a place surrounded by nature, and she’s doing this because she wants what makes you happy and if you don’t like it she’ll understand.”
“So, I wait for Clarke to finish college to get mated?”
“Yup.”
“And Clarke wait for Lexa to learn about your world?”
“I promise, but I want you to know that you can learn at your own pace.” Clarke said, “In the meantime I’d love to date you.”
Lexa frowned. “Date Lexa?”
“Aah, like um, courting? I court you, so we can mate in the future.” Clarke grinned sheepishly.
“I will always want Clarke. Lexa always with you. Yes, I want to court Clarke!”
“Good, now kiss me please?”
And Lexa did.
“Hot cocoa is getting cold ladies!” Abby shouted peeking outside. “And definitely no sharing beds in this house as long as Lexa remains in here. I know you Clarke Griffin, you’re your father’s daughter!”
“Moooooooom!”
“You heard me, now hurry up you! I’d love to chat with Lexa some more.”
Lexa and Clarke stood up again holding hands and smiling at each other. Lexa closed her eyes and leaned her forehead against Clarke holding her closely.
“Wherever you are, in city or away. I always choose Clarke as my home.” Lexa whispered.
“And you’re mine so welcome home, Lexa.” Clarke answered, surrounding with her arms the brunette before the two walked hand in hand inside the house.
The future might be uncertain for the young couple that still had to face so many difficulties and continue their lives into adulthood. None would ever stop fighting for the other, for their love was pure. A friendship that began in the warm depths of the jungle evolved into a love story, where the girl from the city fell in love with the wildest heart in the jungle and together they were set to find their own place in the world.
THE END.