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all i can say for certain is
i hope you're happy
i hope he structures a grin
on your face that i never could
for i was so caught up in how
to love you and have you know it
i hope you know i still do
i know this is the part where
i'm supposed to hate you
where i should spit at your name
as if it's acid trying to burn me down
but really all i know is your name
tastes better in my mouth than
what i imagine it does in his
i'm trying everyday to not imagine
my ring on your finger like it was
for so long, and i hope it never felt
like a handcuff on your hand
for mine felt like everything being
wrapped together, after so many
years of scrambling, and you
you held it all together
but i hear his voice wherever i go now
his so-perfect voice that makes
your safety net like i once did,
and i wish i couldn't remember
how that felt to know
but i can't and i wish i could forget
i hate that i don't wish that at all
but i hope a day comes that i could
i hate still knowing everything about you
from your favourite mug you need to
have your morning brew in -
that green one that goes from dark to light
to your favourite memory of your mum
on the beach at seven years old
i hate that i'm knowing all this, and hoping
he never knows as much as me
i'm trying to remember you and
let you go all at once
i don't think i'm cut out for it
all i can say for certain is
i really hope you're happy