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Something wasn’t right and my mind refused to accept that it could be true. Time travel is something you see in a movie. I didn’t drink the tea the woman had brought to me, as a matter of fact I didn’t eat at all, that day. I stayed in bed, I wanted to wake up from that nightmare. All a could think about was my little baby, Ella, and every time I started talking about her, tears would come and I would be lost crying for a long time, until a fell asleep again.
Thorin received his meals in the room, every time I opened my eyes he was by my side with an understanding look on his eyes. He tried to talk to me and calm me down.
It went on for a few days, and eventually I started eating, especially after Thorin argued with me that I wouldn’t live to see Ella again if I continued refusing food. He had a point and every time I would try to say I wasn’t hungry, he would pull that card on me.
The other thing bothering me, was John. I couldn’t help imagining that he could be thinking that I had left him and Ella, to be with Thorin. I felt my heart break every time that thought crossed my mind.
The only thing a really wanted was to sleep, as much as I could until I woke up at home. Free from this nightmare.
After some time, I was getting of it all and something inside my mind begun telling me nothing would change unless I did something about it.
One night, I woke up and it was dark yet, there was just a little lamp that allowed me to see around. Thorin was sleeping next to me, he looked peaceful and tired. I got up and went by the window to look outside again, I looked for some resemblance with anything I knew, but there wasn’t any. I still didn’t want to believe, but it seemed like the impossible had indeed happened to us.
It suddenly hit me that it was the second time for Thorin. I felt so bad and so selfish, I had made this whole thing about me and my family, but he had been away from his life and his loved ones for much longer, and he didn’t give me any trouble about it. Not then, and not now. All he gave me us support.
I turned to look at him, still sleeping, how strong and amazing he looked, so handsome, so intelligent. He had taken everything that was offered to him and learned everything he could to understand this world better, he deserved a chance to live, and suddenly I knew that saving him was what this whole thing was about.
I found a paper and did my best to remember my dream and all we talked about that night, I tried to remember what happened after John went to sleep but I couldn’t. I did remember John saying that when one wants to change its story they should talk to the author of the book. The author is the only one who can change the story! He was so right!
“Mr. Tolkien!!” I said to myself “We MUST find Mr. Tolkien!” and I went to get my phone and google it to know how I would do that, when I realized that I didn’t have my phone or a computer, and considering that it was 1968, there was no google or even internet.
“Shut! I am back to the stone age!!” I grumbled and decided to got back to bed as it was very cold and early, took me a bit to sleep, but soon I was gone.
I was siting on a table downstairs, there was a beautiful golden light coming in through the window, Thorin wasn’t around, or the lady, or John or Ella, there were people siting on the other tables, the small groups were talking between them, it was a nice dining room and I was feeling better, I smiled to myself, thinking how crazy this whole thing was.
“It is very crazy, my little flower!” I looked up to see my granny, smiling at me
“How did you know what I was thinking?” I asked her and got up to hold her
My grandmother was an incredible woman, so beautiful, so sweet always helping everybody she could. She became a widow when she was very young, she had to work to support her three children, and she did it the very best she could.
Later she helped her children looking after us, her grandchildren. We were four, me from my mom, my cousin Andy from my uncle and my cousins Henry and Sue from my aunt Donna.
“I’m here for you my dear! To help with this task! You promised you’d see it through didn’t you, when the Dwarf King arrived, remember?” she asked
“I did say that I would help, but…” she interrupted me
“Do you remember your exact words that day?” she asked
The words came to my mouth “I told him I would do anything to get him home! Oh my… I didn’t mean THIS!!!” I said scarred
She laughed “Many times we don’t measure the words as we say them, we don’t consider the consequences that could come from that!” I just nodded agreeing, I could never ever imagine something like this “But you meant what you said, your heart was true, you really wanted to help him! So… I’m here to help you.”
“Thank you so much grandma!! I’m so lost!” I said and she took my hand in hers and touched my face with her other hand, I felt a tear fall.
“Don’t worry about John and Ella, they are fine. Do what you need to do, be true to yourself and to them and when you finish the task you’ll be home like nothing happened, like it was just a dream.” she said and I hoped she was right
She continued “Now, there is something you should see for yourself, after it’s finished you’ll wake up and you should know that THIS was NOT just a dream” she kissed me on the chic and the room vanished from my sight.
I was in my kitchen, at home, I heard voices coming from the living room and went to see what they were, I tried to pass but I couldn’t get in, the door seemed stuck. I called but there was no answer, so I went to look on the other side, where there was an entrance and from there I could see myself, John and Thorin talking about the dream I had. John spoke and laughed and then said he was going to sleep, he kissed me goodbye, and it was weird, because, I could feel it. After he was gone Thorin and I went through a lot of stuff and I seemed tired, so did he.
After an hour or so, I fell asleep, Thorin didn’t notice until sometime later and he got up and took a blanket to cover me, he kept on reading until he fell asleep by my side, I moved and he held me so that I wouldn’t fall, but he was so tired that he kept sleeping and so did I.
A few minutes passed and my sweet Ella came into the room, she saw us, went to Thorin and kissed him, then she came to me, touched my hair and kissed me too, she whispered in my ear “I love you mommy! Sleep well!”. I could hear it, I could smell her perfume and feel her warm touch, those little hands I now missed so much.
I opened my eyes to my new room, the sunlight was coming in through the curtains in a pleasant way, now my mind was adjusted, I DID miss my family but NOW I had a task to accomplish, NOW I understood why I came here, it was crazy, but if it had to be done, I was ready to do it.
I looked around and Thorin wasn’t in the room. I thought to myself, well, I’ll find him and tell him I know what we have to do. “We need to find Mr. Tolkien!!” I spoke out loud.