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After Jihoon's encounter with Seongwu, he doesn't go out as often as before to avoid from seeing Seongwu again and more importantly he's afraid he would encounter Seongwu with Woojin.
But he couldnt help it if his shift at the cafe has been changed to morning now. He sees Woojin in his training while he was observing people around him before he starts his shift.
He prays Woojin won't enter the cafe and his prayer works because Woojin walks past the cafe.
But his prayer does not work everytime.
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"Thank you! please come again!" He greets when the take away customer exits the cafe.
The door chimes indicating the entrance of a customer. But Jihoon's shift has ended so he is on his way to the door to leave the cafe.
With the entrance of the new customer he stops on his track. Staring right at the customer, he freezes.
"Hi. it's been a long time." The customer who turns out to be Woojin says and the flashback to 3 years ago comes in a waves to Jihoon.
It's the same words. Jihoon thinks and while he's still breaking, a little part of him is very happy to hear the voice again. the voice that actually greets him and not just placing order.
"yeah" Jihoon finally replies while standing still at his spot.
"Do you have some time to spare?" Woojin asks cautionly while eyeing his bagpack.
"I just ended my shift so yeah" Jihoon hates that he's willing to do anything to be together with Woojin again although Woojin is the one that breaks up with him.
Jihoon hate that he always turn soft for Woojin despite being broken by the very same guy three years ago.
Jihoon hates that his eyes always give the same sparks when looking at Woojin.
"Can we talk here or do you prefer somewhere else?" Woojin asks.
"here is fine" Jihoon tries to sound as monotonous as he can.
The cafe is quite full because it is Sunday and out of all table, that very table is the only vacant table. they have no choice but to sit there.
Jihoon hesitates in his steps but Woojin just walk to the table. Jihoon curses to himself in his head for agreeing to talk at the very cafe that they broke up in.
Woojin waits for Jihoon to sit so he could go and order drinks for them. He ordered Caramel Latte for Jihoon and Jihoon curses silently.
It is as if the flashback is happening all over again.
"Seongwu hyung told me that he met you the other day. He talks about you a lot. He's very fond of you but from the way he talks about you all the time shows me that he does not know what happened between us before. So i told him about our relationship." Woojin talks right away after putting the drinks in front of Jihoon. Jihoon can't even take a sip of his drinks.
"It doesn't matter anymore. We are strangers now, arent we? When you first saw me you acted like i was someone you've never met. I havent moved on and i think it will be harder now. but there is one thing i want to know the truth about." Jihoon replies.
"What is it?" Woojin replies immediately
"Before that, will you tell me the truth this time? You know i trust everything if it's you who says it." Jihoon pleads.
"I have never lied to you, Jihoon." Woojin replies sadly. "i just did not tell everything to you"
"Is what you said 3 years ago the real reason for you to break up with me?" Jihoon finally gather his courages to ask the question
"it was. but it's not valid now." Woojin answers softly
"what do you mean?" Jihoon frowns not understanding what Woojin meant
"You do deserve to be happier, a lot more happy. it was true i was not able to love you as much as you love me. because the love you give is huge. i felt like the love i was trying to give was not enough. i did hope for you to find someone who can love you as much as you love or even more but it was really hard for me to say it. it breaks my heart knowing i was the reason behind your sufferings. it was then i knew i was just doing harm to you. i shouldve told you i was applying for a special course with Seongwu hyung." Woojin tells his real feelings, his real reasons.
"Is that why you left?" Jihoon asks simply
"it was. it was my fault for not telling you my real feelings. I'm afraid if i tell you i wouldnt be able to leave. You know how i would follow whatever you say. I had to give up one of my dreams to achieve another. i was selfish when i made the decision, i know. but more than that i was heartbroken knowing you had breakdowns numbers of time in a week." Woojin says
Jihoon eyes doubled at that sentence
"how- how did you know?" Jihoon stutters. He thought his breakdowns is kept as secret by his housemates
"I was the one who asks Jinyoung to be in the same house as youm So he could keep an eye on you for me. He did not do any wrong. Don't be mad at him." Woojin replies
Jihoon recalls that everytime he had breakdown, Jinyoung would tuck him to sleep and one time he heard Woojin's voice faintly but he simply thought he was dreaming of Woojin. It turns out Jinyoung has been updating his condition to Woojin.
"I know you did not take care of your meal properly anymore. I know you have had insomnia for quite some time. I could not help but think those are caused by me. the first time you started having those problems is when i avoided you." Woojin continues when Jihoon did not say anything
"It's not. Please don't blame yourself for it. I simply getvused to that kind of living style. it was because of you before but it is not now. So please don't blame yourself." Jihoon answers although Woojin does not ask a question.
"Can I ask something?" Woojin cautiously ask for permission.
When Jihoon says yes, he asks "Would it be selfish of me to ask you to give another chance to me?"
To which Jihoon replies
"I never take away your chance, Woojin"