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3 years has passed.
I'm now working at some company as a secretary. It was so busy and tiring. But, at least the salary was high.
I'm too busy with my work, and makes me forget about what happened at that day. I don't have time to thinking about that.
And, guess what ? Han is married with Sungjin.
Mad ? No.
Angry ? No.
Happy ? Of course.
I'm very happy that Han married with Sungjin. When other people are mad or their feelings are hurt because of their friends with their crush, but not for me. I'm very happy.
All I need now is work, work, and work to forget everything that hurts me. I'm too focused on my daily life, and forget about my love life.
Even though there were several person trying to approach me, including Jae, I ignore them all. I might be forget about everything. But, there's one person I couldn't forget. He won't get out of my mind. Who else if not Ian.
"Huft".
I've finished my work and got day off. It was so boring. Winter is the perfect season to be lazy and don't do anything at home. It was so cold outside. Watching drama on the bed while enjoying a cup of hot chocolate, that's what i called 'heaven'.
Today was also the 3rd year since that day. The day when I hit him. When I spilled his coffee to his white shirt. A day when He asked me to be his 'girl-friend'. Time flies so fast.
"3 years, huh ? That was fast." My mind goes blank. I couldn't think clearly.
Checking my phone is useless. There are no notification. Only unread emails from my boss, verify account, or spam. No emails from him. Even one email. He even blocked me on every social media He have.
I forgot how He looks like now. The only things I remember from him was his long hair, his thin facial hair, his warm hug, and his soft smiles.
"Silly." My vision become blur because of the tears blocking my view. I never crying about him again, and i'm trying to ignore the reality that I was crying because of him.
Mr. Sun warms up the city. It was a sunny day. I don't want to waste this moments, because since last week always snowing. Some fresh air maybe could clear my thought.
I use my coat and ride my car. I don't know where to go. Just wasting my gas and makes the pollution. Sorry.
Some place popped up on my mind. It was Ian's secret place. A cherry blossom field. I decided to visit that place.
That place still so quite. Nobody was there. Only me and my car. I walked to the big tree, which was the main point. Not many changed. Only the tree that shed it leaf.
The view is not changed. The city still looks so small. The wind is still cold. My face was freezing because of the cold wind blew my face.
I took out the memories that unforgettable. His warm hands on that cold days. I've never heard anything about him again.
I've been frozen up inside. Waiting for him to keep his promise for 3 years. Maybe He was busy with his family bussiness. I thought he would be forever remembering me, but... I have to let him go. The winter with him is passing.
I inhaled the smells of winter. It so cold. It could freeze my lungs. I exhaled a hot breath. The smoke that came out from my mouth was so thick.
I thighten my scarf and put my hands inside the pockets. Even though it's cold, I don't want to go. I want to stay here a little bit longer.
I heard someone walks here. I turned my body to see who is it.
And guess what ? I couldn't believe what I saw.
The person I've been waiting for to keep up his promise.
The person I've been waiting for 3 years.
The person I've been missing him for 3 years.
The person that couldn't get out of my mind.
The person that close my heart for other man.
It was Ian.
He cut his long hair. I could see the same facial hair, so thin. But, He wore glasses now. Looks like He was very busy with his family bussiness.
I swallowed my lump. My heart pouring. My body heated up. I turned my head and shook my head to encourage myself it was only my imagination.
He suddenly on my side. He glued a cup of hot coffee on my cheeks. It was so hot.
I get away and covered my cheeks with my cold hand.
"It's been a long time. Do you miss me ?". A warm smile I've been missing for 3 years.
I was very happy that I could see his warm smile again.
I was very happy that I could being on his side again.
I was very happy that I could hear his heavy voice again.
I'm started to cry again.
"Why are you always crying everytime you see me ? Do you miss me a lot ? I'm sorry If I never say hi to you. But, believe me. I never forget about you. You are the reason why I am back here."
I am the reason why He come back here ?
"Stop crying. You looks so ugly when crying." He wiped my tears with his warm hand.
My freezing face melted because of his warm hand.
"I ask again. Do you miss me ?".
I nodded my head without doubt. I really miss him. I couldn't deny it again. I couldn't hold back this feeling again. I have to encourage myself that i miss him and still love him.
He hug me again. His hug not changed at all. Still warm. His chest still broad. His coat makes his body soft, very comfortable. I'm started to crying again in his hug. This is the first time I'm crying like this again after 3 years.
"I miss you too"
He kissed me. His mouth was hot because of the hot coffee. His mouth was bitter and sweet because of the americano coffee.
His kiss was so warm. His kiss makes my heart warm. His kiss cures this feeling of missing him. It was the best first kiss for me.
"I love you"
"I love you too."