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You didn't really understand what was happening. You were pretty sure, that at some point, you had blacked out from the pain that she inflicted on you with her tortures.
It didn't hurt physically, it hurt mentally. She kept slashing at you, with memories of her and Dean while they were at it, and boy did it work. Watching the photos was one thing, but actually being forced to watch the whole thing, it made you sick.
And each time she saw your lips tremble, or your eyes twitch, she would smirk and cut five times your skin, with her blade.
But you didn't mind the cuts. You actually felt liberated. You counted each and every one of them, and for each you gave a reason; This one for not protecting your family, and that one for not being able to keep Dean. The other one for making Bobby worried, and this one, over there, for making Sam sad. And you went on and on, inside your mind, counting and giving reasons. Naming each and every one of them. Always finding a reason.
And now? Now you felt that maybe, just maybe, you could let yourself go. You had done your duty. You had killed hundreds, and you had avenged for your family. Well... sort of... They were avenged, until she came back to life.
When you dared to open your eyes again, your stare met a pair of green emerald eyes. Your breath was caught in the middle, for you were trying to hold back tears. You weren't ready to face Dean yet. And then, his lips were on yours, sucking and giving away all of his secrets. It wasn't the usual, passionate, kiss that you shared with Dean when you were together. No, it was slow and loving, and you felt like he was worshipping you.
Dean slowly stopped kissing you, and breathed as he pulled away.
"Dean..."
"I-" he stuttered, "I love you so much, Ruby"
And that was it. That was the last straw.
Sam's P.O.V
Y/n screamed and thrashed at the ropes Ruby was currently holding her with. Tears fell from her eyes, as she started sobbing.
Ruby smiled, and turned her back on me, while she moved towards y/n.
"What was that sweetheart?" Y/n mumbled something and I saw Dean tense and Ruby smirk. I looked around, trying to find a way out, or simply trying to figure out a way to kill the traitor I had before me.
Y/n mumbled again, and Dean cursed. Cas had his hands on his head, and he looked as if he was concentrating.
And then, Dean moved. He run towards Ruby, and towards y/n, and tried to move Ruby away from y/n. But she was faster. Faster than the last time I saw her. Faster than any demon, could ever be. She moved her hand without even blinking, and suddenly Dean hit a wall, and fell down, blood trickling down from his head.
"DEAN", Cas and I shouted.
"I'm fine, help y/n" he growled.
Cas helped Dean stand up, but froze midway, when we all finally understood what y/n's mumbles meant.
"Kill me" she said, and looked up at me, eyes pleading. "Please..."
"No. No no no no no. NO" Dean shouted. "You hear me? I am not letting you die"
Y/n's head turned at the sound of Dean's voice, and she laughed.
"Great. The pie master is here as well", and then she screamed as Ruby touched her.
"Don't. Touch. Her", I growled.
"Sammy!" Ruby's eyes shined. "Enjoying the party?"
"Let. Her. Go." I growled again.
"Or what?" she huffed. "You can't kill me"
"He can't. But I can."
I turned around. I saw Dean's eyes shoot to mine, before settling to the figure that stood behind me. And then I saw Cas. And he was fiddling...
"Cas..."
Ruby fell on her knees.
"Lucifer..."
Dean's P.O.V
Great. Just great. It wasn't enough for us to have one demon to deal with, now we had the king of the fucking illusions as well.
"What the fuck, are you doing here?"
Lucifer shrugged.
"I like her. It'd be a shame for her to die. So many possibilities..."
Ugh. Great. Lucifer liked her.
"What's next? Michael coming for tea? Gabriel baking cookies?"
"Hey! My cooking is amazing, you asshat."
Gabriel stood next to y/n, and was untying her slowly and carefully. My heart twitched. That was my job. My role. I was supposed to do that, not him.
"You should have thought of that before breaking her heart, sugar."
I sighed, and turned my head towards Lucifer.
"What are you going to do about her?"
Lucifer scratched his head and looked at Ruby, who was currently trying to be one with the floor.
"Well, I was thinking of keeping her, since you know she tricked you into helping me out of the cage and stuff", he looked at Sam who was staring at the floor with interest. "But seeing all the stuff she made poor Sammy here get through, I'll just-" He touched Ruby, who closed her eyes, "- you know, kill her."
Ruby screamed, and suddenly she was gone.
Lucifer whispered something to Sammy, who nodded, and then he was gone as well.
"What did he say?" Sam looked down. "Sammy, what did he say?"
"It's none of your business, Dean."
"Sweetie... Hey sweetie, you can't go to sleep yet." Gabriel whispered to y/n
I run towards y/n, who was being cradled in Gabriel's arms. She smiled lazily at Gabe, and my heart froze.
"Hey Gabe... Thanks for being here for me"
"Always, love" Gabe murmured.
Reader's P.O.V
The last thing you remember is Gabriel's sweet smell and smile. Everything else is coming slowly, in bits and pieces.
Dean's puffy eyes, Sam's reassuring smile, and Cas's anxiety.
You wake up disoriented and grumpy, wondering where the hell you had landed on this time.
You presume you are in a room, since there are four walls and a ceiling, but you are quite surprised that you're not being held captive in an awful hospital.
You pat your body with your hands, making sure that you are still in one piece, and then you pat the bed for any weird-sucking-blood tubes.
Instead of a tube, your left hand finds a hairy round thing, that mumbles and drools on your bed.
"Noommm.. don't take her away from me... she's mine... mine I say..."
Dean. Great. The last person you wanted to see was drooling on your bed, next to your hand.
You sigh and poke him, in order to wake him up, but instead he continues to mumble.
"Noo Gaaabe... Miiiine." He was probably dreaming about pie. It wouldn't be the first time.
"Mine, Gabe! Mine. Leave her alone.."
You poke him again.
"Mmmm... Ruby..." You freeze. "You bitch, look what you.. hmmm.. made me doo." What is happening.... "NO. DON'T TOUCH HER. DON'T EVEN SCRATCH HER."
Your hand shoots up in alarm, only to come back down when you realize that Dean is having a nightmare. He's thrashing around and... and he's crying?
"Dean? Dean wake up" Dean never cried..."Dean, please, wake up..."
Dean's eyes flew open, his hands immediately wiping away the fallen tears.
"Oh, thank God. You're awake... Thank God" He says and he engulfs you into a huge Dean-bear hug. He buries his head on the crook of your neck and sighs. You take a big breath and his intoxicating smell reaches you. He smells like Dean, and home... and... and he's real... he doesn't have the foul smell of the dream... he's real...
"Dean..." you say, tears cascading down your cheeks. "Dean I-"
"I'm sorry... I'm so sorry, about everything..." He looks into your eyes, and slowly wipes away your tears. "I need to... I need to explain to you..."
"Dean... I-" you sigh, "-I don't really want to talk about it..."
"I know, it's just..." he looks up frustrated. "I've never been good with expressing myself, baby, you know that..." His hand wipes another tear.
"It's okay... I just..." You try to sit up and fail.
"Hey, wait.. take it slow..." he helps you up.
"How long have I been out?" you ask, your eyes searching Dean's. For the first time since you woke up, you notice the black circles underneath his alluring eyes.
"Two weeks..." He says, his voice trailing off, as your hand cups his cheek and strokes his stubble absentmindedly. He sighs contently and leans in your hand.
"You need to shave..." He laughs, and moves closer to you, his lips a shadow above yours, his eyes asking for permission.
"Please... let me explain... give me another chance..." His eyes look into yours, a small pool of water gathering once again, turning the emerald green a bit darker than before.
He smiles sadly, and your heart thaws, making you lean in and place your lips on his. And then you watch fascinated, as his mind slowly registers what's happening, as realization hits him, the change on him. He smiles once again, and kisses you softly, afraid that he might somehow hurt you. Afraid that you might run away.
When he finally draws back, you are both breathless. He closes his eyes and rests his head on yours, smiling and sighing, his tension finally leaving.
"I love you, y/n", and this time it's your eyes that can't hold back the tears. "I love you, and I will never let you go away."