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Chapter 7
Clarke:
Time continued to fly by for Clarke. She was extremely busy, either working out, doing her side jobs, learning her lines, going to auditions, making new friends. She told herself this is what she wanted. This was all good. Right?
Not long after being cast Clarke's agent set her up for meetings with producers, chemistry readings and filling out paperwork. This overwhelmed Clarke, she was still new to the business. But she knew this was learning experience and she could get through it, at least that’s what she kept repeating in her head. The hardest part of it all was how afraid Clarke was of failing and not being good enough. This industry could be heartbreaking and fickle, she didn’t want to expect the worst but she couldn’t help but think that the other shoe had to drop.
But her calls with her mum, her therapy sessions and her friends she grew a bit more confident to try things out and believe in herself more.
Soon she found herself getting ready for the first week of shooting. They had done many rehearsals and meetings. Which although scary at first were very helpful for her so she felt more comfortable come to shooting time. And Clarke made sure to study like hell for her part. Which was witty, flamboyant and probably slightly crazy. But she loved the character for its depth.
It was also the week her brother Michael moved to England for rugby. Her brother was finally pursuing a career in his favourite sport. To be honest, Clarke was happy he was starting to take himself a bit more seriously. During Clarke’s time away from home, she could hear her mother stressed in phone calls about how reckless and lazy he was in Australia and that this might force him to grow up a little. Her brother was known mainly for being reckless and making poorly thought-out decisions. So this would surely be good for Michael. It would help as well that they had family in England so he had support. A bit more than Clarke had internationally.
Her younger sister Chloe was changing careers often and still trying to find something she was passionate about and her brother Aiden was in his final year of school and getting ready to graduate.
Clarke had a bunch of baby pictures of her and siblings up on her bedroom walls. Normally she wouldn’t but after time apart she weirdly cherished the memories. Time was going fast and sometimes she liked to look back at how far they had all come. She rarely thought much of family with how busy she was, it was nice to be updated and reminded that she had them and their love.
So it was her first week and she was as prepared as she could be. She knew and liked the cast and crew already. All they had to do now was make it happen. Get to work. Clarke was excited about the trajectory of the show though. She loved the script and writing. It was new and bold. It was relevant and relatable. Shocking and hilarious. Deep and beautiful. She was falling in love with it. She was honestly still in doubt this was happening to her. The first season was almost done writing but it was subject to change. If there was anyone she wanted to meet and hadn’t yet it was the writers. There was a team of them. A very great team. She wanted to ask loads of questions about their ideas.
When Clarke has a character or project she likes to dive deep. She loves being almost like a detective and figuring out the meaning behind the words and what makes the characters tick and why. She found it extremely helpful when acting but also fun to do.
Along with time moving fast, Raven and her blind date now friend were hanging out more. Raven liked this Lexa girl. She found her sweet. And overtime very charming. But only a friend. Raven said she would much rather Lexa’s friendship. Clarke found out more (through Raven) about Lexa. Her home in both LA and Australia. Her job and her day to day routines as told by Raven. Clarke was glad Raven made a friend. From what Clarke found out she figured she liked Lexa and that Lexa could actually keep up with someone like Raven. Clarke's other friends outside Raven and Octavia were friends of Raven and Octavia. Some friends were people she met on jobs and such. But they were all on the job friends or would only hang out at social gatherings. Clarke didn’t have time to completely connect with people as much now.
Octavia had started to develop a crush on her personal trainer and found herself becoming obsessed with the gym, and a certain trainer. All the while trying her best to stay focused on her career. Clarke and Raven love to tease her about, how a boy made her lose focus.
Clarke is glad she doesn’t have any relationship stuff going on. Not that’s she’s opposed to it. She just doesn’t want it right now. Sometimes she’s lonely and might get down and think she’s single for a reason, being that she might be unlovable or not meant for a romantic relationship. So she mostly would rather focus on her career keep focused on her goals. She’s having fun and finally gaining more from acting.
So things continued to go as smoothly as they could. Soon it was week four of filming and Clarke was in love with her newest job.
Her new friend Echo who was in the cast had told Clarke about an upcoming get together with cast and crew. The producer was organising it to celebrate the show and for everyone to meet people they hadn’t already met.
The night came and the cast and crew of the show had an area to themselves at a fancy restaurant in the middle of LA.
Clarke was nervous but she knew that was just how she got at things like this. Sure she’d much rather stay at home and eat by herself and watch Netflix. But networking was a big part of her business. Plus it would probably do her some good. After making herself comfortable enough she decided to mingle with the crew and find the writers. She left Echo to go and mingle. A crew member from food services introduced her to the first writer she met that night. He was nice and friendly and helped Clarke meet the rest of his team.
She found out he- Roan had a wife and a three-year-old daughter and loved cricket. Which instantly reminded her of her dad. Roan asked (claiming since she was Australian and should be a big fan of the sport) what her opinion on the Australian team was. She responded that her father would know more about it, she didn’t like the sport, as it made her sleepy, that comment got a few giggles from the group. Roan laughed at that and then introduced her to the team. Most of the team were in their thirties expect one; the youngest of the team, which Roan liked to call the baby of them all. She was only 24, two years older then Clarke. The youngest girl was a young brunette with curly long hair and big green eyes and full lips, and a body to die for.
Clarke inwardly rolled her eyes at herself. Of course, she checked out a crew member, how appropriate. But she had to admit she did really like the way this girl looked. She looked soft and sweet but also ready to pounce if you said the wrong thing. At moments like this she questioned if she did like men, there were plenty of attractive men she had met but it didn’t seem to interest Clarke, and then she would meet beautiful women like this and forget men existed. Something Clarke and Raven always joke about, they joke that men just don’t seem to tickle their fancies they would say and much prefer women.
The youngest rolled her eyes at the jokes and had witty comebacks for the rest of the writers to which there were three others beside Roan. The youngest writer extended her free hand that wasn’t holding on to a glass of wine, to shake Clarke’s hand and smiled.
“I’m Lexa Woods, ignore these old farts, they wouldn’t survive without me.” Lexa finishes off with a smirk.
Her handshake is firm and short. Clarkes laughs, maybe too strongly. As the writers continue to banter.
Clarke likes this group of people. Especially this Lexa girl. Clarke now doesn’t feel as young in this group of mainly older people. Clarke wanted to actively seek Lexa out both because she seemed like they would get along well and Lexa intrigued her.
Except she recognises Lexa’s name. She feels herself questioning if she’s met this girl.
Wait…
“Wait, Lexa, do you by any chance know a Raven, she’s always talking about her new friend Lexa?” Clarke says.
The group pauses and looks between Clarke and Lexa.
“I thought I recognised your name! Clarke! Raven has told me lots about you.” Lexa replies. Clarke now understands why Raven thinks Lexa is so attractive.
Soon after Clarke and Lexa put two and two together. The rest of the writers spread out to their groups and eventually left Lexa and Clarke alone to talk about their shared friend Raven.
They both laughed about how Lexa and Raven met and became friends. After talking about Raven they talked about how ironic it was that they technically worked together. How small the world is. Then after that, Clarke praised and complimented the writing of the show, maybe too much but Lexa seemed to like it and blushed, which Clarke found adorable. She liked having that kind of power.
Lexa talked about how writing all came together. Very passionately and seriously, Clarke was hanging on every word. Lexa soon moved on to the character Clarke plays and Lexa’s input, how she wanted to see more women like that on screen. This then turned to Lexa’s career in writing. Then Clarke's career up to now. After enough work and career talk Lexa asked Clarke to join her outside where it was less noisy and crowded. Clarke, of course, loved that idea.
Throughout the night Clarke mainly stuck with Lexa. Often some people found the two girls but then would shortly leave. Then Clarke and Lexa found themselves back into their conversation. It’s not that Clarke didn’t want to hang out with her other friends she had made, she just really enjoyed Lexa’s company and especially loved how she kept making Lexa laugh. It was really cute. Then extremely sexy when Lexa bit her bottom lip. Was it obvious that Clarke hadn’t had sex in a while if she found a simple lip bite sexy? But she enjoyed indulging, maybe it helped with the amount of alcohol she was consuming.
Sure Lexa laughed mainly because Clarke was awkward and would blabber on. Or would make self-deprecating jokes but soon she found herself comfortable enough to not be a complete dork in front of Lexa and they found themselves going from funny to slightly serious topics.
Clarke both hated and loved how easily she got along with Lexa. It shouldn’t be this easy? She also blamed that Lexa was really pretty so of course the ‘gay’ in Clarke couldn’t stay away. Especially when tipsy. Clarke hoped the other girl was having as much fun as Clarke was having. She didn’t know if Lexa knew Clarke liked women. It was obvious that Lexa did since Lexa met Raven at a gay women’s blind dating event. But she wondered if Lexa knew, maybe this was just a friendly encounter to her. It was of course. But Clarke had met other women and none of them made Clarke feel at ease this quickly. She probably had the alcohol to blame. Clarke was starting to feel fuzzy and kept staring at Lexa’s lips.
Lexa didn’t seem to mind and liked Clarke just as much as Clarke liked her. This was proved when Lexa added her on Instagram. Clarke knew she would stalk her on the app later.
Soon the party was over and Clarke enjoyed herself a lot.
She couldn’t wait to tell Raven about Lexa.
“She was my friend first Clarke!” Raven groaned from the couch.
Clarke rolled her eyes. “So what? I can’t be her friend then?” Clarke asked and rolled her eyes half-heartedly at Raven. Clarke was in the kitchen making dessert for herself and her friends. And by making desert it mainly consisted of putting a pre-baked meal in the oven.
Clarke rolled her eyes at Raven's moaning. Her friend was a quick drunk.
It was their monthly tradition where they would all sit together and watch Netflix, play video games or any other games. Eat junk and get drunk. They were rarely always together and if they were, they were sleeping, eating or too tired.
It was the end of the first week of December. The past few months were busy as ever and only now started to slow down as projects were starting to finish up with the holidays coming up.
This dessert was Christmas themed and because it was Clarke's turn to cook and she was hopeless, so she had gotten some tips from her mum to make amazing Christmas puddings.
But yes, it was December the weather was starting to cool and winter was fast approaching. Clarke loved winter in America already. It beat the scorching sun in Australia during Christmas.
“It’s just not fair! How come she didn’t invite me?” Raven asked.
Clarke knew Raven wasn’t really that upset but she played along.
“Because she loves me more, duh?” Clarke said and sat in between her two friends on the couch.
Lexa and Clarke after meeting at the work party became a bit closer. They worked together so they saw each other more often than Clarke saw her friends. Although Lexa wasn’t cast she still would most often see Lexa at least weekly. Lexa in her downtime would try and have lunch with Clarke in her trailer and they would chat and catch-up for their breaks. Clarke also tried to get secrets out of Lexa to know what was ahead for the end of the season. But Lexa never told her of course, saying it was hilarious how impatient Clarke was.
Lexa and Clarke found that they got along pretty easily. They had a lot in common. They both liked similar foods and music and film. After a couple of weeks after noticing Clarke took public transport home Lexa offered to take Clarke home from now on if they finished around the same time. Which only brought them closer. Clarke now would happily sing a tune on the radio in front of Lexa not caring how embarrassing she was being. She loved getting a reaction out of Lexa.
Clarke found out about Lexa's home life and her sister Anya. She felt bad that Lexa had gone through her parents’ divorce and finding out she had a sister later in life, but glad that it worked out in the end. She found out how Lexa had come out to Anya and how Anya was totally cool with it. Which Clarke envied. Clarke’s parents were disappointed and confused at first she remembers. But now they are fine. She thinks anyway. Abby and Jake will roll their eyes and laugh at Clarke's gay jokes but don’t seem to hate it.
She found out more about Lexa’s best friend Lincoln and her first best friend in Australia Luna and how her dad, Gustus, how he was a bit angry with her coming out.
In turn, Clarke told Lexa about her coming out. Which shocked Lexa slightly, Lexa replied saying she didn’t think Clarke liked girls and Clarke replied she prefers girls most of the time which left a bit of tension in the air. But they laughed about it in the end. Clarke told Lexa about Niylah. Then university, about meeting Raven and Octavia.
The more they spoke the deeper the conversations went. Which didn’t seem to bother either of them. Clarke liked going into the deep stuff. She liked being listened to. And doing the same for Lexa. Although daunting she liked feeling the connection. And when Clarke would tell Lexa something sadder then most stories Lexa would say how proud she was of Clarke for pushing through it all. Clarke appreciated this so much so she did her best to be as good a friend as any to Lexa too.
Clarke found she hadn’t experienced someone like Lexa before. Sure she had her best friends throughout her life. But none like Lexa. Lexa was much more patient and wanted to listen to Clarke and verbalised how much she really enjoyed Clarke opening up. Lexa would also verbalise how proud she was of Clarke often. And Clarke found herself doing the same for Lexa. She always felt supported by Lexa no matter how small or mundane. So she wanted to do the same for Lexa as well.
Clarke found it hard to compliment and show verbal support and would find herself getting nervous in the past but she has warmed up with Lexa. Soon Clarke would tell Lexa about almost everything that was happening. Like how a boy from school kept spamming her asking to go a date. Or how the bus was late. Or a funny comment made in therapy. They talked about everything. It felt like a relief to have Lexa around.
Lexa was a little bit into star signs and personality tests. It’s not like she believed them but she liked how it could be accurate sometimes. They did a bunch of tests together ranging from serious ones to the dumb ones from beauty magazines. Clarke’s favourite was the love language quiz. She found out her love language was quality time and after that words of affirmation. Which made total sense. Lexa’s were quality time and physical touch. Which now that Clarke knew she could tell about the girl. How Lexa would always hug her hello and goodbye. Would lean her head on Clarke's shoulder. Would sometimes reach out in conversation and fiddle with Clarke's fingers with her own.
She found herself feeling calmer and happier around Lexa. They both built each other up and discussed how important healthy relationships and friendships are.
So Clarke would probably classify Lexa as a close friend. She hopes to have in her life for a long time.
Of course, Lexa and Clarke hung out with Raven and Octavia and some of Lexa’s friends but they mainly spent time together.
As the holidays came closer Lexa invited Clarke to spend Christmas Eve with her. Clarke was beyond excited to spend this quality time with Lexa. It also helped that Lexa said she was going to make sure Clarke had her first and best Christmas Eve in America.
The girls cared for each other. Lexa made Clarke happy and Clarke was sure she made Lexa happy too.
“I can’t help that I don’t work with her! Besides I wouldn’t want to interrupt you two love birds” Raven mocked.
Clarke laughed at this. Sure Clarke and Lexa were close but they weren’t in love. They were just friends. Clarke didn’t need anything more. She liked how things were. Sure she found Lexa to be beautiful and Lexa would be a great girlfriend. But that’s just not what they are.
“She’ll never replace you my love” Clarke mocked and starting tickling Raven until Raven and Clarke were in a tickle fight to which Octavia had to pull them apart.
Lexa:
Lexa pulled up in front of Clarke’s apartment complex and texted Clarke she was outside waiting for her. It was lunchtime on Christmas Eve and Lexa had promised Clarke the best day ever.
She had it all planned out. Go to Clarke’s favourite Asian restaurant. Then take her to Disneyland. Go on a couple of rides and then be ready for the winter wonderland Christmas parade.
Lexa always loved Christmas and wanted Clarke to have fun. She knew Clarke missed her family. Even though Clarke said she’s happy that she can spend it with her friends. She knows Clarke does miss it, even if Clarke says she doesn’t miss the stress of the Griffin household. Clarke’s family was also going to England this year to visit Michael and the rest of the family.
Clarke was going to see them the week after Christmas for a week as she didn’t have enough money or time but still wanted to be with them for a bit. Plus England was closer travel-wise then it would’ve been from Australia.
So Lexa wanted to make sure Clarke felt special and not homesick.
Anya made fun of Lexa for organising this day with Clarke but Lexa didn’t think Anya understood how close hers and Clarke’s friendship was. They had known each other for close to five to six months now. Lexa loved Clarke but just as a friend. She found Clarke to be beautiful, funny, adorable, smart, and talented and all these amazing things. But Lexa didn’t want a relationship. She liked being single and the freedom that came with it. It’s not like a partner would drag her down. But she was not focused and needed in her job. And Clarke was the same. Plus Lexa doubted someone like Clarke would date Lexa. She was happy being close friends that’s all she could handle.
“LEXA. I’m so fucking excited, let’s eat!” Clarke came and plopped herself in the passenger seat and buckled herself in.
“Hello to you too Clarke and how are you?” Lexa rolled her eyes and smiled and started driving to their first destination.
“I’m really keen! Raven is super jealous. But don’t worry I just told her you loved me more so she’s good now.” Clarke joked.
Lexa let out a small giggle. “Of course I love you more! You spoke to your mum yet?”
The conversation continued and soon they arrived at Clarke’s favourite restaurant. To which Lexa paid for everything, much to Clarke’s disagreeing and saying she’ll pay her back.
As they waited in line at Disneyland it was really busy. But that didn’t bother either of the girls as they enjoyed each other’s company and were eating the snacks or watching the Christmas characters walking around.
Clarke had never been to Disneyland so Lexa was disappointed that they only got to make it on three rides before most of the good ones closed down for the parade. But Clarke didn’t mind and just said they’d have to go again.
Clarke held Lexa’s hand most of the time. Worried about getting pushed away from her and eventually losing her. Lexa didn’t mind. She knew Clarke could get stressed in busy crowds. She was happy to help.
As they were in a good enough spot and had their drinks and snacks with them. They began waiting for the Christmas parade to begin. Both went on their phones to do whatever they needed to do. Lexa noticed the sun begin to set and knocked Clarke’s shoulder to get her attention to look at how pretty it looked. But when Clarke looked up her eyes were watery and slightly puffy. Clarke sniffed and wiped her eyes and smiled at what Lexa was pointing at in the sky.
“Clarke are you okay?” Lexa asked moving closer to Clarke. That seemed to set Clarke off. As Clarke tried to answer more tears came and her lips trembled. Lexa racked her brain for answers as to why she was upset.
Lexa tried to calmly ask. “Is it the crowds? Do you need some space? Did I do something wrong? Is it your family?”
Clarke smiled weakly and shook her head. All she managed to say was a quiet “look” and showed her phone screen to Lexa.
“This was my baby last Christmas. It’s a memory. He helped us wrap presents and started to attack the wrapping paper. I just… I always think about him but recently not as much. But god I miss him.”
“Oh, Clarke,” Lexa said sympathetically.
“I know it’s dumb. Like he’s just a dog. But he was best friend and was always there for me. He never left me. I guess it just hit me how much I miss him. His birthday was a couple of weeks ago and I cried most of the day. I miss him so much.” Clarke rushed through.
Lexa could see Clarke starting to work herself up. She knew Clarke suffered from anxiety and depression and at times like this being in crowds didn’t help.
Lexa didn’t think it was stupid at all. She wrapped Clarke in a hug.
“It’s okay Clarke. Just breathe okay. You’re okay, I’ve got you.” Lexa tried to soothe.
She could feel Clarke tremble against her. “I’m sorry, I know that we’re- I just- I miss him- I didn’t mean to ruin-”
Before Clarke could finish “Hey, it’s okay to miss him, especially now. He meant a lot to you. Your feelings are valid. You’re allowed to be upset. You haven’t ruined anything” Lexa reassured as she held Clarke tighter.
Clarke seemed to calm down after a bit. Soon they let each other go.
“Thank you, Lexa.” Clarke croaked out, voice still wet from crying.
Lexa just smiled down at Clarke, there was a small height difference that Lexa liked.
“I didn’t ruin the night?” Clarke asked hopefully, she looked so young at this moment.
“No, in fact, you continue to make it better.” Lexa winked which made Clarke smile.
They stood silent for a moment as Clarke wiped her face and blew her nose.
“Can I see more pictures of him?” Lexa asked shyly, she didn’t want to overstep. But she did want to know more about Clarke’s old dog. Maybe going through good memories of him would help Clarke.
Clarkes face lit up slightly and she nodded and pulled out her phone to go through an album dedicated to her dog.
Lexa thought the dog looked adorable and felt sad for Clarke’s family. She never had any pets. If she did she’d want this one. They continued to look through the photos and Clarke had calmed down and starting explaining each picture.
“He’s adorable just like his mummy” Lexa smirked and softly nudged Clarkes shoulder. Clarke blushed, which of course was adorable.
“I know”.
Soon the parade began and the girls continued their night laughing and singing with the parade.
On the way back to the car they held hands and kept each other close for heat. Clarke was still getting used to the weather. Plus the walk back to Lexa’s car was a fair distance.
An hour in traffic later and Lexa was parked outside Clarke’s apartment and ready to say goodbye.
Clarke was about to exit the car. She squealed “oh fuck, I got you a present. Here!” and Clarke pulled out a wrapped box from her big bag.
Lexa giggled. Clarke had the weirdest outbursts and timing. Lexa also said no presents. And she could say technically today was a gift to them both. Mainly Clarke though.
“I know you said you didn’t want anything but like I had to! I love getting presents for the people I love. Anyway...” and Clarke pushed the present towards Lexa and wriggled her eyebrows suggestively just as excited for Lexa to see the gift.
“I have to open it now?” Lexa asked.
Clarke nodded frantically and bit her bottom lip as Lexa started open it. She went slower finding Clarke’s lack of patience hilarious and adorable.
Inside she found a bunch of things inside a gift box. First, she pulled out a pair of patterned socks that had a bunch of cute cartoons of characters writing and pens and funny things relating to writing on it. Then she found a bunch of magnets. Some were about being gay, some were about pizza, (Lexa’s favourite takeaway), and some had some feminist jokes on them. Then there were a bunch of fancy pens and a cute notebook that said gal pals on it. Lexa laughed out loud at that. As she went deeper into the box, there was a small toy koala bear. With a note on it saying ‘cuddle me if you miss Australia.’
“Mum sent me that, I have one in my room” Clarke said proudly. Lexa smiled widely and continued. There were some small chocolates and lollies. Lexa’s favourites. A small tub of vegemite with Clarke's selfie glued over the label. A picture of Clarke pulling a stupid face. Lexa snorted at that one. Lexa didn’t know how this present could get anymore better.
Then last of all was a jar of small colourful notes inside.
Lexa looked up at Clarke raising her eyebrow in question.
“Its little reminders of reasons I love you. Plus some funny memories and motivational quotes. I know it’s dorky but I’ve always wanted to do one. You’re my best friend so why not you know? Also, remember that time you told me how you second guess if people like you?”
Lexa remembers telling Clarke that. It’s some anxiety she has for some reason. They were telling each other what their fears were and it went from spiders to rejection fast. Lexa didn’t tell many people about it.
“Yeah, I remember.”
“Well if you ever forget you can take one out and look at it. Plus one of your love languages is words of affirmation SO when I’m not there to tell you. You have that.” Clarke winked at Lexa. Although it was cute and a fun gift. All the little things in the gift box held some humor to them. They also held something more. It was personal. Things about Lexa. Clarke thought these gifts out and must have spent ages on this. Lexa didn’t care about gifts but this has to be one of the best.
Lexa knows this friendship is only new but she’s so drawn to Clarke. She loves how open they are with each other and how close they are and how they are always having fun. Everything feels easy and they rarely fight because they communicate if they feel uncomfortable. Lexa loves Clarke. Maybe more than she thought she did.
And right now all Lexa can think about are Clarke's lips. She feels helplessly drawn to press her lips against Clarkes.
She thinks Clarke is most beautiful at this moment. Eyes wide and alert but also verging on tired. Her makeup fading away. Her hair windswept and falling out as the day has come to an end. In her grey Christmas sweater that reads ‘Christmas meltdown’ with a snowman melting and crying as the artwork.
And it’s not like all of a sudden Lexa finds Clarke beautiful. As soon as she saw Clarke she thought she was stunning. It’s a given. And that has only grown the more she knows Clarke but right now. With the snow slowly falling around them in her car. And Clarke having given Lexa the most thoughtful, fun and the cute gift she has ever received she knows that her feelings have reared their head. It’s not like she denying them she just thought it was purely friendship. And sure she thinks Clarke would be kissable. But now all she wants to do is kiss Clarke until she can’t breathe.
But what happened to keep the focus on her career? That she didn’t need a relationship nor wanted one? Was it because it was Christmas Eve and everything seemed more romantic?
But Lexa was tired, tired of pushing those thoughts aside for Clarke and her feelings towards her. She was a great friend yes. But Lexa wanted to try more and now she felt selfish and annoyed but happy and warm all at once.
Lexa closed the lid on the jar of notes.
She wanted to choose her words carefully. “I love it, Clarke. This is the most… thoughtful gift that anyone has given me.”
At that Clarke seemed proud of her self.
“Anything for you Lex”
Lexa leaned in and hugged Clarke and they both melted into it. Lexa’s head was spinning it was like all her senses had heightened and she could feel Clarke everywhere. Why is it now that she realises that Clarke smells so good? They both leaned out but Lexa stopped halfway and paused.
Fuck it. She had to do something, anything.
She leaned in and pressed a gentle kiss to the corner of Clarke’s mouth. She lingered for a bit to see if Clarke would pull away. She didn’t, Clarke stayed still.
A moment passed. And Lexa leaned slightly out.
“Merry Christmas Clarke” Lexa whispered their faces were still quite close and Clarke’s eyes were trained on Lexa’s eyes. She wished she knew what Clarke was thinking. Maybe she was confused, weirded out?
Then Clarke's blue orbs moved down to Lexa’s lips. And she whispered back as if she didn’t want to break their bubble. “Merry Christmas Lexa”.