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JUNE: why are we visiting vriska and terezi.
AIME: i already told you this before why do you keep asking!
JUNE: i just don’t think it’s necessary.
JUNE: we shouldn’t bother them.
AIME: ughhh why do you gotta be like that.
AIME: we are visiting vriska *because* according to *you* you have already learned all your lessons so i should have fused back with you already.
AIME: at least that’s how i imagine the rules go.
AIME: *but* i didn’t!
AIME: i have no idea why our selves are still separated and since i’m gonna be here for what i assume is gonna be a while i should introduce myself to all your friends already.
AIME: i mean.
AIME: i know them already.
AIME: i know them from back when i was still *part of you*.
JUNE: yes, but they don’t know you so please don’t make a scene and please don’t be all dramatic i just need to update everyone on the you situation.
JUNE: i *would* just text them, but you said it’s important or whatever that i actually say it in person
JUNE: …
JUNE: truth be told i’m rather anxious.
AIME: why?
JUNE: i’m not sure.
JUNE: it’s complicated.
JUNE: a lot of feelings.
JUNE: stupid estrogen makes me feel just too much.
AIME: yeah and-
VRISKA:
VRISKA: Why are there two of you?
JUNE: it’s-
AIME: you know it’s a-
JUNE: it’s a long story.
AIME: yeah, it's a long story.
JUNE: yeah.
VRISKA:
VRISKA: Ok.
VRISKA: Please come in, Terezi is on the living room.
VRISKA: It took so long for me to open it cause we were being lazy and discussing who should open it.
JUNE: did you lose?
VRISKA: Hm, noooooooo.
VRISKA: I merely conceded.
AIME: oh sure.
VRISKA: Don’t get snarky on me June the sequel.
AIME: it’s aime.
AIME: aime gdaala.
VRISKA: I will give you that is a really badass name!
VRISKA: What’s your story.
AIME: june had too many repressed feelings.
AIME: so i was born as some sort of failsafe.
VRISKA: Oh of that she definitely has a lot.
VRISKA: Glad you could help her out.
VRISKA: Hey Terezi!
VRISKA: June and her evil clone are here, dear!
TEREZI: …
TEREZI: WH4T
terezi and vriska’s house is… messy.
there are bookcases everywhere filled with large hardcover history books, tabletop rpg books (some just straight up made of paper the two printed themselves) and comic books (most with girls with swords on the covers.) where there isn’t enough shelf space the sea of books spills into the margins of the room.
some of the furniture is very over the top and some is homemade with little to no effort. an elaborate grandfather clock made of black wood with ancient metal hands, a gargoyle on top and elaborate engravings is juxtaposed next to a stand the two made themselves with the first wood and nails they found cause they were running out of space.
in the living room you see the series of consoles, games and controllers the two own. it’s an impressive collection of earthly, alternian and even some carapacian and corsortian titles that rivals roxy’s. the cables form something you could only describe as a rat king of entangled tails that gives life to something bigger than the sum of its parts.
AIME: ok so i’m not a quote evil clone unquote.
AIME: i might be a bit mischievous, but i’m well intended.
AIME: sometimes you gotta crack a few eggs to bake a cake.
AIME: and by eggs i mean emotional breakdowns started over facing repressed feelings.
AIME: and by cake i mean a happy june.
JUNE: i was happy before though.
AIME: no you used to pretend you were happy, you were miserable.
AIME: and i helped you!
AIME: so you’re welcome.
JUNE: *eye roll*
TEREZI: HM
TEREZI: 1M NOT GONN4 L13
TEREZI: TH1S 1S 4 LOT TO S1NK 1N
TEREZI: D1D 4LL TH4T H4PP3N 1N TH3 SP4N OF 4 F3W D4YS?
TEREZI: 4LSO YOU S41D SOM3TH1NG 4BOUT VR1SK4S V1D3OS
TEREZI: WH4T
JUNE: yeah it’s hm.
JUNE: it’s been some very busy few days.
JUNE: we’ve been through a lot.
TEREZI: 1TS F1N3 4ND 4LL
TEREZI: 1M GL4D YOUV3 B33N D34L1NG W1TH YOUR PROBL3MS
TEREZI: 1 SOM3WH4T W1SH YOU WOULD M3SS4G3 US MOR3 4ND NOT D1S4PP34R FOR W33KS 4ND SHOW UP W1TH 4NOTH3R S3LF
JUNE: she won’t be here for long!
JUNE: everyone thinks we would have merged as soon as i face all my feelings about the everything.
JUNE: which already happened mind you.
JUNE: so we don’t know why we haven’t recombined already!
JUNE: i already dealt with all my repressed feelings, it makes no sense.
AIME: shaking my head you’re really eager to have me gone aren’t you.
JUNE: it’s not!
JUNE: it’s not that.
JUNE: it’s just weird to have you around.
AIME: it’s weird?
JUNE: it’s-
JUNE: unpleasant.
JUNE: it’s not that i want you gone, it’s just that i don’t wanna bother anyone.
JUNE: asking for help of vriska and terezi already makes me feel like i’m bothering them too much.
JUNE: i’m sorry we should be going.
AIME: oh no we aren’t going anywhere.
AIME: sit your ass there and enjoy your food.
TEREZI: Y34H JUN3 W3 H4D 4 LOT OF 3FFORT TO H34T TH1S D1NN3R ON TH3 M1CROW4V3 FOR YOU
TEREZI: YOU B3TT3R 3NJOY 1T 3LS3 1 W1LL H1T YOUR H34D W1TH 4 COM1C4LLY S1Z3D H4MM3R TH4T W1LL PRODUC3 4 SQU34KY NO1S3 4S 1T M4K3S CONT4CT
VRISKA: Yeeeeeeeeah June, you don’t really sound like you’ve dealt with all your repressed feeling tee 8ee 8ch.
VRISKA: You should hm.
VRISKA: Talk a8out your feelings and shit!
JUNE: i already talked about my feelings!
JUNE: i don’t understand how much more i have to talk about them.
JUNE: how many feelings is a person even supposed to have!
JUNE: it doesn’t sound right that i would have so many feelings.
JUNE: i already said i’m fine.
VRISKA: Aaaaaaaare you now?
VRISKA: It sounds like you’re just avoiding it even more?
VRISKA: I realized how after coming out you would often act like everything was fine when it clearly wasn’t.
VRISKA: Acting like you don’t care a8out anything related to 8eing trans, while you were pretty much just living like someone with depression.
TEREZI: JUN3 YOUR3 NOT H4RD TO R34D PL34S3
JUNE: it’s not the same!
JUNE: i admit i was doing that before.
JUNE: but now it’s different!
JUNE: i’m fine now.
JUNE: i’m normal.
VRISKA: Saying you are normal doesn’t make me feel positive a8out your recovery!
VRISKA: You’re awfully quick to act like you don’t have any more pro8lems!
JUNE: it’s not that!
JUNE: i’m ok now! kanaya, jade and aime helped.
JUNE: i played peach on smash.
VRISKA: That doesn’t mean anything to me!
TEREZI: WH4T 1S P34CH WHO 1S SM4SH
JUNE: it just means i’m fine!
VRISKA: No, i don’t think you’re fine, i think you’re-
AIME: june never got over the crushes she had on both of you and that’s why she is nervous.
VRISKA: ::::0
TEREZI: >:O
JUNE: …
JUNE: that is not true.
JUNE: why are you saying that.
AIME: because it is true!
AIME: how many times do i have to tell you!
AIME: i am *part of you*
JUNE: i’m getting tired of your bullshit actually.
JUNE: stop repeating that over and over what does that even mean!
JUNE: i’m sorry you two she’s just silly and likes to tell weird jokes and-
VRISKA: June.
VRISKA: I think you’re cool too.
JUNE: i’m sorry WHAT.
TEREZI: JUN3 YOUR3 HOT 4ND FUNNY 1 WOULD L1K3 TO M4K3 OUT W1TH
JUNE: TEREZI.
VRISKA: Hahaha gosh dear, right to the point.
VRISKA: 8ut Terezi is right June, you’re rather hot
JUNE: you’re joking.
JUNE: you’re joking with me and doing-
JUNE: doing something-
VRISKA: We’re not!
VRISKA: Terezi was a 8it too straight forward, 8ut with all honesty you’re really hot June!
TEREZI: 4ND 1 TH1NK YOUR JOK3S H4V3 B3COM3 MUCH FUNN13R 4FT3R TR4NS1T1ON1NG
TEREZI: 1 D1DNT KN3W 3STROG3N M4D3 ON3S JOK3S B3TT3R
JUNE: no no, my jokes are mediocre at best.
JUNE: i’m not sure why are you saying that
JUNE: i’m not hot either.
JUNE: i’m not-
JUNE: i’m not good enough for you, you shouldn’t waste your time
VRISKA: Hm.
VRISKA: What?
TEREZI: JUN3 W1TH 4LL 4POLOG13S TO YOU 1 DONT TH1NK YOUR3 TH3 ON3 TH4T G3TS TO CHOOS3 TH4T
JUNE: ok, but i don’t wanna ruin the things you have going on in there!
JUNE: i would only make it worse!
JUNE: you two care about each other so much, i don’t wanna be a-
JUNE: aaaaaa i dont know!
JUNE: some metaphor!
JUNE: some metaphor for something incredibly unnecessary ruining something very good.
VRISKA: Shhh.
vriska stands up and gets closer to you, putting her finger on your mouth.
i will be assuming the role of narrator for now on, i feel like my job here is done and my interactions will be reserved to explaining that which is left unsaid
VRISKA: You don’t have to stand 8etween us June, silly.
VRISKA: You’re right we are so deeply important to each other.
VRISKA: 8ut it’s not like you have to marry us or anything you doofus.
VRISKA: We can make out and have a casual thing going on.
VRISKA: Do you actually understand how relationships go?
TEREZI: WH4T SH3 S41D
TEREZI: 1 C4NT B3L13V3 YOUR3 ST1LL 1N TH3 GRUB 4G3 OF “K1SS H3R? BUT 1 DONT W4NN4 M4RRY H3R!”
TEREZI: YOUR3 SO FLUST3R3D 4BOUT 4LL TH1S 4ND TH1S 1S SO 1NCR3D1BLY CUT3
VRISKA: Yeah.
vriska kisses you.
it’s nice and her lipstick tastes not blueberry, but like a messy liquid crayon.
it makes you feel good in it’s own special way.
her fangs press into your lips, but not the sharp part. almost like she has an expertise on kissing and not hurting.
you-
you stand there.
paralyzed.
JUNE:
JUNE: haha i’m sorry
JUNE: i didn’t meant to trick you into thinking i’m an interesting person
JUNE: hehe juvenile mistake
JUNE: vriska you dummy you shouldn’t be kissing others outside your marriage!
VRISKA: 8ut we’re poly…
VRISKA: You know that June.
VRISKA: Right?
JUNE: ok ok.
JUNE: everyone keep saying they’re poly.
JUNE: but don’t you think you can be poly with someone better?
JUNE: like.
JUNE: look at you!
JUNE: vriska and terezi serket pyrope!
JUNE: you two are just so amazing and cool and pretty and ho-
JUNE: amazing and cool and pretty!
VRISKA: What did you censor yourself there?
VRISKA: I wanna hear it actually.
JUNE: it was nothing.
TEREZI: T3LL US OR 1 W1LL 34T YOUR 3Y3B4LLS
JUNE: it’s nothing i promise.
TEREZI: OH YOUR 3Y3B4LLS 4R3 GONN4 B3 SO T4STY
JUNE: I WAS GONNA SAY THAT YOURE HOT TOO OK.
JUNE: BUT.
JUNE: but.
JUNE: i feel ashamed in saying that.
JUNE: i don’t feel like i’m allowed to like anyone like that.
JUNE: it feels wrong.
JUNE: it feels like someone is gonna crash inside your house and take away my womanhood card.
JUNE: it feels like i’m gonna be forever branded as a pervert violent male who has unladylike desires and drives.
JUNE: it feels like you two are gonna hate for me liking you.
JUNE: please don’t hate please please i just heard you saying it and i thought for a second that it was-
TEREZI: JUN3 1TS F1N3
TEREZI: TH4NKS
TEREZI: 1 L1K3 B31NG C4LL3D HOT
VRISKA: Haha same.
VRISKA: Same.
VRISKA: We’re just three incredi8ly hot ladies hanging out.
JUNE: yeah, but i’m not as hot as you.
JUNE: i can see how someone with poor taste would take a liking on me, but not you two
TEREZI: OH SHUT TH3 FUCK UP
terezi stands up slamming her hands on the table and proceeds to move towards you.
she grabs you by the collar of your sweater and presses her lips into yours.
i assume her thought process was that if she has your mouth busy you can’t talk all the bullshit that you use to do.
smart.
i would try it, but i’m not very sure about the morality of smooching your clone.
VRISKA: Dear you’re really going on in it!
TEREZI: HNK,JMNKJNKJ
TEREZI: D4DS4DSF4SD4SD
TEREZI: VCMVKJBKJVNDJKJV
VRISKA: Are-
VRISKA: Are you ok?
i’m gonna use my narrative privileges here and say she plans on kissing june until she has no choice, but to face this.
and that she is ok.
terezi pyrope presses her tongue inside your mouth and explores every bit of it.
you try to push her away at first, but you’re too scared to hurt her with you male strength or whatever your insecurities tell you so you don’t.
you return the kiss eventually.
her mouth tastes like the chicken you were you were all just eating.
it’s really gross actually.
you almost cut your tongue on her sharp teeth.
you like it.
she holds you and she is soft, but her hands grip you so sharply as your glasses hit each other over and over.
it’s messy.
it hm.
it goes on from a while!
she is really dedicated towards this.
its awkward.
JUNE: huff huff huff.
TEREZI: HUFF HUFF HUFF
you are both breathless.
JUNE: hm i.
JUNE: thanks terezi.
JUNE: ok i.
JUNE: please just give me a minute.
JUNE: *huff* *huff* *huff*
JUNE: i just.
JUNE: i don’t see how you can like me.
JUNE: i don’t feel like i deserve to be liked.
JUNE: i don’t feel like i deserve your love.
JUNE: i’m inadequate.
JUNE: my body is all wrong and that will be an inconvenience for you.
JUNE: vriska might be trans too, but she transitioned much earlier.
JUNE: she must be disgusted by all the wrong things about my body.
JUNE: i can’t even start talking about terezi.
JUNE: she might be an alien, but she is a cis alien.
JUNE: well not cis i’m-
JUNE: i’m sorry i fucked up.
JUNE: but you don’t have dysphoria like-
JUNE: like we do.
JUNE: i’m sorry i’m sorry i’m sorry.
TEREZI: 1 DONT C4R3
TEREZI: STOP 4POLOG1Z1NG 4LR34DY
JUNE: you have the right body.
JUNE: you must hate the sight of everything wrong in my body so much.
JUNE: you must hate me.
JUNE: you kissed me out of pity.
JUNE: i’m sure you can’t wait for me to leave.
JUNE: you all talk behind my back about how much of an inconvenience i am i’m sure of it.
JUNE: how could someone like me, i’m such a fuck up.
JUNE: i mess everything up and i make everything worse for everyone
JUNE: it would be better if i just disappeared.
…
TEREZI: TH4TS BULLSH1T
TEREZI: JUN3 1M SORRY 1 D1DNT KN3W YOU W3R3 SO D33P 1N R3PR3SS3D STUFF
TEREZI: 1 DONT TH1NK 1 C4N T3LL YOU 1 L1K3 YOU B3C4US3 1M SUR3 YOU W1LL CONV1NC3 YOURS3LF TH4T 1M LY1NG 1NST34D
TEREZI: YOU W1LL F1ND 4 ROUND4BOUT W4Y TO CONV1NC3 YOURS3LF 1 SOM3HOW K1SS3D YOU OUT OF PL4TON1C H4T3
TEREZI: JUN3
TEREZI: 1 W1LL T3LL YOU TH1S
TEREZI: YOU 4R3 TH3 DUMB3ST P3RSON 1 KNOW
TEREZI: 4ND TH4T 1S R34LLY CH4RM1NG OF YOU
JUNE: i think its pathetic actually.
JUNE: i wish i was confident like you are.
JUNE: i’m so pathetic i wish i was normal and that i could be confident and not have to bother you all like this.
VRISKA: We can only 8e ourselves June.
VRISKA: We have our own flaws we wish were gone too.
VRISKA: Flaws I’m sure you find lovely in us too.
VRISKA: We all go through that June.
VRISKA: I have insecurities too, 8ut I just try my very 8est to not listen to them.
VRISKA: 8ecause if I listen to the voice in my head that scream all that how much of a monster I am would just 8e dead.
VRISKA: It’s not easy.
VRISKA: It hurts.
VRISKA: I wish it was gone too.
VRISKA: 8ut it's just part of what it means to 8e a person.
VRISKA: We all have insecurities.
VRISKA: 8ut we have each other.
VRISKA: And that’s why I’m here, to give you support.
VRISKA: 8ecause you’re also gonna give me support when I need it.
VRISKA: Cause we’re friends.
VRISKA: Or a 8it more than just friends.
TEREZI: Y34H
TEREZI: JUN3 YOUR3 NOT 4 BURD3N FOR JUST FOR 4SK1NG FOR H3LP
TEREZI: 1N 4 OBJ3CT1V3 ST4NDPO1NT NO ON3 C4N B3 STRONG 4LL TH3 T1M3
TEREZI: YOU H4V3 TO 4SK FOR H3LP SOM3T1M3S 3LS3 YOU W1LL B3 UTT3RLY M1S3R4BL3
TEREZI: 1TS ONLY COMMON S3NS3 TH4T ON3 SHOULD 4SK FOR H3LP SOM3T1M3S
VRISKA: And all that trans stuff you were talking a8out……..
VRISKA: I know how hard it is.
VRISKA: I felt like you do.
VRISKA: It feels terri8le. It feels like everything in your 8ody is wrong and you hate yourself so you assume everyone hates you too
VRISKA: 8ut they don’t.
VRISKA: You shouldn’t project your self hatred unto others.
VRISKA: They love you and they only want the 8est for you.
VRISKA: No one hates you 8ecause your 8ody is wrong, that is not your fault.
VRISKA: You never got to choose how your 8ody looked like and it’s not your fault it feels wrong to live in it.
VRISKA: And a8ove everything you shouldn't hate yourself for 8eing in pain.
VRISKA: I love you and I want you to 8e happy, ok?
JUNE: …
JUNE: thanks.
JUNE: i think i. *sob*
JUNE: *sob* i think i just wanna cry a bit. *sob*
JUNE: i just. *sob*
JUNE: fuck.
JUNE: *sob* *sob *sob*
JUNE: thank you so much.
JUNE: *sob* i don’t want to be in pain anymore.
JUNE: i want to be happy. *sob* *sob*
JUNE: can i just.
JUNE: *sob* can you just two just hold me for a bit.
TEREZI: Y34H
VRISKA: Yes.
the two hold you as hot tears run down your cheeks and into terezi’s shirt and vriska’s arm.
terezi has such a soft body you can’t help, but to envy her.
you also envy vriska. her body is even more lanky than yours is, but hers is just… better? you wish you were her too.
you feel a bit bad for being so jealous.
you shouldn’t
jealousy is very normal emotion and you shouldn’t feel bad for feeling it.
you fear you are bothering the two.
“gog what a fuck up i must be” you think to yourself.
“here i am bothering these two so much” echoes in your mind.
you aren’t.
i hope you can learn that some day.
goodnight june.