Chapter Text
[Intro]
The truth is just so easy
I want you for myself
Yet talking makes me queasy
Have placed you on a shelf
That I can't reach on a good day
Knew dreams were unreal anyway
[1st verse]
I saw you sitting over there
Just completely unaware
But I can't see us getting far
If you keep hogging the bar
And I can't even see your face
Much less walk through this place
To stand by you and leave a mark
So you leave into the dark
Is it bad I wish you loved me
To wish I had your key
When I can't call you anything
And know there's no red string
[Chorus]
Never do I voice a "Hey"
'Cause hoping's for the losers
Your lack of number bothers me
But this stuff leaves me lost at sea
You wouldn’t call anyway
And beggars can't be choosers
We offer no transparency
And that is at least half on me
[2nd Verse]
Reputation does precede you
But I cannot stop my heart
It thinks you must feel all this too
While I know it's not quite smart
I just keep on coming around
To see you still stand right there
I’m still hoping you will notice
Just how much it is I care
Is it bad I wish you'd need me
When you’re just a fantasy
I'm stuck on you and can't be freed
Should finally take the lead
[Bridge/Pre-Outro]
That's much more than we ever had
Is it really all that sad?
That’s much more than I ever said
Is it really all that bad?
I still don't quite believe it's right
Following your blinding light
It took so long to face this sight
Guiding me into the night
[Outro]
And time will help get through to you
Give me my chance to try anew
I doubt myself but face my faults
It's time I quit these self-doubt cults
Less "what if you will hate me?"
More "what if I'll make your day?"
Either one I'll only see
Once you know I'm here to stay
[1st Verse]
They didn't think I’d pop off
That I would give it my best shot
And told me "just knock it off
Face it: a star, you're simply not"
You know where this goes, I think
Tell you that no, I didn't sink
Did I make it? Who's to say
But I sure wasn't thrown away
[Chorus]
And people laughed right in my face
Called me "a stain to be erased"
Made me feel like their doormat
Can't say that they failed at that
They really wanted me to hurt
And for a while that surely worked
[2nd Verse]
I’ll give a clear picture here:
The things I did were not revered
By strangers, friends, anyone
Who didn't think abuse is fun
When you defend your mistakes
Call them tiny, rightful outbreaks
Sadist’s hate fixates on you
Because it's bad, but you are too
[Bridge]
Until I drew out all the pain,
The mocking hate and everything
The moments of pure disconcert
And finally I hit "invert"
[Outro/3rd Verse]
So I saw the full context
I understood the passionspeak
What it was, not just critique.
And knew what had to happen next.
It's my moment, I believe
Will now take off and leave my grieve
With whoever caused it first
Who wasn't right, whose words were cursed
[Intro]
I'm real skinny
Oh, so mini
All the boys tell me I'm pretty
They all say I'm itty-bitty
But just wanna see my -
[Pre-Chorus]
But if you really care for me
Love my mind, not just my body!
But in this world of social need
You only love what's on tv
And I wanna be on Tik Tok
[Chorus]
Take my time to build my stock
Get their money 'round the clock
This might be their biggest shock:
Don't spend my days sucking on -
'Cause I just wanna be on Tik Tok
[Verse]
They always call themselves my fans
But can't help tryn' to keep me down
Can't keep the goods out of their hands
But then they argue with a frown
"All I want is to protect
This star I love so much"
But I'm no fucking object
And I can't stand your touch
[Pre-Chorus]
If you'd care then you would listen
When I list what I am missing
"You just got your nose to powder"?
Dude, I'm not a fucking flower!
And don't wanna leave my Tik Tok
[Outro]
Men always say they love you so
But then they lie and snitch and blow
That's why I go for girls instead
With them, I know where I am at
[1st verse]
Been a while since I've seen you
Changed, though never wanted to
I heard you have a new chick now
And got a little kid in tow
Do they know where you come from?
The things we've seen, what we've done?
I hope they do, it's fair to you
To have a wife that sees you through
[Pre-Chorus]
The worst, the best, the rest between
With joy and love, in good esteem
And know that I'm no good at that
When I saw you I broke a sweat
[Chorus]
Because the bad is in my veins
Uncontained, it all remains
With me, throughout thick and thin
The same way no one's ever been
[2nd Verse]
Tried to stay away from you
Which was hard, but also good
All I wanted was attention
Never cared how I was mentioned
But did care about you, is
What I realized back then
Though I get, to you that's news
I never showed what was within
[Pre-Chorus]
You tried to stay away as well
And now we're here - and time did tell
You're good and pure, you always were
While evil's something I prefer
[Outro]
It makes me sad, because you're gone
But I am bad - and done is done