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The next day ,the sun shined through their window and cast a soft glow around the apartment. The humans in the apartment who were sleepless throughout the night stirred and got up from the bed.
Both had puffy eyes.While Tharn’s were just due the sleepless night he spent thinking , Type’s were due to crying the whole night. His tear ducts were dried out, that's how much he had cried. He had kept on thinking of all different kinds of ways in which Tharn might break up with him which had made be cry more.
Only if he knew what Tharn was thinking!
Tharn couldn’t come up with any plans because they were already just like a married couple! What was he supposed to do when they already behaved like a married couple. How was Tharn supposed to show something that they have been doing already. So he came up with the idea that only talking things out could help. Type had been thinking of rubbish things and Tharn was going to tell him how much he loved him.
With this determination he turned to look at Type who was currently sitting on the couch and staring at the unknown. Tharn approached him just like the day before and slowly sat on the couch. Tharn was appalled when he took a look at Type’s face. Type looked so glum with red rimmed puffy eyes and lost. Tharn’s heart broke at that. He had never thought that a conversation about marriage would bring them here with his Type looking so dejected and broken.He never thought that the topic of marriage would be linked to them breaking apart in Type’s mind. Tharn was determined to make this stop and let Type know what Tharn had thought about marriage.
“Type, love come here” saying this Tharn pulled Type into a tight hug. Type who was floating somewhere in his mind filled with negative thoughts, when suddenly pulled by Tharn, was astounded. When he realized that Tharn was hugging him, he hesitantly circled his arms around Tharn’s waist and placed his head in the crook of Tharn’s neck deeply breathing in his scent. It finally brought Type into the reality and he felt some of his anxiousness fly away.
Tharn rubbed his back slowly and whispered sweet nothings in Type’s ears. This further calmed Type and he felt relief wash over him.
The thought 'Tharn isn’t going to leave me' filled Type's mind hearing Tharn's words.
Tharn then slowly removed his arms and let them rest on Type’s thighs. He could see that Type was visibly composed now than before. He let out a deep breath and got ready to bare his love for Type with words.
“Type, baby I love you. There is no way I would leave you. Now listen to me carefully and always remember this. I have loved you each day through your journey of becoming who you are today. I started liking you when you were a homophobic. I think that speaks for itself of how whipped I am for you. I am sure people and even you would think that I am crazy to have liked you then. But the reason I liked you and slowly came to love you is for the person that you are. The you that is behind the facade of the fierce and rude person. I have seen how beautiful and strong you are behind it. Type we have been together for seven years and being with you is like breathing to me. I need you with me always Type.
I have come to love you more and more each day.
When you first said that you wanted only me, when you started accepting what and who we were, when you broke up with me to show Lhong's real face, when you took me to your hometown , when you refused to break up with me even when your Dad hated our relationship, when you smile that sweet smile of yours only for me, when you did so much for me to love you more and more every day how do you expect me to grow out of love one day Type. I would never ever get irritated or tired of you.
You are the reason I smile everyday knowing that at the end you would be here in OUR apartment waiting for me. I am the happiest I have ever been because of you and getting married to you would mean that I get to keep this happiness forever officially.
We are not going to ever break up Type. We are going to stay together forever and ever. I just thought officiating our relationship would ease our insecurities which I thought was something only I had.
Don’t keep your thoughts to yourself Type. Talk to me. I never expected you to think that marriage would break us. No Type. It’s just an official ceremony where we would pledge ourselves to each other. To me marriage is something that makes our bond more stronger.
But if you don’t want to do it then let it be. But never think that I would stop loving you one day or would not be able to fulfill my dreams with you. You are my future, you have been that for a long time now and all other things are dull when compared to you.
You are not going to stop me from doing anything. You are only going to be my happiness for the rest of my life time. I love you and you should never have any contrasting thought. We are never ever breaking up Tyyype. We promised that remember.”
Tharn was drained mentally. But he had a smile adorning his face. A contented smile. Letting his inner feelings out was more difficult than he thought it would be. He felt as if he had bared his soul to Type. But he was happy to have these things out. He wanted Type to know that he would always love Type. He had maintained eye contact all throughout his monologue and had seen Type smile through tears.
Type looked ethereal, glowing with love and happiness.
Type, who had previously thought that his tear ducts had dried out was now crying again with even snot running down and his whole face becoming messy. But he didn’t care. He was ecstatic.
Why had he ever feared this man leaving him. Why had he ever thought that getting married would cause problems in their relationship. How could he let other people's failure to lead a marriage blind him into thinking that he would fail too. He now feels that all his worries were totally baseless and irrelevant. He had carried these thoughts with him for such a long time. Now he feels like he had wasted all his time because of this when he could have been happily married to Tharn.
He knows marriage is not just an official ceremony but promising each other a forever and staying together through happiness and sadness. Now when he thinks of it after removing the veil of negative thoughts, he feels like he is ready. Ready to promise all of it to Tharn. Maybe he stills needs to ask Tharn about what has been bothering him and also tell Tharn his fears,but getting married doesn’t seem scary anymore and he wants to do it .
Type was hiccupping at this point and Tharn was getting worried. Just as he was about to call him , Type threw his body on Tharn and hugged him like his life depended on it. He was hugging so tightly that Tharn couldn’t even breath. So he tapped Type who understood this and loosened his arms around his neck.
“I love you too. I love you so much. “ Type kept repeating these words in Tharn’s ears until he felt the tiredness of the previous sleepless night and the emotional rollercoaster seep into him. Tharn soon found himself with a hand full of Type asleep on his shoulder. Tharn smiled and kissed Types forehead. He knew that they still had to talk. He still wanted Type to talk about the things bothering him and not keep it in his head. But for now Type knowing that he won’t leave and him knowing that Type loves him is enough. They could always talk about it after they are filled with food and love again. After they come out of this exhausted state. But they must have the talk. Keeping this in mind Tharn felt relief flood through him. Whatever Type decides about marriage was fine with him but a part of him still hoped to get married and he wished Type would agree to it.
Only if Tharn knew Type's thoughts!
Soon Tharn found himself feeling drowsy too. So he gently picked Type up and laid him on their bed. He then climbed up on his side, wrapped his arms around Type’s waist who in turn snuggled closer to Tharn’s chest and smiled subconsciously. This lit up a smile on Tharn’s face too and they slowly drifted to sleep with the sun shining brightly outside and their hearts lighter than before.
Fin.