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I woke up earlier than my other dorm mates so I could shower before them and so they don't see my small little scarred body. I get out of my bed making it neatly and going over to my trunk to get my towel and uniform. I didn't have any wash and it was embarrassing. I hope James, Sirius, and Peter don't find out or they would take pity on me and I don't want that. I walk into the bathroom, slowly closing the door behind me and locking it. I walk over to the shower and there was soap there. Thank Merlin for that. I saw that the taps were again silver so I get my towel and carefully turn the handle with the towel. The water is very hot and it burns against my skin. I covered my mouth trying not to let a yelp out. It especially hurts against the new wounds. I turn the cold water tap on to make sure the temperature is perfect before I wash. I look at my body. I feel pathetic. I look like a small injured creature. I can't stand it and I close my eyes while washing myself. I wash myself with my eyes closed and my arm hit the silver. It burnt my skin and I can't help but let out a yelp of pain. "Are you okay Remus?" I hear a tired but concerned Sirius on the other side of the door. "I am fine, I just had the water too hot," I say back. "I will be out in a minute." I get out of the shower, dry and dress in my uniform before I leave the room.
I open the door and saw Peter still asleep and James and Sirius talking. I just walk over to put my things back into my trunk. I smile at James and Sirius "Should I wake Peter up?" I ask curiously. "Sure but I'm going into the bathroom first." James runs to the door with Sirius following "Hey! I thought I was next!" They argue but I walk over to Peters bed to wake him up. "Peter, wake up!" I say as Peter jumped up. I laugh and leave the others to it and I go down to the common room.
The common room is quite empty which I like but I saw that girl from yesterday. I walk over to her "Can I sit?" I ask quietly. She smiles "Of course, I'm Lily Evans. I apologize for my friend yesterday. He had no right to do that to you." I sigh "It's not your fault, my name is Remus Lupin." We smile at each other and talk about Hogwarts. It turns out that we have a few things in common. "Shall we go down to the great hall?" She asks and I nod. I turn around to see James, Sirius and Peter running down the stairs. Lily looks as well "Do you share a room with them?". "Yeah." I reply
I go down to the great hall with Lily, James, Sirius and Peter. The hall is full of sleepy but excited teenagers. Lily walks to her friends so I sit down next to Peter with James and Sirius opposite me. "I think James has found his future wife. Isn't it that every Potter falls in-love with redheads?" Sirius hits James' arm playfully and he hits back "I don't like her!" He blushes. I look down at all the silver in front of me. I don't want to burn myself again so I slowly and carefully get the toast out from the rack. All I ate was toast but I didn't care. "Remus Lupin?" I look up at the prefect and she gives me my timetable. "Thank-you." I smile and she walks away to give other people their time tables. "We have potions first." I say about to get up "Where are you going?" Peter asks. "I'm going to get my cauldron, parchment, ink and books." I reply and walk back up to our dorm. I get what I need and I get my toothbrush. I brush my teeth, clean myself up and walk down to the dungeons.
I am early so I wait for everyone else to arrive. I see Severus, I get a bit nervous and he can sense it. He walks over to me and drops everything I'm holding. He pins me against the wall and lifts me off my feet. I close my eyes, waiting for what's going to happen. He punches me in the stomach and then I heard an "OI!" I open my eyes to see James with Sirius behind him. I look at them scared and James pushes him off me and I drop to the floor. Sirius rushes over to me and James is with Severus. I hold my stomach "He punched my stomach." I say to Sirius who was rubbing my back. "I know but you will be okay." he smiles at me and gathers my things which were now scattered all over the floor. "Thanks." I stand up and take my things.
Professor Slughorn saw what happened and took 20 points from Slytherin and gave him detention. I stay close to Sirius and James during class. Peter walks in ten minutes after the lesson starts saying that he got lost. Because I'm a werewolf my senses are heightened and all the smells in this room gives me a headache. After 30 minutes Professor McGonagall knocked on the door "Sorry to interrupt Professor but may I borrow Remus Lupin?" James looks at me and I look at him then back at McGonagall. "Of course." Slughorn smiles
I get up from my seat and walk out to Professor McGonagall "Am I in trouble?" I ask nervously. She laughs "No Mr. Lupin your not in trouble. We have to talk with Dumbledore." I know what it's about. "Okay." I follow her to Dumbledore's office. "Sit down Mr. Lupin." Dumbledore smiled. I sit down and look down at my hands. "So we need to talk about where you will go every month to change," I nod "You will go to the shrieking shack, people think it's a haunted house so nobody would ever dare to go close to you so you will be safe. Remus this is Madame Poppy Pomfrey." He pointed to the lady in the corner "She will collect you, take you to the hospital wing and will tend to your wounds." I can't manage to meet their eyes. "Mr. Lupin are you okay?" Dumbledore asks but I didn't say anything. "Mr. Lupin? Are you okay?" Madame Pomfrey steps in. I just shake my head but I can't look at her. "Are you hurt?" She touches one of my infected wounds and I whimper. "Mr. Lupin do you want to go down to the hospital wing?" one of them asks but I stand up and walk to the door "I need to go to class." I leave and I can sense their eyes looking at me but I ignore it. I walk back into potions just as it was ending and I gather my things and walking out. I can hear James and Sirius running to me. "Mate wait up!" James runs beside me "What was that all about?" I look down and think of an excuse "I have arrangements to go see my family every month, I have separation anxiety. I think that's what kinda caused last night." I look down embarrassed. I walk to transfiguration with James and Sirius looking at my every move. It was very uncomfortable. I see McGonagall again and I smile, I smile like I am okay. "Hello again Professor." "Hello Mr. Lupin, please sit down." I sit down and Sirius sits down next to me with James sitting next to Peter.
"Welcome to Transfiguration, you will be learning how to transfigure objects into different things-" McGonagall went on but I get distracted by Severus, he is poking me in the back with his wand. "Stop it Severus." Lily kicks his leg. I think McGonagall saw "Mr. Snape, will you stop distracting other students? 5 points taken of Slytherin."I put my head on the desk and ignore everything. I could feel someone rubbing my back, I think it is Sirius. I feel kinda fuzzy. I think Snape has done something to me.
I can feel shaking but I can't respond. I feel trapped inside my own body. It's horrible.
I try to talk but no words form. I am paralyzed. "Professor McGonagall, Snape has done something to Remus! He is solid like a board I hear her run over to me "Reparifors!" I feel my limbs relax and I start shaking in fear. I look up at Sirius and McGonagall. "I'm f-fine, thank-you." I stutter. "Do you want to leave with Mr. Black Mr. Lupin?" she asks. I don't even say anything but Sirius pulls me up by my arm, takes my things and leaves. "Sirius!" I hit his arm. "Rem I can't let you get hurt like that again especially by that greasy haired git!" He replies almost in an angry tone. I cover my eyes with my hands. "It's fine, I've had worse-" I hit my face angrily, I am so stupid! I just don't want him to find out. "Rem," He takes my hands off my face "what do you mean by you have had worse?" in a gentle tone. "Nothing, don't worry about it." I look away from him.
We walk up to our dorm to drop our cauldrons off and Sirius sits on my bed with me. I am reading a book and he gasps. I look at him worried "What?" I look around the room. "Your arm Rem!" I pull my sleeve up embarrassed. I panic and run out of the door. I can hear Sirius calling my name but I just run. Run, Run, RUN the wolf was telling me. I didn't know where I am. I'm outside in a forest. I sit down resting on a tree.
Hours must of past because it was beginning to get dark. I am freezing and shivering bad, my clothes have rips in them from falling over a few times in the woods. The wolf is very close to the surface because of the fear of them finding out what I truly am. "REMUS!" I can hear yells from people. I can hear twigs snapping. I hold my breath and close my eyes.