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This entire day I didn’t think of him. Is that wrong? Of course it is, Izuku you idiot. You’re fleeing the country with Rody, doing everything with him, eating together, sleeping together, running from the cops together.
It’s selfish to not let him cross my mind.
Especially considering the terms we’re on. We flirt, support one another emotionally and physically, talk about our future together…
I can’t let myself get wrapped up in this temporary situation with— Rody. When I’m trying to have a permanent one with Kacchan.
A voice spoke from the opposite side Izuku faced, with the slight motion of the car, he knew Rody had turned towards him.
Instinctively, he turned back. It was the least he could do to engage in the conversation.
I watched him stutter upon his wording, a red tint plastered along his cheeks exposing his hidden emotions.
“I mean, you’ve always got a smile on your damn face. How— why?”
He accompanied my every movement with his fraught brown eyes. I could practically feel the tense aura as he eyed my lips. He was so close— he may have been able to reach them.
Maybe.
I responded to his question with an answer straight from the heart. The best one I could come up with in the spotlight.
Rody didn’t have to say it, I knew he was satisfied with it. Mostly because of Pino- but that look. The look in his eyes said it all. The compelling emotion behind them, matched with his rapid breathing and vigorous heartbeat I could practically hear.
I don’t want him to suffer. I know how you feel, Rody… I have the same impassioned heartache towards someone…
I wondered for the longest if he felt the same way. I was way too nervous to express my feelings for him myself, though. Thankfully, after so long Kacchan put the pieces together himself, saving me the embarrassment of a love confession.
And it turns out he felt the same way- kinda.
“Your friends must get sick of your sappy shit.”
Rody muttered jokingly.
I brought up Kacchan compulsively, without thinking how that might affect Rody. It was a inconsiderate mistake. I never intended on even introducing the two, Rody’s attraction would be obvious to Kacchan. And the way Kacchan and I interact would devastate Rody.
However, I did attempt to keep it vague. Nothing too out of the ordinary was mentioned, just the fact that Kacchans’ an ass.
No surprise there.
But for Rody’s sake, I wish he resisted inquiring…
For some reason he had to ask. ‘Did I miss him’ of fucking course I do. He means more than the world to me… More than Rody could ever mean to me.
Was that obvious?
I noticed the hushed hitch of his breath once he heard my answer.
I’m sorry.
I know how Rody feels about me. That’s what makes it worse. My intention was never to hurt him, although that doesn’t matter now because it’s exactly what I've done.
I wish I could be the one to sweep him off his feet. Rodys' an amazing guy— he’s charming, so cute and adorable, a lot— nicer than Kacchans’ ever been… he’d be perfect for me, if it wasn’t for him, and our residential differences…
No- even if we lived in the same country, Kacchan would always be my first choice.
I know he would.
I think he would…