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Summer had always been Evan's favorite season. The warm blanket of air wrapped around him. He was one of those types of people who considered anything below 65 degrees to be freezing, so this was a good feeling for him. The long grass tickled the back of his neck, and he wondered if the crushed blades would leave a tiny, Evan Hansen-shaped spot in the massive field. A grass-angel. He chuckled to himself as a tear rolled down his cheek.
The size of him compared to the size of the field was just another reminder as to how insignificant he was. He gazed up at the giant oak tree looming above his head, wishing that he truly felt as at peace as he did in his head. He stood shakily and curled his fingers around the lowest branch, and began to climb. His breathing was labored once he neared the top, and crying hadn’t helped at all. He paused his climb, stopping to sit on a branch. He wiped his shirt sleeve over his wet cheeks, only to be covered with more tears.
Evan gazed down from the dizzying height, every broken piece of him yearning to surge forward and let himself fall. Pulling a marker from his pocket, he wrote two simple words on his arm:
‘I’m sorry.’
He pushed himself further away from the trunk, willing the branch to snap beneath him. He felt a scratching on his arm and was surprised at how quick the reply was.
‘What for?’
‘What I’m about to do. There are plenty of fish in the sea, you’ll find someone else.’
Evan then threw the marker as hard as he could toward the ground. His body shook with sobs as he lowered himself so that he was dangling from the branch by one hand. More words started appearing on his forearm.
'Please, don't-"
Then, he let go.