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Warning: Possible/minor spoiler! If you haven't read the 3rd book I suggest you should before reading this but if you don't mind then go right ahead.
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Newt faded in and out of conscience as he was carried from the wall where he tried to end it all.
He couldn’t take it anymore the pain, the suffering, just one jump from those large grey, ivy covered walls could end it all. Allowing him to sleep eternally in peace or that he may pass on to a better world, a world that didn’t involve being trapped behind a maze with monstrous being that had the ability to make his friends go crazy. Or being watched by those metallic bugs that scuttle across the floor every day.
But he even failed that, now he was even experiencing more pain than before. But the glade leader wasn’t having him leaving anytime soon as he dragged Newts' beaten body towards the med-jacks station.
Noticing Alby heaving Newts lifeless body, many of the Gladers stood rigid in shock believing that he was dead until Alby yelled at them to move and aid him, snapping back to reality they ran,their breaths held as their eyes widened at the sight of Newts twisted leg that was bent at impossible angle. While one or two gladers backed away to throw up their lunch the other hulled Newt up to carry him to a bed in the medical shack.
“okay everyone out!” Clint yelled, shooing every out so that he could attend to his new patient without distraction.
“what the hell happen to him?” the med-jacked asked shocked as he took in Newts appearance.
“found him at the base of one of the walls” Alby licked his dry lips “he jumped Clint, I never realised…. I never thought… Newt of all people” he shook his head in disbelief of himself couldn’t believe how he didn’t notice any of the signs that Newt displayed.
“I know me either but I’ll do all that I can” Clint sighed, fetching a bowl and filling it with water. Dunking a rag into the fresh water, he wrung it out the excess water before placing on Newts forehead. Praying that he would survive and come to.
************** few hours later**************
Clint sat in one of the stools that was placed throughout the room, exhausted from tending to his charge he decided to take a break. Though Newt was silent throughout the day as he remained unconscious he feared the worse until Newt let out a groan and his brown eyes flicker open.
“Newt?” Clint moved to be at his side in an instant “hey shuck face your up” sighing out a breath of relief as he watched Newt roll his head, furrowed his eyebrows as he was regarding something as he fixed his weak gaze towards the door way of the room.
Confused Clint twisted his head to see what he blonde counterpart was looking at only to see an empty doorway but turning to look back he found a smile on his friend’s lips and tears running down his face.
“(f/n) your back” Newt voice rough from the lack of water. While Clint kept looking back and forwards then around the room in confusion as to what Newt was seeing.
You gave a light laugh but bit your lip as you tried to hold back your tears. Seeing him like this broke your heart “hello Newt” your angelic voice rang out causing his smile to widen. He looks you up and down taking you in. Your bright aura bathing him in a light of comfort.
You (h/l) (h/c) hair was left down to fall in simple waves, a single encrusted pin was what kept the loose strands out of your face. Allowing you (e/c) hues to stand out against your (s/c) clear face. You adorned a simple white flowing dress came to your knees, you remained barefooted but not a spec of dirt could be seen on the soles of your feet or any part of your body for that matter.
“I’m ready to leave” he whispered raising his hand out to you for you to take. “I’m sorry Newt I’m not here to take you, I’m here to convince you to stay” confusion made it way on to his face as he regarded you “I don’t want to stay, I can’t be here any longer!” he yelled before coughing harshly, Clint unable to understand what Newt was talking to but got him a glass of water and help Newt down the contents.
“I know Newt but you have to be here, you hold these boys together if you leave they will fall apart you are the glue that holds this place together” you pleaded him. It wasn’t fair for him you knew that. You knew how much this place has affected him all of them for that matter but they must survive for you saw what one of the outcomes could be if they could escape the maze and the trails ahead.
“Everyone will be fine without me, we survived when you didn’t come back like you promised, they can survive without me!” you looked away in shame of yourself failing to return from the maze. But you watched how they slowly picked themselves back up and continued their lives if they lost another influential member you fear they would crash and give in.
“I’m so sorry Newt, but they need you, things are going to get harder but you will get through it with the others, that what you always told me when I wanted to give up. We can get through it if we have each other!” you recited what he told you on countless of occasions when you felt down. You hoped that he would remember those words for his sake and the others.
“But you’re not here! You didn’t come back, I never got to tell you so many things… I just want to hold you one last time” his voice cracked as fresh tears fell down his dirty cheeks. You felt as if your heart had been ripped out of your chest and then somebody danced on it turning in to dust.
“I know sweetie, but as much as I want to be with you we can’t life and death separates us, you must live Newt then if it’s not for yourself then for the other Gladers. In times of need sacrifices will be given and right now I need you to continue on be there for others” he stared at you with mix emotions, you couldn’t tell what he was thinking from reading his face.
“Please Newt please” you begged quietly as your own tears slipped down your face.
Seeing him like this made you so desperately wished to be there to really be there to hold him. To stroke his hair and tell him everything would be all right but knowing if you did that he wouldn’t stay and you couldn’t take that from him, you would allow him to easily give up.
“If I stay… will you be here?” he quietly asked refocusing his deep dark eyes connecting with your own bright (e/c) eyes.
“I’ve always been here and when the time is right I’ll be there to take your hand and make everything okay” you smile, you prayed with all your heart that he would be free of this maze and that you wouldn’t need to take his hand any time soon. That he could have a life beyond this cage where he and the other flourished and finally be happy.
He gave a small nod “you promise?” he asked in childlike voice. “I promise” you gave an inward sigh of relief. Happy that you where be able to convince to him to take the path of life.
“Then I’ll live for you” he gave a small smile before he closed his eyes sighing in defeat.
“Thank you” you whispered turning to head out of the door knowing what you came to do has been completed however his voice stopped you “I love you (f/n), I never got the chance then to say it but I love you” you pressed your eyes closed trying to prevent the river of tears that threatened to leave your eyes for the umpteenth time today.
“And I love you my dearest Newt now and forever” you spun and blew a kiss to him before vanishing back into light leaving a sleeping, happier newt and a very confused Clint.
Though he remained in bed to allow him to heal, Newt kept to his word and lived. Helped any Glader who needed it and placed their needs before his own.
He was left with a limp that was his constant reminder of you and convincing him to live, he never once tried to end his life again. Clint kept the whole him seeing you between him, Newt and Alby. Of course none of them thought that he was going crazy but that you really did come back from the dead to see Newt.
You didn’t chose to die, the creators made that choice for you. You were a runner meant to be fast but unfortunately you weren’t fast enough to beat the doors and you were trapped for the night but they froze your body in place they made you like a puppet on a string you didn’t make it. You were dragged off by a griever and stung to death not that any of them knew what had happened to you neither did they know of your last fleeting thoughts were of them all and especially newt.
Now you watched them from afar never leaving them just like you promised.