Work Text:
You looked happier with her. You got the biggest smile on your face when you were talking with her at the gazebo. It looked like a secret rendezvous with her. You two were off in your little world. You two never saw me watching your conservation you were more into her. I felt my heart sink as I watched you two. I could see that you were moving on. It had only been a month since I was your girl. I didn’t want to take it personally because I know I hurt you. I slowly walked away from the scene in front of me.
I walked back to our friends by the dance floor. I was trying to put myself back together and stop crying. It was mutual. I never deserved you in the first place. But daring, I was still in love with you. I know you deserved to be treated better and I hope that she will treat you better than I did. I guessed this pain I am feeling is heartbreak. I know now that I was happier with you than without you. I guess I had to fake a smile and try to hide how I feel.
I guess this pain I am feeling is heartbreak. James was the first person that saw me and come up and gave me a hug. I guess I wasn’t good at hiding the truth. “Hey, Kaitlyn. I know we don’t talk much but, we both love her in our way.” We broke apart, and I looked up at him, “She always said you were a smart cookie.” Looking down I let all of my breath out and said, “She’s moving on, and I am still in love with her.” “One day you will be happy again,” he said as he patted my shoulder. “Tell everyone, that I went back to the suite,” I told him.
I closed the door of the suite, and I realized how hurt I was. That the fact was that you never did anything wrong. It was all on me. That no one hurt you like I hurt you but, no one loves you like I do. Always pushing you away. I made it to my room. I know others deserved you more than me. I knew one day you would fall for someone new but, of all people you picked Becca. If Becca breaks your heart, like lovers sometimes do, I will be waiting here for you. You are worth it, and I will be better the next time around… if you give me another shot.