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Ant’s mad, really mad. There have been few times that he’s been this mad in his life. The end of 2013 for example, for a multitude of reasons that he still hates talking about. It’s an almost out of body experience being this mad. He cannot even believe what he’s mad over either, it feels stupid and childish but he cannot help himself. He’s supposed to be having a relaxing weekend at home, not obsessing over what people post on instagram.
Dani filmed Robin walking by, almost whispering and this is what sets Ant off. He knows he should restrain himself from being passive aggressive because that’s gotten him in trouble in the past and he is trying to stop that behavior. Putting his phone back in his pocket before he fucks everything up, Ant goes back outside to join his friends to get his mind back off of what he’s seen and what he’s imagining.
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Dani is lonely and he hates admitting that, he wants someone to fall asleep with, he wants someone to talk to all the time, he wants the little things. He’s been nursing a crush for a while and knows it’s probably frivolous, but he’s willing to try to have something to happen this weekend.
When he gets the text from Robin about dinner and drinks to finish out the weekend before they all go home the next morning, he’s anxious. Robin is who he has a crush on, and he can barely explain it. It started as small things, like the way Robin would walk, the way Robin would blush when anyone was messing with him. It wasn’t until he woke up one morning a few weeks ago after a wet dream that he realized how deep he was in it.
He started to realize that he’s obsessed with Robin’s ass, quite literally. The more Robin complained about the struggle to fit into certain things, the more Dani looked. He couldn’t help it; the more he looked the more he realized how perfect Robin’s ass is. He’s trying not to make it too obvious, because he knows some of his emotions show on his face, especially when he likes someone. He likes Robin a lot.
Picking out clothes to wear is hard, because Dani doesn’t want to call too much attention to what he’s going to try and do tonight. He doesn’t want to wear a team shirt either and he barely brought any other tops, but he settles on a simple dark blue long sleeve t-shirt and jeans. Knowing that the blue would make his beard stand out a little more. They were only gong to the hotel restaurant; it was going to be them and them only. Dani is almost shaking when he walks out of the elevator, he knows he should be calm, because even if things don’t go as planned, he still wants Robin in his life. He enjoys Robin, even more so because Robin’s shell has been disappearing the last few months.
Walking in he stops for a moment when he sees Robin; Dani takes in a breath and slowly exhales. Robin looks troubled, but good, so good. Robin almost jumps when Dai sits down. “What’s going on?” Dani can’t help himself but ask this; he wants to know what’s going on. “I’m confused about what I want,” Robin clamps a hand over his mouth after speaking, as if he didn’t want to reveal that much just yet. Dani smiles softly, he knows what he’s going to hear is going to throw off what he hoped to do tonight. “Let’s order and you can tell me about it, but only if you want.” Dani hopes whatever is going on can be taken care of.
After ordering, getting their drinks, Dani motions for Robin to start talking. “It’s Ant, he’s a bit possessive. I’m attracted to him but don’t know how to handle everything else.” This confirms some of what Dani suspected, why Robin didn’t really take things further with anyone else. It’s a punch to the gut almost; he hopes that it doesn’t show on his face.
“How involved are you guys?” He can’t help himself but ask, he wants to know. “We’re going almost day by day, when we’re near each other on race weekends it’s easy because we’re in the same area. The only trouble is when we’re apart. He’s very jealous and has trouble letting that go.” Robin sighs at this and puts an elbow on the table to put his head against his hand. Dani takes a moment to think, all the social media posts are starting to make more sense and he should have paid more attention to what was right in front of him. It makes his crush almost seem silly. He feels stupid, even though he knows he shouldn’t because Robin has no way of knowing that what he just said has crushed him.
“It is obvious you care about him, otherwise you wouldn’t have said anything.” Dani feels like a knife is in his chest, between his heart and one of his lungs. He’s finding it harder and harder to breathe, it’s a fight between his head and heart right now. He knows he should do his best to stop caring, but it hurts when someone you like is involved with someone else, even when the writing’s on the wall. “I do care, but is it worth it? Is it worth the misery, I’m waffling on if I actually love him. If I have the capacity to love him, flaws and all.” Before Robin can keep going, their food arrives. They dig in a for a few minutes, sine it is actually quite good for hotel restaurant food.
“Is there anything I can do to take your mind off of it, at least for tonight?” It’s Dani’s turn to clamp his hand over his mouth. In a mirror of what Robin did minutes before. At this, Robin smiles genuinely, “Let’s talk other things while I think about it.” Everything in Dani pings at this, for lack of a better way to put it into words, there’s still hope that something is going to happen, he’d be happy with even a kiss or a cuddle at this point.
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Ant sighs, he can’t sleep. He and his friends did a lot today and Taco is on the bed with him yet he can’t fall asleep. Knowing he should text something to Robin, something that’s easy, something that shows that he trusts Robin, something that shows how much he cares. “Can we take things to the next level? I promise to work on my issues.” He adds a heart emoji after the message before setting the phone down. Sighing he switches sided and cuddles around Taco, hoping to wake up to something from Robin.