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Title: The woman who will be remembered
Characters: Nine, Ten, Reader, Rose, Jack
Pairing: (For now One-sided) Doctor x Reader
Words: 1.5k
Warnings: (emotional) hurt, rejection-ish, h/c but more hurt,
Summary: You fell for the Doctor but with Rose in the picture you feel like you’re not needed anymore. (Reader Insert for SEASON 1 & 2)
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You started traveling with the Doctor long before Rose. By the time the two of you met the blonde you were a pretty great team - ‘fantastic’ even, according to the Doctor himself. So you didn’t think too much about the new human in the TARDIS. Rose was fun, clever and a great friend - much nicer than the Adam guy that tagged along for a short time, she never gave you any reason to dislike her. Well, apart from the part where you felt the Doctor pulling away. Rose fascinated him and you saw the worry in his eyes whenever she wandered off. That as such wasn’t a reason to dislike Rose, you couldn’t blame her for the Doctor being the Doctor and caring about his companions. He wouldn’t be the man you secretly loved if he didn’t care.
But the one thing that changed everything was when the three of you met Captain Jack. This time it wasn’t just worry about Rose wandering off in WWII London, this time you saw the suspicion and jealousy when he looked at Jack and Rose. He was very subtle and the blonde woman never noticed as you did - if Jack caught on he never said anything - but it was plain as day light to you. The Doctor was in love with Rose.
From now on you saw it whenever you looked at the two of them. Right there. In your face.
You grew sick of it. So sick. It wasn’t fair, you were there first… But that didn’t seem to matter anymore. You actually understood that Mickey guy Rose left behind pretty well. You were sick about seeing the person you cared about so much run around with someone else. That’s why you decided to back out the first chance given.
That time when you were in Cardiff facing another one of the Slitheens seemed like the best chance you would ever get to run. It was the closest to your own time you might get in months and there was no way you were watching these two for so long.
“Doctor?”
“What is it, (y/n)?”
“I’m staying.”
“Where?”
“Right here. In Cardiff.”
He looked at you in surprise. As if he never thought about you leaving or you being anywhere but at it his side. You couldn’t blame him, you hadn’t thought it possible for a long time either. How ignorant had you been to assume to stay with him forever?
“What would you want in Cardiff?!”
“I dunno yet.” You shrugged. “I’ll figure it out.”
“We could take you home…?” It sounded like a question. Sweet and innocent and so much like Rose just wanted to get rid of you. At least that was what your jealous mind told you.
“Nop, I’m fine. Cardiff is great.”
The three of you were standing outside the TARDIS with Jack, though he seemed uninterested in your little drama.
“Cardiff is a great place.” He said. “Why linger when she wants to stay for some sightseeing? You already said bye to your friend Mickey, Rose, guess you’re not the only one leaving someone in Cardiff.”
And that was when Jack pushed Rose into the TARDIS after she said quick good byes to you. It was just you and the Doctor now.
“She was right, we could take you home.”
“Nah you guys keep running. That’s what you do. You’re fantastic at running.”
“You too. You are fantastic and…”
“And I’ll be fantastic on earth from now on. Good bye, Doctor.”
You hugged him close. One last time before going back to being an ordinary human. You would miss the stars, the adventures and him most of all.
“I lost her.”
You were in the TARDIS once again. It had just appeared close to your apartment. You didn’t know how much time had passed for the Doctor, but you had only been in Cardiff for some months. The city was beautiful and so unlike the place you lived before you met him. But no matter how much you liked your new life there, you couldn’t help yourself when you heard the TARDIS whooshing outside. You ran, out of the apartment, slamming the door and right outside on the street. The doors of the police box were wide open and you entered with a broad grin. But the grin vanished as soon as you saw the young man in the suit sitting on the ground, back against the console and head on his knees. He looked terrible - And like a total stranger.
“I lost her.”
Were the first words he said. And really it was all he had to say. You didn’t know this face, but you knew the person whose old face made your heart beat faster. You didn’t need to ask who 'she’ might be, you just knew. This was the Doctor who must have lost Rose.
Before you could have decided what to do however, the TARDIS went into flight mode. The front door closed and the typical whooping told you about its departure. What?! How was that…?
Suddenly there was a third person on board with you and the sad Doctor. A woman. In her wedding dress.
Later, a lot later actually after a show down with a bloody talking giant spider thingy, the Doctor asked you and Donna (miss wedding dress with no pockets) to come with him. Donna said her good byes pretty fast - Maybe to give you alone time with the man who almost got himself killed in his raging against the spider. She was a clever woman with quite a mouth.
“Will you come? Once again?”
He looked to hopeful, almost pleading. You never saw that look on his old face, where so much was hidden behind sarcasm. This man wore his emotions a lot more obvious.
“Of course I understand if you made… a new life. Without me. In Cardiff.”
You considered it. There was still all that anger about Rose and her having what you always wanted. But… This was the Doctor, the man who was, before everything went wrong with your unrequited crush and Rose, your friend. The Doctor, your amazing friend from the stars, needed you to help cope with his loss. He needed you. YOU. It made you feel a little proud and warm on the inside. He hadn’t forgotten you, he still needed you as his friend.
“Of course, I’ll come” You smiled. “Who else should keep you from starting wars with giant spiders and their groom minions?”
He smiled and so did you. It was good to be back, good to have your friend back.
“Well Allons-y then, (y/n)!”
“Fantastic.”
You instantly felt comfortable around each other again. Still none of you talked about the time you had spent in Cardiff. You didn’t pester him with questions about Rose and their adventures. The only thing you needed to know was that your friend lost someone who meant worlds to him.
One day the two of you had a quiet break from your adventures. Or at least you thought you did. It was modern day London, you didn’t bother checking the exact year since you only came for relaxing and ice cream.
“I never told her what I felt.” The Doctor was wistfully looking at the water of the Thames. “Burned a whole sun up to say good bye, but I never got to the words that matter.”
“You burned a sun for her.” Wow that was an awful lot for just a good bye. “I think that tells her a lot about what you feel.”
“But I never said it.”
“Not with words…”
He looked at you. There was again all that hopefulness, mixed with all the sadness of the great loss he suffered.
“Doctor…” You took a deep breath. “The way you looked at her? She must be thick to not know.”
First he looked puzzled, then there was the greatest smile you ever saw on his face. His eyes light up, he seemed so happy and relieved but also flushed and shy.
“You… ahm… noticed?” You nodded and a frown appeared on his face. “But you didn’t leave because of that, did you? Rose is great and I… care very much about her. But… you know I care about you too, right?! I didn’t mean to make you feel unwanted on the TARDIS. You’re my friend.”
The great problem with being friends with a smart man was that often you couldn’t hide a thing from him. Normally you never did, hiding things from a friend seemed stupid. But you couldn’t just tell him your true reasons for leaving. However you also couldn’t have him doubting that you knew you’d always been his friend.
“It’s alright. I was fine in Cardiff.” Neither confirming nor declining his suspicion. You knew this wouldn’t be the last of it, but before he could ask further you heard shouts.
“The hospital! It just vanished!”
“So much for a quiet day. Allons-y!”