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Once again, it's 2 a.m. and I can't sleep. I take out my phone and go to call Jaehyung. I can't; he doesn't want to talk to me. I call the next best person. "Leo, what do I do? I can't sleep without him here. He hates me."
"You know what you need to do Sammy; you know what you want to do. Why can't you see that he's hurting just as much as you?"
"He hates me, I hurt him Leo, I broke his heart." I'm close to tears as I always seem to be these days. "I broke my baby's heart; I broke mine too."
"Get some sleep, I'll talk to you tomorrow. You'll feel better after some sleep and a strong cup o' coffee."
"Sorry Leo."
"Don't be, good night."
I wake up with tear stains on my cheeks and a hoarse throat. I miss him. My thoughts blur together and the pain in my heart returns. I need him.
There's a message from Leo on my phone, telling me to meet him at the cafe near his apartment. Last time I was there I was with Jaehyung on a date, everything was perfect, he was happy, I still knew how to live in the present. We were together and nothing else had mattered. I messed up so bad. I pull myself out of bed, into the shower before I start crying again. This is the worst that I've felt since it all went wrong. The hurt and the guilt have built up and I can't cope. I miss Jaehyung's warm embrace, his sweet kisses, his soft voice. I feel as if I'm the only person in the world who knows this loneliness; as if he has moved on and left me behind. I would try to forget me after what I did to him but Leo's words are telling me he still cares. If he really cared, wouldn't he have called to let me know or at least texted, so I knew he was OK.
I walk the fifteen minutes to the coffee shop, with my hands in my pockets and my face buried in my hood. I don't want anyone to see me in this state. Leo is sat in a booth near the back. He hands me an iced americano and tells me to sit.
"Hajoon is with Jaehyung." I lift my head in shock. "Not like that you idiot. Hajoon is making sure he's actually eating and leaving the house. He's also threatened to break up with me, if I can't get the two of you to make up and make out."
"Wait, you and Hajoon are a thing?" He nods. "Fucking finally." He chuckles.
"Drink your coffee; it was overpriced." I take a sip and feel instantly more awake.
"Thanks for this mate."
"No problem, but in payment you have to talk to Jaehyung. He's a wreck Sam. Hajoon hates you for it but knows you're the only one who can get the happy Jaehyung back."
"I will, but I don't know what to say. How can I get him to trust me again?"
"You'll have to work that out yourself."