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"Don’t go, please" Lena begged almost crying.
"Lena, they need me on Earth 1. The dominators could destroy their planet. I promise you I will come back in two weeks, three maximum" She said stroking Lena's arms.
"Three weeks is too much, what if the baby come early and you are not here?" She said looking at Kara eyes.
"Babe you are only three month pregnant and the doctor said the baby is perfect." She assured her.
"Kara we have to get going" Barry called her from the control room.
Kara looked at the deep of Lena's sad eyes. She took one only tear that had been spilled and kissed softly her lips. She put her hands in both sides of Lena's belly and knelt in front of her.
"Ey little girl" she whispered "Mom have to go now, but I will be back in a flash, I promise. Do not forget that I love you my little super. I love both of you" She added looking at Lena. Then she stood up and kiss her lightly on the forehead, smelling her essence one last time. "Would you mind keeping my glasses until I come back?"
"I promise. I love you too" Lena whispered, knowing that Kara would hear her "Please be careful, not for you. For both of us"
***
Four years later
"Mommy, mommy, mommy" the toddler cried "Come here. My feet do not work anymore"
Lena stopped making breakfast and ran to her daughter room. The little girl was sat on the floor crying. Lena sat in front of her.
"Mommy" She cried, the blue eyes looked at Lena "I… the shoes... I can't walk well. Fix my feet, please" The little girl said between sobs.
Lena took one of her daughter little feet and removed the shoe.
"Oh, Chloe, nothing is wrong with your feet. You just put your shoes on the wrong foot my little girl" Lena took off her shoes and put them on the right places. The girl looked at her, she wasn’t crying but she was pouting. Lena couldn't think but how much she looked like Kara, she had dark hair like her, but the blue eyes, the smile, that tiny nose, the faces she made when she was angry or happy, she saw Kara every day on her little girl, and that’s made her felt proud and extremely sad at the same time. That day, four years ago she had left to not return.
"Can I walk now?" Chloe asked her. Lena nodded. The little girl stood up and jumped two times just to check, Lena smiled."Look mommy you fix it" The girl looked at her mother and hugged her. "Thank 'u mommy, I love love love you" she said with her head buried on Lena's neck.
When they were ready she took the little girl to preschool promising her that they would go to the park after school. Then she went to L-Corp.
Her day was very stressful as she had planned. Three meetings with some investors and another one with the L-Corp lawyers. She had achieved not to think about the anniversary of Kara's departure. She was finishing some paperwork when someone knocked her door.
"Lena" It was Sam, Lena's co-worker since Chloe was born" Jess want you to know that it is your time to go. Do you let me some work to do?" she joked, leaving her purse on the table.
"Hi Sam, I was just checking those reports" She answered standing up.
"Okay, I will finish this for you. How the conference was?"
After setting everything out with Sam, Lena left the building and addressed to the school. Before she could pick up her daughter the teacher asked her to talk to her.
" Miss Luthor, today we were studying the family and the kids had to draw a picture of their most closest family. This is what Chloe has drawn." She said giving Lena the drawing.
Chloe had drawn three figures who were holding hands on what looked like a rainbow. Over the first one she had written "MOMMY" and it had black hair and green eyes, over the second was written "CHLOE" and over the last one wasn't written anything, but it had blonde hair, blue eyes and glasses. Lena told herself to stay calm and don’t freak out. Then she looked at the teacher.
"I don't think this is something to worry about Miss Luthor. I just wanted you to know it, maybe you should talk to Chloe to be sure that she understand properly what happened to her mother. I don't think a psychologist is necessary either."
"Yes" Lena said taking a deep breath "I will talk to her" she turned she drawing back to the teacher.
"You can keep it. One more thing, they have to make a genealogical tree for two weeks, all the instructions are on her bag" The teacher added while she opened the class door, Lena folded the drawing and put it on her handbag "Chloe, you mother is here"
The girl was playing at the game zone, she turned and smiled. She picked her bag and ran towards her mom.
"Mommy we have an important homework to do, it’s a gynecological tree, and we have to put photos of all the family, like untie Alex and Maggie and Winn and Sam" she said.
"Honey I think you mean a genealogical tree and there you just can put your family members not your friends" She answered laughing. They walked out of the school.
"So, only you and me and the untie?" She asked thoughtful. Lena nodded. "and the granny and Winn, If I call him uncle Winn?"
"It doesn’t matter that you call him uncle, you can't put him on the tree"
***
They ate at home and then Chloe took a nap meanwhile Lena did some paper work. She took some folders out her handbag and picked her daughter drawing too. She stared at the happy family she had drawn, wishing it was real. She missed her so much. It had been four years without her and it didn’t became easier. Although at the beginning having Chloe was difficult she was grateful for having her, she was what Kara used to be, a ray of sunshine on her live.
Some nights, when she said her daughter good night and went to her bed, her walls fell down and all the sadness she repressed during the day came to the surface, that nights she cried until she fell asleep exhausted. Other nights she had nightmares, sometimes they were about Kara dying and other it was her daughter who disappeared.
She was so absent-minded that she didn’t hear her daughter coming.
"Mommy you can't go to the park in heels and cute clothes because there are kids and sand and you will get reaaally dirty" the little girl told her.
Lena's brain snapped, waking her up. She looked at her girl. She was wearing pink leggings with her favorites sneakers and the FBI shirt that Alex had given her and on her head her frog wool cap.
"You are wearing cute clothes too" she answered.
"Yes, but are cute park clothes" she said grabbing her mother's hand to get her up "you have to get ready mommy" she said eager.
Her daughter was not very patient even less if she had to wait to play. She put on some jeans, a black t-shirt and a pair of vans. She decided to let her hair free. Then she prepared some snacks for her daughter because food was another thing for which she didn’t have patience. She picked up her and Chloe's coat and the drawing and they walked towards the park.
Chloe was playing on the swings when someone sat next to Lena in the bench.
"Hi" the woman said.
"Hi Alex" she answered not looking at her. Lena sat still.
"How are you?" Alex asked looking at Chloe.
"I'm fine" she answered serious. Silence.
Lena and Alex relationship was complicated. They had gone through many disagreement since Kara disappeared and that had affected to their friendship. It was mostly Lena who tried to be a part from her and when they were together they only talked about their jobs or about Chloe. Alex really hoped that one day Lena opened to her.
"I tried to call you this morning" She broke the silence.
"My assistant told me, I was in a meeting. I was going to call you tonight"
"Well I want you both to come to my house tonight. We can make dinner and tell stories. She would like that" She said looking at the other woman.
"I can't Alex, not tonight" she said trying not to cry.
"How long this will last?" she asked a little angry "It's been four years…"
"It's only been four years for me Alex" Lena interrupted gritting her teeth" Sometimes I wake up and I ask her how has she sleep and then I realize that she is gone. I saw her every day in Chloe's eyes" she said.
"Okay but talk to me, it could make it easy" Maybe that time Lena would open to her. Lena turned and look at Alex for the first time.
"We will dinner next week when Eliza come" She said closing ranks and looking back at her daughter.
"This is not helping you" Alex added before go.
Lena just stood there gaping looking at the floor. She felt her eyes getting wet. Suddenly a little hand took hers. She looked up, finding the huge smile of her daughter. She couldn’t help but smile to that big blue eyes.
"Can I have a juice? And cookies?" she asked not leaving her mother's hand.
Lena lifted her and put her on her lap. Then she looked into her bad and picked up some snacks and Chloe's drawing. She gave the toddler the food and then she unfold the paper.
"Chloe" she began softly "the teacher has shown me this drawing"
"Aja" the girl said with her mouth plenty of food.
"I want you to explain me what have you drawn here" She said stroking Chloe's hair.
"This is you" she began pointing with her finger " this is me and this is mom" she explained, suddenly she turned to look at her mother .
"But you know that your mom is not here, don’t you?" she asked carefully.
"I know, but I don’t want to talk to her mommy because you are so sad when you talk about her."
Lena took a deep breath and closed her eyes trying to calm herself. She felt guilty that her daughter could not ask her about her own mother because of her behavior.
"I'm sorry mommy. But the teacher said we have to draw our family and I thought that is mom was watching from heaven she would like to see the whole family not just you and me" the girl was beginning to felt that she had done something wrong.
"Ey little, it is alright, okay? This drawing is amazing I love the colors and how do you draw us walking through the rainbow. I'm sure that if mom could see it she would thought the same." The toddler smile to her mother words" Chloe you have to know that you can ask me whatever you want about your mom. Who told you she was in heaven? It was the grandma?" Lena asked her. Certain she didn’t told Chloe want happened with Kara. She talked to Eliza and they agreed that she was too young to tell her that her mom disappeared while traveling to another universe but Lena didn’t feel good telling her that she was dead, so they told her that she disappeared trying to protect her friends, it wasn’t a very good explanation but Chloe was still little to understand the complexity of the matter.
"It was Troy, she told me that her grandfather disappeared one day and his parents told her that she had gone to heaven so I thought that maybe my mom can be in heaven too. You think that they make the rain?"
After Lena explained her daughter why people in heaven didn’t make the rain they addressed home.