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Kihyun wakes up sweating. The room feels too hot, and his entire body is shaking. He feels disoriented and terrified. All he remembers is he was being chased by someone in all black.
He lets out a soft whimper.
Kihyun has always been one if the strongest members mentally. He doesn't show weakness and cry like Hoseok, and he doesn't get scared like Jooheon. He isn't easily scared and he doesn't go to the members for comfort. This time however, he is absolutely terrified. He doesn't want to sleep or even be alone. The room is pitch black, and that doesn't help his nerves at all.
He likes to keep up his image as confident and controlling. He gets nervous if he isn't in control. He doesn't go to anyone for comfort besides Minhyuk. It's not like him, but this time he knows he can't stay in his own bed. The problem is most people would make fun of him. If he went to the two youngest members, they would surely tease him. Hyunwoo would offer no comfort, and Hoseok would also get scared. Minhyuk would baby him too much, so that leaves him with Hyungwon, the member he is least close to.
It's not that he doesn't like Hyungwon because he does. Hyungwon is hard to hate; he is pretty in every way, smart, and usually kind. Kihyun just isn't close to him like he used to be. He tends to spend his time with the three eldest members. He also can't deny he has weird feelings for Hyungwon; he gets nervous when they sit side by side or when Hyungwon accidentally falls asleep on him. It's small infatuation that can't go anywhere because they are in the same group.
This time he is left no choice but to go to the younger.
If Kihyun finds Minhyuk, he will definitely fall into his little space. He is already so close, but he can't slip in front of everyone else.
He shakily climbs down to the floor, whimpering when his feet touch the ground. He bites his lip hard because he is scared he will start crying. He can't do that with the two youngest in the same room.
Kihyun can't be little right now, not with everyone home.
He quickly runs out of the room and into the room next door. It's dark, but he has the room memorized. He knows Hyunwoo is sleeping in the bottom bunk with Hoseok curled up next to him; Hoseok's bed is to the side and completely empty. Hyungwon's bed is on above Hyunwoo's.
Kihyun quietly climbs the ladder but doesn't climb into the bed. "Hyungwon," he says weakly.
The other doesn't stir, so he pushes Hyungwon. At this point, Kihyun is close to tears.
What if something pulls me down from the ladder?
"Hyungwon!"
He is finally met with tired eyes. "Yeah, Kihyun?"
He sniffles. "Can I sleep with you?"
Hyungwon moves over, allowing Kihyun to climb in the bed and lie down on his side with his back pressed closely against Hyungwon's chest.
"You don't have to sleep so close to me, there's more bed," he mumbles.
"I had a nightmare," he turns around to face Hyungwon. "I'm scared." He sniffles again.
Hyungwon is wide awake now. "Oh, Kihyun, why didn't you go to the older members?"
Kihyun whimpers again, so Hyungwon places a hand on his cheek, rubbing his thumb against the flesh. "Shhhh, you're safe. I'm right here. I've never seen you so scared before. You're sweating and shaking." He pauses. "I think you're sick. Last time you were sick was the last time you had a nightmare." He pulls the blankets over both of them.
"I'm not sick," Kihyun tries to argue.
It makes sense though. He felt terrible yesterday at practice, so he took it out on everyone by snapping. He had a bad headache when they performed, too. He doesn't get sick often; the last time was a year ago. He wishes he would have taken better care of himself so he wouldn't be in this situation.
"Get some sleep, mayne Minhyuk will take care of you tomorrow."
Everyone can see the clear bond between Minhyuk and Kihyun. At home, they are constantly attached. Kihyun doesn't know why, but he suddenly feels uncomfortable that Hyungwon pointed it out.
Kihyun returns to his original position. He is shaking; he feels so cold. He whimpers for the millionth time, so Hyungwon puts an arm around his waist and gently shushes him. Kihyun can feel Hyungwon's bare legs against his own, and he presses his legs back further in search of warmth.
Kihyun lets himself relax.
-
Two hours later, he is up again, shaking Hyungwon. The said male sleepily lifts his head. His lips are slightly parted and his black hair is everywhere, but he still looks perfect. Kihyun doesn't have time to admire him though.
"Take me to the bathroom," he urgently begs.
It's the fastest Kihyun has ever seen him get up. Even with his weak arms, Hyungwon picks up Kihyun and dashes to the bathroom, placing him in front of the toilet. He sits on the side of the bathtub next to Kihyun and leans down to rub the elder's back.
Hyungwon watches in horror as Kihyun empties his stomach. It's disgusting, really, but he can't leave the main vocalist alone, especially since his small hand desperately clutches onto Hyungwon's larger free hand. Kihyun whimpers before throwing up again.
Ki, why didn't you go to the older members who know what they are doing?
Hyungwon reaches for two washcloths when he decides Kihyun is done for now. He releases Kihyun's hand and turns on the water in the sink just long enough to wet the washcloths before turning it off.
"Can you turn towards me?" Hyungwon asks in the most gentle voice he can manage. He sits back down on the edge of the bathtub.
Slowly, Kihyun turns to nearly sit in between Hyungwon's legs. Hyungwon leans forward and wipes Kihyun's lips using one of the washcloths before tossing it in the dirty laundry basket. He folds up the other one and holds it to Kihyun's forehead, dampening his light colored hair.
Hyungwon hesitantly asks, "Ki, want me to get Hyunwoo or Hoseok?"
"No," he pushes Hyungwon's hand away and presses his face against Hyungwon's bare knee. "No, please. I'm not weak."
"You're not weak," Hyungwon agrees, carding his fingers through Kihyun's hair. "You're just sick."
"I'm not sick," he weakly protests, though shivers and moves closer.
He must be cold. Underwear and a t-shirt isn't exactly warm.
"Please, I'll get one of the older members to take care of you. Ki, I'm not-"
"No!" Kihyun looks him in the eye. "Please. I just want you."
Hyungwon and Kihyun were close when they first debuted, anyone could see that. They always were happy to be paired together on Deokspatch or just enjoyed each other's company. After the All In era, they slipped apart. Hyungwon began to spend more time with the two youngest, so Kihyun naturally spent more time Minhyuk. He always felt nervous when Hyungwon touched him a bit too much.
In conclusion, Kihyun kinda likes the taller male.
Hyungwon speaks cautiously, "Okay, then are you ready to head back to bed?"
Kihyun shivers before shaking his head. "Sick," he mumbles.
"Okay Ki, let me go get you some water and a blanket. We can stay in here for a bit."
Kihyun reluctantly moves to let Hyungwon by, and he watches Hyungwon leave.
He throws up again before Hyungwon returns, and this time tears fall from his eyes. He shakes uncontrollably and wipes off his mouth.
"H-hyungwon?" He whispers.
Kihyun isn't sure how much time passes, but Hyungwon returns with a bottle of water and Kihyun's blanket. His eyes widen when he sees Kihyun crying. Kihyun looks so small; his hair is sticking up everywhere and he is pouting. He rubs his eyes and whimpers.
"Oh Ki, what's wrong?"
"I-I threw up again and you weren't here and didn't come back for a long time!"
The main vocalist is somewhere between little and big Kihyun. His words are slightly broken, but he doesn't start baby talking.
Hyungwon sits on the side of the bathtub again and puts the blanket around Kihyun's shoulders. "I'm sorry. When I went to get your blanket, I found Jooheon half-awake. He was complaining that he couldn't climb into your bed." He uncaps the water. "Drink some, please."
Kihyun takes the water and drinks nearly half of the bottle before handing it back to Hyungwon, letting the taller put cap back on. The main vocalist changes positions to sit facing Hyungwon so he can press his head against Hyungwon's knee to have something to lean on.
Hyungwon quietly pets Kihyun's hair. He isn't sure what to say. Normally, Kihyun is independent; he doesn't need anyone. He refuses to show any signs of weakness, everyone knows this; that is why they all go to Kihyun in search of comfort. Yet, Kihyun has never had anyone to comfort him in return.
At least not that Hyungwon knew of.
"Can we just sleep here?" Kihyun quietly asks.
Hyungwon sighs; he is exhausted but worried about Kihyun. He definitely doesn't want to wake up to Kihyun throwing up in his room though, so maybe it's a good idea to stay put.
The visual climbs into the bathtub, one of his legs inside and the other weirdly hanging out. "Come here."
Kihyun practically crawls over to him and settles in between his legs. He adjusts the blanket to lie on top of him so they can both be warm. It doesn't matter that the lights are on or that the door is open, Kihyun falls asleep in less than 60 seconds.
Hyungwon wraps his arms around Kihyun's waist so that his hands rest on the younger's stomach. Overall, it's really uncomfortable; he is sure he will be in pain tomorrow. Regardless, he lets his eyes fall closed.
-
"Hyungwonnie, why are you and Kihyun sleeping in the bathtub?" Minhyuk asks.
Hyungwon's eyes open slowly to see Minhyuk and Hyunwoo standing in the middle of the bathroom staring at them. Kihyun still lies on his chest, and Hyungwon is pretty sure he is mumbling something in his sleep.
Minhyuk looks incredible to Hyungwon. He seems naturally dominate, and Hyungwon just wants Minhyuk to tell him how good he was for taking care of Kihyun. He shakes the thought away.
You're twenty four.
Its the first time Hyungwon has felt like that in a while.
He should have expected it since he babied Kihyun last night.
"Kihyun is sick."
"So, you are sleeping in the bathtub in case he throws up?" Hyunwoo says with a questionable voice. "Hyungwon, why did you not come get me?" His voice turns stern. "You know that if someone is sick you find me or Kihyun. You have never even taken care of someone."
His voice slowly becoming louder causes Kihyun to stir. He immediately whimpers, clutching onto the blankets. In an effort to calm him, Hyungwon gently rubs his stomach.
"He didn't want anyone else."
Hyunwoo grabs the water bottle and hands it to Hyungwon, allowing the younger to open it and hold it up at Kihyun's lips. He slowly tilts it back, and Kihyun drinks the remaining liquid.
"Kihyun, you should have come to me," Minhyuk says softly. "Let's get you out and into some clean clothes."
The blonde male rushes over to the bathtub. Kihyun lifts up his arms, allowing Minhyuk to lift him up.
Kihyun sleepily grips onto Minhyuk, head falling on his shoulder. "Wanna...sleep."
Hyungwon is envious. He wants Minhyuk to carry him too.
They don't want to baby you.
He watches Minhyuk take Kihyun away, and Hyunwoo gives him a knowing look before leaving him alone too.
Everyone always leaves him, big or little.
He pushes the thoughts to the side. He can't act like that anymore.
-
"I want Hyungwon!" He hears Kihyun whine like a child to Hoseok.
Hyunwoo passed Kihyun off to Hoseok when he left to go to practice early. Currently, they are sitting on the couch because Kihyun is throwing a fit and refuses to eat.
"Well, what about me? Hyunwoo said I'm in charge!" Hoseok defends.
It's not that Hoseok is jealous; he is not. He is just offended that Kihyun would rather have one of the younger members.
Kihyun pulls the blanket further around his shoulders and pouts. "I want Hyungwon. He's better."
"Stop acting like you're a kid, Ki. Come on, it doesn't matter who takes care of you. I just need you to take this medicine." He motions to the spoon of liquid in his hand.
Kihyun hits it, and the medicine spills onto the floor. Hoseok sighs in defeat and stands up. When he returns 30 seconds later, Hyungwon comes with him.
Hyungwon has a weird feeling in his stomach; he doesn't want to take care of Kihyun when he is acting like a kid. He doesn't want to be near anyone if they want to act like they are younger.
He can't risk it.
The main vocalist jumps up from the couch to run and hide behind Hyungwon. "Tell him to leave me alone!"
"Hoseok, could you kindly leave Kihyun alone?"
Hoseok laughs softly. "Yeah, Ki. I will." He grabs his phone off of the couch and gives Hyungwon an unreadable glance before leaving to his shared room with Hyunwoo and Hyungwon.
"Seok's a meanie," Kihyun mumbles, sitting on the couch and wrapping the blanket around himself again. He pulls his legs up on the couch with him, sitting the way they make kids in elementary school sit.
Please stop acting like a little kid before I break.
Hyungwon hums. "But now he is gone and you still haven't taken your medicine." He sits next to Kihyun and gently pets his hair, resulting in Kihyun resting his head on Hyungwon's shoulder.
The one thing Hyungwon does know about sick Kihyun is that he wants attention and affection. Hyungwon doesn't mind offering that, it's just that he also needs to go to dance practice soon and get the hell out of here.
Kihyun obediently opens his mouth and lifts his head away from Hyungwon's shoulder. The visual quickly spills the liquid onto the spoon before slipping the spoon in between Kihyun's lips and letting Kihyun pull it out when he is done.
Hyungwon decides to test something out. "You're such a good boy, Kihyunnie."
Kihyun's eyes light up and he smiles so hard that his eyes disappear. Hyungwon feels an unsettling feeling in his stomach.
He distracts himself by trying to find some reason to get up.
Afrer scanning Kihyun up and down, Hyungwon frowns when he realizes Minhyuk didn't put pants on Kihyun.
"Hey Ki, let me go get a pair of my sweatpants for you to wear. They will warm you up."
The main vocalist nods, and he patiently waits until Hyungwon returns with a black pair of sweatpants (not surprising. Isn't his entire closet black these days?).
"Alright, be a good boy and stand up for me."
Kihyun stands up and lifts one of his legs to let Hyungwon pull the pants on. Once they are on, he sits back down and giggles.
"They're super!" Kihyun grins.
Hyungwon sits next to him. "Yeah, but they look really cute."
Kihyun usually gets embarrassed when he is called cute. He tells everyone he'd rather be called "sexy" rather than cute and small. Regardless, this time Kihyun smiles, revealing his teeth. His cheek bones are more obvious than before; he looks so cute Hyungwon could cry.
"Kihyun, it's about time to get some sleep, okay?" The eyes the clock as he notices the other members slip out the door. Practice is getting closer.
"Is Ki okay?" Minhyuk asks before he goes to open the door.
"He's just sick. Can you help me get him to bed?"
Minhyuk happily drops his practice bag and walks over. "Ki, you ready for bed?" It seems like he has done this a million times before.
Kihyun lifts up his arms towards Minhyuk and allows him to pick the smaller boy up. He clings to Minhyuk's front with his legs wrapped around him.
Hyungwon follows the other visual into Kihyun's shared room and watches as he places the main vocalist in Minhyuk's bed.
All he wants to do in climb in the bed too.
The blonde pulls up the blankets over Kihyun and smiles. "You'll be okay on your own, right Ki?"
"No!"
"Well, you'll have to be; me and Hyungwon have to get going. So, why don't you tell Hyungwon bye and I'll sing you to sleep while he gets ready?" Minhyuk sits by Kihyun's feet.
Kihyun seems to wait patiently for a second, so Hyungwon turns to Minhyuk because he seems like he knows what the hell is going on.
Minhyuk explains, "He is waiting for you to kiss his forehead and tell him bye."
Hyungwon's eyes widen. He didn't expect that, but Minhyuk knows, meaning he has done it before. Why does Minhyuk know all this? What is even going on with Kihyun?
Pushing everything aside, Hyungwon crouches down as gently kisses Kihyun's forehead, receiving a giggle from the said man. "Goodnight."
Kihyun is twenty four years old, not three.
Hyungwon leaves the room to go into his own room. He searches through his clothes for another pair of sweatpants and a t-shirt to practice in, but he pauses when he hears Minhyuk softly speaking.
"Kihyun, did you have a good day?"
"Yeah! Kihyunnie a good boy."
Minhyuk quietly laughs. "Yeah, you are a good boy. I'm sure Hyungwon was happy you didn't throw a fit again."
"Kihyunnie wanna pway with Won," Kihyun whines.
"We will see, bug. I'm not sure what he will think or do, but you'll always have me, okay? No matter which Kihyun you are."
It falls silent and he can only hear Minhyuk softly singing the chorus to Beautiful. He lets himself get lost in it before he quickly grabs his clothes and changes
Hyungwon comes to the conclusion that Minhyuk and Kihyun are dating. Jealousy hits him like a train, but he tries to ignore the feeling in his chest and the tears that form in his eyes.
He can't deal with them today.
They walk in silence on the way to practice. Minhyuk doesn't ask when he sees Hyungwon's tear-stained face; he silently wraps an arm around Hyungwon, bringing him close.
Sometimes it's better not to ask.
-
Minhyuk and Hyungwon leave practice early, deciding someone needs to check on Kihyun.
When they open the door to the dorm, Hyungwon isn't sure what he expected, but he didn't expect to see Kihyun crying on the couch.
"Left me!"
Minhyuk drops his bag, leaving Hyungwon to awkwardly close the door. The taller male feels like he shouldn't see Minhyuk sit on the couch and Kihyun crawl in his lap to face him. He is intruding; he needs to get the hell away.
There's a nagging feeling of jealousy in his stomach. Yes, Kihyun is cute, but he isn't sure if he is more jealous of Kihyun or Minhyuk. He bites his lip and looks away to quietly walk to his room.
"I'm so sorry, baby. I didn't know you would wake up," Minhyuk quietly tells him, wrapping his arms around the smaller male to ensure he doesn't fall off.
"Head hurts," he sniffles.
"Hyungwon," Minhyuk glances over, watching Hyungwon stand with his hand on the doorknob to his room. "Can you get some medicine for Ki from my room? Check the bottom drawer of the dresser."
Hyungwon forces a smile and nods. He walks into Minhyuk's room and sits on the floor in front of the dresser; he is overwhelmed. Kihyun is so cute like this, but at the same time he is twenty four. He shouldn't whimper like he does or crawl into Minhyuk's lap, not to mention Kihyun is probably dating Minhyuk when they are not allowed to date anyone at all.
He opens the drawer and he sees the bottle of liquid pain medicine, but he also sees a blue pacifier. Hyungwon doesn't know to describe how it makes him feel. None of them have kids, and this is specifically in Minhyuk's drawer with the children's pain medicine.
Then it hits him.
It's not Minhyuk's. It's Kihyun's. He secretly is a kid. It makes sense; Minhyuk knows exactly what the vocalist wants and how to handle everything. It explains why Kihyun is acting childish. What doesn't make sense, however, is how have they kept it from the group?
His heart suddenly sinks. The signs have been there all along for the past two months.
Minhyuk and Kihyun always stay up the latest and insists that everyone else go to bed, but they are also the first members awake in the morning. Minhyuk yelled at Changkyun when he tried to go through his dresser drawer. Then there was that time that he accidently went into the bathroom backstage to see Kihyun sitting on the sink crying with Minhyuk next to him, trying to soothe him. Minhyuk had told him to get the hell out. It explains why one time he asked to make dinner and Kihyun laughed and said he didn't know how.
Truthfully, he should have opened his eyes and put everything together.
Hyungwon takes the pacifier and medicine. All he wants to do is put the pacifier in his own mouth. It looks so tempting and relaxing. He feels himself nearly slip. If Kihyun is allowed, then why can't he?
They'll leave you.
He puts the pacifier in his pocket and quietly enters the living room to sit on Kihyun's other side. The feeling of jealousy intensifies with the pacifier close to him. He wants to put it in his mouth and for Minhyuk to quietly tell him how good he is; he wants Kihyun to play with him. He hasn't fallen in his space in years.
And he can't ever again.
"I have medicine that will make you feel better."
"Hurts," Kihyun whines. For some reason, he dragged himself off of Minhyuk while Hyungwon was gone.
"I know it does," Hyungwon speaks the way you'd speak to a child. "If you take this, it will make you feel better." He takes the spoon on the table that he used earlier to give him medicine.
"No!" Kihyun shouts, moving back to sit in Minhyuk's lap.
"Baby, let Hyungwon give you some medicine, okay? We can do whatever you want afterwards." Minhyuk tries to compromise.
Kihyun shakes his head. "No!" He crosses his arms. "Hurts!"
Hyungwon decides to take a risk since Minhyuk isn't convincing enough, and he needs this thing out of his pocket.
"Hey, Ki? Come here for a second," Hyungwon pats his lap.
Sure enough, Kihyun crawls into his lap. He sits to face Hyungwon with his legs on either side of him, knees touching his hips. Hyungwon holds the spoon and medicine in one hand and ruffles Kihyun's hair with the other.
"I have a surprise in my pocket, okay? And if you're a good boy, you can have it."
Kihyun eyes Hyungwon's hoodie pocket, debating whether it's worth it. "Want now."
"Well, you have to take your medicine first." He pours the liquid on the spoon. "Open."
Kihyun opens his mouth and makes a face when Hyungwon puts the spoon in his mouth. He quickly swallows and pulls it out, throwing it on the ground.
"Bad!"
"Well," Hyungwon places the bottle on the table. "You can have the surprise now."
The main vocalist's eyes sparkle, and Hyungwon nervously eyes the door; the others could be here any moment.
He pulls out the pacifier and he sees both Minhyuk's nervous stare and Kihyun's smiling face. Kihyun opens his mouth, allowing Hyungwon to slip it in between his lips.
He just looks so cute. Like a baby, he leans forward to rest his head on Hyungwon's shoulder to go to sleep. Hesitantly, Hyungwon wraps his arms around Kihyun and rubs his back. Kihyun sighs contently.
The feeling of jealousy that slipped away is back at full force. Kihyun just looks so happy to act like he is young. The pacifier is firmly in his mouth, and all Hyungwon wants to do is to take it away.
Stop it. Stop it. Stop it.
Slowly, Hyungwon stands up and takes Kihyun into his room. He sits on Minhyuk's bed, and Minhyuk follows, sitting next to him.
"I'm sorry, Hyungwon. No one was supposed to find out. Ki is going to freak out if he wakes up and he isn't in his little space. Please don't be freaked out or-"
"Minhyuk, it's okay. I handled it, didn't I?" He forces another smile.
Minhyuk looks so happy. "You did really well. I'm sorry he's like this. No one was supposed to know."
"How did you figure out?"
Minhyuk smiles brightly. "I accidentally caught him sucking on his thumb. I decided to buy him a pacifier last month when I couldn't get him to stop. He loves that thing, cries sometimes at shows when I don't have it. He tries really hard not to slip into his space much, but he does it every few days, so I stay up late with him."
Hyungwon catches the fond look in his eyes, so he asks the question on his mind. "Are you guys dating?"
Minhyuk laughs nervously. "No, no we aren't. I'm just his caretaker."
Caretaker.
It hurts Hyungwon physically.
Hyungwon's heart feels weird in regards to Minhyuk. He wants Minhyuk to be Kihyun's caretaker, but he also wants attention. He isn't sure what to do.
Minhyuk opens his mouth to say something, but Kihyun's phone rings from the owner's pocket.
And and chaos ensues. Kihyun starts crying loudly, his pacifier falls onto the bed. Hyungwon quickly reaches into Kihyun's sweatpants and pulls out his phone. He hands it to Minhyuk before picking up the pacifier and placing it back in Kihyun's mouth.
"Shh, I'm right here, Ki." He rubs the elder's back. "Come on, calm down for me," Hyungwon rests one hand on his neck to keep his head down.
Minhyuk answers the phone, "Hi, Hyunwoo, we are at the dorm and Kihyun is still sick so maybe everyone should stay clear of the dorm for a bit."
Kihyun's crying dies down to whimpers and sniffling, so Hyungwon mouths to Minhyuk to turn the speaker on.
"Well, Kihyun won't get everyone sick, it's fine ."
"No!" Minhyuk shouts. "He is really sick and doesn't want anyone to see him like this, so just stay away!" He quickly hangs up.
Minhyuk sits down next to Hyungwon. "Hey, sweetie. Hyungwon is going to put you down so you can get some more sleep while we make some soup, is that okay?"
Kihyun nods. "Kisses," he mumbles through the pacifier.
Hyungwon lies Kihyun down on his back and pulls the blanket on him before he hesitantly kisses Kihyun's forehead.
Minhyuk gently pushes by Hyungwon to kiss Kihyun's nose. "I love my Kihyunnie."
"Wuv you too," Kihyun says.
Minhyuk drags Hyungwon out of the room and into the kitchen. Together, mostly in silence, they make soup. Hyungwon can't stop staring, and Minhyuk occasionally meets his stare but doesn't comment.
Soon, they bring a bowl of soup into Kihyun's room, but they don't find what they expected to find.
Kihyun sits on the bed, pacifier gone. His knees are pulled to his chest and he is crying. He doesn't even look up to meet their eyes.
"I'm sorry I'm disgusting. I'm twenty four years old." Kihyun says with a surprisingly steady voice. "I'm sorry. Please just forget it."
"Kihyun." Minhyuk handles the bowl of soup to Hyungwon and moves to sit next to Kihyun. "Kihyun, I don't care if you're a little or if you're a normal twenty four year old. Even if you were a stripper, I'd still support you. I want to do everything in my power to make you feel happy and safe. If being in your little space makes that happen, then I'll gladly be your caretaker. Besides, little Kihyunnie is so cute."
Kihyun shakes his head. "Its disgusting. I know Hyungwon thinks it is. I'm supposed to be older than him, so I should act like it. It's weird to sleep with a pacifier or cry when you're left alone. I shouldn't be like this."
Hyungwon's heart breaks for him, and he 100% understands; Kihyun hates himself because he is scared of what everyone else thinks. It must have taken him a long time to open up to Minhyuk, and he clearly doesn't want Hyungwon near him.
The visual speaks up, "Kihyun, I don't think you're weird. I don't think you shouldn't act like that. I do think that we should talk about this when you aren't sick, so if you need space and time with Minhyuk, I'll leave." He hands the bowl to Minhyuk. "We will talk tomorrow. Get some rest, Ki."
He smiles gently at Kihyun, but the main vocalist refuses to speak to him. Instead, Kihyun presses himself against Minhyuk.
Hyungwon's entire body is on fire.
Stop being jealous of him.