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1. I'm Ashamed to Say the Word Love (To Call What I Feel for You) by WordsLeftUnspoken

   Fandoms: Hockey RPF  

   • Explicit
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   08 Jul 2018

   Tags

   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • Mitch Marner/Auston Matthews
   • Kasperi Kapanen/William Nylander (background)
   • Auston Matthews
   • Mitch Marner
   • Matt Martin
   • William Nylander
   • Nazem Kadri
   • Kasperi Kapanen
   • Patrick Marleau
   • Frederik Andersen
   • Morgan Rielly
   • Jake Gardiner
   • Connor Brown
   • Coming Out
   • Angst
   • Angst with a Happy Ending
   • Internalized Homophobia
   • Auston tries really hard not to feel things
   • Mitch is wonderful as always
   • These boys have a lot of emotions
   • Attempts at meaningless sex
   • Auston's POV

   Summary

   So. Here’s the thing. Auston never meant for any of this to happen. He had a plan for his life and his career and it never once looked anything remotely close to how it’s currently taking a hairpin turn and threatening to spin out of control. He never meant to end up wanting things he can’t stand to even think about without feeling sick, never meant to deviate from the safe path he’s created for himself, never meant to mix hockey – the only thing he’s sure of in life – with the one thing he’s sure he’ll always despise, never meant to look at a person he felt like he’s known forever and suddenly be struck with the realization he’s never really understood them at all. He thought he could handle whatever the hell kind of new havoc Mitch was bringing into his life; see it strictly as temptation without slipping, without breaking the rules.

   And you know something else? He was a fucking idiot.

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