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You sighed tiredly as you leaned back into the couch in the living room and looked up at the ceiling. You were completely exhausted. The mission you were sent onto with Steve and Nat turned out more difficult than it was already so two days turned into four. Steve sat next to you just as drained as you while Nat was lying on the other couch face pressed into the cushions.
‘Okay, I need a bath…’ you moaned. ‘But I’m too tired to just get up…’
‘You can ask Thor to carry you back to your room’ turned his head Steve to you.
‘I’m not a bag others need to carry’ you frowned. ‘But maybe I’ll consider it.’
‘Wow, what’s up guys?’ walked in Tony raising his eyebrows in surprise.
‘I hate the desert’ groaned Nat. ‘Do you still have some of that whiskey? The one which almost knocked me out?’
‘Sure’ grinned the billionaire and went right away up to the bar counter quickly pouring some of the liquid into to glasses. After fifteen minutes you decided to go to your room on your own and take that bath.
You dragged your feet towards your door down on the corridor and you tried to keep your eyes open and as your eyelids almost closed you didn’t see a certain God of Mischief walk towards you. Your shoulder bumped into something solid and you stumbled to the ground. You moaned painfully and tried to get back up but your arms were too weak. Two strong arms snaked around your waist and pulled you up onto your feet. You looked up to see Loki look down at you with confusion.
‘What?’ you asked furrowing your eyebrows.
‘And that is what I get for helping her up…’ muttered the black haired man as he stepped away from you and walked down the corridor towards the living area. You just stared after him confused but just shrugged and went into your room. You took a bath but almost fell asleep in the warm water and went to bed quickly.
Since Loki arrived to the Tower the two of you only bickered with each other and avoided crossing the other’s path as much as you could. Tony didn’t make it easy however when he moved the two of you onto the same level when one of his robots blown up your level by accident. Since then he forgot to give you another room on another level. You despised Loki because of what he’s done and because he was always rude to you. He easily pushed you out of his way if he wanted to cross and placed you out of his way like grabbing your arms and lifting you like a subject and put you in another place usually in a corner. The others always found it amusing and laughed their heads off when you got pissed off about it and yelled at him. Of course Loki yelled back and it ended always with the same result: Loki was held back by Thor and Steve while you were held back by Nat and Tony or any of the other Avengers. He could place you so easily because you were smaller than Nat and quite lightweight to Loki’s strength.
When you woke it was in the middle of the night but you couldn’t go back to sleep so you decided to have something to eat. You decided to make a sandwich so you picked out the things you needed from the fridge and started packing the slice of bread with the ingredients. Someone walked in and opened the fridge again.
‘What are you doing?’ asked a familiar deep voice. You looked up glaring at him to meet his green eyes. They looked at you genuinely curious. You sighed and replied.
‘A sandwich… do you want some?’ you asked hesitantly. You wanted to thank him for helping you up on the corridor but the words just didn’t want to come. Instead you offered to make him a sandwich as thanks.
‘Yes, that would be good’ Loki replied and closed the fridge walking up to you. You made him a sandwich too and put it on a plate handing it to him in silence. He stayed there with you as the both of you started munching on the meal. He watched you in silence and it irritated you.
‘What?!’ you snapped after a long while.
‘You seem tired’ he said shrugging.
‘Well, because I just came back from a mission?’ you rolled your eyes.
‘You dislike me…’ feigned a surprised, hurt and shocked expression Loki before smirking at you as your face turned from irritated to angry.
‘You are a mass murderer. Why are you so surprised?’ you sighed while putting your plate into the sink. You crossed your arms in front of your chest as you stared him down. Loki did the same with you and you saw how his handsome face contorted with anger. You didn’t just dislike him for acting like he was all mighty like a god but the fact that he used his good looks on women at the parties Tony threw for anything and everything. Loki easily charmed them into his bed and something about it irked you. You always thought it was unfair to use your good looks to get what you want. You weren’t like that and you despised others who did that. So it wasn’t just Loki but he was here in front of you almost everyday.
‘I already told you that was not how I imagined things to go!’ he hissed angrily. You knew he told the others that he didn’t want to kill so many people and that he only wanted to take over the world in silence. But then Thanos decided to play ugly and ordered him to get the Tesseract one way or another. Of course you didn’t believe him or any of the other Avengers but Fury saw a good asset in Loki and because the Trickster was banished from Asgard and the other realms would’ve imprisoned him or the people would’ve wanted to kill him, he had no other choice but to join the Earth’s Mightiest Heroes and live under their surveillance.
You were ready for a witty comeback when the large windows of the living room exploded. The shockwave sent you flying into the kitchen cabinets and for a short two seconds you saw darkness. You blinked quickly before jumping up to your feet and looked around. Loki was knocked to the ground as well and now was crawling up back onto his feet. You both looked at each other readying yourselves to fight. The adrenaline rushing into your blood made your muscles stop aching. As the dust cloud started to subside you could make out three figures slowly walked into the living room/common area through the space the windows were once. They held machine guns to their bodies.
‘How much bullets would hurt you?’ you asked quietly turning to Loki who quirked an eyebrow in question at you. You had a mischievous smirk on your lips knowing already what you were going to do. You whistled from where you were and dived down when the intruders started firing at the spot you were standing a few seconds before. While Loki dealt with the bullet shower you crawled towards the men. You were right at the feet of one of them and so you made your move. You pulled the guy down, knocked him unconscious without a sound and continued your way towards the one at the back. You slowly got them down one by one from behind while Loki slit the throat of the first two who was at the front. You heard them gurgle as they fell to the floor as you stood up.
The dust subsided and almost completely filtered out of the living room when the other Avengers arrived. It was quite the sight. You and Loki stood in the middle of the living room surrounded by unconscious or dead men in black combat gears. It was strange for you how easily you and Loki could work together.
‘What the hell?!’ mumbled Tony as he walked in his pajamas ruffled on him. His eyes were bloodshot just like Steve’s. Nightmares. You knew they had almost every night at least one nightmare but even with your powers you couldn’t help them. You had telepathy and was a master of playing with other people’s minds.
‘They are not all dead’ you shrugged. ‘We can ask a few of them out.’
‘What happened to the kitchen?’ asked Steve as he looked around confused.
‘She used me as a shield’ grumbled Loki beside you and you just giggled.
‘You are bullet proof while I’m not’ you replied. Loki opened his black over coat and then you realized he was still in his normal clothes. No pajamas at all. As he opened the coat you could see several bleeding wound on his torso. Your eyes widened in shock and you regretted it immediately.
‘I am not’ he said. ‘It does not hurt as much as it would hurt you mortals, but it is still irritating.’ Loki sighed and walked up to the elevator. ‘If you excuse me, I will take these out.’
‘Loki, wait!’ you cried out. ‘I will help you!’
‘No need for that’
‘I want to! It’s my fault’ you shook your head and rushed up into the elevator the doors snapping closed behind you.
‘It is’ he rolled his green eyes. You rode up to his room in silence. Your wrist started itching and so you scratched at it before looking down on it. Since Loki appeared in the Tower your marking kept itching. Everyone or at least a lot of people had their markings. There were two letters showing on your skin looking like tattoo. L.L.
You knew one guy who was named Luke Lanard and he was quite cute. He had blonde hair and blue eyes with a smile that could make women melt at S.H.I.E.L.D. He was a field agent and had a few missions with you and Steve. Steve kept telling you that Luke was into you but you ignored these things. You were too busy with being a good agent and doing something good to offset all the bad things your parents did starting with the experiments they put you through. You had your powers because of their tortures.
Loki instructed you where you could find the first-aid kit and let you take care of the wounds you caused. The red of the blood was a wide contrast to his pale skin and even after you washed away the blood, his skin stayed red at the wounds. You picked out the bullets, exactly twenty-one, and patched him up. You looked up and saw how his eyes darted to the book on his nightstand but he couldn’t reach for it if he didn’t want to rip up his wounds. Both of you reached for it and when you looked down you spotted two letters on his wrist too. (First) (Last). You quickly gave him the book and left the room without a word.
You were now being paranoid. There was more than thousands of people out there with the same first letters like yours. You hoped so. You went right back to your room and fell back into your bed.
Time skip~
You sat on the couch with Thor in the common area watching a movie and eating pop-corn. Tony right after the attack called a clean-up team and even if the glasses were still missing everything looked normal. Loki left for a mission with Steve and Bucky. They were a surprisingly well working team.
Ever since you spotted the two letters on Loki’s wrist you avoided him as much as you could. You were relieved when Luke asked you out to have dinner with him on Saturday. You were already excited about it and told Nat and Steve when you got back to the Tower from the S.H.I.E.L.D. facility to give a report to Fury. And then everyone else happened to know about it even Loki. The demigod didn’t want to take on the mission he was on now at first but he changed his mind right after the day you told the others your date. He never liked you much as you didn’t like him either. You assumed he didn’t want to be here when you would get back on Saturday to listen to your babbling. But somehow his absence made you uneasy like you were missing your bickering. And maybe you did.
‘Should we change the movie, Lady (Name)?’ Thor asked suddenly snapping you out of your train of thought.
‘No, it’s okay… I was just thinking…’ you replied popping a pop-corn into your mouth trying to turn his attention back to the movie but it didn’t work.
‘I saw you and Loki stopped arguing lately. Has he done something to you?’ the blonde god turned his body to you to see you narrowing your eyes. You really, really didn’t want to talk about Loki. Not tonight nor ever. You sighed placing the bowl on the coffee table.
‘I saw his marking on his wrist and I can’t forget the initials… (Y/n) (L/n)’ you replied.
‘Oh, do you know who that is? He has that mark while none other in Asgard has anything similar’ Thor said scratching his chin deep in thought.
‘Most of us have a mark on our wrists that signals who will be the one we will come to love… our soul mate’ you rolled your eyes. You always thought it was crap and wanted to follow those who got it “scraped”. It was a special way to remove it or make it almost invisible. A lot of people did it because a lot of them never found the love of their lives.
‘It is nice thing… that way it is easier to find that one, is it not?’ Thor asked as he watched you glare down at your wrist.
‘I had a friend who was too into it… she was so excited to find that person and she found her but not the way she expected it. She found a picture and had a feeling like that person was the one she was looking for. She found the guy’s siblings after searching after him. She found him… in the cemetery. He was a soldier and he got shot in Iraq. My friend got depressed so much after seeing how her mark faded away… that she turned to drinking. I don’t know what happened to her after that.’ you replied remembering Sophie’s kind and joyful smile turn into sad and lonely. She pushed away everyone and even attempted suicide when she was too deep.
Thor placed a hand on your shoulder and just sat there with you silently. He was like a big brother to you and had this close relationship with him. The others were just friends. Steve was your bestie but sometimes he wasn’t able to be there for you the way Thor could. Thor’s large hand grabbed your wrist and pulled it towards him.
‘What?’ you asked confused.
‘These letters… L. L. like Loki Laufeyson’ he ran his thumb over your mark. Your eyes widened and you quickly jumped up from the couch shaking your head violently.
‘No, it means Luke Lanard’ you blurted out before leaving the blonde demigod alone. You didn’t want it to mean Loki Laufeyson. It couldn’t be Loki. He was a murderer, a villain and you were fighting for something good. You would never start liking the Trickster.
Time skip~
Days passed and it was Saturday already. You were preparing in your room for the dinner with Luke when there was a knock at your door. You leaned out of the bathroom door opening and yelled over to the person to come in. You heard the person close the door behind themselves before walking up to the door of the bathroom.
‘You look ravishing’ spoke up a deep voice you wished to avoid. You jumped in surprise and snapped your head to Loki who was leaning on the door frame his arms crossed over his chest.
‘That sounded like a compliment… what did you to Loki and where is he?’ you pointed your hairbrush at him making the demigod smile a small smile.
‘I am being honest and express what I truly think and get this reaction? You hurt me, (Name)’ he put a hand over his heart feigning hurt. You rolled your eyes but chuckled nonetheless. He got back two days ago because they finished their mission sooner. Everyone noticed that you were nicer to him than before but you didn’t feel like it. He was the one to act differently and because he was kinder and less bitter and cold to you, you decided to not be as bitchy with him either.
‘But really… the others said something changed between us. You are less infuriating now… why?’ you asked curiosity shining in your (e/c) eyes. Loki quirked his eyebrows and his expression seemed like he was truly surprised but you knew he wasn’t at all.
‘Well… I think we are now shield partners and that means we cannot argue all the time.’ he pushed himself away from the door frame and backed into your bedroom looking around and not meeting your eyes. You narrowed them in suspicion.
‘What did you do?’ you put your hands on your hips.
‘Nothing, I swear’ he chuckled but still kept his eyes on the landscape as he stood in the windows. He took a deep breath before turning around walking up to you and placed a hand on your shoulder. ‘Have a nice evening, (Name).’ he said before leaving your room.
You stared at the closed door for a few minutes as you tried to process what just happened. In these few days your opinion of him turned all around completely. There was a strange feeling in your stomach when he passed on the corridor or you met in the kitchen both looking for something edible in the middle of the night. You couldn’t forget how you felt electricity circle in your body when your fingers accidently touched as you passed him the bowl of ice cream. Your heart started beating quicker at the thought.
Flashback~
You woke from just another nightmare cold sweat covering your skin and your chest heaving as you tried to catch your breath. You threw the covers off of your body and jumped out of bed. You quickly went down to the kitchen to get a glass of water to calm your nerves. The common area was silent and dark as you stepped in but there was light coming from the kitchen. Your lips pulled into a smirk. At least you won’t have to think about your nightmare for a few minutes.
You walked in and stopped right at the door when you spotted Loki waist deep in the fridge. You chuckled because it was a sight. He looked so… normal… human.
‘Found anything edible?’ you asked. He jumped in surprise which was not an everyday thing and bumped his head in the top of the fridge. He cursed under his breath and you felt guilty. ‘I’m so sorry! I didn’t mean to…’
‘Sometimes I forget you mortals can be so…’ he sighed rolling his eyes.
‘Hey, I said sorry!’ you furrowed your eyebrows pouting. Loki’s eyes widened as he watched you.
‘That is a first…’ he muttered as he looked at you amused. ‘Do you know where is that sweet called “ice cream”?’
‘Sweettooth’ you giggled and closed the fridge’s door while opening the freezer’s. You pulled out the biggest bowl of ice cream you ever seen and smiled up at Loki with triumph. ‘Here.’
‘Thank you’ he nodded with a hint of a smile on his lips making your mouth open in surprise. You fished out two spoons quickly after waking from your stupor and handed him one. He looked at you surprised.
‘What? You thought I won’t eat some if I already fished it out for you?’ you quirked an eyebrow playfully at him before jumping on the counter next to where he was leaning against and scooped up a big spoonful of ice cream out of the bowl. The two of you ate ice cream silently for a long time when Loki spoke up.
‘I heard you have a “date” with that man… Luke was his name?’ he asked. The spoon stopped in the air on its way to your mouth. Why was he asking about it? And why did he remember the guy’s name?
‘Um… yeah, this Saturday actually… why?’ you asked glancing at him from the corner of your eyes. Loki’s handsome face had an unreadable expression as he looked in front of himself into nothing.
‘Oh, nothing, just wanted to make sure I heard it right. I remember how many times the others tried to set you up with someone’ he shrugged. Your eyes widened in surprise.
‘You paid attention?!’ you blurted out shocked. He just chuckled before turning to you with a smirk on his thin lips.
‘How could I not? Stark was not so subtle about the topic when you just left the guy in the middle of a date’ he replied. You remembered that date and it made you chuckle too. You were supposed to spend your day with the guy at a festival and you asked him to buy hot-dogs for you before leaving the scene. Poor guy wasn’t that bad but you weren’t into blind dates. You needed trust and you couldn’t trust someone you never met before.
‘Well… maybe because the guy was one of his colleagues…’ you snorted before both of you laughed a little. You never imagined the two of you would have a decent conversation like ever. It was… nice. As your laughs died down a heavy silence sat between you two. There was something strange in the air you’ve never felt with anyone. It wasn’t bad but wasn’t the best thing in the world. This heaviness felt like destiny wanted to turn your relationship into something better and serious. Into something real. And it made your heart flutter in your chest with excitement and your stomach sink in fear. You always feared to have something serious with someone as in friendship or relationship also. You knew too well how much it hurt to lose someone and you wanted to avoid the heartbreak.
‘I-uh… I think I gotta go. I had a long day so…’ you jumped off of the counter and turned to walk out of the kitchen when Loki’s slender fingers circled around your wrist.
‘(Name)… I-‘ he started but when he met your (e/c) eyes with his emerald ones the sentence got stuck in his throat. He shook his head before flashing you an actual smile however you saw a hint of sadness. ‘Good night.’
‘Good night’ you nodded and left with your heart thumping in your ears and your skin hot where his met yours.
What you didn’t know that the God of Mischief was looking after you with longing sparkling in his eyes. He cursed in his thoughts as he let out a sigh in frustration. He was this close to tell you how he didn’t want you to go on that date on Saturday. This close to tell you how you could make his blood boil while you could also make his heart jump whenever you looked into his eyes, your gaze boring into him like you could see right through him. He couldn’t believe how he could feel this way. For a mortal. For someone who will surely break his heart and he knew that day will be on Saturday when you won’t come back to the Tower. He knew you will break his heart when he will notice that with every passing day you will be less and less present in here. You will grow to love that man and will forget about him just like all those women did back on Asgard. He sighed again and closed his eyes with a sad and lonely expression on his face.
End of flashback~
You sat in the cab looking out to the street where the restaurant was. The place was lit up nicely and had a vintage style. Luke knew you hated those fancy places where everyone had to wear expensive clothes and acted all snobbish. This place was cute and nice… friendly. You paid the driver and left the car. You looked inside the restaurant and quickly spotted Luke sitting alone at a table. He already had a glass of beer in front of him and checked his phone while you were looking at him. He had sandy blonde hair like Steve but was styled into a messy bed head (he did it on purpose knowing it looked good on him) and his blue eyes were an icy color but it was warm. You pushed the door in and walked inside approaching him.
‘Is this seat taken?’ you asked smiling at him. When he looked up, his eyes widened at how good you looked in that dress (fav. color and type, of course).
‘Of course, it is yours, sweetheart’ he stood up and pulled your chair out for you. The waitress soon approached you and you both ordered something to eat. You talked about work but soon turned to more personal things. You told him that you were actually living with the Avengers and that you loved it even if Tony’s parties were a pain in the ass sometimes. Luke told you that he has three sisters and a dog and had a bunch of friends from University. He was kind and a gentleman, always listening to what you said with attention and made you laugh and feel great… but there was something missing. It was just too nice. Your mind kept wandering to Loki after the second dish arrived. You wondered if he had a girlfriend or what kind of date he would be. Luke fortunately didn’t notice this. You had a great night but it wasn’t the best.
You were walking down the street towards the Tower after dinner. The sky was so dark blue that it looked black and stars were dancing on it. The street lamps made the scene more romantic because no one was on the streets only a few cars passing by. You were staring at the ground when Luke called your name.
‘(Name)? Are you with me?’ he chuckled but you heard how nervous he was. He was a shy guy even if it didn’t seem like it when you looked at him.
‘I-I’m so sorry… I just had something on my mind for a second’ you smiled up at him apologetically.
‘Someone else, right?’ Luke asked making your eyes widen. He chuckled sadness lacing his voice. ‘I’m not a fool, (Name). I sense that you were somewhere else sometimes.’
‘I’m so sorry. It’s not like I wasn’t enjoying the night…’ you started.
‘But there was something missing’ he finished it with a sad smile. ‘That guy is lucky.’
‘There’s nothing between us… I actually hate him’ you huffed. Loki could ruin your date not even being present.
‘Do you?’ Luke asked shaking his head with a smile. You grew silent. Were you really hating Loki? Was he that bad? He was nice to you since he came back and even when he was rude and an ass you missed your bickering. ‘I thought so. Go and tell him.’
‘I’m sorry… you deserve better’ you sighed but Luke just shook his head as he watched you ran down the street. The Tower was right in front of you but you had to get to the common area quickly. You opened your wings (yes, you have wings I just forgot to mention it because I was too preoccupied with the plot XD) and jumped into the air. The cold wind was blowing in your face and messed your hair up but you didn’t care. You had to find him. You had to tell him… something if not how you felt. Doubt was inching its way up on your throat as you got closer to the balcony.
But you weren’t alone. Your eyes widened to see Loki standing there in full armor right next to Thor while the other Avengers stood behind them. Everyone turned to you surprised when you landed.
‘What are you doing?’ you asked curiously.
‘Going back to Asgard.’ replied the blonde demigod with a kind smile.
‘Why didn’t you guys tell me?’ you asked turning your attention to the others who looked away.
‘You had a date and we didn’t want to interrupt’ replied Steve.
‘But I am part of the team as they are! I should’ve been here to say goodbye at least!’ you huffed. This was something you hated: to be left out. It was something you always hated because your parents did the same when you were ten. They left you in an orphanage without a word.
‘I did not want you to be here’ spoke up Loki making everyone freeze in surprise. Your lips parted in surprise and hurt as you turned to him. Steve quickly ushered everyone inside with Thor leaving the two of you alone.
‘Because you hate me?’ you asked and your heart made a flip in your chest. But he stopped being an asshole to you since he finished his mission. He acted like he considered you as a person and not an insect. Loki suddenly erupted in laughter but it was humorless.
‘Oh, no, darling… I hardly hate you’ he shook his head. ‘I just could not watch it happening.’
‘What?’ you furrowed your eyebrows.
‘You courting another. You slowly leaving the Tower to live with him.’ Loki said walking up to you. He was so tall and handsome and his armor fitted him so well. His golden horned helmet shining brightly on his head.
‘I would never give up living with you guys’ you shook your head in disbelief. ‘A relationship comes and goes but you guys are my family. Even you, Loki. I never knew I would miss you but when you went to that mission… well… I realized that I did miss you.’
‘Did you?’ he asked surprised hope lacing his deep voice making you blush.
‘I did’ you nodded. Silence sat between you for a few moments until Loki broke it by asking:
‘Why are you here? Should you not enjoy the evening with… Luke?’ he asked sadness overtaking his emerald eyes.
‘I… came home…’ you sighed. ‘Don’t get me wrong, it was great… but something was missing.’
‘What do you mean?’ pushed the demigod looking at you curiously.
‘The place, the date, everything was perfect but it wasn’t the right guy’ you replied looking up at him. You couldn’t keep your eyes flicking to his thin lips for a second.
‘Who would be the right one?’ Loki asked his emerald eyes flickering with mischief but there was something else. There was hope and fear. You couldn’t place it. He always seemed to be the guy who knew he looked good and used it. But now… it was like he wasn’t sure about it.
‘You’ you breathed before reaching up and smashing your lips to his. Loki went still for a moment as he processed what was happening and you regretted acting too fast but he grabbed your waist and pulled you closer to his body kissing you back. You melted into it before letting go to catch your breath. Loki pressed his forehead to yours with a wide grin on his face.
‘What about-‘ he started but you silenced him by putting a finger against his lips.
‘No. I’m too tired to do anything like that’ you shook your head.
‘You do not even know what I was suggesting, (Name)’ he chuckled grabbing your wrist and pulling your knuckles to his lips to press a kiss to your skin.
‘Oh, trust me, you guys always think about the same thing’ you laughed.
‘And what about-‘
‘In your dreams, Loki’ you laughed as you pulled him inside the common area.
End~