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To Gyro,
I never believed myself when I stormed away from you that day. I didn’t really think any of the things I said about you but…
I was just so hurt and confused, and I felt so betrayed I just…
I went to stay with my parents, back in Danville for a bit. It wasn’t ideal, but it was all I could do until I sorted out my tickets to go to England with my cousin and his wife. I wanted to come back to you and give you the benefit of the doubt, but I just thought I left you in such a state and I couldn’t face you knowing I had accused you so terribly and not let you get a word in edgeways. There was no way I could see you so soon afterwards.
And then I was leaving, and you managed to find me (I suspect Diego told you or something like that happened) and I was so confused as to how to act – was I supposed to be angry? Was I supposed to forgive you? Either way, I was leaving and anything I did wasn’t going to change that fact. So, I did the stupidest thing imaginable and shoved you further away (yet you kept strong and stayed faithful to me this whole time as I did you? I almost don’t believe it.) in a way that hurt you so much more than I wanted.
I feel like I should be doing this face to face with you but now feels more natural, to fit with the many – many – letters you sent me.
I did need you, I do need you, and I always did.
I’ve never stopped loving you.