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whether it be shared looks at practices or embraced hands on streets leading home or smiles over breakfast , taeyong could never get enough. at first it started with small flutters, rushes of color to his cheeks, and a loss of words that soon grew to an unending yearning to never let go of jaehyun‘s hand or the huge amount of self control he used to not kiss jaehyun’s beautifully shaped pink lips. happiness to taeyong was jaehyun’s smile and his cute dimples that always accompanied it.
but tonight, he was in the practice room alone. all the others, worn out and exhausted had left hours ago, and yet he remained dancing until he would drive jaehyun out of his mind. but no matter what he did he couldn’t get rid of his charismatic laugh and eye smiles. he worked on every dance he knew and still the thought remained in his head. he had known and recognized his feelings for jaehyun for a while now. the agonizing part was not being able to do anything about it. he knew it could never happen, would never happen. how could jaehyun like someone like me? he thought to himself as the beat of heartbreaker came on. he could see his own sweat gleaming in the studio mirror and the purple bags under his eyes, yet he couldn’t let himself go back to the dorm he shared with jaehyun quite yet. the lyrics that he knew to heartbreaker echoed in his head as he attempted to continue dancing, but his overwhelming emotions caught a hold on him and refused to loosen its grip. he didn’t know when he started crying but only noticed the tears when they hit the studio floors. his throat choked up and his vision became unclear. the exhaustion hit and his knees gave to the pressure, knocking him to the ground. the thud of his knees meeting the floors sounded distant and a rushing filled his ears. sobs racked his body and shook his shoulders. his arms fell loosely to his lap, useless, as misery took him in.
a small word echoed through the room and reached taeyong’s ears. “tae?” the voice registered and he immediately recognized it as jaehyun’s. he quickly wiped his eyes and took a deep intake of breath.
“yea?” he replied weakly.
“why are you crying?” jaehyun asked, voice filled with concern.
“it’s nothing,” he felt the latter’s hand rest on his shoulder. “ What are you doing up so late?”
“I couldn’t sleep, you didn’t come to bed.”
“i’m sorry.” taeyong whispered.
“don’t be.” he pauses,” what are you still doing here?”
“just practicing.”
“would you stand up for me?” jaehyun nearly pleaded.
taeyong could only mange a nod as he rose to his feet and faced jaehyun.
“now tell me, why were you crying?”
“i can’t tell you.”
“hey, you can tell me anything,” jaehyun looked into taeyong’s blood shot eyes as he reached over to taeyong’s face and moved a misplaced hair. another tear silently escaped taeyong’s eye, “did i do something wrong?”
“no, no, of course not.” taeyong reassured quickly.
“then what is it?” jaehyun pressed
“i-i love you.” taeyong whispered as more tears followed the last onto his heated cheeks.
shock registered on jaehyun’s face and taeyong prepared for the worst, instead he was met with jaehyun’s soft cool lips on his hot ones. he gasped in surprise of jaehyun’s action, and then quickly shifted closer to him, letting himself be overtaken by the kiss and allowing his lips to press deeper into jaehyun’s. the kiss continued in deep strong movements from long bottled up feelings and longings. catching their breaths , the kiss broke and they stood in each other’s arms. disbelief that it just happened was clear in taeyong’s eyes, and a sense of completion filled him.
as they breathed heavily, jaehyun broke the silence, “i love you too tae.”