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We found each other
I helped you out of a broken place
That night I heard you crying in a dark alley. I came to help, I didn't know who you were but you were battered and broken. I brought you to the dorm even though I wasn't allowed to bring anybody. You let me treat your wounds while I gave you comforting words and smiles. Then you smiled back sadness in your eyes are still clear. You said thank you and told me your name was Jin.
You gave me comfort
You also became a trainee because after that incident, we got caught when the managers were doing their daily checks at the dorm. They saw how beautiful you were and offered you a training contract. You have no place to go and accepted the contract. We became roommates, even though we became closer day by day. You still didn't told me about what happened that night we met.
With that beautiful face came with a beautiful voice. You started liking singing and you discovered you have talent on that. I love your voice, it's like listening to an angel singing.
Yoongi and Hoseok always left the studio early. I always get left behind because I can't rest until I'm satisfied with my compositions. You always told me I'm too workaholic but you always stay with me in the studio even though I insist you go back to the dorms without me. When you were bored on waiting, you just kept calling my name, "Namjoon-ah, Namjoonie, Joonie". I always pretend to be anoyed but I like the sound of your voice calling my name. Then you always fell asleep on the studio's couch. I always finish my songs when I watch you peacefully sleeping.
But falling for you was my mistake
Rules are rules, being a trainee there are certain rules to follow and one of them is avoid dating or falling in love. But how can I do that, you're always here for me, you're my inspiration and you supported me through out. I wanted to tell you what I feel but I think this is just a one sided thing. You were so focus on being a best singer that I can't ruin that.
I put you on top, I put you on top
Hyung, you started to be late at your practice until you started not attending. I was worried but I always manage to talked to the managers that you were always out for a family emergency. They trusted my words but who am I kidding. I don't even know where you go or what's your problem. Everytime I asked you just change the topic or just completely ignore me.
I claimed you so proud and openly.
I wanted to claim you and shout to the world that you're mine. But I also didn't want to waste the years we've been training for. My hiphop trio debut and you as a solo artist debut is very near. All our dreams are coming true.
And when times were rough, when times were rough
I made sure I held you close to me.
Coming from a small company, after the debut, we did received a lot of hate than acceptance on both of our debuts. I understand the hate Yoongi hyung, Hoseok and I received because we were too tough and too proud spitting truth and real issue in the society through our rap. But people hating on you was ridiculous, you were just nervous that you sang just one wrong note.
I came back from practice, it was too early to go to bed but when I entered our room you were laying down facing the wall, trying to hide that you were crying. I lay down beside you and pulled you into a hug, you froze for a second then relaxed. You turned to face me and hugged me back. You nuzzled your face on my neck and I can feel the wetness of your face from crying. I held you tighter and buried my nose to your hair. As always, you smell nice and relaxing.
I lost controlled and started kissing your hair. I've realize what I've done then sat down and apologized. I was about to leave the room but you held my hand. Pulled me back to bed, we were sitting staring at each other. The next thing you did was sat on my lap and stared into my eyes and kissed me on the forehead, on nose, on my cheeks. I held your chin and kissed you on the lips we kissed until we were out of breath. "Namjoon" that's all you said and I kissed you again.
So call out my name (call out my name)
Call out my name when I kiss you so gently
I woke up naked, on your bed. You were not beside me but I can smell food. As usual you were cooking breakfast. I got dress and check my phone. A text from Hoseok, "We're staying at the studio, continue doing what you two are doing ❤". At least they accepted us.
I went to the kitchen and kissed you on cheek. We continued eating and talked about random topics but we didn't talked about what happend last night. I wanted to asked you but I was anxious to talked about it.
I said I didn't feel nothing baby, but I lied
We were madly in love at each other. Already accepted each others dark past. So you went your way and confirm a dating issue of us. Of course the whole company was furious that causes chaos especially to the public. I didn't know how to feel but our career was starting to rise. I can't risk and be selfish because Yoongi and Hoseok did work as hard as me so we can be on top. I went ahead and turned your whole confirmation as a joke. A lot of people know you like to joke around. So they believed me, it still pains me to think a lot of people still is homophobic which also scares me.
I almost cut a piece of myself for your life
After all the commotion about our issue. We grew distance to each other, you left the dorm without telling us that you requested seperate dorms.
My hiphop trio is rising on the chart and you started to become an actor. Our paths never crossed outside the building office. We talked like same old friends in the variety shows we guest in then after that no connection. It hurts hyung, it fucking hurts, I'm so close on giving up my career for you.
Guess I was just another pit stop
'Til you made up your mind
You just wasted my time
You occasionally visited me just so we can make out. We became friends with benefits, we're not even friends anymore. We were just filling up our sexual frustration and that's it.
I've become really busy with shows and tours. We loss time for each other to fulfill. You came back to him. The one who left you broken, devastated and depress back then.
I storm to your place. I shouted at you on how crazy you were running back to him. You shouted back and told me that he still loved you. I asked you who do you loved and you answered. Still rings on my mind, "Namjoon babe, you're just for fun. I came to realise I still love him. I never loved you Kim Namjoon".
You're on top, I put you on top
I claimed you so proud and openly, babe
My group was on hiatus, Yoongi and Hoseok are good friends. They saw I was still struggling to forget about you. I had a hard time writing songs that weren't about you. While you were the most popular actor, and announced your engagement to the public. It hurts how people accepted you and him than you and I.
And when times were rough, when times were rough
I made sure I held you close to me
It's the day of your wedding, Yoongi and Hoseok were going. As expected you didn't invited me. I was mopping around at the dorm. A loud bang on the door interrupted my thought. I opened the door, you were standing there. I invited you in, and we sat down the couch not bothered talking. You wiped your face with your white suit. The concealer was smudge on the suit and visible purple marks are on your face. Without thinking I held your face gently and asked who did this to you even though I know the answer. You held on to me and you cried and cried and cried. I looked into your eyes, and we kissed like there's no tomorrow. I was right there is no tomorrow.
So call out my name
So call out my name when I kiss you
So gently, I want you to stay
I wanted you to stay but when I woke up. I was naked and alone. I stood up half expecting you were just cooking breakfast and half knew you left.
I am right... You left me...
I want you to stay even though you don't want me
Boy, why can't you wait
Boy, why can't you wait 'til I fall out of loving?
I wanted to hate you, I wanted to forget about you. You never said you loved me. But I can't... I still love you.
Babe, call out my name (say call out my name, baby)
Boy, call out my name, and I'll be on my way boy
I'll be on my
10 years passed, the three of us started a new entertainment company. Yoongi continued to perform as an solo rapper by the name Agust' D. Hoseok became a chareographer and I became a music producer.
My secretary gave me an enveloped. I opened it and read the letter. I'm shooked asked her where she got it. She told me a man gave it to her and told her it was a very important note that I must read. I run out of the building, make my way to lot of people. Then you were standing at the alley where we first met.
"Nice seeing you again Namjoonie"
On my way, all the way
On my way, all the way.