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Note: (Y/N) means Your Name

I was sitting behind my desk. I was expecting a call for my job, because the last company I worked for fired me. I hope they call me, because if they don’t I will lose my apartment. I have nowhere to go. All my friends left for America chasing their dreams. And I’m still here. Stuck in Korea. Working my ass of everyday to provide compositions for lowlife singers. My job is coming to an end. Everybody now composes their own music. Who needs garbage like me. Seoul is amazing. If I lose this job I could probably afford an apartment with just working at a restaurant as a waitress.

I started to bite my nails. The phone started to ring. I hoped that I got a job. I picked it up.

“Hello” I said. “Is this (Y/N)?” I was talking to some older man. “Yes, it’s me”. “Good day Miss. This is the director of Big Hit Entertainment. You were looking for a job of a composer and my company and I are interested in you. We listened to some of your old work and we liked it. Could you please come to our company, if you would consider taking our job offer?”
It took me everything not to scream for happiness. I didn’t even compose anything for Big Hit because I thought that I would never get a job there. “Thank You for calling me. When should I come to the company?” I answered. “If it is possible could you come now?” “Yes, of course.” They hung up. I started screaming. I walked to my closet and put on some black leggings, white shirt and a black tie. I tied my hair in a high ponytail.

< Time skip to Big Hit Entertainment>

I entered the building and I immediately started to tremble. I was greeted by a woman, who was probably the secretary. She showed me the way to director’s office. I knocked, and heard a voice coming from the office. I entered.

“You must be (Y/N). Please sit and make yourself comfortable.” The man said. I sat on one of the chairs.

“It is really nice meeting you” I said kindly.

“You will be working here. We already decorated your office with all the needed stuff for composing. The secretary will walk you to it. In about an hour the band you will be working with will be with you. They usually write their own music. But they are in a hurry. You will sign a contract for working here for 3 years. That’s it you can go now.”

I was pretty shocked, he just threw all of the information at me.. I nodded and exited the office. The kind lady showed me the way to my office. I entered. It was very big. It had a big black desk in the middle of the room. Around it were a lot of instruments and a DJ music box also a dubstep box. I was amazed. I never had that big of an office. Actually I hadn’t had an office before. When I turned around I saw a sofa behind me and a TV. I let out a shocked sigh. I sat on the chair behind the desk. On the table from my bag I placed my laptop, some papers, and a photo of BTS and me from their latest concert.

After an hour after exploring the room and trying out the instruments I heard a knock on the door. I quickly sat on my chair. “Yes?” I shouted. The door slowly opened. And eight people entered my office. I looked up, trying to stay calm and to keep my cool I saw BTS standing right there in front of me with their manager. They bowed and introduced themselves. Of course I knew who they were. I fucking had a picture of them on my freaking desk. I quickly put it away hoping they haven’t seen it.

“No, please, there is no need for bowing; I should be the one to do that. My name is (Y/N). “I said blushing.

“Okay boys listen. This is your new composer. Be nice to her she is just a kid. You are all older than her expect Jungkook. She is very young but she knows what she is doing. Now I will leave you here to get to know each other. “, he said that and exited the room.

“Oh I know you” Hoseok shouted. I looked at him a bit shocked. “You are that girl from our recent concert. Yeah I remember, you are the cool one. You said that you understand us and that you don’t want to bother us “My face was bright red. I lost words. I didn’t know what to say.

“Hoseok you are scarring her. We don’t want her to leave like the last one” Namjoon said. Leader is a leader.

“No, please it’s okay. Here sit anywhere you want.” They all sat around my table, except one. Min Yoongi. He sat next to the piano. He was just sitting there looking at the piano with pain in his eyes. I was wondering what he was thinking. He then turned around and looked me right in the eyes. I saw my hand shaking and looked away fast.

“Okay, so to clear something right away. You should call us by our real names, because we need to be close, for you to write our music.” Namjoon quickly said. Everybody nodded confirming it.

“Okay, then you should call me (Y/N). This is my number”, I gave them all cards where my number was written, they immediately started writing my number in their phones. Then I got six texts, with their names with their numbers. I smiled. I just didn’t get Yoongi’s text. I sat there quietly.

“Okay, we should give you some time to adjust to the new surroundings.” said Jin. I nodded my head and thanked them. They all got out of the room. I finally let out that big breath I was holding in. I sat to the piano and started playing something that came to my mind while I was looking at Yoongi. It was a nice and slow sound. I felt peaceful playing it. I wrote down the notes on one of my papers.

After a couple of hours I finished it. I felt really hungry I haven’t eaten all day. I looked at my phone and saw it was already 8pm. I should probably go home. I took my laptop and my bag, and left the room. I heard my stomach growling. I hopped nobody heard it. I left the building and started walking to my apartment. I was walking slowly; I was actually dragging myself to my home, because i was really tired. I saw some white light flashing at me. I started walking faster, but I was being followed. I eventually started to run, after a while I hid in a small street behind a dumpster. When I noticed that the coast was clear I walked out of the street and hurried to my home. I entered the building and after walking to the fifth floor i entered my apartment.

Yoongi’s P.O.V.

“Hyuuuuung, get up we have to gooo!!!!” I heard Jungkook screaming.

“Leave me alone, you little…” I said while putting a pillow on my face.

“Hyung, get up, now” he screamed louder.

“Why do I have to get up???” I shouted.

“Becauseee today we have to meet our new composer, since YOU fired the last one for not “feeling” your song. Now come on or I will spill cold water on you!” he said. I growled and got up.

“Fine, I’m up” I said. When will this nightmare end? I just want to sleep. I got up and dressed in my usual clothes. Wearing all black like I normally do. I got out of the room and smelled something delicious coming from the kitchen. I entered the kitchen to be greeted with Jin’s famous eggs and bacon. I sat and quickly ate my breakfast.

We all finished eating and went out from our dorm. The black car was already waiting for us in front of the building. We got in. As usual I sat next to the window I put my headphones in and played some music. Just who is this new composer? And why is she that important. Am I not enough? I thought. I started cracking my fingers. I didn’t even notice when we arrived. We got out. Our manager was already waiting for us. He was saying something to us, but I didn’t care listening. He walked us to the office. We entered it and I saw a girl, who was around Jungkook’s age, maybe a year older or two. The manager introduced her. And we introduced ourselves. I saw that she quickly put a photo she was holding on the table in her bag. I saw that her hands were shaking. The manager got out and left us alone with her. She told us to sit. I was starting to feel annoyed so I sat by the piano. I didn’t give her much attention, I was more admiring the piano then listening what they were saying. I felt someone staring at me. I looked up, and noticed her looking at me. We made eye contact but she quickly looked away embarrassed, I saw her blushing. She than gave us her number. I didn’t bother memorizing it in my phone. She will probably be fired soon. We left the room, I heard her let out a deep breath. I stayed behind the others. I was trying to figure out what was special about her since I had to wake up this early. I heard a piano tune. I guess she was playing it. It was peaceful and felt like home. It felt like the first time I touched the piano. It was bringing me back memories I didn’t want to remember. Not right now. Not here at the company. I felt a tear fall down my cheek. I quickly brushed it away and quickly ran out. We went to the dorm. I was feeling down, and I think Jin hyung noticed it because he made my favorite food for diner. I ate it and got in my room. I felt the words coming into my mind. So I started writing them in my lyrics book. After four hours or so I fell asleep on my desk.

Your P.O.V.

I got up and washed my face. I put on a white shirt with a black tie and tuck it in tight black skirt that fell to my knees. I don’t usually wear makeup so I just put some mascara to make my eyelashes pop. I quickly ate some chicken instant noodles. I loved eating noodles and I know they are not good for me. It’s just that I don’t have the time to make a normal meal because composing isn’t that easy. When I ate I put on some black heels and went to the company and entered my office.

I was going to call the boys to come, since we have to start working on their songs, but as I thought I heard a knock on my door.
“Come in” I said. The boys entered the office. They were wearing some plain clothes.

“Oh, hi boys. Come sit, I was just about to call you, but here you are.” I got up from my chair. They all sat down making themselves comfortable.

“(Y/N), you look really nice today” I heard Jimin say as I walked in front of my desk. I blushed “Well thank you”. I heard someone mumble something but I didn’t quite catch that.

“Okay guys here’s the thing. I heard from your manager that you are planning on releasing a new album that will be full of your own solo songs. Is that correct?” I asked and they all nodded in agreement.

“ Because they are solo songs I will have to work with all of you alone. I need to feel your songs with my heart so I could…” I was interupted by a low voice.

“Yeah, yeah can we go now” Yoongi said from behind, I didn’t even notice him. I started to sweat and I felt my lip shaking. Please God, don’t let me cry now. The words that came out of his mouth were harsh. I felt terrible. I was about to say something but Jin got ahead of me.

“ Yoongi could you please shut up, for just an hour for fucks sake. The girl is trying to help us.” He said looking at him with anger in his eyes.

Yoongi just looked me annoyed, mumbled something and looked through the window.

“ It’s okay. So as I said I need to work alone with each one of you. We should start with the one whose song is going to be the first on the album so , if that’s okay with you” I felt my knees betraying me so I leaned on my desk.

“ That will be perfect. We were thinking since Jungkook is the youngest he would start first. So you guys should get to work we will leave you to it” They left my office leaving me and Jungkook alone.

“ I’m sorry can I just go us the bathroom” he nodded. I left my office and went to the bathroom. I locked the door behind me. I started doing my breathing exercises but they didn’t work, so I started sobbing and then eventually crying.

I felt hurt. Ever since I got here I felt unwanted. My first talk with them was great. But today I was given a compliment by Jimin, and Yoongi ignored me totally. Not even listening to what I had to say. I know Jimin is a fuck boy but to do that to me in front of everybody. It crossed my comfy line.

My thoughts were stopped by a knock on the bathroom door. I heard a familiar voice.

“ (Y/N), are you okay you’ve been there for quite some time now.” Said Jungkook.

“I’ll be right with you” I said trying not to sound like I just cried.

I washed my face and got out of the bathroom. I almost bumped into Jungkook.

“Oh, hey Jungkook, sorry to keep you waiting. Let’s get to work okay?” I didn’t want him to see my eyes, because they were probably red, so i just hurried past him hiding my face with my hair.

He didn’t say anything, and just continued to walk beside me. We entered my office. He showed me his song. It was very emotional. He was talking about the other members, how he was sad when he saw them crying. He was talking about how he was the youngest and how much the other members mean to him. They were all like brothers. I was listening to him carefully trying not to miss any detail he was telling me.

“ Do you have any idea how you want the song to sound? Or could you please sing it a little and then i will know what to do?” I asked holding my notebook and writing everything down. He started to sing it . It was a high voice, but also very low at the same time. It was perfect. I immediately took the dubstep box and started to give him a beat to the song. It matched perfectly with his voice. I added some high pitched notes at the beginning. It was smooth. After a couple of hours we finished the raw composition of the song.

“ Woah, (Y/N), you are very good at this. I like the song so much.” he said.

I blushed a little.

“ Oh thank you so much, it means a world to me. The song is perfect for you. Your voice matches it. And you give your feelings to it. It’s very good. I will finish recording the beat behind your voice. So you should go rest, and rest your voice. You have been singing for what like four hours now. So now you should go and rest, tomorrow we will record the whole song and show it to the others okay?” I said while packing my things.

“ Yes, it’s perfect, thank you so much. And by the way, how old are you?” he asked me out of nowhere.

“You should never ask a lady for her age” I said trying not to laugh.

“ Oh, i am really sorry” he blushed and looked away.

“Just kidding, I am twenty years old.” I said and started to laugh.

“Oh, wow, you are so young and know a lot about music, and you are really passionate about writing it.” he said.

“Jungkook don’t make me cry now.” I said while trying not to cry. I am not used to compliments like this.

“ Oh, please don’t. And you should hang with us sometimes.”

“ Maybe I will.” I smiled.

After we both finished packing, we went out of the building together. We hugged before leaving. He wanted to walk me home, but i said it was fine because i don’t leave that far. He was trying to persuade me but it didn’t work, so he gave up. I was the first one to leave.

 I went home. Got dressed in an oversized t-shirt, and sat on a couch in my living room and started watching some kdrama. I was sobbing in tears when i heard my phone buzzing. I looked at it. It was Namjoon. Why would he be calling me in the middle of the night it was 2 am. I answered.

“Hello?” I said.

“Hi, this is Namjoon, did I wake you up?” he asked. I heard his deep voice. He sounded upset.

“No, it’s fine. What do you need?”

“Okay so you haven’t seen the news yet. They have your pictures all over the internet. They say you are a mysterious girl. And that you are in a relationship with Jungkook. They have a picture of you hugging in front of the company. I hope you and Jungkook composed the song. Because it needs to be released tomorrow. We need to shut this rumor because you will get hurt.”

He was saying it so fast. I was scared. How did the pictures even went out on the internet. I have been working for only two days. Then i remembered the other day when i was chased by someone taking pictures of me.

“Okay don’t worry. Everything will be fine. Yes we finished the song, we just need to record it. And you need to hear it. I will stay up all night finishing it completely do don’t worry okay, get some rest and we will talk tomorrow.” I said calmly. I wasn’t calm at all. I jumped out of my bed and started walking around the room. I am not good under pressure.

“Sorry, I didn’t want to scare you, or to make you work all night. It’s just that the last composer got fired because of this. And we don’t want you to be fired because Jungkook told us how good you are.” he said, I heard a deep breath.

“It’s okay don’t worry. I will see you tomorrow morning, don’t be late. Just don’t stress okay. Good night Namjoon.” I said.

“Good night (Y/N), you are my saviour. “ he said that and hung up.

I threw my phone on the bed. I was panicking. I don’t know what to do. I haven’t even had a chance to look at the raw composition of the song. I wanted to do it in the morning. I put on some sweats and wore my black huaraches. I washed my face, and put my hair in a messy bun. I drank some coffee. I opened the door of my apartment and i started running to the exit of my building. As i was about to get out of the building i bumped into someone and fell on the ground. Dropping all my papers and my bag, and heard my phone cracking.

“Fuck my life” I said, “Sorry, for bumping into you, I just need to go, i’m in a hurry” I apologized, and started picking my stuff up, my eyes were starting to tear up, some of my notes and papers were damaged and some of them were torn apart.

“And where do you think you are going in the middle of the night?” I heard a familiar voice, but I just continued picking my stuff up.

“I am asking you something” he said.

“It’s none of your business.” I said. I put my papers and notes in my bag, and I picked my phone up. It was broken. But it was still working. Someone tightly grabbed my arm. I turned around just to see that the man who was holding me was none other than Min Yoongi. I almost screamed, but he covered my mouth with his hand. His hands were really soft, almost like a baby.

“Now tell me where are you going.” he said.

“Why are you even here, why aren’t you with the others, they are probably worrying sick about you. And I am going to the company to finish the song, because I screwed up.” I whispered.

“I am here because I wanted to be here. And I will drive you to the company because it’s dark, and you are now a target, because of Jungkook, and you don’t have a choice.” he said and let go of my arm.

“Fine, but you will just drive me and leave to your dorm or wherever because i need to work.” I said.

“Fine, I didn’t even think of staying with you” he said.

I followed him to his car. We drove in silence, after awhile he dropped me off behind the building.

There was no one at the company of course. It was 3 am what did I expect. I unlocked the door and went to my office. I turned on the light and unpacked myself. Most of my papers were destroyed so I was recovering them. Playing the beat again and again trying to make it perfect.

After an hour or so I heard someone opening the door. And I saw Yoongi getting in.

“What are you doing here. Shouldn’t you be sleeping?” I asked him.

“Well I needed to write some lyrics and this place is perfect for writing. So can I write here, or is it forbidden?” he looked annoyed.

“Sureee, feel like you are at home” I said and continued working. He sat by the piano and started writing. He was so into it. He was working very hard, his hair fell on his face. His hands moved quickly scratching and rewriting the words. I concentrated on my work. I fell asleep after an hour.

Yoongi’s P.O.V.

We had to go to the company again. That girl is really annoying. Because of her I am missing my precious sleep. We all went to the company. Jimin was extra excited. The fuck is wrong with him, he only saw her once. We entered her office. She was really pretty today. I sat next to the piano, again. Jimin said she looked nice today, so I kicked him because he was sitting near me. Is she crushing on her. That little fuck boy. She started to talk about some shit how she needs to work alone blah blah. So I stopped her and Jin just got angry at me. I was annoyed. I looked at her and shut up. I was quiet until we left.

“Jimin, I see you caught yourself another fish from the sea.” I said.

“Yaah, she’s got a nice booty, and she looked really hot in that skirt. She asked for it. “ he said.

“Jimin, don’t even think about getting involved with her. She is just a girl.” Namjoon said. Why is he suddenly defending her?

“Oh, hyung, fine” Jimin rolled his eyes.

I went in my room and played some games before Jungkook came back. I went to the living room. Jungkook was telling them about her.

“...we finished the song, she just needs to check it and you know. But she is really nice. She is also very talented. When she heard me sing she immediately grabbed the dubstep box and started to play. She has a good ear for music, and understands the songs. She is very young. She is just 20 years old and is really passionate about what she does…” Jungkook was talking about her like she's some goddess.

After that I kind of ignores everything else. I was watching some movie and scrolling my phone when I saw the news about Jungkook and her. I called the others and showed them, Namjoon quickly called her. I went outside.

I got her address from the manager. I went to her building and as I was about to go up the stairs she bumped into me and fell on the floor.

Her notes and papers were all around the hallway and her phone was cracked. I felt a little guilty, because she bumped into me, but it wasn't my fault she’s not looking where she’s walking. I asked her where she was going but she didn’t answer. So I grabbed her arm.

She told me she was going to the company to work. I saw tears coming down her cheeks. I felt so bad. And I just wanted to hug her. But she will probably be confused. She doesn’t even know me. I told her I was going to drive her. And I did. After that I went to the park. I was trying to clear my mind. But all I was thinking about was her. Crying in the hallway. I went back to the company and went to her office. She was working really hard. And she looked really tired. I sat by the piano and started working on some lyrics. I noticed she was staring at me but I just ignored it.

She fell asleep. I saw a blanket on the sofa and covered her with it. She looked so beautiful while sleeping. I was there all night staring at her. After a while I also fell asleep on the sofa.

Your P.O.V.

I woke up early. My back was killing me because I slept on the desk. I saw that I was covered with a blanket. I looked around the room and saw Yoongi sleeping on the sofa. He looked peaceful so I didn’t want to wake him. I exited my office and went to the bathroom to clean myself up a little bit. The I went to the vending machine to get something to eat and a cup of  coffee. I grabbed some pringles and two cups of coffee. Maybe Yoongi would want some. I started going back when i noticed an orange haired guy leaning against the wall.

“Oh, hey Jimin, where are the others?” I smiled at him.

“Oh they will be right here in a few minutes, who’s that other coffee for?” he was looking at me from head to toe. He was checking me out.

“Oh, it’s for Yoongi.” I said as i continued walking towards the office. He started following me.

“For Yoongi?”

“Yes, could you please wait here I will be right back?”

“Yes sure.”

I entered the office. Yoongi was still asleep so i had to wake him up before the other boys come. I slowly touched his shoulder.

“Yoongi, you need to wake up, the others will come soon” he yawned.

“I bought you some coffee” I said. He immediately jumped.

“Fuck where am I?” he said. I laughed.

“You are in my office, here have some coffee.” I gave him his coffee.

“Thanks” he started drinking his coffee. The boys burged in.

“Hyung what are you doing here?” Jungkook asked. Yoongi was annoyed. Well obviously he is not a morning person.

“I was writing some lyrics here and then fell asleep on the sofa” he said.

“(Y/N) did you finish the song?” Namjoon asked me.

“Yes, I just need an hour or so to record it with Jungkook.”

“(Y/N), are you okay, you look a little pale?” Jungkook asked.

“No, I’m fine, I’m always like this in the morning.” I was lying. I am never pale. The only time I’m pale is when I didn’t have enough sleep.

We went to the recording studio. I played the song and Jungkook sang. After we recorded I gave the song a little touch up. The boys were amazed. I played them the song they were just looking at me with their mouths open.

“Is it that bad?” I asked.

“Bad, are you fucking crazy this is genius.” They all shouted. I blushed and covered my face with my hands.

“You want to say that you composed this by yourself.” Taehyung asked.

“Y-Yes”

“Are you a genius?” Jimin asked.

“No.” I said.

They all came and hugged me.

“Guys I’m going to die you know.” I said.

 They let me go.

“Okay so later on we will release this song. And tomorrow you will probably have an interview so we can introduce you as the new composer.” Namjoon said. He was acting so mature.

“An interview!” I looked at him shocked. “ Are you kidding me. You never had an interview with your composer. Like never. Ever. It never happened why now. I look like shit.” I was freaking out and my inner fangirl was showing.

“Ah, you look so cute when you are freaking out and fangirling.” Jimin said.

“Leave her alone you perv, can’t you see she’s shacking.” Yoongi said. All of them looked at him.

“Woah, Yoongi is being overprotective” Jimin started teasing him.

“Ship it” Jin and I said at the same time.

“Not in a million years.” Yoongi said.

“Yaah, hyung, don’t do that, and you, really you too?” Jimin looked at me.

I was just laughing. Taehyung joined me. My stomach was hurting from all the laughing.

“Okay okay now go and release the song, and tell me when the interview is” I managed to say it.

They all went out, and I went to my apartment.

I took a shower and sat on my bed looking at my closet. I didn’t have anything to wear. All I have are oversized hoodies and like three shirts, two black skirts and two black ties. I’ve never had an interview before. All the people I worked for before were rookies who were just starting and eventually didn’t accomplish anything. Oh my god I need new stuff. I wore an oversized black hoodie and some leggings and went to the shopping mall. I was going to the shops I have never been in before. I didn’t have much money, since I haven’t been paid yet. I was looking at all sorts of clothing from dresses to shirts and everything. What do people even wear to an interview. I mean I saw the boys they are all pretty in their suits or in their t-shirts. I even saw Blackpink but no. I am not a star. What does a composer wear to an interview?

While I was walking from shop to shop, I was listening to music. Someone touched my shoulder. I screamed, I turned my music off and turned around. Hoseok was standing there laughing.

“Jesus, Hoseok you almost gave me a heart attack.”

“Damn, (Y/N) I didn’t know you were a scaredy cat.”

“Eh, I’m not but I was listening to music so yeah… What are you doing here?”

“I came to buy something for me to wear for the interview. What are you going to wear?”

“I’ve been here since I left the company, and I didn’t find anything, I’ll probably wear my leggings and a with a tie.”

“Ah, no you are not missy, today I am going to be your stylist.”

“What, no. Hoseok I can’t ask that from you. I’m fine with….”

“Did I ask you something?” I saw the sun coming from him. How could I resist this cute little sun.

“Fine…” I agreed.

He was walking so fast, he was picking stuff up.

“Go try these, then I will bring you more.Go…” I admit it, I was kind of scared to try these stuff. I mean they can’t be bad, Hobi has a great style.

I went to the dressing room, the first thing I tried was a floral dress. It wasn’t exactly my style.

“Girl, this is for you not that.” Hobi said when I came out and pushed me some clothes in my hands.

I put them on. It was a.nice black crop-top, it didn’t reveal much of my skin, and black skinny jeans with ripped knees. I went out to show him.

“You have to wear this tonight, it suits you really well. Oh I almost forgot. Here you go.” he gave me a pair of black high heels and a black choker.

“Hoseok, I don’t have money to buy all this stuff.”

“Who said you were going to pay it. The company will pay for it of course.”

“What? No, I can’t I need all the money I can get.”

“Oh you pure child, right after the interview you will get paid don’t worry.” he said smiling.

“Okay fine, but we should hurry up, Najoon could call me any minute now.”

“oh you mean about the interview, yeah it starts in two hours I forgot to tell you. Now let’s go join the other at the company.”

While he was driving to the company, we talked a lot. About life and stuff like that. He mentioned that Jimin is the next one I will work with.

“Jimin has his eyes on you, but it will pass him soon, just ignore his rude comments, he and his hormones are overdoing it sometimes. But he is actually a nice guy, who is sweet and caring once you get to know him”

“Oh, Hobi thank you for that I needed it”

We finally arrived at the company. Everybody was in a hurry, stylists and makeup artists were running. They just dragged Hoseok away, and I was left standing there. I was about to enter my office when I heard someone calling me.

“I’m sorry miss but we have to prepare you for the interview, please come with us” I didn’t even get a chance to answer because I was dragged away. They looked at me.

“Your clothes are perfect but your hair and makeup are in hell” they straightened my hair but curled it up on the edges a little. They put eyeliner that was on fleek, I could fly away on its wings, they put fake lashes, some mascara, and a red lipstick. When they finished I looked really pretty. It was almost time for the interview, the boys haven’t seen me yet. They were already talking with the host. They played the song, after it was finished the host asked Jungkook:

“ So who is the mysterious girl you had been seen with?”

“Well, why don’t you ask her” that’s when I entered the studio, everybody was staring at me. Jimin bit his lip and Yoongi started playing with his sleeve.

“ Hi everybody” I said, and sat in the empty chair next to Jungkook.

“ So why don’t you introduce yourself?”

“ Well my name is (Y/N), and I am the new composer working for BTS and their company” I don’t know where I got the confidence to say that, but I was very nervous and I was holding the chair so tight.

“Well this is a great news for the fans, now the know that Jungkook is still free.”

After a while, I was asked so many questions I thought that I was going to faint, the interview finished. I was exhausted. When I exited the building I was struck by a lot of reporters and fans, they were all asking me questions. I was trying to get out but it wasn’t working there were so many of them.

“Are you and Jungkook together, what happened to the last reporter, did you kill her, did you… “ and it kept going, I was in the middle of having a panic attack, I couldn’t breathe, I didn’t even notice that I was being pulled away by someone's arms. When I was pulled out from the crowd I collapsed on the ground and started crying. I felt someone’s strong hands wrapping around me. I turned around just to see Yoongi hugging me.

“Everything will be okay” he said with his deep but gentle voice, it was relaxing me. He didn’t let go of me. I was trying to calm myself, and I just ended up falling asleep in his arms.

Yoongi’s P.O.V.

I was woken up by a soft voice and a smell of hot coffee.

“ I bought you some coffee” she said, and i immediately jumped, at first I didn’t know where I was, but she explained it, now I remember. The news of her and Jungkook dating was out, and she was forced to work the whole night because of a stupid mistake. And I also stayed up working on some lyrics.

The guys burged in the room. They were surprised that I was here. I explained them, I didn’t want them to think the wrong thing here, I didn’t like this girl, she was annoying and noisy.

After that we went to the recording studio so Jungkook and she can record the song. It was a really good song, and Jungkook was very emotional while singing it, she matched the beat perfectly. I admit it she was good at what she does. She touched up the song a little and everybody was in shock when they heard the final product. I was in shock too. That was a nice song. Everybody called her a genius. I was just standing behind. The boys are acting weird around her. But not bad weird, but the weird in a good way. Everybody hugged her, Jimin pulled me in the hug but I didn’t want to hug her so I just hold up to Jimin. When they pulled away, Namjoon said we were having an interview. She started fangirling. I admit it she was cute, but Jimin didn’t have to say it out loud so i scolded him. But Jin and she screamed “Ship it”. Jin that little bastard. He knows I hate that. She started laughing. I liked her smile. She looked really happy. What are you thinking?

I went back to our dorm and took a long shower. I was just drying my hair when namjoon came in my room.

“The interview starts in 2 hours we have to go to get ready”

“Fine, I’m coming jeez” I quickly put on some things I found lying beside my bed. We went to the company to get ready. Everybody was in a hurry but Hoseok was nowhere to be found. Everybody was freaking out over that. Ah that boy, where did he go? Jimin was making a scene.

“Jimin, why are you making a scene?”

“Because I want to wear makeup I want, I don’t want them making me look older than I actually am.” he answered.

“Don’t act like a fucking baby Jimin, they are trying you know, and your makeup is fine okay, now shut up and stop making a scene okay.”

“No.”

“What did you just say?” I was getting angry.

“I said no” he said, I was getting closer to him while he was backing off to the wall, he hit the wall and didn’t have where to go.

“You are going to listen to what I say, and you will shut up and let the artists get you ready, and you will stop throwing inappropriate comments to (Y/N). Was I clear enough?”

“Yes, hyung I was just kidding.” after that all members looked at me terrified, Jimin went and apologized to the artist and was silent until Hoseok came.

“Where were you?” Jin asked him.

“You’ll see soon enough” he was laughing.

After a while we were all ready. Thank God they didn’t make me wear lenses. I hate those things, my eyes are fine just the way they are. The interview started and we were talking about a lot of things. And finally they played the song, some people behind the cameras were crying. After the song they asked Jungkook about his new “girlfriend”. And there she was, entering. She was stunning, she looked perfect from head to toe. I started playing with my sleeve. They were talking about the music, I just kept quiet.

After the interview the others wanted to go celebrate the new song, but I said I was tired and that I just wanted to go and sleep. When I went out of the back, I heard screams, probably fans. But who are they screaming at the boys didn’t leave yet. I looked from the alley. It was (Y/N). She doesn’t look so good. I had a mask on so I hope they will not recognize me. I came to (Y/N) as fast as I could and grabbed her. I was actually carrying her. I carried her to the back alley without everybody seeing us. She collapsed and broke down in tears. I hugged her. I was so sad to see her cry.

“Everything will be okay.” I said trying to relax her. She was breathing heavy. That’s when it hit me. When I saw her in the studio she was very anxious, and when I saw her in that crowd she couldn’t breathe. Oh my god she was having a panic attack. I was hugging her until she fell asleep in my arms. I slowly carried her to the dorm because there was no one there and because I didn’t know where her keys were. I put her down on my bed and covered her with a blanket. She looked peaceful. I didn’t want to wake her up. So I just sat there.

After a while I heard the guys coming in the dorm, so I quietly exited the room, and quickly went to the guys.

“Guys could you keep it quiet, (Y/N) is sleeping in my room.” I said, the guys all looked at me in shock. Jimin looked angry, and Hoseok was just smiling.

“Why is she in your room?” Jimin said.

“Are you jealous?” Jin asked him.

“Yoongi why is he here, the manager is going to kill us.” Namjoon said.

“She was attacked by the fans and reporters, and she was having a panic attack, so I managed to pull her out of there and she just broke down crying, so I hugged her and she just fell asleep, and I didn’t have the keys to her apartment so I brought her here.” I explained.

“(Y/N) had a panic attack?” Jungkook almost shouted but quickly lowered his voice, “Why didn’t you call us? We would have come.”

“I didn’t want you to die”

“Okay, so what do we do now?” Tae asked.

“Keep it quiet.” Jin said.

While we were arguing we heard a door opening, my heart stopped for a moment, I saw a girls head popping behind the wall.

“Ammm, guys? Why am I here?” she whispered, she was blushing, her whole face was red.

Your P.O.V.

I was woken up by some noise. I opened my eyes. I didn’t know where I was. I am pretty sure this isn’t my room. I got out of the bed. I looked around. This is definitely not my room. I did not wanna be nosy but I looked around the room and I found papers with lyrics. They were Yoongi”s. Oh my freaking god I’m in the room that belongs to Min fucking Yoongi. Fuck, fuck fuck. How did I get here. My head hurts. I heard someone talking outside. I slowly opened the door. I went to the nearest wall and looked. There they were. Standing there and argueing. They all looked at me. I was blushing…

“Ammmmmm, guys? Why am I here?” I whispered. I covered my face.

“You almost had a panic attack, and you broke down in tears so I brought you here when you fell asleep in my arms.” Yoongi said.

“(Y/N) are you okay now?” Jungkook asked me, he looked worried.

“Yes I am fine, thank you for asking.” I said.

“Come on I’ll take you home” Jimin said.

“Naah, Jimin you lost a bet now you have to cook for us. Yoongi will take her.” Jin said.

“Why me?” Yoongi said.

“Ya, why him?” Jimin asked.

“Guys, it’s fine I can go alone. And also because Yoongi went through so much trouble to help me, I can cook you something. I mean If you want to.” I said shyly. I know I was still blushing. My face is probably as red as a tomato.

“Yaah, (Y/N) you would do that for us?” Tae asked. He was giving me his famous smile.

“Well only if you want me to…”

“Yes please” they all said at the same time, except Yoongi he just looked annoyed.

I tied my hair in a ponytail.

“Well what do you want to eat?”

“We can choose???? Jin hyung never let us choose. “ Tae and Jungkook said.

“What? I always ask you but you always answer with “ I don’t know”” Jin defended himself. I laughed.

“ Can you make  Samgyeopsal?” Namjoon asked.

“Samgyeopsal it is. Can you show me the kitchen please?” Jin showed me to the kitchen and helped me take the groceries I needed. He wanted to help but I refused. He went to the living room where the others were playing games. While I was cooking they all tried getting in the kitchen but I managed to stop them. I called them in when it was finished. It was already served.

“This smells nice” Jimin said.

“It smells like moms cooking.” Namjoon said.

“Let the professional taste it” Jin tried it. I was cracking my fingers. Holy fuck BTS the BTS are eating my homemade food.

“Woah, this is really good” after that they all started to eat. I watched them.

“Aren’t you going to eat?” Hoseok asked.

“Nah I already ate, I had to try the final product.” I lied. I haven't eaten anything since this morning. But it was fine I don’t eat much.

“Well okay…” After they finished it was time for me to leave because it was already 11pm. I said goodbye to all of them. They all pushed Yoongi to take me home. So I followed him to his car. We drove in silence.

“Why did you lie to Hoseok?” je suddenly asked me.

“Excuse me?”

“You lied to him that you eat but you didn’t”

“I just wasn’t hungry that’s all.” I lied again. And I think he knew that I lied.

“Yeah, alright. Suit yourself.” We arrived not long after that.

“Be careful next time, because I won’t be there to save you again.”

“I will I promise.” After that he drove away.

After that I went to my apartment. I unlocked the door, but when I opened the door wasn’t there a big surprise for me to find. I was welcomed by a huge mess. Everything was torn apart the dishes were all broken, my pictures were scattered all over the place. My window was broken and the cold air was getting in. I ran to my badroom hoping my laptop and my notes were fine. But my laptop was broken in two pieces and the screen was broken, my notes were all wet. My sheets were covered in some red stuff. My clothes were torn apart. They were cut in pieces. Even my earphones were broken. I collapsed on the ground and hit my head and fainted.

After a while I woke up. I thought this was all just a nightmare but it wasn’t I broke down in tears. It was around 3am. I couldn’t call the company director to call in sick for the day. But I had to text someone. So I texted Jimin.

Me: Hi, Jimin sorry for texting you this late but I will not show up to work tomorrow because I am feeling sick, could you please tell that to the director?

Jimin: Are you okay? Of course I can.

Me: I’m fine just caught a slight cold that’s all I just need to rest for the day.

Jimin: Fine i’ll tell the other. Good night

I turned of my phone. I was still crying. I don’t have the money to fix all of this. I have to call the police tomorrow. Who would do this?

I got up and tried finding some clothes. I finally found a pair of old leggings and an oversized hoodie. I went out of my apartment. I didn’t want to wake up my neighbor so I just sat on the stairs. After a while I just fell asleep.

I was up by someone's familiar hands. I opened my eyes, just to see Yoongi in shock.

“(Y/N), why are you sleeping here on the stairs? Are you crazy?” he sounded worried. Why was he here? Didn’t I say Jimin not to worry.

“Oh god, what time is it?” I asked.

“It’s 9am”

“Why are you here?” I panicked as I jumped on my feet. Fuck if he finds out about my apartment I am going to die.

“Because you didn’t show up for work today, everybody was worried sick so I came here, just to find you sitting here on the stairs sleeping.”

“Well I’m fine I just have a slightly cold that’s all, you can go now.” I was slowly pushing him to the exit.

“Well if you are fine why were you sleeping on the stairs”

“Because, I wanted to do so. And my apartment was being repaired and I didn’t wanna wake up the neighbors.”

“What? Don’t lie to me. What’s going on?”

“I said nothing.” I kinda shouted a little he was making me angry now.

“Okay then show me your apartment.”

“I will not”

“You don’t have a choice” he pushed me away and opened the door of my apartment. He stood there in shock.

“What happened here?”

“I said nothing, it’s fine. This happened before.” No, it didn’t. I felt tears forming up in my eyes.

“It happened before??” he just stood there in shock. “Well did you call the police?”

“I was about to call them.”

“Call them now, this is not okay.”

I called the police. They came fast. Me.and Yoongi were just standing there while waiting for the police to come. When they came, they asked me a lot of questions. Like when I found out about this, do I assume who did it, and stuff like that. I answered them as much as I could but it was no help.

“Sorry miss, we don’t have enough evidence for us to start and investigation.” the police officer said, “Whoever did this knew what he was doing. He left no trace of anything.”

“It’s okay officer, thank you for coming.” I said, I waited for them to leave. I broke down in tears.

“Well you cry a lot, you know?” Yoongi said.

“Could you please leave me the fuck alone to cry my life out.”

“No”

“I am sorry, is this your life? No it is not now leave.” I said angrily.

“Do you have anywhere to go?”

“It’s none of you business” I said that as I went into my apartment, I went to my room, and carefully started picking up my papers and sheets trying not to tear them. “Fuck, fuck, fuck.” I was saying to myself. I saw Yoongi helping me.

“You don’t have to do that.”

“I don’t but I want too. You know I have been observing you for a while now. I know your moves and I know when you are lying. And I know that you have nowhere to go. Now listen, I have a proposal. You can come live with us for sometime, just for you to stand on your feet again and repair your apartment. I’m sure that the guys won’t mind. But for return I need you to work with me on some songs. And the other choice you have is to live on the streets. So suit yourself.” he said while picking the papers up.

“First of I can’t live with you guys because I am working for you, second of your manager won’t let you, third I am a fan of yours, fourth the other fans will hate me even more, fifth I will probably lose my job, and sixth I can’t pay you back because of what I am getting paid for composing your songs I can barely afford my apartment. So it’s best for me to live on the streets.”

“Well, I won’t give you the other choice.”

“And why do you even care if I end up on the streets”

“Hey, I am not the careless person you think I am. I can be really emotional person. And I care because the guys love you, and you are a good composer. And all those stuff you just mentioned won’t mind because you won’t be paying us anything.”

“I can’t except that.”

“Well I am not giving you much choice. So pack your things. Well what’s left of them and come with me.” He said and continued picking up the papers. I sighted. I found a bag I was keeping under my bed, in it I found some old clothes and I was really happy to see that I still have some clothes left. I managed to remove my memory card from my laptop, and Yoongi helped me with the papers. He drove me to their dorm.

“Yoongi, please I can always go and be at that 24/7 internet cafe”

“Well I don’t care. You will stay here and that’s final”

“Fine, Jesus.”

He opened the door. And we went inside. Surprisingly no one was home.

“The boys are not here, they will be back tonight. Probably late. And I also need to know so you have time to adjust, and I have a lot of time to prepare the boys and the manager.”

“Jesus, they don’t know I’m here? Yoongi…”

“This is your room.” He interrupted me, but I didn’t want to have an argument with him because I know I can’t win. He opened the door to a small room with a bed and a desk. “It’s small it’s for the guests, well we never had any guests, and we don’t have any other…”

“Yoongi it’s fine. I am grateful for you even doing this.”

“I will talk to the manager to transfer some money on your account. It might not be much but it will help you stand on your feet. Also I guess the boys will help you too. So don’t worry okay… Leave it all to me.” What’s gotten into him? He is always cold to me. I am not going to ask anything. “Okay i need to go now, we have to film a choreography because you are not there to work with Jimin, he texted me saying you were sick. So do what you have to do before we come back okay?”

“Okay.” after that he left me in the apartment. I unpacked. It’s not like I had a lot of stuff left. I managed to dry the papers, with a hairdryer I found in the bathroom. Luckily they were not destroyed.

I went out because I need a new laptop and new clothes. After a while of walking I received a message. I looked at my phone, it was from the bank. Oh Yoongi probably managed to convince the manager to transfer some money on my account. I opened the message. I almost screamed and dropped my phone. I put a hand on my mouth trying not to scream. There was a twenty-two million won transfer on my account. Yoongi are you fucking crazy? What did you do to make them give me this amount of money. That is around 20000 USD. Damn. That’s so much. Well I don’t know what he did but I need new stuff right now.

I went to the nearest store and bought a laptop, since mine was destroyed. The guy that was working there helped me recover the stuff from my last laptop and luckily my memory card wasn’t destroyed. Fuck if it was destroyed all my work would have gone in fire. Like literally. All my work was there. Seoul is a big city. I’ve been living here for 5 years now, since I went to high school here. I went to the clothes store and bought some oversized hoodies and leggings. Also bought my work outfits, since the last ones were now in pieces. I felt so bad spending all this money. But I swear when i actually get my payment I will give Yoongi back. All of it. I can’t even think of how he managed to transfer this amount of money.

After I got back to their dorm I put all the stuff in my room. I had to make them some food. Some fancy food. It was already around 7pm. Damn the time does really pass fast when you go shopping. I went to the nearest market. I bought a lot of ingredients, since I want to make homemade kimchi, seolleongtang (it’s like a korean ox bone soup), and of course to make some sweets because the love it. I bought the ingredients for hotteok (pancakes with cinnamon peanut syrup) and songpyeon (something like rice cakes). I went back. Well I can just hope the boys won’t be back before 11pm.

I started cooking the food. While I was cutting the cabbage I accidently cut my finger. I went to the bathroom to put some Hansaplast on it. While I was putting it my phone rang. It was Yoongi. I answered it.

“Yes?”

“(Y/N), I am just calling you to tell you we will be back in maybe 2 hours or maybe faster.”

“Oh, okay…”

“I’ve to go.”

“Bye.” but he already hung up. Well that was a weird conversation. Fuck two hours I didn’t prepare anything yet. I quickly went to the kitchen. Thank God I bought some meat for them to eat. I fried the chicken while kimchi and seolleongtang was cooking. When that was prepared I quickly managed to make songpyeon and while it was boiling in the water I was frying the hotteok. I was also jamming to some of BTS’s old songs. I heard a door being open. Fuck. Was it already time for them to come? I quickly turned the music of and I was about to get out of the kitchen when they all barged in the kitchen. They looked at me surprised.

“(Y/N)?” they all shouted.

“What are you doing here?” Namjoon asked. I looked at Yoongi. He didn’t tell them. He was just there smiling.

“Didn’t Yoongi tell you?”

“Didn’t Yoongi tell us what?” Jimin looked at Yoongi angry.

“Fuck my hotteok is burning.” I turned to the frying pan and turned the hotteok.

“Yoongi do you have something to tell us?” Jin asked him. I finished the hotteok.

“Why don’t we all come to the living room first okay?” Yoongi said calmly.

They all went to the living room. I followed them because songpyeon still had to boil. They all sat around the living room but me and Yoongi were standing. Yoongi started explaining them the situation I was in. They were all worried and shocked. They were all very quiet. It bothered me. I didn’t know what they were thinking. I was practically hiding behind Yoongi. Suddenly Namjoon said:

“Well, I am glad you are safe and you didn’t find the one who did that to your apartment when you got in. And you are free to stay with us. It will be hard to keep it out of the manager because he won’t approve of it.”

I bowed down.

“Thank you so much, for going through all of this, and thank you for letting me stay.”

“Haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii, don’t do that, and show us what that beautiful smell is.” I saw Tae jumping from his seat and giving me his famous rectangular smile. I laughed. I showed them the way to the kitchen. They all rushed quickly to the kitchen. I served them the food. They were eating it very fast.

“Ayyy, don’t choke on the food please.”

“Well if you keep making this great food we will choke on it and die happy.” Jungkook said. I laughed. After they finished I pulled Yoongi to help me with the dishes. Well I didn’t want him to help me with the dishes. When the guys went to play the games and we were alone I turned to him.

“Are you fucking crazy?”

“What? Why am I the crazy one now?” he asked.

“First tell me how did you manage to transfer that amount of money to my account. That’s a lot of money Yoongi. And I can’t accept it. I will pay you back all of it once I get my actual payment.”

“First of that was your actual payment. That was actually your payment for Jungkook’s song and the payment for Jimin’s and Tae’s song, so you don’t have to pay me back anything. Second of all I didn’t have to do anything the manager did it himself.”

“What? Okay okay I am calm, I am calm… Why didn’t you tell the boys about me staying here?”

“Because I know how their brains work. It’s easy. “

“Okay… Thank you…” I got shy when I realised who I was talking too. We finished cleaning up, and I went to my room after that. I need to rest because I need to finish two songs tomorrow.

Yoongi’s P.O.V.

She cooked us some food. Well she was good at cooking. It really felt like my mom was cooking it back when I was a kid. Everyone praised her. I had to take home because Jin said I have to take her home. Before they finished eating Hoseok asked her why she is not eating with them. She lied to him. I knew she was lying because her lips were trembling and she cracked her fingers while saying that. When they finished we went to my car. For a while we drove in silence. I asked her why she lied to Hoseok, but the said she wasn’t hungry. But she lied to me again this time. I saw that it was a picky subject so I left it alone. Until we reached her apartment we were driving in silence. I left her and she thanked me, so I drove away back to the dorm. I couldn’t sleep so I decided to work on some songs.

After a while I heard someone going to the kitchen. It was around 3am. It was probably Jimin he always liked to read fans comments and mentions on twitter at this time. I got thirsty so I went to the kitchen too. I saw Jimin texting somebody.

“Jimin what are you doing so late?” I asked him while grabbing a glass.

“Oh I was up reading some fans comments, and then (Y/N) texted me saying she was sick and that she wanted me to tell the manager tomorrow.” he answered calmly.

“(Y/N) is sick? Well that’s strange she felt great just a few hours ago.”

“Ya I know. Maybe she just has a headache”

“Jimin, don’t mess with that girl okay?”

“I’m messing with her.”

“Don’t lie to me. I saw how you were looking at her. With lust in your eyes. You just want to bang her than leave her like you always do. But don’t do it with her. She is a good girl okay. And we don’t want her to get fire like the last one. The last one was with us for 2 years and then you had sex with her. And she told everybody about it. They fired her but had to pay a lot of money for the reporters to keep quiet about that and to keep her quiet.”

“And why do you care so much about her? Do you like her hyung?” Jimin was teasing me.

“Fuck you Jimin”

“Gladly”

“Gross”

“Well you started it”

“You horny ass. Just don’t touch her okay.”

“Okay. Fine.”

“Now go to sleep before I kill you.” Jimin went running to his bedroom.

I drank a glass of water and went to bed. In the morning I took a quick shower. We went to the company. (Y/N) really didn’t show up for work today. So we had to film the choreography. We had some free time so I wanted to check on her. Just to see if she was alright. I went to the building she lived at. I started walking up the stairs. I noticed a small figure dressed in black at the top of the stairs. As I was getting closer I noticed it was a person sleeping. But at first I didn't recognize who it was. When I was really close I saw that it was (Y/N). Why the fuck was she sleeping here on the stairs? Is she crazy? I had to wake her up. I shook her a little and she woke up. When she saw me she panicked. She was making excuses why she wasn’t in her apartment. But I didn’t believe any of it. She didn’t let me in her apartment, but she didn't have much choice. I gently pushed her away and opened her apartment door. I was in shock. Her things were all around the place. Everything was destroyed. My guess is that some crazy ass fan did this. Fucking bastards. There are a lot of crazy fans. I remember when we debuted my family house was trashed. And they still stalk my family around.

We called the police. They said there were no evidence. Stupid police. They can’t even do one simple job. They're pretty much useless. I gave her two choices to live on the streets or too live with me and the boys. She is stubborn. But I said she was going to live with us. I don't know why I said that. Apparently I wasn’t thinking straight. I helped her pick her stuff up. Well what’s left of it and I drove her to the apartment. I showed her the only free room we had she was quite happy with it. I mean it’s not very big or fancy. But she gets to live with us. I had to go back tk the company.

When I went to the company I was about to speak to the manager to get some money on her account but Namjoon came to me all happy.

“Since /Y/N) is sick we decided to make her happy by sending her her payment for Jungkook’s, Jimin’s and Tae’s song.”

“Well that’s great” now she can buy stuff she needs. After that we started filming the choreography. We were done faster than I expected. I texted (Y/N) saying we will be back in 2 hours. So she can be prepared. Even just a thought about seeing her in two hours and the thought of her living with us. With me. Made my heart race. What is this feeling? Fuck.

We cleaned up the studio because it was a mess. Our sweat was all over the floor. And I was the one to clean it. Fuck those guys. When I cleaned my part I just lied down on the couch and fell asleep. I was sleeping and then Tae came and started dancing around me. I opened my eyes.

“What are you doing Taehyung?”

“Come on we are finished.”

“Fine i’m coming i’m coming” we went to the car and we drove to the dorm. I forgot to tell them about (Y/N) staying with us. Well fuck. We came in and heard the music coming from the kitchen. It was our songs. I smiled a little. Cute she is listening to our songs. The smell was also nice. She is cooking something. The boys barged into the kitchen. They all looked surprised to see her there. I told them to come to the living room and sit there. Because I know they are going to scream and Jin will probably pass out after he hears this. So after they all sat. I explained them what happened. Their reactions were quite nice. And they accepted her. I felt a huge weight being lifted of my chest. She cooked a lot. It was very good. After the meal she told me to help her with the dishes. But when everybody left she just scolded me for nothing. After I explained her she just got shy and her face was completely red. She was very cute like that. She left to her bedroom. I went back to the boys. They were Tae and Jungkook were playing games and Namjoon fell asleep on Jin’s shoulder. I admit it they were a cute couple. If anybody find out about them we would be done for. I hope they don’t show it to her, we don’t know how she is. Maybe later they will tell her. I went to my room and went to the bathroom. I took a long shower. I had to clear my mind. But it didn’t help me at all. All I was thinking about was her. How she was beautiful while blushing. How I liked when her hair falls on her face and I just want to move it for her. How I want to cuddle with her. And hOw I want to take her to my special place. My special cherry blossom tree and the special cliff with the view of the whole city. What is this feeling… is this…

Your P.O.V.

I tried getting some sleep but I couldn’t. So I just kept staring at the blank wall in front of me. I wanted to compose some music. To be prepared for tomorrow. But I didn’t know what kind of songs do Jimin and Tae have. I was looking at my BTS fan account on instagram. I thought about deleting it but it had a lot of quality memes. So I just ended up putting more posts on it. I know that this is wrong now that I’m living with them. But come on I’m still a fan. It was 4am. What am I going to do. I still have 3 hours till work. I got out of my bed and went to the kitchen to get a glass of water. I was surprised to see Yoongi there drinking water. I didn’t hear him open the door.

“Hey.” I whispered.

“What are you doing up this late at night?” he asked me.

“Well I should ask you the same thing?”

“Fair enough, I just couldn’t sleep.”

“Same here.” I was about to get the glass but Yoongi was faster and got it for me. I smiled. But he couldn’t have seen that in the dark.

“Here you go.” he poured me some water in the glass and handed it to me.

“Thanks.” I drank the glass fast, and we just ended up staying there. “Well I should get some sleep.”

“Yeah me too…” it was kind of weird. We both walked to our rooms. But as I was about to get in my room he stopped me.

“Can we talk for a bit, please?” he asked me. I was a bit shocked. But agreed. We went inside my room since it was closer. We sat on my bed.

“Well what did you want to talk about?” I asked him because it was getting uncomfortable.

“I need your advice since you are a girl.” Min Yoongi needed my advice. Well this should be good.

“Yeah, sure ask me anything.”

“There is this girl…” I was about to scream, he needed an advice on girls “...and whenever I see her my stomach just kind of flips. I think I like her…” he stopped there for a second, “...and I want to do something nice for her and I want to tell her that I like her…” it was like he was trying to avoid saying that he like her “I don’t know what to do.”

“Just tell her.”

“What??”

“Just tell her.” I repeated myself.

“I can’t just walk up to her and say that I like her.”

“Yes you can, you are Min fucking Yoongi. I bet everything I have that any girl in the world would date you. I mean you are perfect.”

“Fine i’ll tell her.”

“Now.”

“No, I’m not ready. I am not even sure about my feelings.”

“Yaah, fine. But once you tell her you need to, no you must report to me what happened.”

“Fine.”

After that he just got up and left. Well okay. That was weird. I finally managed to fall asleep even if it was for just for two hours.

I was woken up by Jin calling me for breakfast. I looked at the time. Fuck I was late. I quickly out on my shirt and leggings and while I was exiting I was fixing my tie. I was rushing to the door when Jin stopped me.

“And where do you think you are going to miss without breakfast?”

“I am so.sorry Jin I really am going to be late for work.”

“Fine, but here.” he stuffed a pancake into.my mouth. I thanked him by bowing while I was putting on my converse. I rushed out of the dorm. I had to throw the pancake in the trash. Sorry Jin but I am on a diet. I rushed to my office. Damn I was only three minutes late. I think I never run faster in my whole life. I was sitting there for a while waiting for Jimin to come. After a.while I was craving for some strong black coffee. When I got the coffee and went back to my office I was surprised to see Jimin was already there sitting. Waiting for me.

“Hey, Jimin. When did you come in I just went for a cup of coffee.” I asked him.

“I just came in a minute ago, there is this crazy secretary I don’t want to see because she keeps stalking me so I came in. Sorry.”

“No need to apologize. Just let’s get busy okay. We need to finish this song before 3pm since Tae is coming.”

“Okay dokey. It suits me.” he said. I opened my notebook.

“Okay. Let’s begin. Can you tell me something about your song?” I asked him. And he immediately started talking about it. The song’s name was “Lie” I didn’t quite understand why was it called like that because he was speaking in pieces. He didn’t have a full story like Jungkook did. But I kept writing down what he was saying. At the end it all made sense. At first I thought he was talking about a girl who cheated on me. But then I realized he was talking about himself. He was trapped. He was struggling. Nobody noticed it. Not even his friends. Not even the fans. Not even me. He was all cute and sweet in front of the cameras and at the fan meetings. But I know he is a fuckboy. But in reality he was struggling in side. I didn’t know how he could say all those things that calmly. I was trying not to cry. It was something in the way he talked. The lyrics were coming to me. I was feeling what he was feeling. The way he was talking about it made me rethink my life and my choices. He was caught in a lie like the song said.  After he finished talking there was a long silence, I was the one to break it.

“Okay. The lyrics are great. Your story is sad. It will break the fans. But do you have any idea how you want the song to sound like?” I asked.

“Not a clue” he answered. I let out a deep breath. Well this is going to be hard. I was imagining it. It should be a powerful song.

“Okay, can you try and follow the piano with your voice?”

“Yeah sure.” I went to the piano and sat. He was quick to follow and sit right beside me. I don’t know why but I was feeling uncomfortable having him this close to me. But I told myself I can do this. I started playing the piano but he couldn't do it. Well fuck. His voice is very feminine so I need to add some background vocals and a good beat if I want it to be a strong song. I realized I had to let go of my insecurity and help him. I have to. Or else i’ll lose my perfect little job. I sighted. I calmed myself down.

“Jimin, I need to ask two more things from you”

“Anything.”

“I need you to follow my voice and not to tell a single word about it to anyone okay?”

“Okay.” okay let’s start this. I first wrote down some notes just to know where we are. I started playing the piano. After a few chords I started singing. At first Jimin looked at me shocked, but he started singing with me quickly after that. After an hour or so I managed to write down the sheets it needs a lot more work just in time to be recorded tomorrow. We sang the song one more time from the top. I was all red.

“D-do you like it?”

“Do I like it? This is so awesome. I never imagined it to be like this. You are a fucking genius. And your voice is just perfect I need to tell the oth…”

“No, Jimin you said you won’t tell.”

“Fine, but the song is wonderful. And so are you.” he leaned down and kissed me. I pushed him and backed away falling from the chair on the floor.

“What the actual fuck Jimin?” I was kinda scared and I bet I was pale. “Get out.” I screamed at him. I stood up but he was pushing me.

“I thought you wanted it. I thought that’s what you want.”

“The fuck I wanted?” I was angry and upset. “Get out, now” I screamed at him again but he was still pushing me against the wall. So I slapped him hard. I think everybody in the building heard it. He backed away and got out of the room. I sat on the floor and started crying. I heard the door opening. I didn't want to look up. I know it was Taehyung. I know it was him because the last time I checked the time it was around 3pm.

“(Y/N) why are you crying?” I heard him saying. I felt him hugging me from the back. I whipped my tears. But my eyes were still red.

“I’m fine it’s nothing.”

“No you are not. Tell me what’s wrong.”

“I’m fine. We should work on your song because we need to finish it soon.”

“No we are not. We are going for an ice cream.” before I even wanted to protest he cut me off, “I’m not giving you a choice here.” we went outside. Nobody bothered asking us where we were going. I think everybody around my office heard me screaming at Jimin. We went to an ice cream shop not too far from the company. It was small and pink. Nobody will see us here. We entered and Tae ordered a strawberry ice cream and I ordered mint ice cream. We sat at one of the tables in the back. Just in case. While we were waiting for our order we were just silent. When the old man who was working there brought us our ice creams Tae broke the silence.

“Okay, I want you to tell me what’s going on, and why are you crying.” I looked at him and then I looked back at my ice cream. I calmed myself down and explained him what happened. He was just sitting there in silence. When I finished he started getting closer to me.

“Please don’t kiss me.” I squicked. Tae just started laughing. I was confused at his reaction.

“Oh dear, sweet child i’m not going to kiss you. I’m gay.”

“What?” I asked in shock.

“Don’t worry If I kissed you my boyfriend would kick my ass” I was.looking at him in shock. What the fuck have I just heard.

“Your boyfriend?”

“Guess who?” I was going through my head. It must be one of the members right? And then it hit me. Who was he sitting with at the fan meeting. Who is he always joking with. With who did he sit beside when I was introduced as the new composer. JEON FUCKING JUNGKOOK.

“You and…”

“Yes my love.”

“Jungkook???” I screamed out of happiness. One of my ultimate ships is real oh my fuckinf god.

“Yaaas, you finally got 2+2 together.”

“Oh my godddd. You are like my ultimate ship. Goshhhh I knew the fandom was right about you two.”

“Yaaaah, (Y/N) you are fangirling.”

“Oh fuck, sorry. I’m just happy for you two. You are perfect together.”

“Well thank you. And look at you you are smiling now. I succeeded.”

“Yah you did.”

“Also, don’t worry about Jimin. He is an asshole. Jin will take care of him. I mean we can all agree that Jin is our mother. We keep telling him that we will tell Jungkook that he is adopted if he keeps punishing us.” I was laughing so hard. I barely managed to pull myself together.

“Okay, we should get going we have a song to finish.”

“Yeah, you are right. And Jin is going to kill us if we are late for dinner.” we went back to the company. I asked Tae the same things I asked the other two. He started talking about his song. He was talking about his family how he couldn’t be with his little brothers while they are growing up. It was very emotional. It was good emotional.

“Oh Tae this is so perfect. And I know just the thing for it. If you like it we can use it. I made this two years ago for myself. But I think it will suit your song so much.” I played a song on my phone. It started of with a piano but it transformed into a drum beat.

“This is awesome. Can you play it again so I can try singing to it.” I played the song again. And he started singing. It was perfect. His deep voice matched the song. I was guiding him through the song. Just perfect. We finished really fast. My song saved us since we wasted time at the ice cream shop. We went back at the dorm. When we opened the door well I can just say it was quite a surprise. Jungkook came running to Tae but when he saw me he stopped.

“It’s fine, I told her.” Tae said.

“You told her?”

“Yeah I did.”

“Thank god.” he came up to him and they kissed. I went passed them and didn’t want to break they lovey-dovey thingy. When I entered I saw Jimin sitting on a couch holding a bag of ice on his right cheek. I quickly went past and ignored Jin calling me for dinner, and just straight up went to my room and locked myself in.

Yoongi’s P.O.V.

That night I couldn’t sleep. So I went to get a glass of water. I was in the kitchen when she came sleepy. We exchanged glances and k asked her what she was doing up. She asked me the same thing. I told her that I couldn’t sleep. I poured her a glass of water. After that we both went to our rooms. But before whe went in her room I stopped her. I asked her if she would like to talk for a while. She let me on her room and we sat on her bed. The room now looked a lot more.prettier and wasn’t as white as it was before she was here. I wanted to tell her that I like her. But I couldn’t. So I just made up that I like some girl, and asked her opinion on what to do. She told me just to say it. She asked me to do it now. But I didn’t have the balls to do it. So I just left to my room. The whole night I spent in my bed thinking about her.

In the morning I heard her running. She was late. Cute. But I couldn’t get up. I was too tired to do anything. So eventually I fell asleep. Thank god Jin didn’t wake me up. So I just slept through the whole morning. I was woken up by the door slam coming from Jimin’s room. I decided to go to him I wanted to kick his ass because he woke me up. When I entered his room I saw that his right side of the face was getting that blueish color. I wonder who hit him.

“Damn Jimin, with whom did you get in a fight with?”

“She hit me.”

“Who is she?”

“(Y/N).” why the fuck would she hit him.

“What the fuck, why?

“ Because I kissed her.”

“You did what?” did I hear it right? I was getting angry.

“I kissed her.” I didn’t even think before coming at him.

“You fucking bastard, I thought I told you to stay away from her.” I was shouting prepared to hit Jimin.

“Yah, who even cares about her she is just one of the bitches who want to get in our beds.” he didn’t even look at me. He didn’t even flinch.

“Say that one more time and you are a dead man.”

“She is a bitch.” that was it. I jumped to hit him but Jin grabbed me pulling me away.

“You son of a bitch you are fucking dead.” I was trying to get to him.

“You are protecting her over me.” Jimin came at me but Namjoon pulled him away. Jin was struggling to hold me tight and not let me kill Jimin.

“You are sick.”

“Stop it you two right now.” Jungkook shouted at both of us. He looked angry. I felt my hands shaking. I managed to get out of Jin’s tight grip and came close to Jimin.

“Touch her again and you won’t see anything ever again. And oh yeah consider yourself dead to me.” I said that and left the room leaving them behind me. I went out. I was walking without any idea where to. I ended up at my very special Cherry blossom tree in the park around half an hour from the dorm. I lay under it for quite some time. After I cooled myself down. I decided to go back to the dorm. They are probably worried since I forgot my phone.

When I got back I ignored Jimin who was sitting on the couch in pain. I walked up to Jin.

“So what are we having for dinner?”

“Oh so the lost princess finally decided to show up just in time for dinner.” Jin said sarcastically.

“Yah, what do you want me to do?”

“Go apologize to Jimin.”

“Ya, I am not going to do that.”

“And why not?”

“Do you even know why we got in a fight?”

“No, I just know you started it.”

“Well of course. He kissed (Y/N).”

“He did what?”

“Yah he kissed her. Even though I said to stay away from her.”

“Don’t worry i’ll talk to him. She has to stay. She is good.”

“She is perfect.”

“Yoongi, do you have something to tell me? Something about someone special.” Jin asked.

“No.” I said but I know I was blushing. I saw Jin smiling.

“Okay, and be here in 30 minutes we are.having dinner with (Y/N).”

“Okay.” I went to my room and took a quick shower. When I got out I heard Tae and Jungkook talking about telling (Y/N) that they are together. And after that I just heard a door being shut. I went out of my room. I was looking for her. But Tae just pointed in the room. I knocked on her door.

“Can I come in?” I asked her.

“Please don’t.” I heard her saying from the other side of the door. I ignored her and went in the room. She was sitting on her bed hugging a pillow. I sat beside her.

“Do you want to talk about it?” she just shook her head in disagreement. “I tried beating the crap out of him but Jin stopped me.”

“You, don’t have to do that. It’s fine.”

“It’s not fine. But I won’t do it if you don’t want me to do it.”

“Don’t. It’s fine. I know he is a fuckboy.” I heard her whisper. I caught myself smiling at that. “Besides I would never be with him.” that made me smile even more.

“Do you need anything?”

“No, i’m fine.”

“Okay. Come on let’s go and eat some of Jin’s cooking.”

“Can I skip it this time? Can you please apologize to Jin?”

“Okay, if that’s what you want.” I didn’t want to disturb her anymore so I  left her room. I was heartbroken to see her like that. I can see that she is not fine but she won’t admit it.

I explained to Jin why she won’t eat anything. And he understood it. Jimin was quiet until the end of the dinner then he just left and went to his room.

I went to my room. And luckily I was able to fall asleep.

Your P.O.V.

I went to my room and just sat on the bed and hugged a pillow. After a few minutes Yoongi came in. I was happy to see him. I like talking to him. He helps me relax. He was talking about kicking Jimin’s but. I didn’t quite follow what he was saying. He was standing so close to me. I was admiring him. His perfect blonde hair was falling on his forehead almost touching his small eyes. I realized he had long lashes but they were straight so you couldn’t see them on the photos. His skin was perfect. Without any flaws. The color was really like sugar. His eyes might be little but you could get lost in them. They were full of emotions. His lips. Well his lips were also perfect. They were light pink.

I liked the way his voice sounded. It was deep but it was somehow relaxing. You could listen to him all day. Just like I did.

He left the room. I guess he apologized to Jin for not eating, because no one bothered me. I was working on the songs for like an hour and I finished. It was fast since we did a lot of work today. I fell asleep fast after that.

Woke up in the middle of the night screaming. I was all sweaty and I was crying. Again the same nightmare. I don’t remember the last time I had it. It was the same nightmare I have had since I was 13. It was about the day I ran away from my mother. She was abusing me. She didn’t care about me she just drank her life away. I went to my best friend's house. She was two years older than me but we grew up together. Her parents were out of town on a business trip. I rang the bell but she didn’t answer so I went in. I looked for her and then I found her in the bathroom. She was in the bath full of blood. She killed herself. Her wrists were cut. I started crying and eventually passed out. I have had the same nightmare about her in the bath ever since then.

The door opened and there was Yoongi standing with his messy hair.

“What happened are you okay?”  I just burst in tears even more after hearing him. He came up to me and hugged me. “shh, it’s okay it was just a nightmare. Go back to sleep.” he was trying to confront me.

“Yoongi.” I sobbed.

“Yes?”

“Can you please stay with me for the night?”

Yoongi’s P.O.V.

It was a light sleep. I didn’t dream as usual. I heard a loud scream coming out of (Y/N)’s room. I ran in her room. She was sitting on her bed and crying. I tried confronting her but it didn’t work. Suddenly she said my name. And the sentence that followed it made my heart beat so fast.

“Can you please stay with me for the night?” she said through her sobbing. I whipped her tears away.

“Of course I will.” she laid on the bed and I laid beside her. I covered us with the blanket. I didn’t know if I should hug her from the back or not. While I was arguing with myself in my mind she grabbed my hand and put it around her waist. I came close to her and hugged her. She was still heavy breathing and shaking. I know she was still crying since I can hear her sobbing. I didn’t want to ask her anything because I didn’t want to disturb her so I just kept quiet. I haven’t noticed that she was this small. I realized she is a small spoon when it gets to cuddling. After a while her breathing got slower and she fell asleep. She was sleeping peacefully for half an hour so I fell asleep too.

She didn’t wake up for the rest of the night. In the morning I woke up before her which was very unusual for me. When I opened my eyes it was quite a surprise to see. She wasn’t turning her back like the last time I saw her before I drifted into sleep now she was facing me and was really really close to my body. I moved the hair that was on her face. She looked really cute sleeping. I bet she will be embarrassed when she wakes up. I was admiring her. She was a great composer. A genius one actually. She worked really hard. I can’t wait to hear what she did with Tae’s song. Also I am still mad about what Jimin did. He deserved that punch. And a lot more. Well she is very strong since Jimin’s face is blue now. He need’s to take care of that soon. Once all the songs are finished we need to film the videos for them. I wish she can agree to working with me on my tracks that I plan on releasing. I looked at the clock it was 7am she’ll be late for work.

“Hey, (Y/N) you need to  wake up you’ll be late for work.” I said trying not to scare her. She opened her eyes and immediately blushed. I knew it. She moved away and got out of the bed.

“Uh, oh, thanks.”

“It’s okay.” She turned her head but I saw the little smile on her face. “Well I’ll go now.”

“O-okay.” I left the room and went to my room to get changed. When I went out I was greeted by Tae.

“What were you doing in (Y/N)’s room?” he looked like he was about to kill me.

“Nothing.” I answered shortly since I was getting annoyed already.

“Are you two together? If you do anything to her I will kill you.”

“Tae calm the fuck down, no we are not together. And nothing happened she was just having a bad dream that’s all.”

“Fine.” after that his expression changed. He was back to his happy self. We went to the kitchen since we smelled bacon and eggs. We sat at the table waiting for Jin to finish making it. Soon everybody else was in the kitchen. (Y/N) showed up she looked stunning as always, but when she saw Jimin she just went outside. Jin didn’t ask her any questions and neither did the others. That means they all know what happened. We were all very quiet. Nobody dared say a thing until we heard the door closing. We noticed Jimin was the only one eating. We all looked at him. And then out of nowhere Namjoon hit the table with his fist.

“Jimin I don’t care about your fucking ego. But this is the last time. Remember this is the last fucking time. It’s over. I was quiet for too long. And I let you do whatever you want for the past three years. Three fucking years we were keeping quiet. But it’s over. This went over. No more drinking, no more going out, no more touching other girls, no more chasing away our composers. This is it. You are on a leash now. This was the last straw. I don’t care anymore. And nobody else cares. You will fucking go and fix things with her. I don’t know how and I don’t care. I am pretty sure that she didn’t eat anything since yesterday when she was with Tae. But that was only an ice cream. She is a fucking genius. The songs are great. Everything is fine. But you have to spoil everything like always. Fuck you.” Namjoon snapped. We have never seen him like this before. He was always calm. Though he was right about everything he said. Jimin was taking it too far. I looked at Jimin he was scared as hell. His face was pale like a dead man’s. I saw him shaking. The confident Jimin disappeared. I saw that Tae was strongly holding Jungkook’s hand. Jin looked worried. He had also never seen his lover act like this.

“When was the last time somebody saw her eating, besides the ice cream with Tae yesterday?” Jin asked.

“The last time I saw her was four days ago and that was a bag of chips.” I said.

“Same here.” Jungkook said. Namjoon nodded his head.

“Since she wasn’t alone during any of these past days. She was working in the company all day. That means she hasn’t eaten anything. And I am sure she threw away the pancake I put in her mouth yesterday morning.” Jin stated. I was in shock.

“Yoongi hyung, are you okay?” Jungkook asked me.

“No.”

“Come on guys, I am pretty sure she eats on her breaks.” Tae said.

“Yeah, probably.” Namjoon said, but I was not convinced by that. She did look a little pale.

“Come on Jimin, we have a songs to record.” Tae turned to Jimin. Jimin just nodded and they left.

I ate my breakfast. I love when Jin cooks. When we are on tour we just eat fast food. I mean it’s good but not like Jin’s. I got up and decided to go help (Y/N) with recording the songs. It’s not that I actually had anything to help with it’s just that I didn’t thrust Jimin.

Your P.O.V.

I woke up just to find Yoongi beside me. I forgot he was with me. And I didn’t know he would have stayed the whole night. I blushed when I saw that I was very close to him. So I just quickly jumped out of my bed. I know I was red as a tomato but I don’t care anymore. I thanked him and he caught the little smile on my face. He left the room and I was glad he did that. I prepared myself for work just like I always do. I smelled bacon and eggs and I was so hungry. I walked in the kitchen but when I saw Jimin all the memories from yesterday came back. I couldn’t deal with him right now. Nor with the looks of others. I just had a feeling they all know what happened. So I just left in a hurry. Nobody tried to stop me. I thanked them in my mind for understanding me. As I closed the door I heard Namjoon yelling. I decided not to listen. It will just make me feel worse.

I entered my office after a while and while I was waiting for Jimin and Tae to come and mentally preparing myself I was checking up on the music. I knew everything was fine after the 20th time I looked at it. I was feeling anxious. I ate a cereal bar. It was enough for me for the day. I heard the door opening. I was occupied with my thoughts I didn’t even realize Tae knocked like ten times already.

“Sorry we entered, but I knocked like ten times but you didn’t answer.” They entered.

“Oh, sorry I didn’t hear you, I had my headphones in.” I lied.

“Yaah, should we start?”

“Yes sure, let’s go to the recording room.” we all felt the tension between me and Jimin. So we quietly went to the recording room. Tae didn’t want to leave me alone and I was glad about that. When we went to the recording room Jimin was first one to record. I played the music and he started singing. His voice was very powerful. He looked hurt while singing it. That’s what made it more powerful than the last time he was talking about it. I felt the emotions coming out of him. It was very good. And he remembered the instructions I gave him when we were working on the song. When he finished I realized he was crying. I heard him say he was sorry.

“I am very sorry for what I did yesterday. I don’t know why I did that. Yoongi was paying so much attention to you. Like everybody else. Even Hoseok. Nobody paid attention to me. I was just jealous, I’m sorry okay. Please accept my apology.” He was crying.

“Jimin it’s fine. Don’t worry. And I accept your apology. Just please don’t do it again okay. And stop crying please.”

“I won’t.”

“Go wash you face and drink some water. Than come back okay. Me and Tae will record his song.” He listened to me and went out. Tae sang his song as perfect as he did yesterday.

“Yaas, that’s my bias wrecker.” I shouted, but when I realized what I said Tae started laughing. I covered my mouth. “Fuck.”

“Ayy, (Y/N), now I really wanna know who is your bias.” He was laughing.

“Ayyy, stop laughing, it’s not funny. And you will never know.” I laughed with him.

“Not fair. If it’s not funny why are you laughing.”

“I don’t know.” We were laughing so much that my stomach started to hurt. That’s when Yoongi entered the room.

“Am I interrupting something?” He asked.

“Nah, she just screamed I am her bias wrecker but she won’t tell me who her bias is.” Tae asked.

“I brought food.” He opened a bag full of chinese food. I hesitated for a moment. But damn I can not accept chinese food. And it smelled delicious.

“Yaas food.” Tae came running. That’s when Jimin entered. Yoongi smirked at him. But he let it go, when Tae grabbed the food.

“Wait that’s not yours, this one is yours, and don’t eat (Y/N)’s too.” he shouted at Tae. It was very funny to watch. I was laughing. He gave us all our box and chopsticks. Tae was eating like crazy. I could make memes out of his photos like crazy. Damn that boy is crazy as fuck.

“You’ll choke on food you crazy.” I said. I was eating my slowly.

“Yaah, let him be, he always eats like this.” Yoongi said. WHYYY DOES HE EVEN LOOK SOO HANDSOME AND HOT AND CUTE WHILE EATING. DEAR GOD JUST TAKE ME. I thought. I don’t know how I managed to keep a straight face. Jimin was just sitting in the corner and eating his food.

“Well, Yoongi since you are here. You’ll be the judge of these songs.”

“Let me hear your masterpiece.” I played first Jimin’s song. “Genius. I like how you made Jimin’s feminine voice go with the background voices and music.”

“Yah that’s what I was trying to do.”

“Let’s hear the other song.” I played Tae’s song.

“Damn you made Tae a badass. This is awesome. I can just imagine Tae just like painting graffiti on the wall.”

“Are you reading my mind?”

“Maybe.”

We finished eating, and Tae almost choked on his food. Ah that crazy boy.

“Ayy, Yoongi, your song is next right? Yeah I need to talk to the manager, I was thinking and I know that none of these songs are the ones for the trailer for the album, that’s why we first have to record that song.”

“Yeah, sure.”

As he said that the door opened.

“Where’s my favorite composer?” the manager got it.

“Good day, how are you?” I asked.

“Ah, no need for that formal talk, let’s talk about music. Give me something.”

“Yah, sure.” I played him both songs. I was worried. I cracked my fingers when Yoongi came close to me and whispered.

“Don’t worry he will love it.” I don’t know why but that voice sent down the chills through my whole body. It also relaxed me.

“This is why you are a genius as the boys say. But we need a trailer for the album.”

“That’s what I was going to ask you.”

“Yeah well I know Yoongi is next but you will work with Hoseok, one of his songs is going to be a trailer for the album.”

“Ayy, yes. I’m finished with these two,” I pointed at Tae and Jimin, “so tomorrow I can start working with Hoseok.”

“Fine by me. So that means we will release it in about seven days since we need to film it first. Okay that’s settled, i’ll be going now.”

“Bye.” he left the room. “Well it seems I am free for the day, what do you think I make us some dinner.”

“Nah, Jin wanted to make dinner for you tonight.” Yoongi said.

“Well, okay.”

“We should go home and tell Hoseok great news.” Tae said excited.

“Okay, let’s go.” we went back to the dorm in silence. Except Tae was making funny faces while I was trying to keep a straight face. That guy is just a walking meme. When we arrived, Jimin went to his room and Tae ran to Hobi just to tell him the news. The sunshine appeared in front of me.

“Is it true, is it true?”

“Yah, it’s true, something about Boy meets I don’t know.”

“What???” Hobi started jumping around me.

“Slow down.”

“Yaas, my song finally. When do we start?”

“Tomorrow.”

“Yaaah, I can’t wait. Now let’s go and watch a movie all together. And Yoongi don’t even think about skipping it.”

“I wasn’t thinking about that.” Yoongi defended himself. It was cute tho.

We went to the living room. I knew I smelled fresh popcorns. Jin and Namjoon were already sitting on the couch. Tae was laying on the floor and his head was resting on Jungkook's lap, who was sitting beside the couch and leaning on him, and petting Tae’s head. Ayy they looked so cute. Yoongi, Hobi and I sat on the couch beside Jin and Namjoon. Jimin came in the room.

“Ayy Jimin come hereee, there’s still room beside me.” Hobi said, and Jimin came rushing to his side.

“Yah, (Y/N) what movie will we watch?” Namjoon asked.

“I don’t know, what kind of movie you want to watch?”

“We should watch something cute.” Jin said. Ayy Jin like always.

“No, we should watch a horror movie with zombies.” Jungkook said.

“Yah, let (Y/N) decide.” Yoongi said.

“Can we watch this Chinese movie called Duckweed?” (Look it up it’s good)

“Yaah, perfect.” Hobi said and played the movie. We were laughing our asses of through the whole movie. We ate a lot of popcorns even me.

After the movie finished we ended up talking about some random stuff. I was on my phone because I was getting a lot of notifications on my instagram account. I ended up posting a meme. That’s when my heart stopped.

“Yaah, guys look at this.” Jungkook said while going around with his phone showing them something.

“Our fans are crazy, but they make the best memes.” Tae said. That’s when I froze.

“Can I see it?” I asked. And Jungkook showed me. My breath stopped. That’s my meme page. “Yah it’s good.” I said trying to stay calm. Why do they know about our memes? Please god help me.

“This account is the best. And I think the best memes are with Shook Jungkook.” Jimin said shyly.

“Yaah, why do you look at fans memes?” I asked.

“Because it’s funny, and they are good. We read the comments and mentions on twitter and everything.” I was about to die.

“Do you even read fanfiction?” I said that outloud but I didn’t mean to do that. Fuck. Now i’m over.

“No, what’s that?” Namjoon asked.

“Nothing, forget about it okay. I gotta go take a shower.” I mumbled and quickly went to my room. Damn it. Why is this happening? Ahh, they know about my meme page. No, no no. This is not happening. I need to delete my account. I was about to delete my account when Yoongi busted the door open grabbing my phone

“I knew it. That’s why you froze when Jungkook showed the meme. You are a fucking memelord. You are behind all that.” He said.

“Please don’t tell the others.”

“And what do I get out of that?”

“Whatever you want.” I squicked.

“Fine, then start eating normally.”

“What? How do you know that?”

“I know everything darling” he said giving me his gummy smile.

“Fine.”

“And also you are going for an ice cream with me.”

“Fine.”

“Now.”

“Yoongi it’s 6pm it’s almost time for dinner.”

“Yah, don’t worry we will be back by 8.”

“Fine. Can I have my phone back?”

“No.” okay now he was getting on my nerves. Fuck you Min Yoongi.

“Ugh, fine.”

“Let’s go.” we left my room.

“Where are you going it’s almost time for dinner?” Jin asked.

“Don’t worry we will be back by 8.”

“Don’t be late I’m not making this for nobody you know.”

“Ay hyung, don’t worry.” He grabbed my hand and pulled me out. After we got out of the building he let go of my hand.

“Where are we going?” I asked.

“You’ll see.” he just kept walking. I walked beside him. The wind was blowing. I looked up to the sky. I knew it. It’s going to rain.

“Ah, Yoongi, we should have brought the umbrellas with us.”

“Nah don’t worry it won’t rain.”

“Why are you so sure?”

“I don’t know.” he was in his own world I could tell just by his expression. He looked cute staring in the distance. He felt me staring and looked at me. I turned my head away, but i'm pretty sure I blushed so much because my cheeks were so hot. I saw him smile at the corner of my eye.

After walking for what felt like an hour we found ourselves in the park. There was a guy selling ice cream. We came to the guy.

“Hi, what can I get for you two?” the guy asked us.

“One minty ice cream, please.” me and Yoongi said at the same time. We looked at each other in shock.

“Is that a one or two ice creams?” the guy asked confused.

“Two please.” Yoongi said, and payed for the ice creams.

When we moved like ten meters from the guy Yoongi said:

“Are you fucking kidding me right now?”

“Whay?”

“Just tell me your favorite ice cream flavor is mint.”

“Yeah, the best one ever made.”

“I know right.”

“Did you see the look on that guy's face back there?”

“Is that a one or two ice creams?” Yoongi imitated him. And I laughed at his bad impersonations.

“I didn’t know you pursue acting as your second job?” I said ironically.

“Oh, shut up.” he said laughing.

“Ah, my stomach hurts.”

“I get you. Let’s go. I have to show you something.” he stopped laughing and just continued walking. I followed him.

“Yah, Yoongi you walk so fast.”

“I don’t you are just too slow.”

“Stop it.”

“Why would I?”

“Because you are annoying.”

“Look who says.” he chuckled.

“Fuck you, Min Yoongi.”

“Here we are.” he laid under a beautiful cherry blossom tree. I looked at him. “Well come on and lay beside me.”

“Okay, okay.” I laid beside me and looked up. It was beautiful. It looked like a good place for a tree house. I looked down just in time to see the beautiful sunset. The sun was setting up ahead behind another cherry blossom tree. The tree looked like it was on fire. All the shades of pink were showing on the sky. It was just beautiful. I looked in awe.

“This is so beautiful. Words can’t describe it.” I said.

“I know.” he answered me.

I looked at the time it was almost 8.

“We should head back or else we will be served as dinner.”

“Yeah.” we had to go. But neither of us really wanted it. We stayed there for another minute then we stood up. We walked in silence. But it wasn’t awkward at all.

“Did you confess to that girl you were crushing on?” I asked him.

“Not yet. I am waiting for the right moment.”

“You should do it soon, you don’t wanna lose her.”

“I will don’t worry.”

The rest of the walk we were silent. When we reached the dorm Yoongi rang the doorbell. Suddenly I felt a small peck on my cheek. I opened my eyes wide open. I looked at Yoongi who just smiled. I didn’t get the time to process what happened because Tae opened the door.

“Yah you are late, Jin hyung is very angry at you.” Tae said.

“Ya we lost track of time.” Yoongi went through his hair.

“Yeah.” I whispered. I know I was red. Just that one kiss on the cheek made.my heart skip a beat. Tae looked at me then looked at Yoongi, that again at me and just smiled.

“Come on, everybody’s waiting.”

We went inside, and right in the kitchen. We sat at the table. Everyone was looking at us. Jin saved me from their looks by bringing the food out. They were all now concentrating on the food. I looked at my perfectly decorated meal. I got sick of just looking at the size of it. I can’t eat all of this. I have to. I promised. I managed to stuff it all in my.mouth. We were finished so I politely excused myself from the table. I went to the bathroom to take a shower. But as soon as I got in the bathroom I got sick. All the food coming back. I think I vomited my soul out in the toilet. I ate too much today. Fuck. I took a shower. I was feeling weak, so I just threw myself on the bed and made a burrito out of myself with the blanket. I fell asleep fast after that.

Yoongi’s P.O.V.

Before I got to the company I bought us all some chinese food from the local shop. She will have to eat it. When I got there she was chatting with Taehyung. No sight off Jimin. I showed them the food. Tae got all excited for it like always. But I saw it in her eyes she didn’t want to eat it. But she forced herself to it. Jimin soon came in. He looked like he just cried. His eyes were red. Not that I cared.

I asked (Y/N) to play me the songs. They were really good. No question she is a genius. You have to be born for skills like this. She told me she wasn’t going to work with me tomorrow as the schedule said. I hope she didn’t see my disappointing look. The manager came in and just confirmed what she said. Hoseok was going to work with her tomorrow. When she played the song for the manager I saw her shaking and cracking her fingers. I whispered to her that he will love it. Of course he did love it. When he first came in he called her his favorite composer. He never did that. After that we all went back to the dorm together.

Hoseok was all happy about him having his song to be a trailer for the album. We watched a movie she recommended. It was a good movie. Kinda funny.

After the movie finished we all had a little chit-chat. She was looking at her phone. Jungkook came and showed us all a meme this one account we all love posted. When she showed her the meme she stopped breathing for a moment. She was all stiff and her hand trembled. Is it what I think it is?

She excused herself and went to her room. I followed her. I heard her curse in the room. I went in just in time to see that she was about to delete the account. I snatched her phone away. I knew it. That was her account. That’s why she was that stiff. She had to make me.shut up about it. She asked me not to tell the others. But this was a perfect opportunity.

“Fine, then start eating normally.” I said

“What? How do you know about it?” she just gave herself off. Yes I win. I also made her come with me for an ice cream. Another score for me.

We went outside and we went to the park where my special cherry blossom tree was. When we were ordering our ice cream we ordered the same one. Fucking mint flavored ice cream. The best thing in the world happens to also be her favorite flavor. Yes. I took her to the tree. She was very pretty. She looked at it in awe. The sun was setting. It was a perfect moment for me to confess. But I am a fucking coward. So I let it go. Well I think I just lost my perfect moment. But who cares. I get to see her everyday. Everyday can something more special happen.

We went back. But when I rang the bell. I had to kiss her cheek. I did. She was red as a tomato when Tae opened the door. I think he noticed that something happened but kept quiet. All the boys were staring in her before Jin brought the food. I saw how she looked at the food. I think it was too much for her. But she ate it anyways. After that she went to her room.

I stayed a little longer but Tae started getting on my nerves. I was going in my room when Tae stopped me.

“Wait up.”

“What do you want?” I asked him. I was annoyed enough for the night.

“You like (Y/N), don’t you?”

“No, and keep it down you idiot.”

“Yeah you do. I see how you look at her. And how you almost kicked Jimin’s butt for kissing her. Also you came today for no reason. And you never do that.”

“Shut up. If you tell anyone I will fucking kill you.”

“I won’t. I will keep your little secret. But listen, she is a good girl, don’t spin her around your finger.”

“I won’t.”

“I hope because I will kill you then. Also one more thing. Confess. I think she like you too.”

“You think so?”

“Yes. But do something special for her.”

“I will. Thank you.”

“Don’t worry. Now go on sleepy head.” I entered my room. I fell on my bed. I couldn’t sleep so I just kept looking at the ceiling.

Your P.O.V.

I woke up crying. The same dream again. I managed to calm myself down and went back to sleep. But that didn’t make my nightmare go away. This time it was worse. The body of my best friend in the bathtub smiled at me and looked at me right in the eye. I terrified me. I screamed. I hoped I didn’t wake up anything. But of course I did. Yoongi showed up again at my door. He came to me and laid next to me without any questions.

“Is it the same one?” I nodded.

“Sleep now. You can tell me about it tomorrow.” I drifted of to sleep. His presence just made me calm in a way I could never explain. It’s something about his eyes.

I woke up, but Yoongi wasn’t beside me this time. I stood up and looked at the time. It was around 6am. I still have time for work. I dressed in my usual outfit for work. Just a plain black skirt and a white shirt with a black tie tucked in it. I went to the kitchen. There was Yoongi standing and drinking some coffee.

“Morning” he said offering me another cup of coffee.

“Morning.” I took the cup from his hand.

“I made us some toast to eat.”

“Thank you so much. And thank you for last night. Again.” I said and sipped my coffee. It was good. Strong black coffee. Just what I needed.

“Now, now. Eat and you owe me a story.” I forgot all about that. Last night I agreed to telling him about my dream. I took a deep breath.

“It all started seven years ago.” he didn’t stop me. He just waited in silence drinking his coffee and eating his toast. “My life has always been a disaster. I ran away from my home when I was thirteen. I went to my best friend’s house since her parents were out of town for a business trip.” I stopped for a second and looked at my cup. “I called out to her but she didn’t answer. I knew she was home because her door was unlocked. She never leaves them unlocked if she’s not home. I called out for her again, still there was no answer.” I sobbed. “I-I went to her room, but she wasn’t there, her favorite song was playing on her phone in the bathroom…” I felt tears falling, Yoongi wanted to grab my hand, but put his hand away. “I went to the bathroom and, and… And she was there. In the bathtub full of…” I cried. Yoongi came and hugged me.

“It’s okay to cry.” I rest my head on his shoulder and cried. He just hold me tight and didn’t let go of me.

“She cut her wrists, Yoongi and I didn’t help her.” I cried louder.

“There’s nothing you could have done back then, you were just a little girl.” Now I was just sobbing. We stayed like that for another minute. I pulled away.

“Thank you.”

“There’s no need. Is that why you don’t eat normally?”

“It’s one of the reasons why.” I wiped away my tears. “I should probably fix this mess on my face.”

“You look great.”

“I look like shit.”

“No you don’t.”

“Yeah, I do.”

“Nah you are always beautiful.” I stopped for a second and looked at him. “What, it’s true even Hoseok’s gay ass knows that.”

“THE SUN IS GAY?” I shouted.

“Ah, fuck. Keep it quiet. And act like you don’t know. DID YOU just call him a freaking SUN?”

“Because he is a freaking sun.”

“Yah, he is, but he is a gay sun.” that made me giggle. “Finally a smile from you.” I laughed.

“Okay I have to go now. I will see you later, okay?”

“Okay.” He kissed my cheek and waved me goodbye. I hurried up and got out of the dorm. Why is he like this. So perfect. I blushed so hard. I was happy and smiling all day. I was playing drums when Hoseok came in.

“Ayoo, my favorite girllll.” He screamed at me.

“Ayoooo my sunshine.”

“You ready to work with this special person here? Because I sure am ready to work with a genius.” I laughed so hard.

“Of course, your majesty.” I bowed. Both of us screamed and started laughing. Ah the joy. The ray of sunshine. I managed to calm down.

“Okay, okay we should start working. Show me what you got.” He opened a notebook and gave it to me.

“Here you go. None of us actually wrote it but the manager thinks it will be okay for the trailer.”

I looked at the lyrics. It was a good song. It was a rap song I noticed.

“So my sunshine is raping this?”

“Yes.”

“Let’s go I have an idea.”  I grabbed the dubstep box and started playing on it. “It should be a simple melody since it won’t distract the listeners from your voice. So the focus is on your voice and not the music. Pretty much you do all the work Is that okay?”

“Yeah it’s perfect. How do you do this?”

“How do I do what?”

“All the boys you worked with said you really work fast and the ideas just come to you. I didn’t believe it till now. You literally just composed a song in 5 minutes. It took you 5 minutes.”

“I don’t know it just comes to me. It’s the same as you. Your dancing. If you are willing to work you can make up a choreography for 7 members in 30 minutes which is so awesome. I know that Jimin helps but still.”

“Let’s take over the world.” he said with confidence. I laughed.

“We should record the song so you can work on a video.”

“Yeah, I have an idea but you are right. We need to record it.” we went to the recording studio.

“Hobi, can you please wait. I need one more thing for the song to be perfect.”

“Okay, take your time.”

I grabbed my phone and dialed Jungkook. He answered fast.

“Hey, Jungkook it’s me (Y/N).”

“Hey, what’s up?”

“I need your help with something.”

“Anything.”

“Can you come to the recording studio, like now?”

“Of course. I’ll be there in 5.”

“Okay see you then.” he hung up. I turned to Hoseok.

“Okay the final touch is coming.” he smiled at me. Jungkook really came in 5. 5 minutes. I told Jungkook when to add his vocals. Hoseok didn’t say anything. We were quick to record it. Because the fucking sun was raping. When we finished I played them and Hobi just looked shocked.

“Do you like it?” I asked him.

“P e r f e c t.” he spelled it.

“Yah I told you all she is a genius and you didn't’ believe me.”

“Yah we didn’t because you said that for the last one too.”

“Well I was 15 what do you think. I am older now.”

“But you are still a child for us.”

“Yah stop acting like you are a grandpa.”

“I am not.”

“Guys stop it. My stomach hurts.” I was laughing so hard. But they just started laughing with me. “Okay stop it. I have to go back to work.”

“Byeee.” they shouted as I left the room. I went to my office. I actually had nothing to do so I sat at the piano and started playing “Hurt” by Christina Aguilera. I don’t know why but I liked the song and it fit perfectly with my voice. I sang it. After I finished I sat on the couch and started writing some notes in my notebook. After a while I fell asleep.

Yoongi’s P.O.V.

When she left I smiled to myself. When I turned around I saw Tae looking at me with his angry eyes.

“What did you do to make her cry?”

“I did nothing okay.”

“Don’t lie.”

“I am not crying, I even helped her last night. And the night before.”

“That’s why you left her room the other day.”

“Yes.”

“Fine, but remember, you hurt her, I kill you. It’s simple as that.”

“You are so scary.” I said sarcastically.

“Also, tomorrow you are having some alone time with her.”

“What? How?”

“Did you forget? Tomorrow you are working with her on your song.”

“Fuck.”

“Plan it well.”

“You know I can beat your gay ass Taehyung.”

“Try me.” I wanted to punch him so hard but Jungkook would kill me, and also Jin walked in.

“I smell toast.” Jin yawned.

“Yah, (Y/N) and I ate.”  Jin looked at me puzzled.

“Fine, less food to make.” he pushed me.and Tae out of the kitchen. We sat on the couch and played some Mario Kart. Hoseok ate his breakfast and went out. I hope they finish fast. They probably will.

The others started coming in the living room joining us soon after Hoseok left. We all played Mario Kart together. Jungkook’s phone rang. He answered.

“Yah, i’m coming in 5.” I heard him say. He hung up.

“Who was that?” I asked him.

“Ah it was (Y/N), she wants me to do some vocals for Boy meets Evil.”

“Okay.”

“I need to hurry.” he ran out of the dorm. Damn that girl really is fast.

I went to my room and picked up my notebook and some papers. I went outside. The fresh air hit me. I breathed it in. Ah, it was nice being outside. The cold wind was blowing. It sent shivers down my body. I was stubborn to go to the company. It can give me peace and quiet and I can also see (Y/N) there. I entered the company and was struck by the hot wave. Damn these people are crazy turning the heat up it wasn’t even that cold outside. I saw Jungkook and Hoseok leave the building. So it means they are finished. I looked around for a perfect place to write. As I was passing by (Y/N)’s office I heard a piano play. I say by the door and listened. I suddenly heard a voice. A beautiful angelic voice coming out of the room. It was a familiar voice. Oh my god was that (Y/N)’s voice. It is so perfect. I didn’t know she could sing. Damn, the song was perfect for her voice. I barely managed not to get in the office. I stood up and waited for what seemed a century but was actually five minutes and knocked on the door. There was no answer so I got in. I looked around the office. I found her sleeping on the couch. I smiled and put a blanket on her. I sat behind her desk. It had a perfect view on her. I opened my notebook and started writing some lyrics. She looked so peaceful sleeping. Her hair was falling on her face. I giggled at the sight of her hair falling on her nose and her making an angry face. She looked so cute.

After a while of endless writing and scratching the lyrics I looked at the time. It was almost 7pm. I stood up. I had to wake her up. But I didn’t want to wake her up. I touched her arm. But she didn’t move at that. So I called her name and moved the hair from her face. She slowly opened her eyes and backed up on the couch.

“Jesus Christ Yoongi. You gave a me a heart attack.” she yawned.

“Sorry, but I had to wake you up because we have to go home.”

“Oh, what time is it?”

“It’s around 7.”

“Oh, shit.” she quickly stood up.

“woah, where’s the rush.”

“I slept through the day.”

“So?”

“I’m gonna get fired.”

“No you won't. I do that all the time.”

“Oh..” she said.

“Come on let’s go.” I grabbed her soft hand. She didn't resist it. We walked out and went to the dorm. Before we went in we could smell the chicken. Jin probably prepared the dinner already. I.looked a (Y/N). She didn’t look really good. Her face turned white. She was pale as the walls.

“Are you okay?” I was worried.

“Yoongi… can I please pass the dinner tonight?” she barely managed to say with the small gulps between every word.

“Are you okay? You don't look so good.” I grabbed her shoulders. She stumbled back and grabbed her mouth and just ran into the dorm. I followed her in and everybody was looking at me. She ran to her room. I caught sight of Tae’s angry glance.

“What happened?” Jin asked.

“I have no idea.” I went to her room and knocked on her door.

“Leave me alone.” I heard a distanced voice coming out of the room.

“I just wanna make sure you are okay.”

“I’m fine now go away.” I heard a loud sob. Is she crying?

“If you won’t tell me what's wrong i’ll get in.”

“Don’t.”

“I’m coming in.” I opened the door but I could find her, I heard her sobbing in the bathroom. I went in. I found her sitting beside the toilet. She puked. I grabbed her hair not letting it slip in the toilet.

“What happened you were fine a minute ago?”

“It’s because I ate too much yesterday, and the smell of the food just made me feel so sick.” she managed to say between her sobbing and vomiting. When she stopped I picked her up and slowly put her on the bed. I covered her with blankets.

“I’ll be back.”

I went out of the room and to the kitchen. I grabbed a small bottle of coke and some over baked bread. I asked Jin to prepare a soup. I went back to the room.

“Drink a little bit of this, and eat only this, Jin will make you some soup for you to eat.” She just nodded. I sat beside her. She drank a little bit, and just stayed quiet. “Is it because of me?” she just turned her head away. “It is.”

“It’s not.” she whispered.

“I made you eat. I’m sorry.”

“It’s not your fault, it’s mine.” she didn’t look at me in the eyes. I took a deep breath. Jin came in the room bringing her soup.

“Here you go sweetie.”

“Thank you Jin.” she took the soup and started eating it slowly.

“Do you need anything else?”

“No, i’m fine, thanks for asking.” Jin left the room. I just sat there on her bed. I didn’t dare speaking up. She finished the soup and gave me the bowl. I looked at her.

“At least your skin color is back.” she chuckled. “I will leave now and let you rest.”

“Please, stay.” she pleaded.

“Okay. I’ll just go put the bowl in the dishwasher, okay?”

“Okay.” I went out of the room.

Your P.O.V.

I ran to my room and puked in the toilet. The smell of the food made me sick. I couldn’t breathe for a second. I knew this would happen soon. But not like that. Yoongi came rushing to me worried. I felt another one coming. I vomited again. Yoongi pulled my hair back with his soft hands. I cried and sobbed and vomited at the same time. It was so gross. I don’t know how he can look at me. I managed to explain him what happened between my sobs. I stopped vomiting. My stomach was empty so I didn’t have anything else to vomit. He picked me up slowly and put me down on the bed as slow as he picked me up. Slow and gentle. He covered me with blankets and went out of the room. He came back with a bottle of coke and some over baked bread. I drank a little I don’t wanna puke again. That’s the worst feeling in the world. Yoongi blamed himself. It’s not his fault. I can’t look at him in the eyes. I’m gross. Why is he still here?

Jin came in the room bringing me soup. Ah, thank you Jin. I thanked him. The soup was excellent, just the way I love it. I finished the bowl and handed it to Yoongi. He seemed worried and distanced.

“At least your skin color is back.” he said I chuckled at that. “I will leave now and let you rest.”

“Please stay.” I pleaded. He looked at me with his warm eyes. I could get lost in them everyday. I wish I can look at them more. But that would make me weird. He left to put the bowl in the dishwasher. I covered myself with blankets so only my face could be seen. He entered.

“You look like a burrito.” he laughed.

“I am a burrito.” I smiled with all my power. He sat beside me.

“Can I lay beside you?” I nodded my head. He laid beside me. I closed my eyes. He was so freaking close. He smelled nice and I could feel his breath on my face. I drifted of to sleep.

I woke up in the morning. Yoongi was still there and he had bags under his eyes.

“Dear Lord, Yoongi did you even sleep last night?”

“Maybe.”

“That’s a no. God damn it Yoongi. You have to sleep.”

“I’m fine.”

“Don’t lie I know you love to sleep.” I unwrapped myself from all the blankets. I didn’t care my hair was all over the face and that I had mascara all over my face. I just didn’t want him to be like this. “You know we have a schedule for us to work today.”

“Calm down, I slept okay. It’s just really early in the morning.”

“Okay.” he yawned then looked at me. He turned his head away and blushed. What was wrong?

“I-i’ll leave now and let you get dressed.” he stuttered and quickly got out of the room. I looked at myself in the mirror of the dresser. My skirt was up and my panties were showing. I was red as a tomato when I realized what actually happened. I covered my mouth because I was about to scream. I literally looked like hell just threw me out because I was too ugly for it. I took a quick shower and got myself in a better state before dressing. I had bags under my eyes. I tried covering them up but I just made them worse. So I gave up on them. I was sick of my normal work outfit so I just put on my black leggings and an oversized black hoodie. I didn’t care how I looked. I tied my hair in a messy bun. It’s not like I looked bad. And Yoongi saw me yesterday in my worse state so it was fine. I left my room and went to the kitchen for a cup of coffee before I leave. I wanted to wait for Yoongi so we can go together. I grabbed a cup and poured some coffee in it.  Tae came jumping to me. He looked happier than usual.

“Good morning.”

“Ay, (Y/N) you look better.”

“I am better. Why are you so happy suddenly?”

“Oh, Jungkook and I are going to the amusement park since we have some free time. Finally we can have some alone time there.” I giggled.

“You are so cute together.”

“Thank you. Oh, I have a question for you.”

“What is it?” I sipped some of my coffee.

“Do you like Yoongi hyung?” I almost choked and dropped my cup.

“What makes you think that?” I blushed.

“I see how you look at him. And he spent three nights in you room. Omo are you two together?” Tae screeched.

“We are not certainly together. And we won’t be together.” I sighed. “He has feelings for some girl he told me about her.” he looked at me confused.

“But I was right you do like him.”

“Maybe I do…” I whispered. He smiled.

“I have to go Kookie is waiting.” He left the kitchen jumping. Yoongi came in and I gave him a cup of coffee. I know I was blushing hard but fuck it. He drank his coffee quickly.

“Should we go?” he asked me. He looked a lot better now. I nodded. We left.

“Am, thank you for yesterday. Again. You saved me one more time. I owe you a lot.” I said while we were walking. I put my hands in the hoodie.

“No need. And you don’t owe me anything. You don’t notice it but I do. You’ve done so much to the guys. They look happier now.”

“Really?” I asked.

“Yeah.” he blushed.

“When are you planning on telling that girl you like her?”

“Soon. I’ll tell you first when I do.”

“She is lucky to have you. If she rejects you she is just stupid. You are literally boyfriend goals.” he chuckled.

“You really this so?”

“Yeah.” we entered my office. I immediately opened my notebook. “Let’s start. Give me the lyrics and talk about your song.” He gave me a piece of paper. I looked at it. The name of the song was “First Love” so cute. I wonder what’s it about. I didn’t wanna read the lyrics until he finishes his story.

He started talking about the song. He told me that he heard me playing a piano the first day I started working here. It reminded him of his family his old town and everything. He wrote the lyrics right after that and asked the manager to use it as the song for the album because he like it better. The song was about a piano. The first time he saw the piano in his hometown. It was so beautiful the way he talked about it. I could just imagine him rapping it. Tears were starting to fall. It was so emotional. How can someone write this about a piano?  He was talking about a piano in his house when he was little. He talked about he was little and small, and that the piano was bigger than him. That’s the first time he fell in love with it. He wanted to play it so bad. He stroked the piano for the first time with his little finger he felt really nice after stroking it, he played on the piano wherever his tiny fingers took him back then he didn't know the meaning of this piano he was satisfied by just looking at it. When he almost finished elementary school he finally became taller than the piano, he didn't care about the piano he abandoned it after when he once yearned to it the dust piled on top of its white jade-like keyboard that was the piano's neglected appearance, but he still didn't understand the meaning of that piano to him.Yoongi met the piano again when he was 14 years old he awkwardly caressed the piano for a moment only, even though Yoongi took so long to comeback and meet the piano the piano accepted him again without any repulsion the piano didn't push him away he greeted him happily, beautifully , Yoongi is nothing without the piano and the piano is nothing without Yoongi both of them complete each other , the dawn passed away and they greeted the morning together ,he stayed with the piano all night they promised each other that they won't let go of each other's hands.Every time he wanted to give up the piano by his side encouraged him he told him that he can do it! Even when he didn't want to play on the piano the piano stayed by his side, that's right he remembers when he became hopeless and fill into depression, he pushed the piano away from him even when he felt bad for seeing the piano the piano stayed strongly by his side.

I was crying the whole time he was telling me his story. He was also crying even though he was trying to hide his face I saw tears on his cheeks. When he finished he looked at me. I whipped away my tears but they didn’t stop coming.

“Yoongi, this is so beautiful. I was never more in love with a song.”

“Thank you.” he whispered. I sat at the piano and he followed me and sat beside me.

“We can use the song you heard the other day. But it’s not anywhere near finished.”

“It’s okay.” I started playing the piano. I showed him the beginning. He liked it.

“Here we can add something like this.” he played some chords.

“And also this.” as I was about to play the chord our hands touched. It sent shivers down my body. I moved my hand and so did he. I played the chords like nothing happened.

We were almost finished with composing the song when he stopped.

“I have to tell you something.” he exclaimed.

“What is it?” I looked at him concerned.

“Uh, oh..”

“Yoongi just say it…”

“ I asjdlask” he mumbled and I didn’t understand a single word.

“What? I didn’t quite catch that.”

“I like you.” He said it so quiet and he was blushing harder than me. I was in shock. And was about to cry. Min fucking Yoongi likes me. Omo I AM ABOUT TO DIE. GOD JUST KILL ME ALREADY. IF THIS IS A JOKE JUST CUT IT OUT. My hands dropped on the piano making an unpleasant noise.

“Well fuck.” I said.

“I’m sorry… I’ll leave.”

“Don’t leave.”

“Why?” he was so quiet I barely understood what he was saying.

“Because… I like you too…” I mumbled. He looked at me in shock.

“You do?” I nodded. “Well this went better than I expected it to go.” I chuckled.

“Ammm, we should go back to composing.” I turned to the piano and smiled.

“But we finished look.” He showed me.

“Oh, would you look at that.” I was avoiding his face but I could see him smile in the corner of my eyes. “Then we should go record it.”

“We should.” We went to the recording studio. While he recorded the song he was crying. I get him. The song was very emotional. It almost made me wanna call my ugh mother. Though I should call my best friend’s parents. I stayed in contact with only them. I haven’t heard a single thing about my mother. Not that I cared. They said they haven’t seen her either. Maybe I will skype with them when we get back.

Yoongi and I wrapped up fast and we went back to the office. I was grabbing my notebook and turned around.

“Can you sing for me?” Yoongi said out of nowhere.

“What? I don’t know how to sing.”

“Yeah you do I heard you.”

“You heard me?”

“Yesterday. Can you sing that song?” I looked away.

“Just because you asked.” I whispered and sat at the piano, he sat beside me. I started singing. I don’t like my singing. My voice is terrible. I hate my voice. I finished the song and put my hands on my lap. I didn’t wanna look at him.

“That was amazing.”

“No it wasn’t…”

“Yeah it was. Look at me.” I hesitated for a moment and then I looked him in the eyes. He came closer and kissed me. I didn’t back away like I did with Jimin. He was a great kisser. I kissed him back and I felt him smile between the kisses. We broke away. Both of us breathing heavily. I could still feel his soft lips on mine. They tasted like minty gum. The flavor I loved so much. I looked in his still red eyes. I smiled to myself and turned my head away. He kissed my cheek. I blushed.

“We should go. It’s getting pretty late.” I said. But I didn’t wanna leave. I just wanted to pause this moment and live in it forever. This was too good to be true.

“We should.” we both stood up and went out of the office. We walked very slow. Neither of us wanted to leave. Bud we had to. I know we had to. I also know we can’t be together. The thought of that just made me sad. But if anyone found out I wouldn’t have a life anymore. And neither would he. I brushed the thought away. 

We were in front of the dorm door. I hesitated. Yoongi turned to me and holded both of my hands. He leaned and kissed me softly. My heart skipped a beat. We backed away and entered the dorm.

We acted like nothing happened. We ate dinner with the others. We played video games and everything. I went to my bedroom. I took a long shower thinking about what happened. I rolled the film again and again in my mind. Hearing Yoongi say he liked me. The kiss. His soft lips. His warm eyes. His flawless sugary skin. I walked out of the shower and put on a oversized hoodie and let my hair dry naturally. I laid on the bed and covered myself with bedsheets. Tae came rushing in my room. He didn’t wait for me to respond and just sat beside me.

“Spill.” Tae ordered.

“What?” I asked confused.

“Ah, don’t act innocent. I know something happened with that grumpy ass you like. Now spill.”

“Tae, nothing happened.”

“Don’t lie you were both red. You entered the room avoided each other and looked like freaking walking tomatoes around the house. Now spill it before I tell everyone.”

“no, no don’t tell the others. I’ll tell you everything.”

“Yay, I win.”

I told Tae what happened. Every small detail I could remember. Even the smallest ones like how hr smelled how his lips tasted.

“Am I a matchmaker? Yes I am. Call me.Cupid.” he said victoriously after I finished, I chuckled.

“Don’t tell the others.”

“Don’t worry I know how to keep a secret dear.”

“I trust you.”

“I will let you sleep now you look like a corpse.” he laughed and left my room. I fell asleep fast after that.

Yoongi’s P.O.V.

She asked me to stay in her room so I did. In the morning she looked a lot better. I slept maybe like half an hour or maybe a little more. She had temperature so I was up all night putting wet tissues on her forehead and her neck. When she looked at me she asked me if I even slept last night. I was surprised of how much she actually knows about me when she said I love sleeping. I looked at her and realized she was still in her clothes she wore yesterday. Her skirt was rolled up. I blushed and turned my head. Omo, I just saw her panties. I quickly left the room. When I dressed and brushed my teeth I left the room. She was waiting in the kitchen. She gave me a cup of coffee. I drank it fast. I really wanted to see how she works with the boys with their songs. I mean I technically fired so many composers for not “feeling” my songs. When we went to the company we immediately started working on the song. I caught myself crying over my song. It was too emotional for me. I realized she cried through the whole talk about the song. That’s when I realized she is the one. She is the only one that feeled my songs. She knew how I felt. I would do anything to keep her as our composer. As everyday passed I fell in love with her even more than I was the day before. I don’t know how. I don’t know why. But she made me feel so good. Around her I felt like home. The guys did too. I just know it. How they are acting. She helps Jungkook a lot. She doesn’t realize it yet but she does. Jungkook. He was so young when he started. I don’t recall the last time anyone of us saw our families. Our parents. Our brothers and sisters. It had been so long since I’ve been in Daegu. But when she was around that feeling just went away.

I asked her about the song she played the first day she came. Because I wanted that song to be in the background of my lyrics. Damn, I even wrote the lyrics because of that song. She agreed. We sat at the piano. In one moment our hands touched. My heart started beating so fast. I pulled my hands away. It’s final. I have to confess.

“I have to tell you something.” I said. I hope she doesn’t notice the nervousness in my voice. My heart was beating so fast and I felt my breathing speed up. 

“What is it?” she said. I think she noticed. Fuck, fuck, fuck.

“Uh, oh..” I trembled.

“Yoongi just say it…” if it was that easy I would have said it.

“ I like you.” I tried saying but all it came out was some random letters that didn’t even form a word.

“What? I didn’t quite catch that.” damn it.

“I like you.” I whispered. I know she was in shock. I have been talking to her about a girl I liked but she never assumed that it was her. I mean how could she.

“Well fuck.” she said.

“I’m sorry… I’ll leave.” I was about to get up, but she stopped me.

“Don’t leave.” I looked at her confused.

“Why?” I asked her, I was soo fucking quiet what’s wrong with me.

“Because… I like you too…” she mumbled. I looked at her in shock. Is this happening? Is this real? God? Are you there?

“You do?” she nodded. “Well this went better than I expected it to go.” she chuckled. I love when she chuckles it’s cute.

“Ammm, we should go back to composing.” she turned to the piano and smiled.

“But we finished look.” I showed her. She looked disappointed. Damn. I was too. We finished so fast.

“Oh, would you look at that.”She was avoiding my face. I smiled. “Then we should go record it.”

We went to the studio. I was rapping but I couldn’t bring myself to stop crying. We finished recording. We wrapped it up quickly and we went to her office so she can grab her notebook. I asked her to sing. She looked at me shocked. I guess I shouldn’t know about that. But I heard her. She kept telling me she can’t sing. So I just said I heard her. She finally said yes. I sat beside her and she started playing the song. It was even better than that time I heard her through the door. I admired her. What can’t she do?

I told her that was beautiful. I didn’t lie. It was. Just perfect. She was stubborn saying it wasn't. I told her to look at me. She hesitated but eventually looked at me. I came closer and kissed her soft lips. She didn’t pull away she kissed me back. I smiled between the kisses. We broke away. We were both breathing heavily and we were red. Her lips were so soft and tasted like strawberry. They were all puffy now. I am pretty sure my eyes were still red from crying but never mind that. I kissed (Y/N).

We walked to the dorm. The whole time I was wondering what to do now. Namjoon won’t like it. But are we even a thing now? What if she thinks bad of me now? When we were in front of the dorm. I had to kiss her one more time. So I turned and holded her soft hands and kissed her. After that we entered the dorm.

We acted normal. We acted like nothing happened. We ate dinner played some games and stuff. She went to her room and Tae followed her. I didn’t wanna question it. It seemed like she and Tae were like best friends. And I was glad. I was tires so I left to my room and took a shower before drifting off to sleep.

 I was woken up by the door opening. I looked up and saw her standing there. I quickly jumped out of my bed.

“(Y/N) are you alright?”

“Just a bad dream. Can I sleep in your room tonight?” she was saying with her sleepy voice. I chuckled.

“Of course. Come here.” I went back in my bed and she just laid beside me. I covered us with a blanket. She snuggled up onto me and I hugged her. Surprisingly she hugged me back. She felt so small in my arms.

“Yoongi..” she said.

“Yes?”

“What’s your favorite color?” she asked, I smiled at the question.

“White, and yours?”

“Black.”

“That’s nice.”

“Yeah…”

“What’s your favorite food?”

“Ramen.”

“That’s nice and delicious.” her breathing slowed down and I knew she was drifting off to sleep.

“Yoongi I miss my family.” I wanted so bad to ask her about her family but she dosed off. And so did I.

Your P.O.V.

I woke up in Yoongi’s arms. I smiled. I slowly managed to get up without waking him up.

I went to my bedroom and got dressed in some comfy clothes. Suddenly I heard someone yelling in the living room.

“FUCK YOU!” I heard someone growl and something crash. It sounded like Namjoon. But why was he yelling?

“Sweetie just relax.” I heard another voice say. I got out of the room. Everyone was up and in living room. Namjoon and Jin were fighting.

“I SHOULD HAVE NEVER ASKED THE MANAGER TO GET YOU IN.” I heard Namjoon literally scream at Jin.

“What?” Jin looked at him in shock. Taehyung saw me, he quickly came to me.

“Go in your room, okay? Everything will be okay.” he whispered pushing me back before anyone saw me.

“YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW HOW TO SING.” Jin started crying and ran out of the dorm. What the fuck just happened? I ran to Namjoon.

“What the hell?” I yelled. Everyone looked at me. Yoongi grabbed my arm.

“What do you want now?” Namjoon asked me angry. I managed to get out of Yoongi’s strong grip and slap Namjoon in the face. Nobody expected it. Everyone was in shock.

“What the fuck Namjoon? I thought you were the stable one here. And you just disappointed me. What did he do sooo wrong to get on your nerves like this? All of you” I looked at them stern “Should respect Jin more, he is trying so hard. He fucking cooks for you every single day. He raised you Jungkook. You would probably be a brat if it wasn’t for him. All of you would probably live on ramen you bought in the store, and everywhere would be a mess. You wouldn’t do anything on time if it wasn’t for him. He is like your freaking mother. Also Namjoon he is your boyfriend.” He looked at me scared, everyone did. “ Oh yeah you think I didn’t know that. Well everyone fucking knows about that. Your little cuddles on the couch whenever I came. NOW SNAP THE FUCK OUT OF YOUR LITTLE PERFECT FANTASY.” I screamed the last part and ran out to find Jin.

Damn I don’t even know what I said. I never saw Namjoon snap like that. The way that the others looked at me and him showed the same reaction. After rolling the film in my head I almost cried. I overreacted damn it. My fucking nerves. Ugh. But honestly Namjoon deserved that slap. He hurt Jin. Very much. Saying he can’t sing. Come on Jin is good. Jin has a great voice. And is an angel of a person. I got out of the building and went to the nearest park. I saw Jin sitting on a bench and crying. I bought him a strawberry ice cream. And I sat beside him.

“Here you go love.” I gave him the ice cream.

“Thank you, (Y/N).” He smiled at me and whipped his tears away.

“Are you okay?”

“I’m okay.”

“What Namjoon said is so wrong. I don’t care why he got mad at you but what he said about you not knowing how to sing was so wrong.”

“He’s right though. I don’t know how to sing.”

“Yeah you do, and you are the most caring and the nicest person in the whole world. If you weren’t there for them who knows what they would’ve ended up like. Also I slapped your boyfriend.”

“You know about that?”

“Come on you two lovebirds are always cuddling. All fuzzy wuzzy and suspicious. Don’t worry I won’t tell.”

“You are a great person.” he said and ate his ice cream.

“Thank you. Now let’s go back and make Namjoon apologize.”

“Yeah we should do that.” Jin laughed. We stood up and slowly went back to the dorm. We had a little chit-chat about how baby cats are the cutest. Once we got in the dorm we noticed it was too quiet. I looked at Jin he was confused as me. It was never this quiet. Something is wrong. We went to the living room and everybody was sitting. Namjoon got up immediately when he noticed Jin.

“Jin, I’m so so so so sorry.” Namjoon bowed his head almost touching the floor. I looked at the other boys they all had a worried expression. I sit beside Yoongi.

“You think a simple sorry will make it up?” Jin asked. What? I’m so confused. I felt Yoongi’s hand behind my back. I was so tense.

“I’ll do anything you want, but please forgive me.” Namjoon pleaded.

“Fine. Come to the room.” the two of them left to Jin’s room. Everyone let out a deep breath.

“Damn that was intense.” Tae said.

“What the hell happened, they never fight.” Jungkook asked.

“Let’s just leave it alone.” Yoongi said. Always being the calm one.

“But can we talk about (Y/N)?” Hoseok asked.

“What about me?” Hoseok started jumping around.

“You are one feisty girl. You managed to calm Namjoon down. Even Yoongi hyung couldn’t do it.” Jungkook exclaimed.

“Well..”

“Damn you are a fucking genius okay?” Hoseok said.

“I am not.”

“If you even know how to dance i’ll say you are a genius.”

“Well I don’t.”

“We’ll see about that.”

“Oh, shit I forgot about work.” As I was about to stand up Yoongi pulled me down.

“Nope, wait for Namjoon. Our little Joonie is hm how do I tell you this… busy.” Yoongi said.

“Oh, well I can wait I guess.”

“Ayyyy let’s show her the videooo. “ Hoseok pleaded.

“What video?”

“Fineeee, show her.” Jimin said. Hoseok jumped to the TV and played the video. It was dark and I heard Namjoon’s voice.

“My sin was not specifically this or that but consisted of having shaken hands with the devil. The devil held me in his clutches, the enemy was behind me.” I opened my mouth. Everybody was looking at my reaction. Suddenly a flash of white appeared with letters “BOY MEETS EVIL”. I whisper-screamed. A room appeared. It was more like a dungeon. It showed Hoseok sitting down in a white sparkly shirt with black pants. Damn did he look hot. My music played and Hoseok stood up. You could hear the steps he made to the room. His verse started and he began to dance. Oh my god was I in some trans. I started jumping around the room making noises. Yoongi laughed.

“Oh my god look at that jawline… Oh my god the abs, I am dying.... So perfect… My little sunshine…. Oh my god my bias killed me...Oh my god the colors, the dancing… Ahhhhh…” I played dead on the floor. I stood up. Hoseok was so happy, Yoongi looked at him like he would kill him, and Tae was just laughing.

“We finally know who your bias is. And you said i’ll never find out.” Tae continued to laugh.

“Ayyyyyy, (Y/N) I’m your bias ayyy, i’m so happy now.” I blushed. I forgot they were even here. And I fangirled so hard.

“Oh my God, I’m so sorry for that.” I hid my face between my hands.

“Nah you were so cute, we have to show you these things often.” Jungkook said and Tae hit his head.

“Ayo, don’t steal my boyfriend.”

“Don’t worry Tae I have someone else in mind.”

‘Oh, (Y/N)-ah you have to tell us who…” Hoseok jumped.

“It’s a secret.” I winked and Tae smiled at me.

Yoongi’s expression softened. We watched something on TV while waiting for Namjoon. After some time Namjoon got out of his room with sex hair. Well damn everyone could tell he just got some. I giggled.

“Oh, uh… Should we get going we are late already?” he asked all embarrassed.

“Come on lover boy.” I chuckled and we left. We arrived at the company and entered my office. I grabbed some coffee on the way to my office. I sat behind my desk and Namjoon sat on the couch.

“Let’s talk about the lyrics.” I said, he just nodded and started talking about his song. He wrote this song meaning that he’s not sure about himself. He feels as if he doesn’t know himself anymore and feels insecure. While he was talking I was thinking that this is from the amount of hate he’s getting but it’s just a possibility. He didn’t wanna say it out loud but that’s just the way I connected to the song. He is wishing for the day he will learn to accept himself just the way he is. I decided to make it a slow song. Slower than Yoongi’s song. I added some piano notes and after I just added some extra sounds. I wanted to focus everything on his deep voice. We finished quickly because he was really cooperative and listened to what I said.

“Thank you so much. For doing this. For staying with us even though it’s just for a little while. Thank you for working with us. I know we can be stubborn and annoying but we appreciate everything you do for us.” he said.

“No need to thank me.”

“You work so hard with us on every single song. The songs are perfect. You make the others happy. Even Yoongi’s grumpy ass.”

“Thank you.”

After that we went back to the dorm. I went to the room and called my best friends parents. Luckily they answered quickly. They appeared on my laptop screen. A blonde woman with narrow eyes and a man with blond hair with green eyes. My best friend looked just like her father.

“Hey.” I said.

“Hey love, it’s been so long since you called.” The woman said.

“Sorry for that, I kinda am so busy with work.”

“Yaa, we saw you on TV. You’ve grown so much.” The man said. They were like my real parents.

“Ay you saw that.”

“Of course we did. Everyone in town knows our little love is working as a composer. We can’t wait to hear more of your music.”

“Yah, eomma…” I covered my face with hands.

“Move those hands. Are they paying you well there? Do you have enough money?”

“It’s fine, I have more money that I need now. Is everything fine at home. Do you have enough money? I can send you some if you want.”

“Don’t worry about us.”

“Of course I worry. And I’m planning on visiting you soon. I plan on coming after we finish this album.”

“Finally you will come. Just tell us before you come so we can clean your room.” After I ran away from home they kinda took care of me until I went to Seoul.

“Okay, eomma I will.”

“Are you eating well?”

“I am don’t worry.”

“Where are you? I can see it’s not your room…” Dad asked. As he asked that the door opened and I saw Yoongi’s head.

“I just wanna let you know the dinner is ready.” he said.

“(Y/N) who is that? Ay is that your boyfriend?” Eomma asked.

“Ayy, it’s noone.” I felt my cheeks getting red. Yoongi sat beside me.

“Ay don’t lie to us.”

“Who’s that (Y/N)?” Yoongi asked.

“Ay Yoongi, you had to come in now? These are my best friends parents they kinda took me in and now they are basically my parents.”

“Are you two together?” Eomma asked.

“Eommaaa, stop it.” I saw Yoongi blushing.

“But he is so handsome.”

“Ayy I am going to end the call.”

“No, no. I’ll stop I promise.”

“Um, I’ll go. The dinner is ready so hurry up okay?” Yoongi said and went out of the room.

“Eommaaa, why did you do that?”

“Ay, come on you two are together I can feel it.”

“Shhh.”

“Fine, fine.”

“Have you seen my mother lately?” I asked and my expression changed. I felt coldness in my own voice. I just hate that woman.

“No, but people are talking. They say she stopped doing drugs and alcohol and that she went to rehab. They say she is like a new woman now. And that she’s marrying this rich guy. They also say she is searching for you. So be careful.”

“I will eomma don’t worry.”

“We love you.” Dad said.

“I love you too. I gotta go now. But I will call you soon.”

“Okay, love. Take care.” With that I ended the call and turned off my laptop.

 I let out a deep breath. It’s been seven years and now she is sober. And now she is looking for me. Damn that woman. I pray for her to burn in hell. That bitch thinks she can control my life again. I’ll let her find me. And regret ever doing that. I felt anger coming from inside me. I calmed myself down. I won’t let that bitch get in a way of my happiness and my work and love for composing and music.

I went to the kitchen. Everyone was already waiting. I quietly ate my dinner listening to what the other were saying. Suddenly my phone rang. I looked at it. Unknown number. Who could this be. I excused myself and went to take the call in the living room.

Yoongi’s P.O.V.

I woke up and realized she was not in my arms anymore. She probably got up before me. I went out of my room and went to the living room. Namjoon and Jin were standing there. Namjoon was all red. Is it another one of their little fights.

“Good morning.” I said.

“Shut the fuck up Yoongi.” Namjoon snapped at me. What the fuck?

“Stop it, Joonie. I don’t even know why you are mad.” Jin said worriedly. Soon the others came in.

“Oh, you know why I’m mad bitch.”

“Namjoon.” I said harshly.

“SHUT THE FUCK UP YOONGI I’M NOT ASKING YOU AGAIN.”

“Just calm the fuck down.” he pushed me back.

“What’s happening?” Tae whispered.

“I have no fucking idea.” I answered him.

“FUCK YOU!” Namjoon yelled at Jin. And pushed the vase that was sitting on the table. The vase fell and crashed into millions of pieces.

“Sweetie just relax.” Jin tried calming him down but with no success

.

“I SHOULD HAVE NEVER ASKED THE MANAGER TO GET YOU IN.” Namjoon screamed at Jin. Holy fuck. That was supposed to be a secret.

“What?” Jin was shocked. I saw the tears in his eyes.

“YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW HOW TO SING.” Jin started crying and ran out of the dorm. Namjoon what the fuck has gotten into you. I was about to say something but (Y/N) came running.

“What the hell?” she yelled. Everyone looked at her. I grabbed her arm trying to stop her from doing something wrong.

“What do you want now?” Namjoon asked her angry. She managed to get out of my strong grip and slap Namjoon in the face. Nobody expected it. Everyone was in shock. I was in shock. She is strong. Namjoon’s cheek was already red and you can see her fingers on it.

“What the fuck Namjoon? I thought you were the stable one here. And you just disappointed me. What did he do sooo wrong to get on your nerves like this? All of you” she looked at us stern “Should respect Jin more, he is trying so hard. He fucking cooks for you every single day. He raised you Jungkook. You would probably be a brat if it wasn’t for him. All of you would probably live on ramen you bought in the store, and everywhere would be a mess. You wouldn’t do anything on time if it wasn’t for him. He is like your freaking mother. Also Namjoon he is your boyfriend.” Namjoon looked at her scared, everyone did. Jungkook almost cried. “ Oh yeah you think I didn’t know that. Well everyone fucking knows about that. Your little cuddles on the couch whenever I came. NOW SNAP THE FUCK OUT OF YOUR LITTLE PERFECT FANTASY.” She screamed the last part in Namjoon’s face and ran out to find Jin.

Holy fuck I’ve never seen this side of her. This feisty one. But I liked it. I like how she can be quiet and loud whenever it’s necessary.

“I should have never let her stay here.” Namjoon growled holding onto his cheek.

“If she wasn’t here you would still be yelling and would have made the worst mistake in your life. So shut the fuck up and keep your hormones to yourself. You little shit. Everything she said is true. Start treating your boyfriend like you should. If it wasn’t for Jin we wouldn't be here. Everything she said is true. So snap out of it.”

“It’s true. You might be the leader but Jin is everything to us. Just snap out of it.” Tae said and hugged Jungkook’s hand.

Namjoon fell on the couch and broke down crying.

“I’m sorry guys. I don’t know what got into me…” he sobbed.

“It’s not us who you need to apologize to.” I said. After that we just sat in quiet hoping (Y/N) will calm Jin down. And she did. We heard the door being open. Namjoon automatically stood up. Namjoon bowed down and started apologizing to Jin. She sat beside me. I wanted to hug her so bad now. And kiss her and snuggle with her. But I can’t not now. Not here. I noticed she was so tense. I put my hand on her back without anybody noticing. She relaxed quickly after that. 

“Fine. Come to the room.” the two of them left to Jin’s room. Everyone let out a deep breath.

“Damn that was intense.” Tae said. It was.

“What the hell happened, they never fight.” Jungkook asked.

“Let’s just leave it alone.” I said.

“But can we talk about (Y/N)?” Hoseok asked.

“What about me?” Hoseok started jumping around. Damn that boy.

“You are one feisty girl. You managed to calm Namjoon down. Even Yoongi hyung couldn’t do it.” Jungkook exclaimed. Well I don’t blame him. He was right.

“Well..”

“Damn you are a fucking genius okay?” Hoseok said.

“I am not.”

“If you even know how to dance i’ll say you are a genius.”

“Well I don’t.”

“We’ll see about that.”

“Oh, shit I forgot about work.” As she was about to stand up I pulled her down. I don’t know how to say this to her.I’m sure they are having angry sex right now...

“Nope, wait for Namjoon. Our little Joonie is hm how do I tell you this… busy.” I said.

“Oh, well I can wait I guess.” Well she got the message.

“Ayyyy let’s show her the videooo. “ Hoseok pleaded.

“What video?”

“Fineeee, show her.” Jimin said. Hoseok jumped to the TV and played the video. Of course we will show her the video first. I bet she’ll fangirl about “Boy Meets Evil”.

And she did. Jumping around and screaming. Yah she was so cute. Until she screamed that her bias killed her. The little hope in me that I was her bias just died. Well I can die now. Why Hoseok? I should have known he was her bias when she said “THE SUN IS GAY?” I mean she always calls him sunshine or the sun etc. Well I was a little angry at first. But after I saw that Hobi was happy. And after she told him that she has a secret crush my expression softened. Well at least I know who the crush is. I screamed in my mind.  Namjoon came out of the room with sex hair. Told you they were having angry sex. The others didn’t know when Namjoon and Jin are fighting because it was always quiet and I was there to keep things down. But the fought. But rarely. He and (Y/N) went out. The others were now playing games. I went to my room to work on some lyrics because why not. I worked for like 4 hours before Namjoon and (Y/N) came back. I finished two songs. Well one and a half. I went to the living room hoping I will see her there. But Tae told e she went to her room. Jin called us for dinner so I decided to call her out. I went to her room and heard her talking. I knocked and went inside.

“I just wanna let you know the dinner is ready.” I said.

“(Y/N) who is that? Ay is that your boyfriend?” I heard someone talking through her laptop.

“Ayy, it’s no one.” I saw her cheeks getting red and sat beside her.

“Ay don’t lie to us.” I saw a man and a woman on the screen.

“Who’s that (Y/N)?” I asked. I noticed she was a little uncomfortable.

“Ay Yoongi, you had to come in now? These are my best friends parents they kinda took me in and now they are basically my parents.”

“Are you two together?” The woman asked.

“Eommaaa, stop it.” she said and I was blushing.

“But he is so handsome.”

“Ayy I am going to end the call.”

“No, no. I’ll stop I promise.”

“Um, I’ll go. The dinner is ready so hurry up okay?” I said and went out of the room. I don’t wanna bother her. Her parents seem nice. But I wonder where her real parents are. I don’t wanna be nosy. I went to the kitchen and sat waiting for the food. She came in after a few minutes. She was drifting off. She was deep in her thoughts. Suddenly her phone rang and she went to the living room to answer.

She came back. I couldn’t figure out what she was feeling. Her face was blank. It showed no emotions.

“Guys that was the man who was repairing my apartment.” Everyone looked at her. I know what she is going to say. I don’t wanna hear it. “The apartment should be ready in 2 days so I can go back.” Everyone’s expression changed. They weren’t happy anymore they were sad. She is leaving already. Damn. Is it wrong of me that I don’t want her to leave? We ate in silence the rest of the dinner. Everyone’s thinking the same thing. They didn’t want her to leave. I went to my room after dinner and just fell into some kind of a depression. I fell on my bed and just stared at the white ceiling. Fuck it. I’m going to her. I jumped out of my bed and went to her room. She was working on her laptop with her headphones. She was probably composing and didn’t notice me coming in. I sat beside her on the bed. She removed her earphones.

“Jesus Yoongi, you almost gave me a heart attack.”

“Sorry.” is all I said.

“What’s wrong?” she asked me and continued working on her song.

“Can I tell you something?”

“Of course. You can tell me anything.”

“I’m working on my album.” she stopped and looked at me in the eyes.

“You are making your mixtape??”

“Yeah, but it’s a secret.”

“Why are you telling me this?”

“Because… I want you to work with me on it.”

“What if the company doesn’t approve of it?”

“They already approved it’s your call if you wanna work with me or not…”

“I will…”

“You will?”

“Yeah, when do we start?”

“You know you will have to overwork yourself and stay after hours?”

“It’s fine…”

“Okay…” we stayed there in silence looking at each other before I attacked her lips. She put her hands on my neck deepening the kisses. I put my hands around her waist pulling her closer. The kiss was very passionate. We were hungry for each other. I didn’t wanna let her go. We broke the kiss and inhaled the air. She kissed me this time sending shivers down my body. I licked her lips and she opened them a little bit I took the chance to put my tongue in her mouth. We were exploring each others mouths. She pulled away breathing heavily. We laid on the bed still hugging each other.

“Can you stay here?” I whispered.

“You know I can’t Yoongi…”

“I know…Will you at least be mine?” she smiled and pecked my lips.

“I will…”

Your P.O.V.

Yoongi finally asked the question. So now I’m his girlfriend. Wow. We fell asleep together in my bed after cuddling for like an hour or so. I leave in 2 days. I’m going back to my apartment all alone. I saw how everybody reacted when I told them. They were sad. But I have to go. If the manager found out that I was staying at their dorm for almost two weeks I won’t just lose my job i’ll lose everything. And it’s for the best if I go to my apartment. I wouldn’t have to worry every time I go out if someone is following me or that I should leave before the boys etc. At least I get to spend more time with Yoongi because I will be composing for his mixtape. I wanna know so bad what his mixtape is about. After we finish everything I think I’ll go visit my family and my hometown. I don’t recall the last time I went there. One of the reasons is that I was avoiding my mother. The other is just that I didn’t wanna face people with my failure. But now I am successful and have a lot of money and a cute little boyfriend who acts all tough but is actually a softy. I chuckled at that and woke up Yoongi.

“Morning.” he said.

“Morning.” he pecked my lips.

“Yoongi I gotta go to work okay.”

“I know sweetie, don’t forget after you finish with Hoseok to call me.”

“Don’t worry.” He let me go and I put on some clothes and went outside leaving him in bed after he fell asleep again. Jesus that sleepy head. Hoseok was waiting for me in the living room.

“Hello sunshine.” I said.

“Hey cutie, how was your sleep?”

“It was good. Yours?”

“I slept like a baby.”

“Should we go?” Hoseok nodded and we left the dorm. We went to the company and went into my office after we grabbed two cups of coffee. Just that mine was pure black coffee and Hobi’s was black coffee with milk and sugar. Lots of sugar.

We sat on the couch and I opened my notebook.

“You know the drill.” I said and Hoseok automatically gave me a paper with lyrics and started talking about them. The song was about his mum. His only support. She was always there for him even though his dad never was. His passion was for dancing at the time. He didn’t have money. Nor was his family rich. But his mother knew how much the dancing means to him so she tightened her belt and the money she could buy food she gave him. His mother left so she can get the money he needed. He could only hear her over the phone. He was happy what his mum had achieved through the years. He said that he was grateful that his mother made him the man he is. She thought him to be a cheerful person and to make people happy. To not let his problems get him down. She told him that the future was only filled with good things. The whole song was dedicated to his mum. His everything. That gave me an idea, I circled the word “Hello” in the lyrics.

“Hoseok I have to ask you something.”

“Yeah?”

“Can I talk to your mother over the phone?”

“Of course.” He dialed the number on his phone and gave me the phone. I waited a couple seconds after a heard a woman’s voice over the phone.

“Hello.” she said.

“Good day Mrs. Jung.”

“Who is this may I ask?”

“I am the composer that is working with your lovely son. My name is (Y/LN) (Y/N).”

“It’s very nice to meet you.”

“I am calling you because I am about to compose the song and I need your help for it.”

“Whatever you need.”

“Okay so I am not going to spoil the song for you Mrs. Jung but can I record Your voice saying Hello?”

“Of course.”

“Just a second.” I gave Hoseok his phone and went to get the laptop. I cabled the phone to the laptop and recorded his mum saying Hello.

“Perfect. Thank you and sorry for bothering you.”

“It’s okay sweetie.”

“Good bye Mrs Jung”

“Good bye.” I hung up.

“Thank you Hobi.”

“What do you need that for?”

“Ayish, you’ll see.” I started recording on the dubstep box. He just watched and drank his coffee. That was already cold by now. We finished everything quite fast and even recorded the song.

“Ayish Hobi I like working with you. You are so fast and catch up on what i’m working.”

“That’s why i’m here.” We laughed.

“Are you going to work with Yoongi on his mixtape?”

“Yeah, he should come soon after I call him. I was told that the mixtape has to get out before the actual album.”

“Yeah.. Well then I’ll leave you to it.” He stood up and we hugged then he left. I dialed Yoongi and he said he will be here in a few minutes.

I waited for him to come drinking away my third cup of coffee today. Damn I need something stronger than this. I was about to get another cup when Yoongi got in.

“You are late mister.” I said.

“Sorry I got caught by the fans.” I pouted. He came close and pecked my lips.

“Okay. Now let’s go we lost quite a lot of time because of you.” We sat behind the piano. He gave me a stack of lyrics.

“Choose.”

“Wait what?”

“Choose 9 songs that will be on the mixtape.”

“Yoongi I can’t do that.”

“Choose at least one.” I looked through the lyrics and gave him a paper.

“This one.” it was the song called “So far away” I liked it.

“Good choice.” he randomly grabbed 8 papers. “Now we have all songs.” I laughed.

“I knew you were crazy. Okay, on which one you wanna work first?” he gave me a paper with the song “Agust D”. I looked through the song and started laughing.

“What? What’s funny?”

“A to the G to the U to the STD.” I laughed so hard my stomach started hurting.

“Aish, it’s not funny.”

“Okay okay sorry. It’s a good song. I want your voice to dominate. The music will just be there for the effect. What do you think?”

“Whatever you say boss.”

“How fast can you rap?”

“Faster than you can handle.”

“Smooth.” I chuckled. I played some drums. “This will be at the beginning before you start rapping. Than we add a little bit of this.” I played a tune on the dubstep box. “And it just repeats. While you rap.” I looked through the lyrics again and circled some lyrics. “How fast can you say this?” He started rapping but it was slow. “Nah, faster.” he rapped faster. “Yes, perfect.”

We worked for some time. We were almost done. Yoongi kissed my neck. I hit his hand.

“Yoongi, not now we are working.”

“Fine…”

“Okay I’m finished. Let’s record this song.” We went to the recording studio. He was so hot rapping the song. It sent shivers down my body when he started rapping the fastest part. Damn he is hot as fuck when he is rapping. Damn his tongue technology. He is right. I drank water my bottle of water. We finished. I looked at my phone it was 1am. Damn that’s late. He went out of the room and I threw him a bottle of water. He drank it in 3 seconds.

“Why do you have to be so perfect?” I asked him while I was getting closer.

“Because i’m Agust D.” I was so close to him. I could feel his breath on my face.

“I don’t know this Agust D. But I wanna get to know him.”

“He wants to get to know you too.”

“I think he’s a bad boy.” I whispered in his ear seductively. 

“He is a real bad boy.” he said and attacked my lips hungrily. I put my hands around his neck. Our lips connecting perfectly. Making me melt. He put his hands on my waist and pulled me up a little. I wrapped my legs around his waist and he put his hands under my butt. I bit his lip slightly. He sucked on my neck leaving little love bites. He kissed my collarbone. He then again attacked my lips making me let go a slight moan.

The door suddenly opened. We both looked at the door. There was Taehyung standing with Jungkook. We both blushed and Yoongi let go of me…

“Uh, oh… Jin hyung sent us to see if everything’s alright… Because none of you answered our calls our texts…” Tae said.

“Am… We just finished the song…” Jungkook was laughing. “W-why are you laughing?”

“Ay hyung really here? Take her on a nice date before eating each other in the recording studio.” Tae lightly hit Jungkook’s head.

“Let’s just forget this and go home.” Yoongi said. We interlocked out hands together and went to the dorm. Both of us silent. We silently went in the dorm trying not to wake anyone and everybody went to their own room. I fell asleep. It was a dreamless night. Thank god.

I woke up that morning and went to the kitchen. I drank a glass of water before I started making breakfast. It’s my last day here so why not make some. I made eggs and bacon. I was finishing up when everybody started walking in one by one.

“Aish, (Y/N)-ah it smells so nice.” Jungkook said.

“Well it should smell nice.” I chuckled. They sat and started eating.

“Aish (Y/N), we are gonna miss you here.” Hobi said.

“Ay, guys I’m not dying yet. Besides I can always come and hang out with you guys.”

“Can you come everyday?” Tae asked.

“Unless i’m working.”

“Ay guys, don’t act like it’s her funeral.” Jin said making us all laugh.

“Let’s go out tonight. To some fancy restaurant.” Yoongi suggested.

“Yeah, let’s celebrate you working with us and your hard work. Also let’s celebrate that we weren’t caught by the manager.” Namjoon said.

“If we are going out tonight, Jin and I have to and finish our little song and I also have to work with Yoongi. So hurry up and eat.” They nodded and ate their meal. Jin and I went to the company.

“Let’s talk about the song.” Jin started talking about his song. It was so emotional. I can see because he was kinda uncomfortable. He was talking how he tries so hard to be good. To be better. To dance better, to sing better. He is trying to keep BTS together because that’s all he is good at. He is trying so hard. And he knows how much hate he has. He knows he can never fly like the others. This is where his voice cracked. He thinks he isn’t worth to be in BTS with others. He says they are way more talented than him. I tried convincing him that’s not true but he won’t listen to me. His voice was cracking and I was just waiting for him to start crying. The 6 petals he holds tight are the other 6 members he is trying to keep. He wants to be good as them but he can’t. He wants a chance to prove himself worthy of being a member of BTS. This is where he started crying and couldn’t continue to tell me more.

“Jin listen to me. You are worthy. You are a perfect little human being okay. I know a lot of people whose bias you are. You have a perfect voice. It’s just that the last composer didn’t know how to work with your voice. Your voice is specific. It’s different than the others. Every human in the world has a specific voice. If you take care of it well and shape it it can sound perfect. Your song is perfect. And you wanna tell me that the manager approved the song now. And what is this like 10th version of the song. I’ll fuck beat the crap out of him. Also telling you you are fat or not perfect or stuff like that is just bullshit. Look at his fat ass. And he wants to tell you something. Just ignore him okay. Bullshit. Everything is a freaking bullshit they say.” I felt anger coming at me. “I don’t give a fuck if I lose my job because of this.” I stood up and went out of my office leaving crying Jin behind me and rushed to manager’s office. I don’t know how i got the confidence to do this. I just entered the office without knocking.

“Just the girl I wanted to see.” manager said.

“Cut the bullshit. I don’t give a fuck if I lose my job for what I’m going to say right now.” I was leaning against his desk. He looked at me in shock. “Listen up you fat ass. You are going to cut all of it. All I say. You should give Jin more lines in the songs. His voice is perfect. Also stop putting them on intense diets. They are not fat. Jin is not fat. I don’t care what you say. You know why you are losing to every other company. It’s because you bastard make them go on diets. It makes fans mad. Antys are forming without you knowing. You fucking made Jimin go on an intense diet to lose seven kilos for this comeback. For what? You think he is fat? First look at yourself and then talk about the others. How do you think they can practice and do all those crazy ass dances with no muscles just bones because you make them starve. Are you fucking kidding me right now?” I said this in one breath. I was breathing heavy. From all the anger and everything I forgot the door was open and that everyone heard what I said. Suddenly I heard clapping from behind me. I turned around there were secretaries and the director clapping. Fuck I’m screwed. I backed away.

“That’s what I call a composer. The fierce the passion the commitment.” director said.

“W-what?”

“Don’t worry you are not getting fired. I need you. You are a genius. I heard everything from the boys. You managed to compose what like 8 songs in such a short time.” I let out a deep breath that I didn’t even know I was holding in. “Now please go back to work.” I bowed.

“Sorry for disturbing you.” With that I left to my office. Jin was drinking water. “Kim Seokjin.” I said which startled him.

“What did you do I heard yelling?”

“Oh, nothing to worry about, i’m just glad I wasn’t fired. Now listen up you perfect being I have a great idea for your song.” He listened to the chords I played on the piano. I shifted his voice perfectly to match the piano. I wrote down the lyrics adding violin and cello to the song. Just perfect. The way his voice shifted around it. When he reached the highest note it gave me goosebumps.

“I can see why they praise you so much. You know what you are doing.” Jin said after we finished.

“Well of course I know what to do. I have to know. I’ve been doing this for money for the past 5 years.”

“Oh.” he didn’t ask anymore questions and I was glad. I wasn’t ready to tell people why I ran away or why I dropped out of college or why I haven’t seen my real mother for 7 years.

Jin left and Yoongi came a few minutes after. I was already working on another song.

“Aish, if you keep working like that before I come I can’t spend time with you.” he said and sat beside me.

“Sorry love, but we have a dinner to go to.” I gave him a peck. “Now let’s go you lazy ass.”

He told me that this song is related to the first song we composed. Here he was directly telling the haters to fuck off. I liked this part of him. He has a good voice for rapping. He is making the words harsh. I wanted to add his laugh to the song in some parts and he agreed. We recorded the song and luckily we were finished at 6 pm which left us enough time to go the dorm and change into something nice for the dinner.

We went back to the dorm. Everybody was in the living room. Jin and Jungkook were playing Mario Kart while Tae and Namjoon were cheering.

“Hey guys, time to get ready.” I said leaving my bag on the table.

“Wait i’m winning.” Jungkook said.

“You are winning my ass.” Jin said as he past Jungkook and won the race.

“God damn it.” Jungkook said.

“Bow to the one and only Mario Kart king.” Jin said making all of us laugh.

“Okay now serious. Where are we going?” i asked.

“It’s a nice fancy restaurant not far from here.” Namjoon said.

“Well okay, now go get ready.” I ordered and they all went to get ready.

I went in my room. Well tomorrow it won’t be my room anymore. I looked in the closet. Fuck what will I wear. I was looking through my closet when Hoseok came in like God sent him.

“Need any help princess.”

“Yes, oh my god please.”

“I had a feeling you need help.” He gave me a bag.

“What’s in it?”

“No spoilers. Now look what I bought you and tell me if you like it.”

“Hoseok I can feel it’s expensive. I can’t accept it.”

“Nobody asked you. Now look.”

“Fine.” I opened the bag and pulled out a nice black dress.

“Put it on.” Hoseok ordered. I went to the bathroom and put on a black dress and went out.

“Just perfect.” he said. I looked in the mirror. It fell just a few centimeters above my knees. It had short sleeves and was tight at the top, the bottom of the dress fell naturally from my hips to my knees. The back of the dress was open revealing my back. Hoseok tied a ribbon on my hips. It was really nice. Just plain black dress. It was good.

“Hobi this is amazing.” I looked at him.

“Well of course it is. You can wear your black heels you wore when you worked with Jungkook. It will suit you well with the dress since they are also black. Let your hair fall naturally on your shoulders and on your back. For the makeup just put eyeliner and some mascara for the eyes and a purple matte lipstick for your lips and you are ready to go. Now i’ll go and get ready.”

“Whatever you say boss.” He winked at me.

“Yoongi will like it.”

“What did you say?”

“Jeez, I know you two lovebirds are together Jungkook spilled everything.”

“Damn that maknae.”

“Bye now.” He went out of the room. I did everything he asked of me to do. He was right. I felt pretty like that. I admit it I was never confident enough to wear stuff like that. But now I was different. I was more confident than before. I was a shy little girl who only listened to others. Now I feel like a new person. Well I kinda screamed at my boss today. Taehyung entered the room while I was putting my phone in the bag.

“Look at this beautiful girl in front of me.”

“Ay Taetae you look good yourself.”

“Well of course. I guess Hoseok dressed you.” I nodded. “Well it’s definitely Yoongi’s taste. But you definitely look good wearing it.”

“Tae you are making me blush.”

“Come on everybody is waiting.”  We went outside everyone was waiting. Yoongi’s jaw dropped.

“Ay hyung, keep it together.” Jungkook smilled. Jimin was checking me out.

“Shall we?” I asked. We went outside. The car was waiting for us. The driver drove us to this fancy restaurant. It wasn’t that full inside. But outside was a whole line waiting to get in. We got in because Namjoon was smart and reserved the seats for us. We sat at the table in pairs literally. On one side there were Namjoon, Jin, Jimin and Hoseok and on the other side where Yoongi and I were sitting were Jungkook and Tae.

“You look really nice.” Yoongi whispered in my ear. I blushed. We ordered the restaurant's special and a bottle of red wine. We were talking about everything. About work and lives in general. The food arrived and we started eating. It was very delicious. It had kind of an exotic smell. It was good. Suddenly I felt a hand on my thigh. I looked at Yoongi he was just smiling. I hit his hand and prayed to god nobody saw it.

“(Y/N) have you ever thought of dyeing you hair?” Hoseok asked me.

“I did but I was always scared of what color would suit me etc.”

“I think you would look great with pink hair.” Jin said.

“Of course you would think that.” Hoseok said. “I think maybe grey or blue would suit you better.”

“Maybe one day.” I said. We heard screams from the outside. “Wait here i’ll see what’s up.” I stood up and went to the entrance. There were a lot of fans screaming. They recognized me and started screaming my name. I can’t let them know everyone is here. “Hi guys, how are you?” I asked them. They screamed again. What the fuck. Can they just answer my question. Well fuck it. “I have to go now my boyfriend is waiting.” They screamed again. I sent them kisses and went back inside. I quickly went to the boys. “Listen up. Outside is a whole army of fans waiting for you. Just don’t make any noise and let’s get out at the back.”

“I already told the driver to come at the back.” Namjoon said. All of them stood up and we went at the back of the restaurant. Luckily there were no fans in our sight so we got in the car and the driver drove us to the dorm. We went in the dorm.

“Good night everyone.” I said and went to my room. Time to pack everything. I pulled out a suitcase I bought earlier and neatly put my clothes in it. Before I finished I changed into some oversized hoodie and leggings. I packed my shoes and only left my black huarache. I jumped on my bed. I was tired so I fell asleep quickly.

I woke up early. I got my suitcase and put it in the hallway. I didn’t wanna leave without saying goodbye. I poured myself a cup of coffee. I drank it slowly. They woke up right after I drank my coffee.

“You are leaving already?” Jimin asked because he was the first to wake up.

“I’m waiting for everyone to wake up. I have to unpack before going to work.” I said and poured more coffee in my cup.

“I know it was awkward between us. I just need you to know that i’m really sorry.”

“Jimin don’t worry I already forgave you.”

“Friends?”

“Friends. Want some coffee.” he nodded. I poured him some coffee and then Yoongi came in.

“No nightmares last night?” He asked and put his hands on my waist.

“Nope.” He kissed me.

“Get a room you two.” Hoseok said. We laughed and pulled away.

“Aish why are you so loud it’s 7am?” Taehyung asked yawning. When everyone got up we bid goodbyes and I left. Yoongi insisted on helping me so I let him come with me. We went inside my apartment. It was like nothing happened. The walls were white with no traces of red paint. Most of the things were new. Like the couch, wardrobe, the shelves… But it was similar to the last ones. I paid a lot of money for this. It was worth it. The shelves were full of books. There were some paintings hanging from the wall not making it all white. In front of the couch there was a flat screen TV with big speakers to the sides. In my bedroom there was a bed with a lot of pillows and black bedsheets. The wardrobe was bigger than the last one it was black, and in the corner there was a black desk. I put my suitcase and Yoongi helped me unpack. After I unpacked we left to the company and worked on his songs. We decided that the two songs will be a collaboration. “Tony Montana” and “So far away”. I was thinking of calling Suran for So far away. I did some songs for her and we were still in contact after that. I think she is coming back from the States in two days so I’ll give her a call if the manager approves of that. I described her to Yoongi he said he would like to work with her. We went to the manager and he approved of it. I just needed to call Suran. Yoongi had to go somewhere so I stayed a little bit on working on the songs. I called Suran. She picked up almost after the first buzz.

“(Y/N)-AH” she screamed over the phone.

“Aish, Suran You want me to become deaf.” I laughed.

“Well I wouldn’t scream if I haven’t heard your voice for what like 2 months now?”

“Aish, i’ve been busy and so were you. I see you have some new songs.”

“Yeah. And what have you been doing these two months of me being in the States?”

“Ah you know, composing, for fucking BTS.” I said chill.

“Are you fucking kidding me????? I’m not there 2 months and you are already a big star damn BTS. So Big Hit company right?”

“Yeah, i’m doing this album of theirs and Suga’s mixtape.”

“Aish, that’s great. We need to have some girl talk when I come back in two days.”

“Of course I have so much to tell you.”

“So do I. Now spill why you called.”

“I need you for the song.”

“Wait what?”

“There is this song called “So far away” that will be on Yoongi’s mixtape and I want you to collaborate on it.” she started screaming again.

“Of course I will. Damn I am going to die now.”

“Please don’t.”

“Yah, don’t worry. I’ll see you in two days. Manager is calling me. I have to go bye.”

“Bye.” she hung up. Damn that girl she is almost 10 years older than me but acts like a five year old. Well what can I do. I grabbed my things and started going back to my apartment. While I was getting closer I saw the light from my apartment. What the hell I am pretty sure Yoongi and I didn’t turn on the lights at all when we were there. I entered the building and grabbed a baseball bat I always keep in my mailbox. Don’t ask why. I slowly walked up the stairs to my apartment and slowly opened the apartment door. I was still holding the bat in my hands.

“What the fuck are you doing here?” In front of me stood a woman. She had blonde dyed hair. At first I didn’t recognize her with all that fancy clothes and a diamond ring on her hand.

“Language please. Also that’s not a way how you should greet your mother.” I gripped the bat harder.

“You are NOT my mother.” I felt blood rushing through my veins.

“Put the bat down sweetie and will talk.”

“We have nothing to talk about. Now get the fuck out of my apartment.”

“I hear you are getting famous.”

“I think I told you to get out.”

“I’m your mother so no.”

“You never were my mother. I hate you. And also my mother is more MiSun than you.”

“MiSun that slut.”

“Don’t call her that you bitch.” I felt hands around my arms. I turned around there were two people in black suits holding my arms tight. They removed the bat from my hands. The slut came and slapped me. My cheek was red and you could see the fingers on my skin.

“Now listen up you little brat. The wedding is happening in a week and I want you there. Don’t make a scene or I can make you disappear.”

“Fuck you.” I spit on her face. She looked at me in disgust.

“I know all about your little boyfriend there, if you don’t want him to be hurt you will follow my orders.”

“YOU BITCH GETTING HIM IN THIS HOW COULD YOU?”

“Oh I can do a lot more sweetie.” She left and the two men that were holding me now let me go. I screamed and closed the door hard. Fuck her. Fuck everything. Why does she have to ruin everything for me. I sat down on the floor beside the door leaning against the wall. I let the tears fall before calling Yoongi. It was around 9pm so I assume he is not asleep.

“(Y/N) what’s up?” he answered.

“Yoongi what are doing now?”  I asked trying not to sound like I just cried.

“Working on some lyrics, why?”

“Oh, never mind then…”

“Yo, what’s wrong?”

“Everything’s fine.”

“I’m coming.”

“No you don’t have to…” He hung up before I even finished my sentence. I covered my face with my hands and leaned my head against the wall and cried. My face was all wet from tears when Yoongi came in rushing.

“Hey, baby what’s up.” He picked me up bridal style and put me on the couch. He sat beside me and pulled me in a hug. I hid my face in his chest making his T-shirt wet. “What’s wrong tell me.”

“My mother…” I sobbed.

“What about her?” He was caressing my hair.

“She came by today. She threatened me and said I have to come to her shitty wedding with her rich fucker of a boyfriend. Next week. Yoongi I don’t wanna go. But I have to.”

“Then I’ll come with you and teach her a little lesson okay?” I nodded. He didn’t stop caressing my hair. Even though he didn’t know the whole story with me and my mother he was still willing to help me. He kissed my forehead.

“Yoongi…”

“Yes love?”

“I love you.” I never tell this words to anybody. I don’t throw them like they mean nothing. These were my real emotions. I loved him. There is no denying it.

“I love you too.” He said and kissed me slowly. Everything we do together made me happy. I loved everything about him. But the thing I loved the most beside his personality was his eyes. His deep black eyes. When I look at them it feels like I’m flying. It was like a dark hole where I felt safe and protected. I loved the way his lips felt on mine. I loved the little cuddles. I loved how he was there for me when I had my nightmares. I loved how he was always there for me no matter what happened. I don’t wanna loose him because of that slut. I bet she is marrying that rich guy just for his money. I think he is just an old man wanting love and pleasure and she gave him that. But whatever I don’t care about her. I never did. MiSun and SeJun were my real parents. My eyelids were getting heavier and I fell asleep.

Yoongi’s P.O.V.

We worked on some songs. The first one we did was “Agust D” she laughed at me spelling the name. Well it kinda was funny I literally said STD. So yeah. We worked fast. When we finished recording the song we were kissing each other my hands under her butt and her legs wrapped around my waist. It was perfect until Taehyung and Jungkook didn’t come in. They were looking for us since it was already 2am. And the others were worried where we were. Tomorrow is her last day.

In the morning she cooked us delicious breakfast and she went to the company to work with Jin. She finished fast with him. And I couldn’t wait for my turn so I was already at the company when she called me. I heard from the manager she yelled at him. And that the director praised her for that. I chuckled. I never imagined her like that. The manager said she was scary as hell. Well that’s my girl. We quickly finished the song and went back to the apartment since we are going to this nice restaurant. I was wearing a nice black tux. Hoseok said I had to wear it. So I did. We were waiting for her. She came. She was stunning in that black dress. Her hair was falling naturally on her back and shoulders. She was just like a goddess. I assume Hoseok was the one who dressed her. Her plump lips were now covered with purple matte lipstick. I wanted to kiss her so bad right now. But we had to go. Jungkook snapped me out of my thoughts. The driver drove us to the restaurant. It was a pleasant meal. Until the fans came. She got us out of there without the fans noticing us. I guess someone told them we were there. Jimin will probably look for it later.

That night she didn’t have any nightmares so we didn't sleep in the same bed. In the morning she was in the kitchen drinking coffee and talking to Jimin. Well they are friendly this morning. When she drank her coffee I helped her go to her apartment and unpack. Her apartment was somehow aesthetic. I like how it was done. I wonder if it was the same before everything was destroyed. It looks like an apartment that I would be living in. She unpacked her stuff and we went to the company to work. We composed some of the songs together. She wanted to call one of her friends to do “So far away” with me. I think her name is Suran she said she worked with her before and that she is great. We also decided that we will do Tony Montana as a collaboration also. I have someone in mind for that. She played me a couple of Suran’s songs they were great. We asked manager about it and he approved. I had to go and talk with the others about the songs that we will compose together with her. I think the next will be the Rap line Cypher pt 4. We always do that in our albums so I think it will be good. I mean it’s a rap song it has to be good. We also have a vocal line song so I guess she will handle that fast. After that we have our special song Blood sweat and tears. It’s a good song. I mean we all wrote it together. Okay time to snap out of my deep thoughts because I heard the phone buzzing. I looked at it it was (Y/N). I answered fast. I realized she was crying because I heard her heavy breaths and sobbs. Even though and she tried to cover it up. I came fast after that and found her leaning against the wall crying. I picked her up bridal style and put her on the couch. I pulled her in for a hug. She was crying. Why was she crying? I was asking myself. I started caressing her hair and asked her what’s wrong. She told me her mother came. She was threatening her. I didn’t know anything about her mother I just know she ran away when she was 13 years old. I didn’t know the reason yet but I don’t wanna bother her tonight. She fell asleep. I watched her for maybe an hour before falling asleep too.

Your P.O.V.

I woke up in Yoongi’s arms. I managed to get up without waking him up. I bet he was uncomfortable on the couch but I decided to just let him sleep. It was around 6 am so I had time to make some breakfast before waking him up and leaving for work. I prepared ramen and I let them cool off while I get ready. I went and I decided to just wear a black plain T-shirt that fell almost to my knees and black ripped jeans. I let my hair fall naturally on my shoulders. I put on some eyeliner and mascara on my eyes. I prepared a black cap and a mask just in case. I woke up Yoongi.

“Five more minutes…” He said and turned around. God I liked his morning raspy voice. I kiss his cheek and he woke up. He looked at me with half open eyes.

“Get up I prepared breakfast.” He got up and we sat at the dining table. He slurped his ramen quickly and asked me if he could use the bathroom. I nodded and he left. He came back after a few minutes looking fresh and ready to go. I grabbed my bag and we went out. We managed to get to the company without getting seen by some crazy fans. Hobi and Namjoon were already waiting for us. Time to start working on cypher pt 4.

I looked to the lyrics. The first was Namjoon so I tried figuring out the lyrics. The first four were about him. Well not just about him. It was about every idol treated badly. The first four verses are the stuff that people call Namjoon out for. People make fun of his stage name Rap Monster all the time especially when they first debuted, his manner of speaking/rapping that was supposedly too unorthodox to korean standard, and of course, his face for not having a standard ‘idol beauty’. He says he is sorry for being alive. I was pleasantly surprised when namjoon used satoori all of a sudden, since he’s from Seoul and often told fans how he’s not good at speaking in dialect. He did it so at that part where he comments on how bored he gets with the same kind of diss and I couldn’t help but glee. It is bold, provocative, kinda elevates the emphasis of the whole sentence structure to be honest namjoon sounded a bit cocky but in cool way, if you know what I mean.

With Hoseok it was a different story. I imagined him half singing half rapping his verses. It is very clear how Hoseok projects his mind. the movie ‘players in a league of their own’ that he (probably) mentioned tells a story about strong, independent females, where at the height of world war II in 1943, were never thought of as competent and able to do hard work. women back then were traditionally regarded as inferior to men in both power and status. however, during that time, many male baseball players were admitted for army services. so in order ‘to maintain baseball in the public eye while the majority of able men were away, prominent baseball figures got together to form the nonprofit all american girls professional baseball league.’ which basically means that the league was made just to fill in the gap left by men who went to war. but to everyone's amazement, the league survived for more than a decade and achieved great success in many championships! By referencing to that one movie that made more people appreciate the existence of a once flourishing female organization that thought to have little chance of winning, Hoseok is basically saying that if these ladies who had little status in society back then can do it, are able to surpass everyone expectation, then what do i have to lose? And the chorus that came in between are perfect because what better way to demonstrate love that loving yourself first and foremost?

And then Yoongi’s part came. I was amazed at his writing skills. I mean he literally dissed the haters without actually using any inappropriate words. I thought was brilliant because 똥차 literally means ‘poop car or honeywagon’ you know those trucks that are for collecting and carrying human excreta. It is also referred to actual beat-up cars or in another context, an ex-boyfriend with shitty attitude. On the other hand, 콩깍지 literally means ‘beans pod or soybeans shaft’, which are those peels on soybeans. There’s a saying in korea that when you first fall in love with someone, these peels will cover your eyes and make you blind to each others flaws before they peel off after a couple of months. So the actual meaning of the verses was  ‘I will make the public see those flaws of you haters right away so they can dump your delusional shitty asses and fly away with us’. He finished like a true gentleman.

I chuckled and they looked at me worried because I was silent for the past 30 minutes thinking about the song.

“Ay, she doesn’t like it Yoongi I told you we shouldn’t ask the managed to do this one.” Hoseok whined.

“Stop whining you ass.” Yoongi said. I looked up at them.

“What do you think?” Namjoon asked me.

“To be honest…” I stopped for a moment before continuing “It’s terrible.” They let out a deep breath of disappointment.

“I’m kidding. Why are you so serious? It’s very good. I like it.”

“Aish you pabo making us worry like that.” Yoongi said.

“Aish don’t call my best friend like that.” Hoseok hissed.

“Your best friend my girlfriend.” Yoongi said.

“I’m disappointed in you hyung.” Namjoon said. I laughed.

“Okay okay, stop it now pabos. Time for work.” I raised my eyebrows at them. They nodded in agreement. We were quick to finish the song since they were really cooperative and already had some suggestions for the song that I liked. We finished in 3 hours everything. We recorded the song and after that Namjoon and Hoseok left leaving me and Yoongi to work on the other 3 solo songs left on his album. We were finished by 2 am. Yoongi took me to my apartment and then he left. I threw myself on the bed with spread out arms. I slept for maybe two hours. It was already half past 5 am. I got up and decided to work on the songs for Yoongi. I finished composing Tony Montana. I think he wouldn’t mind but I wanted to do “So far away” with him because it was very emotional. And I guess Suran wanted to work on it too. Because she texted me like a million text telling me not to start without her so I didn’t. I stood up from my bed and went to drink a cup of coffee and eat some ramen. When I did that I went and took a long shower. It was a boring morning until I went to the company. Today i’m working with the vocal line. This will be interesting. There’s TaeTae who I assume will make a lot of meme faces and making me laugh also Jungkook being Jungshook all the time, then there’s Jin who will probably try and put a leash on Taehyung and then there’s Jimin with whom it was still awkward to talk to. This will be one interesting day. When I went to the company they were already waiting for me in the office with a big cup of coffee and a lot of sweets.

“I bought some sweets for the day.” Jin said.

“Jin I…”

“Nope, you are going to eat it I don’t care.” He said.

“Don’t worry I brought you some strong black coffee.” Tae said.

“Thank you Taehyung.” They gave me the lyrics of the song so I could try and figure it out.

I looked and looked at the lyrics. The song was about losing yourself. It’s about being so utterly lost and feeling like you’re faced with so many different ways to go and paths to take. It’s about not knowing what to do or where to go. It’s essentially that feeling you get, as you’re growing up, but as you’re becoming conscious of the fact that you’re growing up. It’s about realizing that even though you don’t know which path to take, you know that you’ll stick to your own path. What really struck me is this one line “you need to lose your way to find your way”. You need to be lost, hopeless, and confused to find yourself and find the path you take. I saw that Jimin had most of the lines. But I was glad to see some of Jin’s lines there.

We were composing the song for 4 hours. I knew it would be hard because Taehyung kept distracting me. And Jimin wasn’t that cooperative today. I decided to take a break. I told them to go eat or something because I needed to clear my head. I drank like 5 cups of coffee and I wasn’t feeling good after all those candy’s Jin made me eat. I bought a bottle of water from the vending machine and sat beside it drinking it slowly. Jimin came not long after that and sat beside me.

“How are you?” he asked me.

“I’m fine, how are you? You seem distracted today.” I asked him. I was worried.

“Ah sorry about that. I was just thinking. I don’t think Hoseok told you his sister is coming. And i’m kinda anxious about it.”

“Hold up, Hoseok’s little sister is coming?”

“Yeah.” He played his fingers.

“Why are you anxious?”

“Amm… You know…. Never mind they are coming.” He stood up. I looked and saw Tae, Jungkook and Jin coming our way. I guess they finished eating. I decided to drop the subject for now but i’ll certainly talk about it with him later. We went back to my office and finally finished the song. Damn.

Yoongi came not long after we finished the song. I was looking at the song we were supposed to be working on today. It was called “The Last” it was very emotional. He was talking about depression. I like how all of the boys in their songs talk about real problems that are out there in the world. That’s my favorite thing about them. I was in deep thoughts before Yoongi snapped me out of them waving his hand in front of my face.

“Earth calls (Y/N).” he smiled

“Oh, sorry Yoongi. I was just think about the song we are doing today.”

“Oh, don’t worry about the song. I want to compose it myself. And besides I’m taking you on a nice date.”

“Well, okay.” I flashed him a smile even though I was crushed inside. I was really looking forward on composing this song with him. And just like that all my ideas are crashed. I know I should be glad for getting some free time and that he is taking me on a date, but I love composing. I love composing with him. He pecked my lips and I stood up and grabbed my bag.

“Let’s go.” We put a mask and a cap so nobody would recognize us.

“Where are we going?” I asked him when we went outside the company.

“You’ll see.” He interviewed his hand with mine. We walked up one hill and entered the woods.

“Ammm, Yoongi where are you taking me?”

“Ayy don’t worry.” I tightened the grip on his arm. After walking through the dark woods on some small path Yoongi picked me up bridal style. “Close your eyes.” I listened to him and closed my eyes. He carried me. I felt the wind on my face. He put me on something soft.

“Okay you can open them now.” I slowly opened my eyes just to be amazed at the place we were at. The wind was blowing in my face. I was sitting on a blanket. We were on a cliff. From where you can see the whole Seoul. Behind me was a big dark forest. I looked up the sky. The sun was setting and letting the moon take over the dark night. All the colors in the sky matching with the city lights that were starting to light up. It was just beautiful. Yoongi was sitting beside me looking at me with his gummy smile. “Do you like it?”

“Do I like it? I love it Yoongi.”

“I knew you would feel down because I said I won’t work on the song with you. I even thought you were going to kill me. So I wanted to plan us a perfect little date. It’s a picnic but never mind that.”

“Aish, so cheesy all of a sudden. And yes I was angry at you. But this just makes my day.”

“I also know you had a hard day today. Because you worked with 4 idiots.”

“Ay they are not idiots. They are just childish. Very very childish.” I laughed hitting him playfully on the shoulder.

“They are, aren’t they?” I nodded. And after that we watched the sunset. It was beautiful. Yoongi pulled me in for a cuddle. I liked his hands that wrap around me so naturally. After the sunset he opened a bag that was on the blanket which I didn’t even see, and pulled out to boxes of chinese food.

“Oh you know what I like the best.” We started eating and we talked about our day. I told him that Suran should be coming tomorrow so we can work on the song then if she doesn’t get jetlag. After we finished we looked at the beautiful stars.

“You know you are my lucky star.”

“Yoongi, stop it. You sound so cheesy it makes me think something is wrong.”

“Ay, i thought you like me being cheesy.”

“I do. But I don’t know. It’s just not you.”

“Okay, i’ll stop.” He giggled pulling me in for a deep kiss. I fell on my back him being on top of me, his both hands beside my head. I looked at him and chuckled pulling him in for another kiss. I wrapped my hands around his neck kissing him passionately. He broke the kiss to get some air but immediately attacking them again. He left kissed down my neck. I felt his cold hands going up my hoodie. We were both heavy breathing. I traced my fingers down his chest. I bit my lip as he pulled the hoodie off of me. Leaving me in my bra. He left kisses on my stomach making me giggle at his every touch. I pulled his black t-shirt off and seeing his white skin made me bit my lip again. He made his way to my neck again and bit it. That made me moan. He pulled my leggings of leaving me only in my bra and my underwear. He unhooked my bra and pulled my underwear down with his teeth. I pulled down his jeans with his underwear revealing his hardened member. He slowly went inside me. I scratched Yoongi’s bare back. When I got used to the pain he slowly started pulling the member in and out. I let out a loud moan yelling his name. He kissed my lips. I let them open and he used the opportunity to explore my mouth with his wet tongue.

“Yoongi… I’m coming…” I came and he pulled out his member removing his condom that was now filled with his seed. We were both breathing heavily. He laid beside me and let out a deep breath.

“(Y/N)...”

“Yes?” I said catching my breath.

“I love you, baby girl.”

“I love you too, blondie.”

After half an hour just laying there naked we dressed and grabbed the blanket and the trash. He drove me off to my apartment. I went up stairs and when I entered my room I just jumped on the bed falling asleep. Tomorrow is going to be a long day.

I was woken up in the middle of the night by my phone buzzing.

“Who the fuck is calling me in the middle of the night.” I grabbed my phone and answered it without looking at the caller. “Hello?”

“Girl, what the fuck you sleep like a dead person. The next thing I wanted to do was break the door. Didn’t you hear me knocking?” I heard a squeaking voice coming from my phone.

“What?”

“Just open the freaking door it’s cold here.” That’s when it came to me. SURAN. I jumped from my bed and rushed to open the door. I opened the door and there was Suran standing with her expensive Gucci bag in one hand and her phone in the other one. She had her hair dyed in light green ombre. It looked nice on her. She had a black dress and she had dark lennon glasses that she now slightly lowered down on her nose.

“What? You are not going to hug your best friend?” she sent me a death glare. I threw myself in her arms hugging her.

“Suran I missed you so much.” she hugged me back and picked me up.

“Gosh I missed you too. You don’t know how much I was bored.”

“Why didn’t you tell me to come and pick you up from the airport.”

“You? To pick me up? And miss your precious sleep? Are you an alien?” She started examining my face. “Where did my lazy best friend go?”

“Aish, you wake me up in 4 am and tell me i’m an alien. And lazy? When was I lazy?”

“Duh always, now move I’m getting cold over here.” She passed me and immediately laid on the couch removing her high heels and dropping her bag on the floor. “Damn those managers making me wear these things.” I chuckled.

“Want some coffee? And maybe some hoodie, I assume we are still wearing the same size.” I said while I was walking to the kitchen.

“Yes please, I crave for your strong black coffee. And for the hoodie I’ll take it myself.” She said and went to my room to grab the hoodie. I made some coffee and set the too cups on the table in front of the TV. I turned on the TV. Suran came back in my black hoodie and sat beside me. She started drinking her coffee.

“YAH, I missed this so much. When did you renovate your apartment I don’t remember it this way. Spill everything.” I laughed. We were drinking the coffee while I was telling her about someone ruining my apartment. She looked at me worried.

“You need to be careful. Once you show your face to the world there is no coming back. And watch out please. It was possibly some crazy fan who was just jealous. But still be careful please. Now tell me are you and Yoongi-ssi together?”

“What? Where did you get that from?”

“I might have looked through your phone and saw some messages there.”

“Suraaaan, you know I hate when people touch my phone. And yes we are, but please don’t tell anyone about it.”

“Jesus, you think I would tell someone? Besides you didn’t tell anyone about me dating Minseok from EXO before. I mean I know it only lasted for what like 4 months maybe but nevermind that it’s all in the past now. Now something important to ask. Did you guys have sex yet?” I choked on my coffee and slapped her shoulder.

“Suran, you can’t just ask me something like that.” I shot her a death glare.

“You just showed me you did. Omoooo my baby is grown up now.” she squeaked.

“What how did I show you?” she started laughing like I asked an obvious thing.

“Duuuuh, I can see your hickeys and the way you are sitting.” she pointed out and I felt myself blushing. We talked till morning. We decided to go out and eat something out before going to the company. We covered ourselves good and went out. We grabbed some instant ramen at the store near by. We ate it. It was already 9am so we decided that it was time for us to go. We went in the company and in my office. Yoongi came not long after.

“Yoongi-ssi.” Suran stood from the couch and gave me a hug.

“Suran noona.”

“Wait, what? What? You two know each other?” I asked standing up confused.

“And I thought you were a fan.” Yoongi started laughing.

“I ammmmm. But what how?”

“We were friends back in Daegu.” Suran said.

“Ooooh, you know the time when I was depressed and shit like that he was the one to help me.” She continued. Yoongi came and hugged me.

“Don’t worry Suran is like an older sister to me. I was glad when you said you wanted her to work with me. I wanted to surprise you. So… Surprise.”

“Aish, Suran I thought you were my best friend.”

“What? He wanted to keep it a secret.”

“Fine, you two children sit and let’s work.”

“We are both older than you.” Suran remarked.

“But you young lady mentally aren’t.” We started working on the song. When Suran saw the lyrics she started crying. Well what can I do she is emotional. A lot. She cried when I showed her a kitten eating his food. Aish this woman. We finished the song quickly because they both had some ideas. When I looked at the clock it was 5pm. What? I thought it passed only 2 hours. Well I guess time flies when you are having fun. We decided to record the song and then go to some restaurant.

We recorded the song in a matter of minutes because they were both professional. Finally Yoongi’s mixtape is completed and we will have some time for each other. And I will have time to actually sleep more. I miss hanging out with boys maybe I’ll probably go and pay them a visit tomorrow. I have a free day tomorrow because we have 4 songs left on the album and Yoongi has to release his mixtape.

Suddenly Yoongi picked me up over his shoulder.

“Yoongi, put me down, what the fuck are you doing?” I asked him. I was scared he would drop me.

“Sweetie you were zoning out again and we tried calling you but you didn’t respond. And we will miss our reservation because of you now.” Suran said.

“Okay, Yoongi you can put me down now.” he put me down and pecked my lips.

“Ay love birds come on.” Suran yelled from the hallway.

We went to the nearest restaurant and ordered Bulgogi. We sat down at one of the tables. We started frying the meat. I dunked the piece of meat in soy sauce and wrapped it in lettuce. I struggled to put in in my mouth but when I did both Yoongi and Suran looked at me.

“Do I have something on my face?” I asked confused after swallowing the bulgogi.

“You are eating it wrong.” they both said at the same time.

“But… But.. I’ve been eating it like this my whole life.”

“Look at me.” Yoongi said. He used the lettuce and put it in his mouth then stuffed rice and a piece of meat in the lettuce and ate it. Wow that is a lot of easier.

“Waaah, that’s a lot easier than what I was doing.” Suran laughed at me. “Hey, it’s not funny.”

“Sorry, sorry I can’t believe I never showed you how to eat Bulgogi.”

“That’s cuz we never left out to eat Bulgogi.”

“And whose fault is that fancy pants?” Suran asked. Yoongi was laughing. We talked about random stuff. About their childhood and how they met in Daegu before Yoongi’s audition for Big Hit. He got a little mad because we mentioned his audition tape. But let’s be honest it’s the funniest thing I saw in my life. He doesn’t look like that anymore. He is a lot better at rapping to be honest the first time I saw him I was like what kind of a fuck boi wanna be is he? But honestly he is nothing like that. He is mature, he has this deep voice that can always make you calm and deep black eyes that when you look at them they make you fall in them like a deep black hole full of emotions.

After dinner Yoongi insisted on going with us to the apartment. Suran wanted to stay with me before she goes back to Daegu to see her parents. We went to the apartment and Yoongi left. Tomorrow I’ll have the whole day with him. Finally some alone time.

Once we got in the apartment my phone rang. I answered.

“Hello darling.” The familiar voice of my mother rang in my head when I answered.

“What do you want?” I said harshly. Suran looked at me in confusion. I mouthed her that it was my mother. She made an “O” with her mouth.

“I was just calling to remind you that the wedding is in two days.”

“I know.”

“Make sure you be there or you know what will happen to your little boyfriend.”

“Oh don’t worry about that.”

“Oh I called those filthy people you call your parents now.”

“They are not filthy. And they are my parents.” I felt the blood boil in my veins.

“I called them so be glad.”

“Can you make 8 more people to come.” I said and Suran was smiling.

“Eight more people are you fucking crazy?”

“Oh if you can’t then I guess I can just tell the whole BTS and Suran just not to come.”

“What??? You called them to come and they agreed?”

“Well I was going to call them, but I guess now since you don’t want them on your special day. And you can’t make arrangements for eight more people in the special seats I guess not.”

“I’ll make it work. But you are going to sing and have a nice speech how I am a great and loving mother and how you wish me happiness.”

“Fine, I’ll do it. Just make sure they get the best treatment.” I said harshly.

“You doubt in me?”

“I do. Imagine that.” I hung up.

“So what’s up with that?” Suran asked handing me a cup of black coffee. I put the cup on the table and sat on the couch.

“She is marrying this rich asshole. And she is threatening me about doing something bad to Yoongi.” she put a bag of marshmallows on the table and I stuffed two of them in my mouth.

“She is making you go to the wedding. I’m glad you will bring all of us. I’m pretty sure the rest would agree with me. Just say the word we are with you. How did she even find you?” She said as she stuffed a marshmallow in her mouth.

“I don’t even know anymore. My parents told me she is looking for me. And one day she just appeared in my apartment. Also she slapped me. She has bodyguards so I couldn’t do anything besides spit in her face while they were holding me.” I slowly drank the coffee. I noticed there was alcohol in it. “Did you put alcohol in this?” She nodded.

“I was thinking what if she hired someone to trash you apartment?” Suran asked and drank her coffee.

“There is a possibility but I don’t think she has the brains to do that.”

“But just think about it. The police said they didn’t have enough evidence to start an investigation about it. You could have gotten hurt and they wouldn’t do shit about it. I think someone payed them. And I bet it’s your mother.” She said.

“How will I know she did it?”

“I can look at it. I have some connections here and there I can find out if someone payed the police and eventually who did.”

“Suran I don’t want to get you in trouble.”

“It’s no trouble. Besides it’s time for me to visit my old friends.”

“Suran what are you planning?”

“Oh don’t worry just relax and let me take this. Besides you got my friendship back with Yoongi he said he will help me with some of my songs and he will produce some of them.”

“Oh, I’m so happy.” I drank the rest of the coffee.

We watched some kdrama that was on that was on the TV. I don’t remember the name. I am going to tell the boys tomorrow about the wedding. I’m pretty sure they will agree. I received a text from Jimin.

Jiminshi:

Hey can we meet up tomorrow I have to talk to you.

Me:

Sure, Jiminshi, where you wanna meet at?

Jiminshi:

We can meet at the pink cafe Tae took you after you know what…

Me:

What time?

Jiminshi:

Around 10? Is it to early?

Me:

Don’t worry it’s fine besides I’m always up early. And I have to meet with all of you tomorrow so yeah.

See you in 10 <3

Jiminshi:

See you <3

“Who was that?” Suran asked me.

“Oh, it was just Jimin he wants to talk about something important.”

“And you are going?”

“Well of course he is my friend.”

“What about the kiss?”

“Oh god that’s in the past. Besides I’m pretty sure he likes Hoseok’s sister.”

“What he likes Jiwoo?”

“I guess. I don’t really know he mentioned something about her coming in maybe 4 days not sure.”

“Well this is going to be interesting. But sadly I can’t be there. I’m going to Daegu in three days. I think that’s the time Yoongi will release his mixtape. I’m sad because I can’t be there to support him. But call me okay.”

“Yaaah, you are leaving so soon.”

“Yeah, but just to visit my family after that I’ll be back and we can spend a lot of time together. You won’t be that busy since you are almost finished with the album. So you’ll have free time. Yay.”

“Yay.”

“Okay we should go to sleep. I crave for some 15 hour sleep.”

“Sameee.” I drank a shot of tequila that Suran brought while I was texting Jimin and went to bed.

In the morning Suran woke me up around 8 am. I was glad she did that. I would have probably woken up in 11 if she didn’t do that. Damn that alcohol. My head was pounding a little. Suran prepared scrambled eggs and we ate it together. She went out to buy some stuff and I cleaned the dishes. I put on some white T-shirt and black ripped jeans. I grabbed my phone and went out. I had enough time to go to the cafe.

When I arrived I noticed Jimin was sitting at the back already waiting for me. I ordered a strong black coffee and donuts. I went to Jimin and sat across him.

“(Y/N) you came.” He said hugging me.

“Well of course I said I would come.” I hugged him back. He pulled back. “So what’s up?” I asked him and started drinking my coffee offering him my donuts.

“Okay but you have to swear you won’t tell anyone.” He said and grabbed one donut.

“I swear. Now spill it.” I said and stuffed the donut in my mouth.

“Okay you know that Hobi’s sister is coming.” I nodded. “Well there is this thing… uh… How do I tell this… I… I thought I liked her. We only met a couple of times but Hobi was always there… But the problem is… Am… I don’t… “

“Well what’s the problem then?”

“Aish, you are not making it easy…”

“Just spill it. I won’t judge.” I sipped my coffee.

“I think I’m in love with Hoseok.” I spilled my coffee and widened my eyes.

“WHAT?”

“Ay, keep it down, you said you wouldn’t judge.” I used a napkin to wipe the coffee I spilled.

“I am not judging. I just thought you were straight as a guitar string.” he laughed.

“As a guitar string really?”

“Yeah really, I thought you were a fuck boi. I still think you are.”

“Well…”

“So what you need help for?”

“I need you to help me out with Hobi.”

“No.”

“Oh, come on why not?”

“Because I won’t let you play with my best friends feelings.”

“I swear I won’t. I really like him… no I love him…” he made a puppy face.

“Fine, I’ll help you you little mochi. But if you play with his feelings or hurt him in any way I will fucking kill you and go to prison I don’t care. He is my best friend and I don’t wanna see him get hurt because you are a fuck boi.”

“I swear I won’t hurt him. I said I love him. I never said that to anyone.”

“Well that’s good. But why are you anxious that his sister is coming. It’s not like it’s her you love.”

“She knows.”

“Well god bless you Jimin, does she approve?”

“She does, but she… I don’t know it’s his sister. I’m just anxious.”

“Fine, leave it to me.”

“You are a freaking angel.”

“You owe me.”

“I owe you my life so. Anything for you.”

“Fine. Let’s go. I wanna go see the boys. I have a special announcement so be prepared.” I drank the last drop of my coffee and we left.

Once we got to their dorm they all embraced me with hugs. They pulled away and we heard something crash behind.

“Namjoon did you broke the vase again?” Jin asked and we turned to him.

“Um.. My bad.”we laughed. We sat at the couch and Jin brought some snacks.

“What’s up?” Tae asked sitting beside me and Yoongi.

“What are you doing tomorrow?” I asked.

“Not much, I think Yoongi has to record the music video for “Agust D” and “Give it to me” in the morning. And after that we are all free.”

“Well, would you mind coming with me to my ugh mother’s wedding?”

“Your mother is here? How did she find you?” Hobi asked worriedly.

“I have no idea but Suran is going through it. She is coming too. So will you come?”

“Of course we will come. You didn’t have to ask us.” Tae said.

“Well I had to ask because I don’t know if the manager will agree with that.”

“Leave it to me. I’ll arrange everything. Just Yoongi needs to do his music video in two days maximum. The mixtape has to be released on August 16th. Got it?” Namjoon said looking at me and Yoongi.

“It’s fine I can do it.” Yoongi said.

“Okay I’m going to call the manager.” Namjoon said and left. 

Soon Namjoon came back after talking to the manager he agreed that they can go to the wedding. I was glad. Jin brought some popcorns and we watched Train to Busan. Hoseok was scared as fuck. He screamed through the whole movie and covered his eyes with his  hands or a pillow.

When the movie finished Hobi let out a deep sight.

“(Y/N)-ah can I talk to you for a minute?” He asked me. I was about to answer but Yoongi cut me off.

“She can’t.” I looked at him confused.

“Of course I can sunshine.” I stood up and Yoongi sent me death glares. Fuck he is killing me. Hobi and I left the room leaving worried Jimin behind with the others.

“What’s up sunshine?” I asked worriedly.

“Did you talk to Jimin this morning?”

“I did, why?”

“Ever since you two came back he’s been acting weird. I don’t know. He is not himself. Before he would come and like say cute little things that would make my heart flutter. I had a crush on him ever since we met. I didn’t wanna tell him. Because he is straight. So I didn’t have a chance. But he’s been acting weird like. He is playing with his fingers a lot and scratching the back of his neck. Also cracking his fingers. Like he is nervous. I don’t know.” He told me fast.

“Hoseok calm down. He is nervous. Because of you.”

“Wait what?”

“Jimin’s fuckboi ass is in love with you and is scared as fuck what will your sister think. Also I told him I am going to kill him if he hurts you so yeah.”

“Okay, so my crush for 4 years loves me and i notice it only now? I have problems. How do you know that?”

“He told me, and asked me for help.”

“Oh my sweetie.” He hugged me. I hugged him back.

“Okay leave that aside, do you have a dress for tomorrow?”

“Do I look like I have a dress?”

“That’s what I wanted to hear. I’ll go with you tomorrow. You can ask Suran if she wants to come to. I could use her help. She has a good taste when it comes to that.”

“I will I promise.”

We went back to the tense situation. Hobi and I couldn’t tell what happened but everybody was quiet. Yoongi stood up and dragged me to his room.

“What the hell Min Yoongi? You can’t just drag me like this. You …” He cut me off with a deep kiss.

“Making me jealous like that. First going out with Jimin and then a private talk with Hoseok. I have to punish you now.”

“Was I a bad girl, daddy?” he licked his lips. (holy fuck I need holy water)

“You were a really really bad girl.” I played with him. I ran fingers down his body. He pressed me to the wall I had nowhere to go. I ran my fingers around his member.

“What is my punishment daddy?” he bit his lips.

“Oh, you’ll see what i’ll do to you baby girl.” I bit my lip. “No, no, those lips can only be bit by me.” He attacked my lips and slowly started making his way to my collarbone. He bit my neck and made a hickey right above my collarbone. He picked me up and I wrapped my legs around his waist. He unhooked my bra and took it off. I took of his shirt and he put me on the bed. He pulled my pants down  all together with my already wet underwear. He licked me and licked again untill without any warning inserted his tongue inside me playing with my G-spot. I moaned. He climbed back up leaving me with a wet mess down there. He pulled his pants revealing his swollen member. He put on a new condom.

“Baby girl, you better be quiet.”

“Daddy.” I whisper-screamed when his member inserted me. He started thrusting really hard. I was already a wet mess. I tangled my fingers in his hair. I was heavy breathing. He kissed me making me be quiet when he pulled out and in again. He slapped my butt making me bite his lip hard. He pulled out right before I came and he did almost at the same time.

We were both heavy breathing. I guess I unleashed the beast inside him.

We cleaned the room and took a shower before going out. We saw the boys in the living room but most of them were sleeping except Namjoon and Jin who were making out on the couch.

“Khm…” Yoongi said and they broke apart.

“Oh hey lovebirds.” Jin said straightening his shirt.

“Hi.” I said shyly.

“(Y/N) are you staying for dinner? I’m going to cook something.” Jin asked standing up from Namjoon’s lap.

“Oh I have to go because Suran will be mad at me. Also I need my beauty sleep because tomorrow is a big day.”

“Of course i understand.” he said.

“I’ll take you to your apartment.” Yoongi said pulling me out of the apartment.

“Yoongi-ah I didn’t even get a chance to say goodbye.”

“Aish you’ll have plenty of time to say goodbye. And I want to spend more time with you and I am jealous as fuck when you talk to them sweetly.” He blurted out.

“Aww my baby is jealous.”

“I am. And have you had any nightmares recently?” he asked me as we walked to my apartment.

“No. I didn't even dream of anything. Just dreamless nights since the last time.”

“Well that’s better than the nightmares.”

“Yeah, a lot. I can sleep like a person now.”

“A cute person though.”

“Being cheesy now I see.” I giggled.

“Well I have to be cheesy. I am happy we can all go together with you. To support you.”

“I feel honored.” he pinched my cheek lightly.

“Ouch.”

“Aish don’t be such a cry baby.”

“I am not.” I stuck out my tongue.

Soon after that we came to my apartment and he gave me a peck on the lips before he went home. I entered the apartment. Suran was making pancakes in the kitchen. I went to the kitchen. I smelled alcohol.

“Did you put alcohol in the pancakes again?” I asked her.

“Well of course I did my name isn’t Suran for nothing.” She said flipping a pancake.

“Good gracious. Okay. Just don’t put too much. Tomorrow we are going with Hobi to buy dresses and everything. Please behave.”

“Are you doubting me?” She asked putting a pancake on the plate.

“Nope. Just watch those pancakes.”

“Fine, mother.” She finished preparing the pancakes and put them on the table. It was decorated cutely even had a little strawberry at the top. She is going to make me fat if she makes this delicious food.

“Eat don’t stare. I didn’t try hard for you to just stare at them.” she put a big piece of pancake in her mouth. I started eating my delicious dinner.

When we finished we talked about what kind of dresses we would like to wear. Well she talked not me. And we ended up talking about my speech. I was thinking of singing. Because honestly I don’t care and don’t actually want to speak about her. We decided that I will sing “7 years” but a little rewritten version. I went to my room and worked on the lyrics before going to sleep.

In the morning Suran woke me up literally jumping on me.

“Wake up Hobi is already here and you didn’t even get out of bed.” She said still laying on me.

“Well if you let me breathe maybe I’ll get up and get dressed.” she groaned.

“When did I become the responsible one?”

“You a responsible one? I am 99% sure that Hobi woke you up because he couldn’t reach me since I turned off my phone.”

“Well duuh.” She said and stood up. “We are waiting so hurry.”

“Fine, mum.”

She went out to wait with Hobi I grabbed some black sweats and a white T-shirt and pulled it on. I tied my hair in a messy bun and washed my teeth before going out.

“And the sleeping beauty is here.” Hoseok said.

“Jung Hoseok don’t make me call your mother. I have her phone number remember?”

“Sorry, just don’t call my mother. Jiwoo is coming in 2 days she will kill me.”

“Don’t worry you little crybaby now come on. Or else we will be late and everything.”

We went to the mall. Suran and Hobi were chit-chatting all the time. I was just walking behind them. They were giving me a lot of dresses.But they were all “too short” or “too colorful” or “too revealing” etc. They ended up giving me only black dresses. I was not into buying a dress nor anything. I mean I have to go to a wedding of a woman I hate more than everything in the world and sing a cute little song about how she is a perfect mother that took care of me. Hobi pushed me in the changing room. I tried all the dresses they gave me but none of them were “for me” as they said. They told me to sit there and wait for them to go once again through the 30th shop we were in today.

They came back with a long black dress. I changed into it and went outside for them to see.

“Oh my god.” Hoseok said.

“My baby friend looks so gorgeous.” Suran said.

“You should see yourself. It fits you perfectly. Just like out of a dream. It’s perfect. You have to wear it.” Hobi said excitedly. Suran nodded in response.

I looked at myself in the big mirror on the wall. The dress fell to the ground. The top of the dress was all pure black. It had two slings that were crossing each other behind my back. It was really tight there. From my waist and down it started to slowly change color to white. Like ombre but on a dress. It fell naturally. It had a couple of layers so it made it look like flower petals. I really liked it. The dress was really pretty. So I agreed to wearing it.

Suran chose a navy blue dress that was also very long. From her left knee and down she had a big cut on the dress. The top of the dress was also tight and it was sleeveless. She also bought a pair of navy blue high heels and I chose a plain black platforms. My phone buzzed in my pocket and I answered it.

“Hello sweetie.” I said knowing it was Yoongi who called.

“Hey baby. I am half finished with my filming I will finish the rest of it tomorrow. So I’m just calling to check on how the shopping is going and when are you coming down to the company to let the girls here gave you and Suran a little makeover?”

“What makeover?”

“Didn’t that gay ass tell you about going to the company?” I looked at Hobi who motioned me he was sorry.

“He did not.”

“Of course he didn’t okay. When are you coming I miss you?”

“Okay we are almost finished and we will be there in about half an hour. Is that okay?”

“Perfect I’ll call the others to let them know you are coming soon and that we should prepare as well.”

“Okay, love see you soon.” I hung up.

“Damn you made Yoongi a cheesy person.” Hobi said.

“Yeah, i noticed it too when we hung out the other day. Literally you changed him to the better.” Suran said.

“I don’t know he is the same person to me.”

“Of course he is. I mean he always had a soft spot for the younger ones but he always acted all stern because he wanted them to grow up good. But he has his cute moments. Plus he just spills knowledge wherever he goes.” Hobi said.

“Yeah, he was like that since he was a child. You know his parents didn’t support him. They told him to look up to his older brother who didn’t give a shit about Yoongi when he was little. You know that his parents once threw all his lyrics and everything away so he could “study” for a school he was forced to go in. It was very sad after that. He would cry all day and night. I couldn’t help him at the time. But now he looks stronger, more mature, more mentally stable. He may give of a cold vibe but he is good. Too good for this world.” Suran said as we walked to the bus station.

“Yeah, when we are having a crisis he is always there to help us. When we need advice he is the first one we go to. He gives great advice. He uses wise words and can help you in a second with your problem. You just need to tell him and he will do anything to help you.” Hobi added.

“Don’t worry I know all of that. You think I don’t? I am a freaking fan I watched everything. All of it. Every video. And I know he is a great guy. I know him myself. Jesus he is my boyfriend now. So please let’s not talk about sad stories because you will make me cry. And I don’t want my eyes to be all puffy and shit.” I said.

We entered a bus and soon arrived at the company. Once we entered we were greeted by everyone. They took us in dressing rooms. The hairstylist let my hair fall and curled it up a little at the edges because I didn’t wanna dye it yet. They made me wear light blue lenses. My eye makeup was smokey and they put fake lashes. On the lips I had a matte purplish lipstick that kind of had a reddish layer. They finished preparing me. I got out. Suran had her ombre now in navy blue color that matched her dress. She had fake lashes and eyeliner. Her lips were bright red. She walked down in her high heels making the rookies that were dancing in the practice room slam their heads against the glass. I chuckled at the sight. The boys came in. Jin wearing a pink suit. A pink suit well I guess I couldn’t expect anything from him. Namjoon was wearing a dark blue suit and they matched perfectly. TaeTae and Kookie walked in in black suits with black bowties. Jimin and Hobi came in wearing black suits with blue shirts. And finally Yoongi in a black suit with white shirt and a black tie. He came to me and hugged me around my waist.

“How is my baby girl?” He asked me and pecked my lips.

“I’m fine. I’m holding up. I am glad you are here with me to help me today.”

“Of course love. Now tell me what are you doing for the speech?”

“I am going to sing.”

“Ooh, what’s the song?”

“It’s a secret. You’ll see.” I pecked his lips and we entered the limo to the wedding.

Once we arrived after two hours of driving there were a lot of press outside of the banket. My “mother” wanted it all to be in one place. And the ceremony and the actual wedding party. It was a big building. The press took pictures of us. I was holding onto Yoongi’s hand. We went in the big hallway. On the floor there was a red carpet leading to the room where the wedding ceremony will be held. Most of the people were already seated in front of the altar. The pastor was already there preparing for the ceremony. We sat at the reserved places in the front row. Older people were staring at us. Some of them were fangirling. Since we had bodyguards that lead us to our seats they couldn’t come close. I was glad. I looked around looking for my parents. I looked around but I didn’t see them. Yoongi noticed that I was tensed and he held my hand.

“Everything will be okay. I see you are looking for your parents. They will be here don’t worry. Besides not everyone is here yet.” he said and I just nodded. “Take a deep breath. You have your song prepared everything will go as planned. Whenever you want to leave just tell me and we will go. Don’t worry she can’t do anything. You may not notice but there are a lot of bodyguards here. There are two outside. One in front of the door and in this room there’s like 10 of them. They will also check everything in the other room. So don’t you worry. Just relax. And I think I can see your parents.” I smiled at him and turned around to see my parents. I stood up once I noticed them in the crowd. “Stay here, let them come here. Just wave.” I did as he said. They came to me and i hugged them.

“Oh my little puppy, how are you?” eomma cupped my cheeks with her soft hands.

“I’m good how are you?” I held her hands.

“We are good, how are you holding up?” appa asked me.

“It’s going pretty good for now. Everything will be fine.”

“It will sweetie, don’t worry.” Appa patted my back.

“Appa, eomma, this is BTS” I introduced them to BTS. They all stood up and bowed.

“It is very nice to finally meet you. My name is Kim Seokjin.” They shook hands.

“I like him he is very formal.” Eomma whispered.

“Nice to meet you. My name is Kim Namjoon.” he bowed. They shook hands.

“My name is Jung Hoseok, I feel very honored to meet you.”

“ Oh sweetie we are too honored to meet (Y/N)’s best friend.” Eomma said making me blush.

“Ah, we are all very honored. My name is Park Jimin.” he bowed.

“Nice to meet you, I’m Kim Taehyung.”

“Ohh another one of you best friends, (Y/N) why didn’t you tell us?”

“What? I told you a million times they will all be here.” They shook hands. And Tae gave them his famous rectangular smile.

“My name is Jeon Jeongguk.” Jungkook bowed.

“Ah the maknae.” appa said.

“And finally I am Min Yoongi, we met over video chat. Very very honored to meet you.”

“Appa, eomma he is my boyfriend.” I whispered to them.

“OOOh finally (Y/N) we’ve been waiting so long for you to tell us this. We approve.” Eomma said excitingly.

“Stop it eomma you are embarrassing me. Aish. Now where are your seats?” I asked covering my face because of a blushing mess I became.

“We are seated right behind you.”

“At least she did one good thing.”

“Oh Suran baby I didn’t see you there.” Suran came and hugged my eomma.

“Ah Mrs Sung long time no see.”

“Yes my dear. How was in America?”

“It was pretty good. I missed Korea though. But when I got back I worked on a song with Yoongi with (Y/N) I was really happy when she called me for help.”

“Ah, yes she told us about that. And you are also going to make a new album?” appa asked.

“Yes. I have somethings in mind.”

“When are you going to Daegu Mrs Shin is worried about you, you know?”

“Ah yes I’m going back to Daegu tomorrow.”

“Ah good girl. Don’t make you eomma worry like that.”

“I won’t I promise.” We sat down again since the ceremony was about to start. I saw a man standing at the altar. He was an older guy. He had little hair on his head and he was wearing a very expensive suit. I can bet everything I have that Tae’s Gucci suit. That crazy boy only wearing Gucci. Damn his phone case is expensive. Sometimes I question myself how he didn’t turn into Gucci yet? Back to the man. He looked very familiar somehow. I just couldn’t recall.

Soon we heard the familiar “Here comes the bride” song. We stood up and the ceremony began. I saw some girl coming in throwing pink flower petals. She was very small. She was maybe 5 years old. She wore a cute pink dress. The bridesmaids were already standing at the altar. I saw my mother coming in in the white wedding dress. I admit the dress was beautiful. Her hair was tied in a bun and the veil fell to the ground. She was smiling and holding a bouquet of white roses. I always knew she liked roses. The ceremony began. I was already getting dizzy just the fact that the ceremony will be over soon and I will have to sing the song I wrote with all the consequences that will follow along.

Yoongi’s P.O.V.

(Y/N) looked beautiful in her black and white dress. It matched perfectly with her hair and her makeup. I really have to thank Suran and Hobi for what they are doing with her style. Everything Hobi has chosen till now is perfect. I need to send her and him to shopping. I really want her to wear different things that make her look more beautiful than she already is. I mean I think she is beautiful in anything. But I guess that girl really like her hoodies. Even though Suran is the same. She also likes hoodies and stuff like that but Suran likes to be presented in a good light. So when she is not home she puts out her best self out there. She always made people look up to her.

We went to where the wedding will be held. (Y/N) was very tensed. She gripped my hand stronger every step we took. I gave her some motivation speech. I wasn’t even sure what I said. Me and the boys officially met her parents. I mean I met them over that video chat but now it was in person. (Y/N) got all shy and embarrassed. She was a blushing mess. I smiled to myself. Trying not to look like a creep. But she was beautiful. So beautiful I couldn’t take my eyes of her.

The ceremony started and her mother entered. She didn’t look so much like her mother. I guess she got more from her father side. She was getting more nervous as the time passed. Soon she will have to sing a song in front of the people. The people she knows. The people from her hometown. The ceremony ended and she rushed to the bathroom. I rushed with her. She breathed heavily.

“Love, look at me.” I cupped her face and forced her to look at me. She was holding a hand over her heart. “Everything will be fine. Just breathe. Breathe in and out. In and out.” She followed my instructions. Slowly she started calming down.

“I can’t do this.” She said still breathing heavy.

“You can. You can do everything. You are my little princess and I won’t let anyone hurt you okay. You are song. Just sing the song and we can get out of here. For now just breathe.”

“Okay, I believe you. I can do this. Just be there. Be close to me.”

“I will be right by your side, okay?”

“Okay.” She started breathing normally again.

“Shall we my princess?”

“We shall my prince.” She laughed taking my hand.

We went out and to the room were the wedding party will be held. We saw everyone at the table that was not far away from the bride’s and groom’s table. I noticed that (Y/N)’s parent were sitting at the table right beside us. We sat at our table. The food was soon served and we munched on our food.

(Y/N)’s mother threw the bouquet and some blonde girl caught it. The bride and the groom went on the stage and after a small speech I didn’t even listen too.

“... Now my beautiful daughter you all saw on TV who is working for BTS that are here too will sing you a song.” (Y/N) stood up and went on the stage. She took a guitar from one of the guys that were playing. She handed the notes to the one playing the keyboard. And she started playing. It was a nice tune.

“Once I was five years old my daddy told me to be the kindest girl I could be

Once i was five years old

Once I was seven years old my mother hit me

Told me i was worthless

Once i was seven years old

This is a scary world, I didn’t let that phase me

We put our brave face on from the morning till the evening

And by eleven I learnt words that hurt more than bruises

Life is a restless, we’re trying not to lose it.

Once I was eleven years old, I was thrown around the house, called a slut

Once I was eleven years old.

I’ve always dreamt so big and I’m a keep on dreaming,

And in a hopeless world, I've always kept believing, I've always kept on breathing, always kept achieving

Despite the sticks and stones, I will not be defeated.

Once I was thirteen years old, I ran away from home

Once I was thirteen years old.

I’m twenty years old and my brother’s told me to hold the ones who love me most so closely,

Now i’m twenty years old.

 I wanna make a change, make this place a little better

We need to live within a world where everybody matters

No, I don't wanna see anyone's sons or daughters cryin, cause they don't fit in with what society has taught them

Soon we'll be thirty years old, what will our lives hold? Will I be satisfied with all that surrounds me?

Soon I'll be thirty years old

Soon I’ll be thirty years old I hope you die alone for all the things you’ve done to me.

Soon I’ll be thirty years old.

No matter how old we are age is just a number

It's never too late to love

To reach or care for each other

To forgive a brother, or to find a lover

Life is a mystery waiting to be discovered

Soon I'll be sixty years old, my life will be a story

Where my children tell their children about me

I'll watch a generation rise up to change the nation, the past lays down foundations for the future celebrations

Soon I'll be sixty years old, will I be all alone cause I never valued what was all around me?

Soon I'll be sixty years old

Soon I'll be sixty years old, and God will show me that he was by my side through my every heartbeat

Yeah

Once I was five years old my daddy told me to be the kindest girl I could be

Once i was five years old and look at me now.” She stood from the stage giving the guitar to the guy she used it from. Everyone looked in shock. Some of them were crying. She was crying. I rushed to her. Her mother was getting close. She was about to hit her but I stopped her.

“Listen to me you crazy bitch. You will never lay a finger on her again in you life. And just try doing something and I will fucking kill you. Now walk away like nothing happened. Or else you will see the consequences.” She looked at me scared and she just backed away to her now husband.

I carried (Y/N) bridal style leaving everyone in the building shocked. The others followed behind.

Your P.O.V.

Once I finished the song I was proud of rewriting, with the help of Leah. She is a great friend of mine. We met a couple of years back when she was an exchanged student in my school. She is pretty good, and has a great voice. My mother came and was about to hit me but Yoongi stopped her and with his quick tongue he shut her down. Everyone was in shock. I was so scared. Yoongi picked me up bridal style and we left the building the others following us behind.

We entered the limo and told the driver to drive us to the dorm. I was so scared and couldn’t breathe properly.

“That was awesome!” Tae was the one to break the silence that was surrounding us.

“You totally slayed.” Suran followed.

“And the dress was perfect for everything you planned.” Hoseok praised. They made me feel relaxed.

“I’m glad that there were no cameras around because Yoongi could get in trouble for saying that stuff.” Namjoon said.

“Nah, sweetie you did great.” Jin said hitting Namjoon’s shoulder.

“The song was good.” Jimin said.

“Is it by that Graham guy? You rewrote it so good.” Jungkook asked.

“Yeah… My friend Leah helped me.” I said.

“Hey, everything is okay now. I believe your mother won’t visit us anytime soon.” Yoongi said and wrapped his arms around my waist protectively.

We got to the dorm and Yoongi gave me his t-shirt and sweatpants to wear since I was still in y dress. Hobi lent his clothes to Suran. I took my makeup off and took a nice and warm shower to get my mind off of things. Once I got out of Yoongi’s bathroom I saw him already lying on the bed in his white T-shirt and sweatpants. We were kind of matching. I laid beside him and we cuddled and watched some drama on his laptop it was perfect. It was getting late and we turned off the lights. We stared in each other’s eyes in the darkness.

“(Y/N)?”

“Yes, Yoongi?”

“I love you you know that?”

“I love you too pabo.”

“Yah don’t call me pabo I’m older than you pabo.”

“Well you stop calling me pabo, oppa.”

“I like it when you call me oppa.”

“I know you do.” He pecked my lips. “Now let’s sleep oppa, you have to finish your music videos tomorrow and I am super excited to see how it looks like.”

“Fine eomma I’m going to sleep.” He said and pulled me in a hug. I hugged him back and we fell asleep. I felt safe and peaceful in his hug. Like I was protected. I couldn’t get over the fact that my dreams are coming true. But all good things come to an end.

The morning soon came and I was woken up by the cold spot beside me. I guess Yoongi already left to film the music video. I took a long shower and put on Yoongi’s shirt and sweatants. It was baggy and oversized but I liked it. I went to the living room everyone was already seated there watching some kdrama.

“Oh I see the sleeping beauty is finally awake.” Hobi teased.

“Oh come on, I did not sleep that much.” I said.

“Oh you did sweetie. It’s almost noon.” Jin said.

“Noon?”

“Yes. Now sit down we are watching some drama here Yeon is going to confess to Jiwoo.” Tae said. Jungkook was leaning on him. Tae gave Jungkook a quick kiss before focusing on the drama again. Jin was sitting on Namjoon and Suran was seated between Jimin and Hobi. I chuckled at the sight.

“Yah, I have to go.” Suran whined.

“Come on you big baby, you are coming back soon and Yoongi and I are going to help you with your songs plus you have to go and see your parents they miss you so much.” I said. Suran stood up and grabbed her things.

“Thank you. You always know what to say.” She said and we hugged. She left after saying goodbye to everyone.

“Aish that girl left without me making her some food.” Jin pouted.

“You can make me food.” Namjoon said and kissed his neck.

“I will of course you lazy baby.” Jin said.

After a couple of hours of just sitting, eating and watching kdrama Yoongi came back from the filming.

“Hey sweetie. How was your day?” I asked him. He put his hands on my waist.

“It was pretty good. But it was so tiring.” He said.

“You look tired.”

“I am.” his eyes were sore and he had eyebags.

“Okay baby. Go take a shower and relax.”

“Okay jagi.” He pecked my lips and penguin walked to the room.

I made him some pancakes and went to the room. He was lying on the bed in his t-shirt.

“Aish. You didn’t have to cook for me.”  he said after he spotted pancakes.

“Well I had to. Now eat up.” He obeyed me and ate his pancakes.

“Hobi’s  sister is coming tomorrow.”

“Ah, yeah. What about her?”

“Well I have to get Jimin and Hobi together and also you album is coming out tomorrow and I can’t wait to see how hot you look.” I said embarrassed.

“Aww, my cute little baby is helping others.”

“Well of course I am who do you think I am?”

“You are my baby girl.” He pulled me in and started attacking my face with kisses.

“Yah, Yoongi stop it.” he continued kissing my whole face. I started laughing because it tickled.

I cleaned the mess we made and we decided to go out for a walk. We walked through Seoul. Yoongi taking a lot of pictures with his phone and me just admiring the sights and unexplored parts of Seoul he took me to. It was very late at night when we went to my apartment. We decided to spend the night together in my apartment so Yoongi could relax for tomorrow. We cuddled for sometime before I heard Yoongi’s light snores. I fell asleep after that.

In the morning I woke up noticing the cold spot beside me. I pulled an oversized hoodie over my head and went to the kitchen. I saw Yoongi preparing breakfast.

“Yah, you always wake up before I can make you breakfast in bed.” Yoongi whinned noticing me enter the kitchen.”

“Well I think that’s not my fault mister. Now what do we have on our menu today?” I asked licking my lips at the smell.

“Sit and wait.” He said.

“Fine boss.” I sat watching him prepare breakfast. His blonde hair falling perfectly on his forehead. His fingers gently cutting onion. I didn’t realize I was smiling to myself until Yoongi pecked my lips.

“Yoongi calls for (Y/N). Just to inform you that the breakfast is ready.” He hugged me around my waist. I was surprised by his sudden actions. I looked in front of me and there was a plate. In the plate there were two toasted sandwiches. It looked delicious. Yet plain? He let go of me and sat across me and started eating his sandwich. I gave him a questionable look. He took so long to make a sandwich? Well okay. I bit my sandwich tasting all the ingredients. On the bottom toast there was an egg. And in the sandwich it self there was a lot of things I couldn’t describe it. It had bacon? Fried bacon? At least that’s what I think it is. You could taste the onions but when cheese came to eat it just melted in my mouth. I looked at Yoongi shocked.

“This. Is. Amazing. Like the best sandwich I ate in my whole life. Fuck.” I said with full mouth.

“It’s rude to talk with mouth full of food.” Yoongi scolded me. I gave him a thumbs up. I turned the TV on. The news flashed and I just rolled my eyes. I concentrated on my food before I heard my name coming from the TV. I almost choked on my food when I turned around to look at the TV.

“BTS’s Suga reported to have a girlfriend who is currently now Big Hit’s new composer. According to the source they have been dating for quite some time. The composer was rumored dating Jungkook, but after releasing “Begin” it was explained not to be true. Two days ago Suga and his girlfriend that he carried BRIDAL style followed by the other members and Suran what was thought to be running away after the scandal that happened at Mr Lee’s wedding.” I opened my mouth in shock. I knew he looked familiar. He owns this big ass company that runs the half of Seoul. I screwed up big time. Fuck. Yoongi grabbed me by my shoulders.

“Baby it’s going to be alright, stop crying please.” Yoongi looked at me concerned. I didn’t even realize I was crying. I hugged him and he carefully caressed my hair. He stayed quiet for some time. “Let’s go baby. Go get dressed so we can go see the release of my mixtape and meet with Hobi’s sister. Okay?”  He said letting me go.

“I’m fine. I will be ready in 5 minutes.” I rushed to the room and got myself dressed in a white shirt and black ripped jeans. We went to the dorm. All the members were already there. Hobi’s sister was sitting on the couch with the others. When they noticed us Tae and Hobi rushed to me.

“Sweetie, I heard what happened are you okay?” Tae asked worriedly embracing me in a big teddy bear hug. I let out a silent chuckle (is that even possible?) and hugged him back.

“It’s okay Tae.”

“Oh my little baby did you cry?” Hobi asked me.

“Eh just a little, sunshine.” He gave me a hug.

“Now, now Jung Hoseok it’s rude not to introduce me to you best friend and you know i’ve been dying to meet her.” She pulled his ear.

“Yah, Dawon stop it.” He let go of him. “(Y/N) this is Dawon my older sister.” I bowed.

“I am very honored to meet you, unnie.” I said respectfully.

“Yah, stop it with the formalities. Hobi talks about you all the time and I feel like you are my sister.”

“Come on you guys it’s starting.” Jungkook said pulling Tae back. I ran to the couch almost falling on Jimin who was lying on the floor. The video started. It was “give it to me”. I watched it carefully trying not to scream. But no I screamed of course. Like a lunatic. I was crying at the same time.

“My little baby. Look at him so perfect.” I whispered. Yoongi pecked my lips. Right after that “Agust D” started. Oh my god wasn’t that awesome. I mean all the fire. The cars. Yoongi spitting out the lyrics like fire. His hair. His make up. It was all so perfect. I just watched in shock. Can he be more perfect??? God help my nerves.

When I finished with my crazy fangirling. Yoongi kissed me and in the process he bit my lip. I lightly slapped his arm.

“Now, you pervert, I will borrow your little girlfriend for the day.” Dawon pulled my hand leading me to the exit not giving Yoongi time to say anything. “Let’s go to this nice coffee shop down the road and talk.”

“Sure, unnie.” I said following her. We went to this cozy little cafe that smelled like coffee. It was nice with candles and a darker lightning. The interior was cute. It had brown chairs that were really comfortable and glass tabled with a candle in the middle and a cinnamon branch. We ordered coffee. Surprisingly we both drink strong black coffee without sugar.

“Hobi told me a lot about you. He is very happy that you are with Yoongi-ssi.”

“Well he is my best friend. The best I could ask for. And you are a lot similar to each other.”

“Well people say that often. I guess I was his role model while growing up. He was a crybaby before. Well he still is when it comes to emotional things. He is probably the one to start crying first. But he is a ball of sunshine.”

“Yes I call him sunshine.”

“Ay, same. Now tell me what’s been happening with him.”

“Nothing much. Oh yeah, I need your help.”

“Anything.”

“You see Jimin loves Hobi and Hobi loves Jimin. But they are to scared little gay asses I need to get to date.”

“Did that little Jimin finally confess.”

“Well he confessed to me about it. And Hobi told me he liked Jimin since a long time ago. But he thought Jimin didn’t notice him.”

“Yeah yeah I know everything. I knew Jimin liked Hobi since like two years ago when Yoongi-ssi and Hobi were dating.”

“Wait? What? Min Yoongi and Jung Hoseok?”

“Oh my god they didn’t tell you. I’m sorry.”

“Nah, it’s fine. I’m just surprised Yoongi didn’t tell me about it.”

“Yoongi-ssi likes to keep his relationships in secret. But Hobi was for Yoongi just an experiment. And I was angry at Yoongi when they broke up. But I get him now. Yoongi is straight. I guess it was just a phase everyone had to pass.”

“Yeah, I know.”

“Now, how will we get Hobi and Jimin to date?”

“I guess we need to help Jimin’s ass to ask Hobi on a date.”

“This is going to be hard. But I want to see them dating so bad before I go back.”

“Don’t worry we can do this. Tomorrow I will talk to Jimin about it. We have to work on the new song. Bang PD is going to hang me if I don’t finish soon.”

“Oh that man, he still is strict to the composers. Well at least you are a nice composer. And I heard “Boy meets evil” that shit is why I’m here for. That shit is lit. You are a genius.”

“Oh please, it was all Hobi’s doing so go say that he is a genius.”

“Well you are both genius.”

“Thank you, unnie.”

“Yah stop it with the unnie just call me Dawon.”

“Fine, fine.”

After that we got back to the dorm. And we were very surprised to see that both Jimin and Hobi were not there. I looked at Dawon and she just shrugged. Well okay. Yoongi suggested going to my place since it was crowded here and he wanted to talk about something. He sounded serious. I was a bit scared. We left and went to my apartment. He helped me take the blankets and pillows to the living room. Once we settled everything and made ourselves cozy on the couch we played some movie. It was something called Chang something Hot Pot I think. I can’t recall. We cuddled and watched the movie. It was very interesting.

“What did you wanna talk about?” I asked him. He was stroking my hair.

“Oh yeah. Well manager found out about us dating and he kinda wants you to finish the remaining five songs in the album in three days tops.”

“What?? Five songs. Yoongi that’s a lot. Why haven’t you told me that earlier? I have to start working now.” I was about to get up but Yoongi stopped me.

“Shh, baby just relax. You can do it I believe in you. Besides you are a genius at this stuff. You can do it.”

“I can do it.” Yoongi kissed me and we cuddled for the rest of the movie. As the time passed my head was hurting more and more. I was getting nervous. Even Yoongi couldn’t keep me down. So much weight was put on me. We went to bed.

“Rise and shine beauty.” Yoongi softly woke me up.

“Good morning.” I said as I stressed.

“Get ready we will go and grab something to eat before going to the company.”

“Yeah yeah.”

“I’m proud of you.” He suddenly said while I was getting into my black ripped jeans.

“Why that all of a sudden?”

“You started eating normally.”

“Oh that. Yeah. Well it was all because of you. Thank you.” I put on a white T-shirt.

“No need. And look at that we are matching.” He said I looked at him and noticed we wore the same outfit I chuckled.

“I guess we are.” we got out and grabbed some pizza to go and went to the company. All of them were already there. We got into my office.

“So guys what are the songs we are working on today?” I asked.

“Umm well there are four songs you need to compose. We decided that we want to help you so we will compose one song. It’s called Two! Three! And we will compose it so don’t worry. Also Bang PD said you will have to work on the songs alone. I’m sorry…” Namjoon said.

“It’s okay.”

“It’s not okay he is trying to punish you because you haven’t told anyone that Yoongi and you are dating.” Taehyung said with mouth full of pizza.

“Taehyung it’s rude to speak with mouth full of food. And yeah he is right. I mean it’s love he can’t punish you.” Jin said.

“Well it’s fine. I mean i love to compose so it’s not a problem.”

“You can do it.” Jimin said.

“We all believe in you.” Jungkook said.

“Thank you all. Thank you for the support. I guess I better get on with work.” I said. We ate the pizza and Namjoon gave me the lyrics. I quickly scanned them. “These are awesome. I already have ideas.”

“Yay she likes them” Hobi said.

“Of course I do. Now shoo I need to work and so do you.” I pushed Hobi and Jimin caught him. They looked at each other for a second and Jimin kissed him. I screamed. “Oh MY GOD YES FINALLY OH MY FREAKING GOD.” Everyone cheered. They broke the kiss and smilled awkwardly.

“I was waiting for you to do that.” Hobi whispered.

“Was it worth the wait?” Jimin asked.

“It was.” Hobi said.

“Okay since I didn’t put much effort and you to are finally together I really need you to leave so I can finish this shit.” and they left. I was left alone to finish these songs. Well maybe I can get some peace and quiet for a change.

I worked and worked for hours. I was trying to compose “Am I wrong” but it didn’t work. I needed some rest. I went out on a fresh air and walked for half an hour before sitting on a bench. I opened my notebook and started scrambling some notes in it. Before I knew it the sun was setting and my stomach growld. Damn you Min Yoongi for making me eat I wouldn’t have been hungry now. Yah I miss Jin’s cooking? Should I visit them or not. I decided that I needed to be alone. I looked at the clock it was half past eight and I decided to go to my apartment and finish the song there. I was too exhausted to think but I had to finish at least one song today. I went back to my apartment and worked on my laptop. The song was going great. My phone buzzed several times and I had a couple missed calls from Yoongi. Sorry Yoongi it’ll have to wait you are only distracting me from my work, I thought to myself. I shutdown my phone. After I finally finished the song I was to tired to eat and I just threw myself on the bed and fell into a deep sleep. Luckily it was a nice dream. Yoongi and I were on a date. At a pink cafe. It didn’t seem familiar nor the people we were surrounded with. Though I couldn’t focus on Yoongi’s talking I looked through the window at the sight before me. The scene was familiar and it reminded me of my hometown. Uh I missed my home so much at the time. I miss my so called parent. Soon I’ll go home and take a vacation from work. I hope the company wouldn’t mind. I mean I did finish two full albums in a short time.. If I recall correct they were working on their last album for three whole months. And yes that’s a lot. Though I admit the songs are good. Very good. But I like this concept better. It shows the other side of them.

In the morning I made myself a quick sandwich and made my way to the company. I entered my office after grabbing a cup of coffee from the vending machine. I immediately started working on the other three songs. I was all in my world not noticing Yoongi who was intensively staring at me with a smirk plastered on his face. Once I noticed him I removed my headphones and looked at him.

“Yes?” I asked him.

“Yes? I was so worried last night. Oh my god you could’ve at least send me a text. I was thinking so many things last night. Why weren’t you answering my phone calls or all the messages I left you.” He said anger showing in his tone.

“Yoongi I’m sorry I just needed to finish at least one song yesterday and I couldn’t focus so I just turned my phone off.” guilt spread across my face.

“Fuck I thought you were angry at me or something. Don’t you ever do that to me please. I was so scared.”

“Why would I be angry at you?”

“Well how should I know that?” I rolled my eyes at him.

“Yoongi I’m sorry but I have to work. I need to finish three songs.”

“Fine just don’t overwork yourself and then get sick. Okay?”

“Don’t worry love.” I stood up from my seat and gave him a quick peck on the lips before pushing him out of the office. He tried to stop me but he did not succeed

Once he was gone I started working again. I was almost done with the second song. It’s hard not working with the artist to compose the song. Not being able to understand the lyrics. That’s the worst thing that could happen to the composer. I couldn’t feel the songs. So I decided to make my own story on them. And it actually worked. Two songs done one more to go. I decided to sleep in the office because I was too tired to go home. I looked at the time it was 8. I laid on the couch and fell into a deep sleep.

Once I woke up I was covered with a blanket. I looked at the table and on it was a cup of coffee and some cookies and a note. “I made you some coffee and brought you Jin’s cookies he said you needed something sweet so you could work sweetly on your songs. Also I covered you last night when I came to check on you. I may have looked through your sheets and took them. Please don’t be mad at me I used them and we are going to record it soon. Your only Min Yoongi <3” I laughed. Damn that boy taking my sheets. Well they were finished so I guess it’s okay. I decided to quickly finish the remaining songs. I got onto work. Through the whole day the boys were coming in and out giving me food or coffee. Or were just bored and wanted to talk but I usually just ignored them because I had my headphones on. Are they stupid not to notice? I was working so hard on the song called “Blood, Sweat and tears.” It was a really good song with the good lyrics. And I worked even hard when I heard they will be filming a music video for this song. I spent hours and hours in the office I didn’t even know what time it was. The office was starting to be dirty and I asked Jin to take care of it. I was running out of time and I hated when my office was messy. Jin did help me he cleaned the office and he was quiet. He knew I needed some peace and quiet so he did clean it for me not to even notice he was there. For the last two hours Yoongi was in my office talking to me. I caught a glimpse of his face and he looked angry the last time I saw him.

“STOP COMPOSING AND LOOK AT ME” Yoongi yelled, smirking at me. “For God’s sake.” That caught me off guard. I removed my headphones and looked at him.

“What Yoongi what?? Can’t you see I’m working?”

“I can see that but have you seen yourself in the mirror? You look like a fucking dead person. I have been talking for the past two hours huh? Did you even listen to me?”

“Fuck you Yoongi. I am trying to work on your stupid album here. Alone. Without anyones help. Do you think that’s easy? For fucks sake you know it yourself. And do you think I care about your little problems with Jimin while my job here is at stake? Screw you, you know!” I yelled back at him with the same tone he used on me.

“You know what go fuck yourself and your little stupid composing mind. Go marry your sheets.”

“I will because I am not going to marry and asshole like you who can’t even appreciate me enough and give me some fucking peace and quiet it’s not like I’m asking you to bring me God I just need you to shut the fuck up.”

“Fuck you.” And with that he left the office. Leaving me in tears.

I can’t explain what I was thinking. I was so fucking mad and sad at the same time. I wanted to punch him in his pretty mochi face. How can’t he not understand that my job here is at stake. I can’t risk loosing it. Fuck. It’s like I have to little people telling me different things. One of them is like “bitch if you go to apologize you are done. Let him apologize it’s his fault.” And the other one is like “go apologize, you were to harsh he would understand if you tell him without yelling”.

I stood up and went to the piano. I started aggressively playing some tune I didn’t know. It wasn’t playing. It was more like hitting the piano with all my might. My fingers hurt and soon they started bleeding. I screamed and threw the papers from the top of the piano on the floor. It was all a mess. And Jin hyung just cleaned my office. I saw the blood dripping of my fingers. I just watched while the little drops of blood fell on the white piano tiles.

Hoseok and Taehyung entered my office in a rush. I didn’t look up from the piano. They came close.

“Dear Lord (Y/N) what did you do?” Hoseok said looking around the office.

Taehyung saw the blood. That was now dripping on the newly polished floor.

“Hobi don’t scream okay. She is hurt go get the med kit from the lobby or ask Jin hyung for it. Don’t look this way okay.” Taehyung said with his calm voice. Hoseok looked at him terrified and just nodded his head and left the office. Taehyung hugged me tightly. “Listen to me my little baby. Everything is going to be all right. Just don’t stress. Hobi will come back with the kit and we will take care of your beautiful hands. And after that I am going to strangle Yoongi myself. How does that sound like?” He asked me worry in his eyes. I was so lifeless and tired. I lazily nodded my head. Hobi returned with the kit and kept a distance because he doesn’t like the blood. Taehyung helped my clean my hands cover them with bandages. He also cleaned the blood from the piano and the floor.

“(Y/N)  is there anything you want from me to bring you? Some food or coffee? How does ice cream and pizza sound like?” Hobi asked me.

“It sounds good.” I said it with a raspy voice and half smiled.

“Okay let’s go Taehyung and get her food and coffee.” They left.

While I was waiting for them I grabbed my papers from the floor and packed them nicely. I covered myself with a blanket. They soon came with ice cream, and gummy bears and pizza and a big cup of black coffee. They tried their best to make me laugh and they did a couple of times. When we finished eating they helped me clean and then left leaving me to finish the songs.

I tried working and I just ended up falling asleep.

Yoongi’s P.O.V.

(Y/N) and I had a huge fight. I was too harsh to her. I should go apologize tomorrow. She’s probably sleeping now. I was sitting in my studio, on the black leather chair looking up at the celling and spinning. Aish that girl. She is overworking herself. It’s not good for her health. I heard from the boys she is eating well. And even more than I expected. I looked at the keyboard lying beside me. I turned it on and started playing some tune. Good one I thought to myself. Taheyung and Hoseok busted in my studio.

“Woah, what’s the rush?” I asked turning off the keyboard.

“You are such an egomaniac. Fucking lunatic.” Tae said.

“Wha..” I tried to say something but Hoseok stopped me.

“You bastard, who gives you the right to do that to our princess?” he said and pushed me.

“What did I do?”  I asked.

“You fought with (Y/N). We heard you alright. Everyone in the building did. You know how much you hurt her? She got mad and started abusing the poor piano. When we came in blood was dropping of her hands from the force she hit that piano.” Tae said raising his voice after each sentence he said.

“T-the blood was d-dropping?” I asked, scared to even imagine the state she was in.

“Yes you bastard. I assume she is asleep now. But in the morning you will go to her and apologize. You will beg for her forgiveness.” Tae was scaring me now.

“I’m sorry Taehyung just don’t kill me. I was planning to do that anyway. But… Is she okay now?”

“Not thanks to you.” Hoseok scoffed.

“It’s 2am now go to sleep and I’ll talk to her tomorrow…” I said, my voice getting more quieter after each word.

“You better.” Tae said and they left. I ran my hand through my hair. What have you done Min Yoongi? That night I cried. I cried for a long time before falling asleep on the desk.

 I was woken up by someone’s scream. I got out of the studio and up the hallway. I looked around the secretary was running around crying. What the hell is going on?

“YOONGI, YOONGI WHERE ARE YOU?” I heard Jimin scream, followed by Hoseok and Taehyung.

“JIN GET HER OUT THE AMBULANCE IS COMING SOON.” I heard Namjoon scream. I stood in place. Letting the fear take my body.  What’s going on? Once I realized that the situation was critical I ran to Jimin. Once I saw them running through the hallway opening each door yelling my name I yelled. “JIMIN WHAT’S GOING ON?” I was panicking. I could smell the burning plastic.

“(Y/N) she…” I didn’t hear the last part because I pushed him away and ran to her office. I stood at the door. She was sitting on the floor screaming, she was covering her ears and I saw the blood running down her arms. Jin was trying to pick her up. I felt the tears running down my face and in the distance I could hear the ambulance. I helped Jin get her out of the office and out of the building. The paramedics let me in the car and go with her. What the hell happened?

Your P.O.V.

I found myself in a strange room. I was lying in a big bed. The door opened and revealed Yoongi with a tray of food in his hands. He had black hair? Huh? When did he dye his hair?

“Honey, you’re awake. I made you some breakfast.” He said a put the tray in my lap.

“Thank you. When did you dye your hair?” I asked and started drinking the coffee.

“What do you mean? I have had this hair color for a couple of years now.” He said.

“Oh, right.”

“The kids are at school. Eunhi tied her own hair today. I was really proud of her. And Jisung tied his shoe laces. When did you teach him that?”

“The kids?” I almost choked on the food.

“I said don’t worry.” I guess this is a dream, huh? Well I should enjoy it.

“Fine, fine. But take some food.” I stuffed a sandwich in his mouth and he laughed. He showered me with kisses on my face. All that cute little moments were now gone. I was woken up by something exploding beside me. I fell of the chair. My ears hurt and all I could hear was a constant loud squeaking noise. I covered my ears and started screaming. I could feel my hand getting wet I looked at it and saw the blood. Jin was the first to rush in the room and he was followed by the others. Jin was telling me something but I couldn’t hear anything. I saw the horror in Hobi’s eyes. Jimin, Tae and Hobi rushed out of the office. Jungkook followed them out. And Namjoon was talking on the phone. I think he was calling the ambulance. The squeaking in my ears stopped. And now I couldn’t hear anything. Jin tried to tell me something but I just screamed again and again. The blood was now rushing down my hands and my face was getting wet from the tears. Yoongi rushed in the office and he helped Jin take me out. The ambulance arrived. I stopped screaming since I realized there’s no use of it. Yoongi and I went in the ambulance car and they drove us away. The paramedic tried talking to me but I just couldn’t hear anything. He removed my hands from my ears. Once we arrived at the emergency room. They cleaned my ears from the blood and my hands. Yoongi was there for me. My ears still hurt. The thing I was scared for the most was losing my hearing. How could I continue with my life after that? I didn’t even finish with the song. They put a needle in my vein and attached it to the infusion. They also gave me some antibiotics and I fell asleep.

I woke up after sometime. I saw Yoongi sitting on the chair beside me. He was resting his head on my hand. I could feel his tears on my hand.

“Yoongi…” I said, and he immediately pulled his head up. He gave me a glass of water to drink.

“Yoongi I… I can’t hear anything.” He looked at me with tears. He grabbed his phone and started to write something. After he did he gave me his phone.

“(Y/N) I’m so sorry. This is all my fault. The doctors said your hearing is permanently damaged. I’m sorry I wasn’t there to help you. I’m sorry I yelled at you yesterday. Can you please forgive me? The beatbox exploded. That’s the reason for your state now. It was left plugged in and it overheated and exploded.”  It said.

“Yoongi I forgive you okay. But there’s a problem. I didn’t use the beatbox yesterday.” He looked at me confused. He stood up and called someone. I looked around the hospital room. God… Why is this happening to me? What have I done wrong?

The others came in the room and hugged me. Jungkook seemed to have cried. Hobi too.

“Guys you are choking me to death.” I said. They pulled away. Jin started talking but I couldn’t hear. “Jin wait stop, I can’t hear a single thing.” They all looked at me shocked. The guilt spread across their faces. “It’s not your fault okay. It was an accident.” They nodded. Yoongi finished his phone call and turned to the guys. He told them something. I think it was something well no so good. They were shocked. And angry. They looked at me then at Yoongi again. Namjoon brought his hand up and I saw his lips moving everybody nodded and he left. “Care to say what’s going on?” I asked.  Yoongi showed me his phone.

“I told them that you didn’t use the beatbox and that I think that someone might have broken into your office while you were sleeping. Namjoon went to look at the security cameras.”

“Someone should go check my apartment. If you think someone did this on purpose you should go check it. I mean I have no idea who would do such thing.” Hobi and Tae raised their hands. “Okay you two will go, the keys are still in my office on the table but I hid the spare key under the pot outside of my apartment.” They left. Jin went with them. Jimin wrote something on his phone and then showed me.

“Jin went to cook something for you. Do you need anything? Should I get your laptop or something so you don’t get bored?”

“Yes please, my laptop is in the office please get it for me.” He nodded and left. Only Yoongi and I were left. He broke down crying again. He gently took my hand and started kissing it.

“Yoongi please stop crying, I already told you it’s not your fault. Plus you are making it hard for me here. Now stop it okay. And play some music.” He put my hand back on the bed and played something on his phone. He gave me the phone. I put my hand on the speaker. I could feel the beats going through my hand. It seemed as if I could actually hear the music. I felt the tears starting to fall. Yoongi whipped them off with his soft hands. He then kissed me and I could feel his warm tears now getting involved with mine. If someone could see us now they would think that we will never see each other again. I turned off the music. The doctor came in and told Yoongi to leave us alone for a moment. He did some checkups but nothing. He wrote on his board that it will be a miracle if I could hear again. I excepted the fact that I can’t hear. I wrote my parents a message I will be coming back this weekend home. I couldn’t tell them what was going on. It’s better that way.

 Once Jimin came back I wrote an email to the company saying that I finished all the songs except for the outro. I also said I won’t work until I figure things out. I got a reply in a few minutes. They said that they are disappointed that I didn’t finish the outro but that they will figure something out. They also said that they will give me some time until I recover until it’s time for the next comeback. I thanked them and told them everything is going to be okay. They transferred some money on my bank account. Well not some. It was a huge amount of money.

Tae and Hobi came back. They said that my apartment door was open. The neighbors said that there was someone there. I told Yoongi I wanted to talk to Tae and Hobi alone so he left the room.

“Listen to me now. You are going to go to my apartment again and you are going to pack everything.” They looked at me shocked. And confused. “Yes everything. You will first bring me some stuff here so I could change in them. But for the rest of the stuff you will send it to my parents. Everything. After you do that you will go buy me a new phone and a new phone number. You can’t say a word to Yoongi or you’ll be dead meat. I’ll stay in contact with only you too. And for Yoongi I’ll think of something. I just can’t stand here and see him eat himself up because he thinks it’s his fault. Even though it’s not. So please. Listen to me this once. And don’t ask questions on why I’m doing this. Please update me on everything.” Hobi was crying and they nodded in agreement. I was glad that none of them tried to stop me. They left to do what I told them.

It’s been a couple of days since the accident. Hobi and Tae did what I asked them to do. They brought me some stuff for me to change into. It was night around 3am. Yoongi was asleep beside me. I left him a note saying I have to leave. And I told him that I was just going to my parents’ house for a couple of weeks until everything gets into place. I left a kiss on his forehead before going out of the hospital.

Three months after I left everything in Seoul, Hobi and Tae kept updating me on things. They told me that the girl who did this to me was caught. And she admitted that she did it, and that she also trashed my apartment back then. She also said she bribed the police so that they would say that they couldn’t find anything. She also said that my mother payed her to do all that. She was sentenced for 5 years in prison because she turned herself in and admitted. I was glad I was finally free. My mother also went to the court and was sentenced for child abuse and was sentenced for 3 years in prison but her rich husband payed for her to get out. I think she will never bother me again.

That day was the day of the comeback. I decided to go on the last concert before going to America. I went everything was great. I could feel the beating of the music and the vibrations. I started crying when I felt my song being played as the outro. It was the song I sent to the other company but it got sent to the BigHit entertainment. I cried. And I saw Yoongi. I was happy I saw him. But he looked sad. Hobi told me he was colder than usual. And that he was mad because I just left like that. After the concert I just left without talking to anybody.

Present Day September 17^th 2017.

It’s been a year now. I’ve been secretly working on their new album. I was anonymous. I decided to keep it a secret. Only Hobi and Tae knew. And the company of course. I got back from America two months ago. I’ve been through a lot of operations. My hearing is now partly back but I got small hearing aids that are not visible because they are inside my ear and I could now hear everything. I got back because it was easier for me to get in touch with the company.

“So this is your life story. What do you think Yoongi feels like?” the therapist asked me.

“I think he is broken. At least that’s what Tae told me. I know what I did was wrong. And I don’t know if I should go to their comeback show and the fan meeting. I want to go so bad. But what If he gets angry and I don’t know.”

“You should go.”

“I might.” I left the office and went to my apartment. I was now living in another apartment. I looked at the tickets that were in front of me and exhaled. “How will I deal with this?”

Yoongi’s P.O.V.

It’s been more than a year since she left. Nobody heard from her. I bet my arm that horse Hoseok and Tae now something. They just won’t tell me. Those bastards. I’ve run out of ideas for songs. We’ve been working with this anonymous composer. He’s very good. I can see he has a lot of experience. He finishes the songs in maximum four days. Not that they are that complex. They are really catchy songs. I like the concept of this album. And  I’m grateful that Jin finally got more lines. I mean damn he has more lines than me.

Time to visit the therapist. I’ve been visiting this girl. She helped me a lot. She told me she has a client with the similar story as me. I don’t believe her. I mean how can someone have a similar story. But never mind that. I knocked on the door. And I heard her voice from behind the door.

“Come in Yoongi. You are late again. Is this the third time this week?” I didn’t even get in the room she was already ranting me for being late. Well fuck it.

“Aish come on cut me some slack you know our comeback show is tomorrow.”

“Of course I know. I’ll go and support you boys.”

“Is the famous therapist Somin, who’s by the way been kicking my ass since the day one of kindergarten, going to watch my comeback show live.”

“Don’t flatter you know I’m going there because of that perfect boy Taehyung.”

“Somin you know you don’t stand a chance because of Jeongguk.”

“Oh I know. But didn’t you just call him Jeongguk after such a long time.”

“Nah you were just hallucinating.”

“Suit yourself, but I’ll be the one putting you together after the show.”

“Oh, you don’t have to sweetie I have my BESTIE Suran to help me.”

“Min Yoongi have you betrayed your best friend and a therapist for Suran. Fine then I won’t tell you what I know about someone special.”

“What? Are you talking about (Y/N)? Holy shit. Somin come on. You know I was just kidding. Please tell me. I’m begging you.”

“Aish you trust me so easily. Of course I don’t know anything about her. We established that she’s nowhere to be fund. You even asked her parents but they didn’t know. So why bother thinking I know something?”

“Fuck you Somin.”

“Watch your mouth Min Yoongi.”

“Fine, mom.”

“I guess this is the last therapy. You improved a lot since you first came to me. I’m happy for you. “

“Thank you Somin for everything.”

“But promise me something.”

“Anything.”

“Don’t leave again and change your number and everything before telling me. We’ve known each other for 20 years Yoongi.”

“I promise I won’t do that.”

“Okay now, go before I kill you. And get some sleep I’ll see you in the morning before the show.”

I left her office and went to the park to take a walk. Y/N it’s been a year huh? I guess it’s time to move on from you. I hope you are happy wherever you are. I hope you found someone who will cherish you. I looked at the night sky, the stars were shining bright and the moon was reflecting in the lake that was in front of me. I guess this is goodbye. I’ll see you in next life. I smiled. I was finally able to let go of her. I went back to the dorm.

“Yoongi hyung is back, let’s ask him.” I heard Jungkook say.

“Ask me what?” I took my coat and shoes off.

“Am.. Well we wanted to go drink after the show to celebrate because Jungkook is finally legal to drink. Wanna join?” Tae said.

“Is that really what you wanted to ask me?” I asked. No way that’s it.

“Do you know who the anonymous composer is?” Hobi asked.

“Of course not, that’s why it’s called anonymous. Why do you ask?” I was confused

“He’s coming tomorrow to meet us. Well maybe.” Namjoon said.

“Bullshit!? Why stay hidden for a year and only now introduces?”

“He probably has his reasons.” Jin said.

“It’s a she. And you’ll be surprised when you see her.” Suddenly Bang PD entered the dorm.

“Hyung what are you doing here?” Jimin asked.

“I just came to check up on you. It’s your first comeback show and I don’t want you to make any mistakes tomorrow. I’m glad you are not wasted.”

“Aish hyung you think so low of us.” Tae said.

“Okay well, we will see each other tomorrow. Go to sleep and be in the company 10am sharp. Don’t be late.”

“Aish 10am. But the show doesn’t start till 7pm.” Hobi complained.

“Fine than come at 2pm. But if there are any mistakes you are dead to me.” And with that he left.

“Aish, hyung is so strict with us these days.” Jungkook said.

“Because he doesn’t want us to screw up.” Namjoon said.

“I’m going to bed. I feel tired.” I went to my room and fell on the bed. I need rest. And I fell asleep.

I woke up in the morning. Another dreamless night. But I feel so refreshed. I took a shower and brushed my teeth before going out in the living room in black ripped jeans and a black t-shirt. I don’t care what I wear until we arrive they will change it no matter what. I think I was told to wear the suit from DNA. I don’t know I didn’t really listen to what they were saying. I could feel the tension in the room. Everyone was nervous. The music video was released on the 18^th. It broke records. 25 million in just 24 hours. That was awesome.

“Come on guys. Don’t worry we can do this. We practiced hard for this.” I broke the silence.

“Okay let’s go we don’t wanna be late.” Namjoon said. We entered the car and it drove us to the company. I was thinking about the new composer. Will she come. Bang PD said it’s a she. I hope she comes. I wanna thank her for all the hard work she put in us for a year. I mean whenever we wrote a song she composed it. She composed more than a 100 songs for a year because we were writing and deleting. Deciding what will and what won’t make it to the track list. It was hard for her too. But she managed to do it. I am very thankful to her. She even gave me some tips when I was struggling. Actually she gave them to Namjoon because I refused to talk to her for a year. I heard she was great from other guys. They said she was even better than (Y/N) and to be honest that hurt my feelings. Because she was just perfect it was the concept of the album where she couldn’t express her true self.

We arrived at the company. The makeup artist and dresses were all over us. We had to change for more than 10 times. Every song we were going to perform had a different outfit. Plus the ones we were going to be in during the show. It was stressful. It was almost time for us to go on the stage. From what I hear the show was sold out. We were going to have a fan meeting after. I heard a lot of fans will be there too. I also heard some celebrities wanted to come and see us. But I don’t know which ones. It was going to be broadcasted live. I would lie if I said I wasn’t nervous. Because honestly I was scared. I was terrified. It’s time. We can do this. We went out on the stage. And all the bad feelings were gone. I felt so happy at that moment. Mom, dad, I did it. I hope you are finally proud of your son. The show went on smoothly. No mistakes were made. I felt so great after performing. The fans. I love them so much. Whenever I see them I feel better. Is this really happening? This is not a dream. We’ve come so far. And we are going farther every time. We did this. This is our doing. I almost cried. Almost. It was time for the fan meeting. There were a lot of fans. This one guy said that our album was sold out. There were a lot of fan boys too. I feel so happy when I see them. There was this girl in the back. She caught my eye. I noticed she had a VIP pass and everything but she was waiting in the back. I couldn’t see her face. She was wearing a black hat and a black face mask. Her hair was short just above her shoulders and it was blue. Just like mine. Huh funny. She had a fashion sense. Is she a celebrity? I was lost in thought before it was her time to meet us. I was the last one she will meet. I tried seeing her face but it was helpless. Her face was always facing the opposite direction. I focused on the remaining fan that came and I signed her album. She gave me a bracelet and I put it on my hand right away. It was cute. It was blue and had a little infinity sign on it. Cute. I noticed that a girl with a black hat was wearing the same one on her right hand but it was pink. Huh what a coincidence. Before I knew it she was in front of me. Her head was hanging low. Is she shy? All the other members were looking at us. She removed the hair mask from her face and looked at me straight in the eye. Holy sweet mother of Lord.

“Long time no see Yoongi.”

Epilogue

Yoongi P.O.V.

Future

I still remember the day she came back. She looked like a totally new person. Well I am glad only her looks changed and not her cute little cuddly personality. I remember how I jumped across the table when she looked me in the eye at that fan meeting. I hugged her so hard and well to be honest I did start crying. She was the only one left. The other boys left too. They gave us some time. I guess that’s that. Her hair was soft as always. Her face was still pale but I could see the pinch of those rosy cheeks. Her plump lips covered with a purple matte lipstick. Her smile that always caught my heart like some kind of a prisoner. She was finally there. I could touch her. And I wasn’t having another mental breakdown nor was I imagining her being here. She was here. I could smell her perfume. Mint flavored I think. We talked for hours. She explained to me why she left. I was angry at first but then I saw her crying and I saw that I was not the only one in pain.

The part that is the best part in all of this is that she was the anonymous composer. And now I can see her every day. I can talk to her. Give her many cuddles. And criticize her work if necessary. I am standing okay with myself now. I’m not seeing Somin anymore. I mean yeah we see each other when we hang out but I don’t have any more sessions.

All of us moved in a big apartment complex that we paid for quite a lot to be honest. Well at least I am sharing it with (Y/N). We talked about having children but decided that it will be for the best we have it after I finish my time in the army. That way I could see he child grow up. I saw that they will be shutting down the army for idols but it will start in 2022. And I enlist in 2021. So it will still make me go to the army. Gosh two years in the army I think I’ll die there.

Currently I am at (Y/N)’s studio. I am waiting for her to finish the song so we can go on a date that I have been planning to take her out on ever since she came back. She was all dressed up. She had an elegant ocean blue dress that suit her well. Her hair was in tied in a bun. She had eyeliner and some shade of pink eyeshadow. Her lips were covered with a lipstick that matched the color of her dress. She’s been telling me she will be done in 5 minutes for the past 20 minutes. But what can I do? I can just sit back and watch her. I was dressed in a simple black suit. To be honest we didn’t dress ourselves. Hoseok did. That boy really loves fashion. Oh yeah since we are talking about fashion Taehyung is considering to sign with Gucci. That boy is going crazy right now in his room. I guess? And Jimin is going to sign with Chanel probably. They talked about it with him.

(Y/N) turned around in her chair and stood up grabbing her phone and purse.

“Okay, Yoongi I’m ready. Should we go? Sorry to keep you waiting.”

“It’s okay baby. Let’s just go. We don’t wanna be late for our reservation do we?”

“Okay baby.” She wrapped her hand around mine and we left. We went to this restaurant. It was very fancy and expensive. Only a few people were there now so it was good. Well good for me. The waiter led us to our table and we ordered some food and wine. I have been cracking my knuckles ever since we arrived.

“Yoongi-ah do you have something to tell me? Is there something wrong?” she asked and raised her eyebrow.

“It’s nothing.”

“Did you break some of my things so you are taking me out on a date like this? What was it? Was it my earphones? If it was I can always get new ones.”

“No I didn’t break anything I swear.”

“Spill it then.”

“Come on don’t make it hard for me I am already sweating like crazy.”

“Fine. The food is here.” The food arrived and we started eating. She talked about random stuff and soon the desserts arrived.

“Yoongi-ah?”

“Yes?”

“Are you gonna propose already?” she played with her cake and I choked on my piece of strawberry cheese cake.

“W-what?” I tried to swallow the cake.

“You told Taehyung about it. Taehyung. My best friend. Who tells me every single thing?”

“Damn it. I told him to keep quiet now it’s ruined. God damn it.”

“You can still try?”

“Fine.” I kneeled on one knee and opened a little box revealing a small white gold diamond ring. “(Y/N)(L/N) will you do the honor of becoming my wife in the future?”

“Sure, if you promise not to tell Taehyung next time you want to surprise me.”

“I promise.” I said and put a ring on her finger. She stood up and I wrapped my arms around her waist kissing her soft lips. The people now stopped eating and cheered to us.