Chapter Text
Hello, it's Yoongi here. Today is 24th June, 2007.
I don't know how to start a "diary" entry. I don't even know why I have a diary. I wanted to have a book of memories, but my life isn't that interesting. I should call this a notebook instead of diary.
Today I have decided that I will study and become a music producer in the future, because I really like music, and I want to be helpful to my family. My mom always took really good care of me, and so did my dad and older brother, so I want to retribute when I am older. I don't know where I am going to find inspiration, I hope in the future I figure myself out a bit more.
Now I am 14 years old. People say I'm wise for my age. Usually kids don't really care about diaries until they turn 16 or so. Some won't ever care. But since I want to be a music producer, I think it's going to be important for me to know where I'm coming from.
▬▬ι══════════════ι▬▬
Hello, it is later in the evening, same day. I have been thinking the whole day how honest I want to be in this diary. But if this is something I am going to use in the future, shouldn't I be completely honest?
So... I have been thinking. I am scared of even putting these thoughts on paper. But yes, I have been thinking... in the grown up world, are couples supposed to be only one man and one woman? I have seen two women, or two men, together, but people always comment and say mean things. I haven't figured this out, and I think about this a lot, but I can't ask my family this. I am scared.
I am scared because I don't see the problem with me, as a man, being in love with a man. As I don't see a problem with me being in love with a woman. When I was 10 I had a crush on a boy. Last week I had one on a girl at my school.
This is probably just me being dumb, or confused. But I have been thinking about this a lot.