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「the first time」
the 10 year old yoongi didn’t know kids around his age who lived nearby and he was always alone when his parents went to work. it was a habit that yoongi waited for them, sitting in his porch swing playing with his robots. it was a Thursday and that day was different. instead of the usual screech of his parents car, he heard the horn of a moving-van. new neighbors! this was when he met jimin, a kid around his age (what yoongi assumed).
they became friends, and their families became close. sleepovers and yoongi helping jimin with homeworks. they became best friends in the months that followed and yoongi didn't want to lose jimin ever. the young boy had one option. that he can marry jimin so jimin will always stay by his side.
but he didn't propose. what 9 year old will accept a proposal from an 11 year old yoongi?
「the second time」
he was 15 now. and jimin 13.
yoongi went to a private school for musical geniuses and jimin went to a public one. yoongi stayed at their boarding house as his parents are too busy to spend time with him. he felt alone.
he still talked to jimin but that was only a 20 minute call that he was allowed per week that his parents doesn't want to spend time on.
jimin talked about how much he missed him. “i have no one to have sleepovers with now. please come back hyung.” the 13 year old sniffled.
“hyung will come back for his jimin”
everytime when jimin fussed about not being able to see him, yoongi wanted to tell jimin, even if jimin didn't understand, that they would get married so no one can separate them.
but yoongi thought he'd be acting on his selfish motives because jimin is not a prize to win.
their calls turned into 2 calls per week and sending letters to each other once yoongi turned 15.
always yours
jiminnie
i can wait when he is all grown up. even if he doesn't understand the concept of love, he will soon. yoongi thought then.
jimin’s letters were full of warmth; and sometimes he had sent a new picture of him doing a silly pose and yoongi had pasted them on his side of the wall in his shared-bedroom.
yoongi knew that he was in love with this boy.
「the third time」
yoongi was sent to live with his aunt and uncle right after his 10th year. he didn't have a chance to meet jimin.
yoongi was accepted into 11th grade from a prestigious school in seoul, and that meant he had less chances to see his jimin.
a year passed and the younger did complain and begged his parents to let him go and meet yoongi who was in seoul.
yoongi didn't agree nor did the other’s parents. jimin sulked for days and yoongi decided that he could go and visit. though getting permission from his aunt was a difficult task, he managed to get one in return for explaining how much park jimin means to yoongi on a powerpoint presentation. his aunt cried and said she was only joking because she was initially going to let him go meet jimin.
stumbling on his words, his cheeks a blushed mess, yoongi managed to thank her over and over.
he knew where jimin lived.
he had not seen jimin un three years. now the blonde hair was dyed to a brown, which brought out the chocolate in his pretty eyes.
“hyung”
jimin flew into his hands and pressed a brief kiss onto yoongi’s neck-or that must be something that yoongi thought.
friends can kiss each other on the neck right?
yoongi stayed overnight and jimin’s bed is too small for both of them now.
“you haven't cuddled me in a century” yoongi watched in amusement as jimin tried to hide his nervousness.
“a century has 100 years, jiminie”
“not my point” jimin said and climbed into the bed. he was squashed flush against the wall to ‘give more space to hyung’
they didn't sleep that night. they just lied together, in each other's embrace and talked about the things they had forgotten to mention or about their studies and families.
yoongi had a few to say about his family. but he is happy that jimin is happy with his family.
i can still wait. he is only 15.
「 the fourth time 」
it was after yoongi’s senior graduation. jimin came bringing a bouquet of daisies. this time he was allowed to travel alone.
“remember how you call me daisies? i brought fifty of them with me” jimin kissed on his cheek. yoongi felt the tip of his ears turn red.
“you will always be my daisy, idiot” yoongi tried to play it cool. “even if you turn eighty and your skin is saggy, you will always be my pretty daisy” yoongi ruffled the younger’s hair. he had dyed it again. it was a mix of ginger and dirty blonde. somehow matches with his own mop of mint, yoongi mused.
“do you love anyone?” it was a sudden question, one that yoongi was not ready for.
you.
“yeah, i have let my heart skip lots of beats upon hearing from someone, if that's something you can call love, then yeah”
“huh?”
“you'll know when you grow old like me, jiminie” yoongi smiled.
“i am very old. i am an old man. see, i even have a chipped tooth like old people do” he watched the younger pout and yoongi wanted to hold him.
silly jiminie.
he wanted to express how he felt about jimin. he could.
he wanted to ask jimin to wait for him, so he can get a job, get settled and make jimin very happy. but jimin was still so young and yoongi didn't want to burden him with his feelings.
they celebrated jimin’s 16th birthday going on jimin’s first date . it was jimin’s idea and yoongi was happy to spend time with him.
「the ffifth time」
after six years and both jimin and yoongi was living in seoul, in their own apartments. yoongi had been a little jealous whenever jimin mentions another guy. this was how yoongi felt when jimin used to call him when he was in highschool, too.
maybe yoongi was a bit jealous.
“hyung. please come over”
“what's going on?”
“i think i am in love”
yoongi didn't want to hear those words coming from jimin, not because he didn't want jimin to be happy, but because it broke his heart.
imagining jimin , /his jimin/ saying ‘i love you’ to someone was something he cannot process. he knew he was being selfish for wanting jimin. but he was an adult, and so was jimin who had his own life too, new friends and good people around him.
yoongi was going to confess his love on jimin’s 22nd birthday. now yoongi he is working and he is not living on his parents money.
he wanted to confess his love even if he got rejected.
he wanted to be there for his best friend. he cannot be selfish right now.
“i am in love, hyung” jimin screamed when he met yoongi.
“yeah yeah, let's hear about this mr.amazing” if jimin was not pacing and hopping around, he'd have felt the stingy tone.
well, the fourth time failed too. maybe he won't think of asking jimin to be his ever. maybe it's better if they stayed friends.
「the fifth time」
it was the night before he left for his military training.
“hyung, don't go. please. i'll be alone”
“i will be back soon, jiminie. you even have your woosung. you guys probably will send me an invitation to your wedding while stationed there” yoongi said through his tears and kissed jimin’s cheek.
he was happy for jimin. he should be.
i will always love you, sunshine.
“you know?” jimin’s voice sounded stuffy from crying.
“what?”
“that I love you, a lot. hyung, you are my everything. i literally won't survive for two years without you. you are the one i truly am in love with ” jimin sobbed into yoongi’s chest. he couldn't listen to his crying.
“i love you, too, sunshine. and you are my everything, too. let's meet after two years and if you still love me, i will make you mine” yoongi was happy that it wasn't a one sided love.
two years will pass soon.
「the final time」
“will you marry me sunshine?” they were on yoongi’s bed and it's been a while since yoongi returned from his training.
“of course, hyung”
it was also the first night they made love.
“i saved my first kiss for you hyung. i never kissed anyone...i mean they kissed me but i never kissed them back” jimin traced yoongi’s lips.
“god, i love you so fucking much”
“i fucking love you so much too. and i love you fucking me”
“yah! park jimin. this is a romantic night”
jimin giggled and buried his nose in yoongi’s neck.
“let's have the wedding before i leave for my training?”
“let's just get married as soon as possible. without all that wedding jazz and expenses. we can travel to hawaii for our honeymoon”
“sounds like a plan”
they lived happily, and they adopted a child five years later and they named the child min ji hoon.