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"Come out!! I know you're there you fucking peeping brat!!!" I said while looking at the bushes where I was currently standing...
"Hehehe.. oh man And here I thought that I was not seen." He said while standing from the behind the tree he was hiding...
"And what do you think are you doing spying on me?"
"Aaah.. nope I was already here when you and that chick decide to have some confession program... and I did not mean to eavesdrop I just don't know when to get out here without you both noticing but I guess I failed..." he said with a cheeky smile on his face...
I sigh.. "Whatever!" And walk past him.
.....
"Leeeevviiiiii!!" Hanji shriek and he notice me walking down the hall... and jump on me without minding how heavy she is...
"The fuck haji get off me, your fucking heavy.." I said while trying to untangle her arms around my neck..
"Ohhh Levi I need to hear every detail of the 50th love confession..." she said with gleaming eyes..
"Don't want to, and why do you even want to know.. stk.."
"Well one reason is you reject all those confessions, second all who have confessed to you fall more in love with you.. and third you comfort them by telling that you know how they feel.. and you know I know that you really do since you have this cr-mmmhhhhp" I cover her mouth before she said anything unnecessary.
"Shut up or I'll shove my fist down in your throat!!" I said while glaring at her.
And she just started laughing... I walk faster before she even thinks about following me.
"Well... you never fail to amaze me Hanji.. you can piss off Levi without him killing you.." Eren said with a sigh..
"Ha! That was a good laugh.. and what are you doing here didn't you say that you're going home early today..." she said eying Eren.
"Don't tell me you sneak and listen to How to reject confession Levi style 101?"
I laugh "Am I that easy to read?" He smiles sheepishly..
"Aha! You didn't expect him to be gentle are you?" I nod "No.. I mean I do but.... but.-" "But not this way? Like he was gentle not to break a ball glass, that those girls tried to force him to hold?" Hanji interrupted..
"Y-yeah... I mean... he can have the best and beautiful girls in school falling for him but still refuse their confession and instead of them having a fit about him rejecting them flatly without giving a chance.. they still fall more in love with him..."
Hanji look at him with calculating eye like he was looking through his heart.. Eren shifted uncomfortably in the silence...
"You're jealous?" And she laughs again.
"I'm not and why would I be jealous.. I have a girlfriend you know..."
"I don't know, but ask your self why.. .. "she said grinning like she knows some He doesn't know...
"And to answer to your question.. He's rejecting them because he knows how it feels to have unrequited love.. He makes sure he explain it to everyone who confesses to him that he to feel how they feel.. And he envied their courage to step up and tell their feelings to him.. because he can't do that.."
"He-he's in love with someone? and he's not confessing? that's dumb.. I never know Levi could be this coward..." Eren ask like its not possible...
"You know if I don't know you and if Levi won't throw a fit if I hit you.. I would be swinging my fist to you right now... and you may think that He is a coward and dumb but He's not. He's afraid.. It's not my place to say this but Levi has sacrificed too many for that idiot... So don't you dare say that he's a coward or dumb." Hanji said with anger lace on her voice..
"I- I'm sorry.. I didn't mean it like that... I mean why did he try to confess and maybe that person is waiting for him to do the first move too. I mean yeah.."
"Why don't you ask him and tell him what you told me.. maybe he can have some courage since your his "best friend"... do that before its too late..." Hanji said while quoting the word Best friend..
"Too late for what?"... "He's going back.. and not coming back.." she said
"...."
"He what? He's going back?"
"You heard me so if you want to confess whatever you feel and ask whatever question you have in your heart.. then this is the best time..." she said snickering..
"I-what do mean confess..." I don't even know what I feel.. he said mumbling...
"It's your call... but if you change your mind, he's in the music room by the piano..." said and walk away leaving Eren with confusing feeling and mind...
Eren POV
Oh, He's here... I was standing outside the window of the music room as he plays those notes... it was a sad melody until...
"Forgive me
I may have said things
That aren't exactly
The way that I feel
Is that...
I told you I'd be strong
I said that I moved on
But it doesn't take long
To realize
That I'm not over you
But if there is somebody that makes you feel happy
Tends to your heart in the ways I'd been lacking
Then who am I, who am I to stand in your way
Wow... I did not know he has a good voice and that song...
To stand in your way
To stand in your way
I won't stand in your way
Why I feel like crying??
I know it sounds crazy
But I need you to trust me
If it's how it must be
Then I'll fade away
When it finally feels true
Then do what you have to
Cause I'd never blame you
For not choosing me
But I'm not over you
But if there is somebody that makes you feel happy
Tends to your heart in the ways I've been lacking
Then who am I, who am I to stand in your way
That I feel is no longer your burden
I did not notice that I am already crying as the song goes on...
Why does it feel like it was me who he was talking to.. but I know its impossible...
I stayed there until he finishes the song and left the school.
I did not sleep that night thinking... Until I walk into the school and my classmates found cd's in their shoe locker... but when I open mine...
I drag my heavy feet into the classrom.. my classmates have been going on and on about the CDs.. it has their names.. with a note of thanks from... Levi...
But why I don't have mine did he forget about me? He leaves without saying a word or even call or text. Damn!!... He's been my friend for almost... wait I should ask Hanji.
So I head towards the 3rd year's floor and find Hanji standing in the door and it seems she's waiting for me...
She smiles at me... a sad one.. Hanji has never looked like this...
"So you did not talk to him till the end yeah?" She sounds so sad...
"So it was true? He-he left?"
"Yes this morning and he want me to give you this..." she handed me a paper bag and left.
For the whole day, I can't seem to focus on the lesson...
When I get home I get straight to my room... I open the package and see 4 CDs with my name on it and a note...
" Je suis désolé que je dois partir sans rien dire .. mais merci et je t'aime.
Levi."
That day I cried as I listen to levis singing voice...
Why.. why.. I haven't noticed it... why I let it slip through my grasp now he's gone.... gone...
That night I dream about Levi:
"Eren, can I talk to you later.. I have something I want to tell you.." he said to me once...
"Ah.. sorry Levi I got a hot date today so maybe next time is it very important?"
"A-ah.. no. don't mind me and enjoy your date.." he said
And the second time he asks again but I brush it off and introduced him to my new girlfriend.. same as the other time too... The Levi in my dream now looks so sad and empty... now that I think about it I never let him say what he wants to say to me...
I woke up crying again that day because...
The thing that I am afraid to happen is already happening... I lost my best friend and my love...
He loves me... why didn't I listen to him why did I avoided him...
...after that day... I broke up with my current girlfriend and told her she deserves someone else better than me and I love my best friend. I received two slaps and told me that I am dumbass for letting him go without hearing or saying anything... but I think I deserve it...
And I promise that I will find him.... even if its too late...