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2018-08-08
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Denis

Summary:

I just want you to know, you are loved.

Notes:

After he skated his Free Program at the 2017 Trophee de France where he fell in almost all of his jumps he ended up with a badly wounded hand.

Seeing this, all of it just started to sink in.

How he fought hard despite of his injuries, how he was hurt by his bashers (“There is no perfect success story. Ups and downs, injuries, bad and good impressions. It's a collection of everything.” - Denis Ten - The Figure Skater Who Put Kazakhstan on the Map - GameBreakers), how he's still smiling even if there's a period in time where he keeps going back from California to Almaty because his father is sick, how he went to PyeongChang against all odds, how he looks so disappointed after his SP there and ended at 27th place, not even making it to the Free Skate portion of the competition, how he still thought of Kazakhstan even if he's hurting, his hope that he'll be able to do more for Kazakhstan next season...

It's now gone.

I feel so guilty because I didn't give myself a chance to appreciate and get to know him more when he's still alive.

And angry too because no matter how many buckets I cry for him no matter how many videos of him I watch, he'll never come back...

If only watching his videos would be like a call to get him back I'll watch millions of it.

I just want to express how sorry I am for I never get to appreciate him more as a skater and as a person when he's still alive. That's why this poem was made. If it's badly written, I'm so sorry, author is just swept with feelings.

(See the end of the work for more notes.)

Work Text:

He might be laughing

But is his heart also smiling?

He always gives a lending hand

But are we sure he doesn't need helping?

He might not be crying

But on the inside his world must be crumbling

He says you should take it easy

But he's the one who gives himself a beating



He doesn't do it for himself, that's what he says

But our hearts are too hard to notice

Against all odds he carried on

Yet here we are mumbling, “Next time we'll watch you for sure.”

Time and time again he knocked in our hearts

But we just shooed him away, “We'll see you for another day.”



And then one day the world stopped

When the echo of his blades were mummed

We can only cry in shock

As his wings were abruptly cut

We can only beat ourselves

As we lost a chance to say “Bravo!”

It's just so sad to comprehend

We didn't notice his bleeding heart

But noticed a stabbed femoral artery that left him bleeding to death

Notes:

We miss you Denis. You are loved.