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"Hyung,please stop being such a kid" Taehyung whines,pushing Seokjin away when he tries to do silly dances to him "We're supposed to be practicing right now"
Seokjin pouts,crossing his arms "But this is boring~"
"Hyung," Jimin sighs,stopping his dance moves to turn and look at Seokjin "our comeback is near and you've barely learned the choreography yet.Stop playing around and start practicing "
Frowning,Seokjin shakes his head "Excuse you,i did practice and has probably learned like, more than half of the choreography!"
Scowling,Yoongi glares at Seokjin "Hyung,even if you don't want to practise,don't bother the others who wants to," he huffs heavily from the hard choreography , "act more like your age"
Slumping in defeat,Seokjin pokes his tongue out at yoongi and moved to a corner to practice the dance like he was told to.
Even though his body is dancing,his mind somehow couldn't get rid of all the words from his members earlier.
And all the comments he read about him.
It's not a secret to him that his personality annoys people a lot.Even fans.
Huffing heavily from both the thought and the moves,Seokjin shakes his head,trying hard to shake the useless thoughts away
'So annoying'
--
Laying on his bed,Seokjin groans as his body aches just from reaching out his hand to take his phone on the table next to his bed.
Opening a browser and searching his name up,Seokjin chuckles as hate comments expectedly floods in.
He knows there's no point in doing this and that people write hateful things just to make you feel bad but if it's to the point where even his members tells him he's annoying then he guesses the things that people comments aren't very far from the truth,are they?
Seokjin's eyes scans the comments, laughing humourlessly when he notices that the word 'annoying' and 'too childish' is often said in the comments.
Looking back to just after they debuted,Seokjin was still really shy and conscious of the cameras,awkward and not knowing what to say or do in front of fans and cameras.He wasn't the moodmaker,he was just the face of the group.The visual.
The one that sits there and barely sings or talks.
As he grows older and gets used to his surroundings,he started getting more open and friendly.So of course he's proud of himself for changing from someone that could be called useless to someone who actually matters.
But does he really matter? His lines are still little to none.Really,the only thing that changed is that he's more outgoing.But what if his fans hates that he changed?
What if his members hates that he changed?
What if he's actually much better when he's just sitting there and keeping up his position as the visual of the group?
"Jin hyung!!" Hoseok frowns at Seokjin when he finally focuses his eyes on Hoseok, "Are you okay?"
Jin frowns and looks around "what?"
"You've been dazed out for like,minutes and it was legit scaring me out.." Hoseok sighs "are you tired?You were staring at your phone even though it's pitch black and turned off"
Seokjin grins weakly,shaking his head "I was just deep in thought.What do you want?"
Hoseok hums but his face still disbelieving, eyes scanning Seokjin's face as if trying to read his mind "We're going to order some takeouts,let's go and eat"
Smiling,Seokjin nods and singsongs in the greatest cheerful voice he could muster "Sure,I'll go downstairs in a minute~"
Hoseok is still frowning but he doesn't seem so weirded out anymore so it's fine.It's fine.
Seokjin releases a soft shaky breath when Hoseok finally walks away from his room,shaking his head to get rid of the haze in his head.
Seokin smiles sadly and sighs for the umpteenth time ,finally deciding that the best way to make everyone around him happy and comfortable with him again is to just be his 2013 self.
The visual Kim Seokjin.
--
As soon as he walks down,he's greeted by the smell of pizzas and the old Seokjin would have ran and scream giddily but he holds himself back and instead walks steadily down the stairs into the living room and sits delicately next to Jungkook
"Oh,hyung~ Here's your pizza" Namjoon grins,dimples showing off and Seokjin smiles,hands almost reaching out to pinch his cheeks but he didn't. He took the plate of pizzas and eats quietly without making a noise
The others chatted while Seokjin sits there,watching them talk and giggling at some of the comments made. Just like how he was back then.
Taehyung looks around weirdly, before gasping "ahh! I was wondering why it feels so quiet and peaceful~ Turns out Seokjin hyung has been quiet this whole time, no wonder"
Seokjin pouts and lets out a small giggle,making Jungkook frown at him. Why? Did he do something wrong? Did he make them disappointed again? He should've done better. Should've done better to make them happy and not have the look Jungkook is giving him right now.
"...You..are weird tonight" Jungkook mutters, frowning and wondering what happened because usually by now Taehyung would've already been smacked and yelled at about gibberish things. Something Seokjin does that Jungkook and they all find funny and obnoxiously adorable.
"What do you mean?" Seokjin frowns, heart hammering against his chest,did he make them disappointed again? He really is useless.
Jungkook opens his mouth as if to speak but thinks better of it,closing his mouth and giving Seokjin a grin "You look extra handsome,maybe that's why"
Seokjin seems to blush at that but instead of the usual narcissistic reply,he ducks his head and continues eating.
Okay,this is getting really concerning. Something's definitely wrong. Jungkook inhales shakily and looks around the room to find the others looking at each other confusedly as well. Looks like he's not the only one who noticed the complete change in attitude.
Seokjin swallows his last piece of pizza and puts his plate down in the sink "I'm going upstairs"
Yoongi hums,trying his hardest not to stare at Seokjin's weird behaviour
"...Did..did something happened that im not aware of?" Namjoon asks, staring down at his plate of pizza
"Maybe he's just feeling a little down after the harsh practicing all day long today.." Hoseok says,he himself sounding unsure
"If that's the case then he should be back to normal after a good rest,I hope" Yoongi says, his tone uncaring but his face saying the exact opposite.
"I hope so.." Jimin sighs,biting his lower lips in worry
--
The smell of coffee swift through the dorm as Seokjin sits on the couch with a cup of coffee.
Taehyung walks into the living room and not so subtly stares at Seokjin as if trying to figure out what he's thinking of right now "Oh,hyung. Good morning~"
Seokjin smiles gently at Taehyung and mutters back a soft good morning.
He skips to the couch and plops himself down next to Seokjin "What's for breakfast~?"
"There's some toast I made in the kitchen" Seokjin replies, still as quiet as ever.
Fuck,so yesterday wasn't a dream. And hyung wasn't just tired after all. This is horrible. And fucked up. Taehyung groans to himself and stands up before making his way into the kitchen
Taehyung tries to think of all the possibilities that might be the reason why his beloved hyung changed so drastically.
'Maybe this is a prank?' Taehyung muses to himself, hoping that it would actually be true because he finds that he's actually afraid to know the real reason
He's still deep in thought when Jimin and Jungkook walks in and takes a toast each,chewing on them with solemn expressions on their faces
"Jin hyung is still like that" Jungkook whispers sadly,
"I thought about it and.. what if this is just a prank?" Taehyung says, trying to lighten up the mood
Jimin laughs softly, shaking his head fondly at Taehyung "You know that's impossible.Jin hyung isn't this heartless to make us dead worried"
"..He's a great actor, so we wouldn't really know.." Taehyung mutters, still wanting to believe the not so harsh possibility.
"A great actor that still doesn't have a single drama that he's in" Jungkook mutters darkly, frowning "He deserves to be in thousands of dramas"
Jimin opens his mouth to reply but cuts himself off when the remaining three gets into the kitchen as well
"Where's hyung?" Yoongi asks,looking around the kitchen briefly before taking a toast
"Wasn't he in the living room?" Jimin asks, raising an eyebrow
Shaking his head, Hoseok frowns "He wasn't "
"I guess he went into his room" Taehyung says, leaning back into his chair
"Wait, is he still like that?" Namjoon widens his eyes, looking around at the three maknaes' sad faces/p>
At the nods that he got from the three, Namjoon groans "Gosh, we have to film a variety show today. I wonder if it's going to be okay"
"I'm worried about him.." Yoongi mutters, pausing his chewing to glance at Seokjin's room
"Aren't we all?"
--
The atmosphere in the van is stiffling. It used to be the perfect time for them to play around and joke with each other but it's just suffocating now. No one is speaking.
No sound of laughters, no chatters, no shouting.
Absolutely no dad jokes.
Suffocating, Jungkook never knew it was possible to feel so suffocated just by being in an atmosphere like this.
Seokjin closes his eyes,since his fans are annoyed by him too maybe it's best for him to keep quiet again just like back then.
Seokjn jerks awake when someone shakes his shoulder. Looking to his right, he saw Yoongi smiling his gummy smile at him, making him smile softly as well. He grabs his things before getting out of the van, letting the others out.
As soon as everything is settled and the camera is turned on, Seokjin immediately puts on his smiling mask.
Throughout the filming, Seokjin either just laughs -not forgetting to hide them behind his hands- or slides in a few comments or just doing small skinships -fanservices- with his members.
The atmosphere is great again now that Seokjin wasn't being so uptight and quiet,making the others instantly quiet as well.
They had fun and actually wishes the time would stop because Seokjin seems to be more like his old cheerful self when the camera is on,though it was just a little and even though it may just be because he doesn't want to worry people or for fanservices,they're happy enough to have his -almost- old self back.
They should have known that as soon as the cameras are turned off, Seokjin would return to his weird quiet self.
As soon as the cameras turned off and the director yells cut, Seokjin slips his arm that was wrapped around Jungkook's shoulder away and steps away from his members "I'm getting changed first"
Jungkook stares at Seokjin before walking to the changing room as well, his eyes glassy "Does he need to be so cold?"
Walking along Jungkook, Taehyung sighs and ruffles Jungkook's hair fondly "We'll try to find out why he changed as fast as we can and get our Jin hyungie back,don't worry"
"We will absolutely get him back, no matter what"
--
After all of their schedules finally ends, Seokjin plops down on his bed, grateful that they all have their own individual rooms now -except for hoseok and jimin who chose to be roommates- since he can be more free and browse anyhing he wants without any of them peeking over his shoulder
As is usual lately, Seokjin searched his name up and found people talking about their recent shows
'Jin seems to be quieter than before >< ahh my dream came true~The annoying jin is finally gone! He's a little more bearable now~'
'Ah,the bitch is being quiet lately, maybe he realised that no one actually likes him~?'
'Jin was so quiet :( is he tired?I hope he gets lots of rests!'
'People are so mean'
'Quiet jin is far more attractive than the loud uncle-like jin kkkk'
Smiling satisfied, Seokjin sighs in relief as the people seems to like him better like this. Even though he's sorry for making his fans worry, he needs to do this. For his members and for the people around him.
It's tiring,but Seokjin could keep it up if that means it'd make people happy
--
"Oh my gosh, it's been days. Seokjin hyung is still being weird!!" Jimin cries, pulling on his hair, frustrated
"There's really nothing we can do" Taehyung sighs, " I tried to talk to him and cheer him up but that didn't work"
"Gosh,I miss him" Hoseok groans, hiding his face in his knees
"I tried to observe him and find out what's going on but couldn't find any clue what" Yoongi says, leaning his body on the wall as he sits on the floor of the dance room with his other members
"I'm tired, this is killing me" Namjoon whines,his eyes glassy
Jungkook lets out a shaky breath before standing up and stomping out of the room, making the others stare after him
"Is he okay?" Hoseok frowns,
"He must've missed jin hyung a lot. You know how much he loves him, they used to be inseperable" Yoongi says, closing his eyes "Just let him be"
--
Jungkook peeks in and saw Seokjin sitting on his bed with his back to him, not noticing that someone came in.
He frowns as he looks closer and saw Seokjin's frame shaking. Walking carefully to the older one, he peeks over his shoulder and almost yanks the phone away from Seokjin when he saw that he's looking at comments of him. Hate comments to be more specific. The comments may be praising him but saying 'loud jin is annoying as fuck but lately he's so quiet~ He looks attractive now' isn't really a praise, is it?
After some seconds of observing him, Jungkook sighs, "Jin hyung"
Seokjin jumps and whips around to look at Jungkook after closing his phone in a hurry, probably hoping Jungkook didn't see anything but by the way his face falls, it's probably obvious from Jungkook's expression that he saw everything.
"Jungkook-"
"Hyung," Jungkook takes a breath, eyes already glassy "Is that what you were doing everyday in your room? Looking at hate comments?"
Seokjin closes his mouth, looking down at his lap
"The reason why you aren't eating much anymore. Is it because of them?" Jungkook's voice shakes as he sits down infront of Seokjin, his legs feeling weak as he takes all of it in
Seokjin doesn't seem to have anything to say, continuing to stare at his lap
"Answer me, hyung" Jungkook cries, teardrops pouring down his face
That seems to do the work as Seokjin immediately looks up and frowns at the sight of Jungkook crying
"I- I made you disappointed again, didn't I?" Seokjin asks shakily, trying to hold his own tears in "I should have-"
"I have never," he hiccups, "felt disappointed of you, Hyung. What are you saying?"
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry for not being good enough" Seokjin finally cries, his own tears falling down his face "I'm sorry for being too annoying and not acting my age"
Pulling his oldest Hyung into a hug, Jungkook buries his head into Seokjin's shoulder "I- we love you just the way you are. The loud and funny hyung"
Crying harder, Seokjin holds onto Jungkook's shirt tightly "I'm sorry,I'm sorry-"
Shaking his head, Jungkook shakes his head, trying to stop his tears so that he could speak better "Stop apologising! You did nothing wrong"
"It was all my fault" Seokjin cries,hiccuping
Jungkook sighs,patting Seokjin's back to calm him down and listens as Seokjin's breathing evens out as times passes, his own tears already stopped, only the traces of dried tears left on his face
Seokjin pulls away from the hug and looks at Jungkook in the eye "God, I'm sorry-"
Jungkook frowns and cuts Seokjin off "No more saying sorry!"
Seokjin bites his lips,voice small "..yeah"
Letting out a relieved sigh, Jungkook smiles at Seokjin "Just, promise me to never read any of these stupid hate comments anymore"
Smiling back, Seokjin nods. Jungkook rubs his nape and says "What happened anyways? If you don't want to talk about it, you don't have to but remember we are all always here to hear you out."
"..I was.. just- I noticed people say I'm annoying a lot and thought that maybe- maybe if I changed to be a quieter person, people would be happy" Seokjin says shakily, looking at anything but Jungkook
Jungkook frowns as he remembers about the day in the practice room the night before Seokjin suddenly changed "Gosh. Gosh, we did that to you too, didn't we?I'm so sorry oh my gosh-"
"It's okay. I was just being overdramatic"
"You weren't." Jungkook once again pulls Seokjin into a hug "I'm sorry- I- I hope you know we love you a lot just the way you are. Our teasings are sometimes too much and might've hurted you,and I'm sorry for that too"
Seokjin accepts the hug, laughing softly
"I love you too"
--
As soon as the others came back from dance practice, they were greeted by the sight of Seokjin and Jungkook cuddling on the couch, apparently waiting for them to come back.
As expected, when Seokjin explains everything, he once again cries, making the others cry along with him and pulling everyone into a hug
They ended up as a pile of sobbing mess in the middle of living room but Seokjin finds that he doesn't really mind even with people wiping their snots and tears on each other's shirts because as long as they're all here,
Everything is going to be fine.