Work Text:
He was pushed away, again. The second time he fell in love with someone and the only reaction he got, was pushed away. A fact which hurt and made him sad and angry at the same time. Desperado couldn't understand why. There was no reason for him, why Kushida should take distance between them. Well Kota doesn't love him back, but only because his heart beats for someone else. Let's be honest, he definitely hadn't a real chance against Omega. And he couldn't disapprove Kota for that, but Kushida wouldn't give him any chance. Every fucking try bounced off of him and the gaze he got from him begat dislike.
The only thing Despy wanted was to knew why. Why Kushida hates him. It's not like he was a monster or something, he wasn't. Well Suzuki-Gun, his teammates, there wasn't a group of innocent people but he also wasn't innocent. Indeed he wasn't like Suzuki oder maybe one of the others if they treated some of the young lions. Despy did his job in the ring and hell his job was to win. That doesn't made him to a bad person. The masked man leaned against the wall waiting for the object of his desire. All he wanted was to talk, nothing more, just talk. He followed Kushidas match on a screen, observed every move of his body. How he stretched and turned out from the grip of his opponent. It was amazing. Kushida was amazing. It doesn't surprise Desperado to see him win. Despy pressed his jaws together. He was a little bit afraid of this conversation he wants, afraid of the answer from the Time Splitter. But he was no coward, that's why Despy grabbed Kushida's arm and pulled him offside, before Kushi even noticed what's going on. With great certainty, the masked made sure that he couldn't run away. "What the.. Desperado" Kushidas skin was sweaty and his breathe was still heavy after his match. If he was just done after the match it was no longer visible. His gaze turned into coldness and estimate. "Our match is in a few days, it shouldn't wonder if you want to give you an advantage." First hit. Before he could say anything, Kushida thought the worst about him. That wasn't fair! "I'm not here to to give me an advantage. If I want to beat you, I can do it by my own." Despys deep voice sounded confident and he believed what he said, but that was the wrong topic. "You couldn't. Not without cheat or help." His hand hit the wall right besides Kushidas head and the eyes, covered from the white contacts, get wide in rage. "Shut the fuck up!", broke it out of him. Fuck... Thats wasn't what he wanted, but he couldn't have that way. Kushida imputed to him things that weren't real. Yeah sometimes his teammates helped him but it wasn't illegal if the referee doesn't see it. And in the end of the day the did the pin! "Oooh, touched a nerve, huh?", Kushida wasn't impressed about Desperados breakout there were just a little sparkle of amusement in his gaze. Despy pressed his lips together so they were only a straight line. All he wanted was a chance, but he made it so hard for him. He has to calm down, before he did or said something he would regret. So he closed his eyes and took a deep breath. "Let's not talk about that. I wanted to ask you..if you…" Wow that was embarrassing, he couldn't get out any full sentence and only made himself a fool. The Time Splitter furrowed his forehead. "If I what? There's nothing I wanted from you! You're villain, a bad person who betrays others and does everything possible to pursue their own goals. You don't care about others." Second hit. Kushidas words hurt as fuck. "You know nothing about me", he hissed these words slowly but loud enough that Kushida could hear him. Despy pushed away from the wall he deeply regretted it. How should the agony go if Kushida thought about him like this. The pain in his chest spread out and all he wanted now was to stop it. To drown in a bottle of whiskey and maybe he could forget this eyes. A last gaze at Kushidas face. "I will defeat you" And then, he added imaginary, you will regret not giving me a chance. I care about more than me, but if you wanted me like this, then you will get it!