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dear taehyung,
i miss you. you found me when i was small and invisible. you picked me up when i’m low and brought me back. you saved me.
you’re the sun in my universe, and i revolve around you. you light up my life and gave me a reason to keep going.
you cried with me, laughed with me, experienced life’s ups and downs with me. you, my rock, were always there and we conquered the world together. we were unstoppable, a force to be reckoned with.
you were my ride or die.
but.
my sun, you’re drifting away. in this universe without you, it’s so cold and dark.
the cold forces the air out of my breath; i’m gasping for air. can’t breathe. without you.
i’m scared. the dark is a million times more terrifying without you. monsters grab at me. where are you?
i can’t stop crying. please, come back. i’m paralysed. can’t move. without you.
i’m scared to explore the universe without you, my lighthouse. i can’t see anything. where are you?
i itch, fidget. sweat beads rolls down and my breath quickens. my leg bounces and my vision spins. my head pounds. i’m hyperventilating. i can’t breathe. can’t live. without you.
i’m insecure. i don’t dare to leave my shell. where are you?
i’m fading, fading, slowly, gradually, forever.
did i do something wrong? i’m sorry.
please come back.
i miss you.
i love you.
love,
jeongguk