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When I pull out the garage, I chop my top
Just like a fiend, when I start I cannot stop
I got, I got hella guap, look at me now
covered in carats
mahogany cabinets
I ball like the Mavericks
stable and stallions
massive medallions
I finally had it
The insults I get, the people who didn't believed on me, and the the bullshit I've been through. Now I'm living my dream. I received an award for rapper of the decade, cover page and news in all media, and a successful all-sold out tour.
but then you just vanished
It's been a week, you haven't return nor answer any of my call or messages. I try to contact everyone, asking where were you. Nobody knows....
or you didn't want me to know
All this stuntin' couldn't satisfy my soul
Got a hundred big faces, but I'm still alone
I had three interviews from major magazines today, it was exhausting. I made an excuse not to attend a gala party.
I finally received a text from you,
"I hope you're living your dream, good luck, Namjoon."
I tried calling your number, you already block me.
I was about to hire a private investigator to find you but my management stopped me because it will cause too much commotion. I care too much about my career
Buy me love, try to buy me love
Now I'm alone, Ice Box, Omarion
Exactly, six months since your last text. Here I'm drunk as fuck, thinking why the fuck you left me. How dare you leave me! I'm doing this for us! How could you be selfish!
Plenty sluts grabbin' on my nuts
Might have fucked, it was only lust
Public eyes are already catching up with what happened between us. I've choose to ignore all interviews about us. It's the fifth time the paparazzi caught me with some chick or dude. Different girl, or guy every night, I have to distract myself with lust just to forget about you.
I was livin' life, how could I have known?
Back then, going home after an exhausting day, seeing you waiting at the living room, or in the kitchen heating up food for me. That was the life worth living, I've realize it, but it's too late.
I couldn't listen to advice 'cause I'm never wrong.
You always told me how amazing and talented I was that I didn't need to stoop up with the level of haters or people keep on dragging me. I got mad at you, I took every supporting words and advice you gave me in the wrong way.
Hatred encapsulated in my heart, I treated everyone coldly, especially you.
In the spotlight, but I'm on my own
Back then, when I started my tour we still communicate everyday each other everyday. Until, more location added for the tour, until our timezone did not match.
I was too tired and didn't even bother calling you back.
But you still message me caring words, sweet words, and supporting words.
The only thing you asked me, is to facetime you in our anniversary. It was the only way we can celebrate it.
But I got invited to a famous producer's party. At that time, I didn't thought about what would you feel. I went to the party, while you waited for my call. I was too drunk to remember.
But now I'm too sober to forget about it....
Now they're all gone (now they're all gone)
Fame, riches and fortune got me good, my true friends gave up on me for being a dick to them. I only realized it, when you're the one who left..
I would throw it all away
I just keep on wishin' that the money made you stay
You ain't never cared about that bullshit anyway
I admit it, I was an asshole to you. I ignored you. I never thought you'll get lonely. I never thought of one day you'll leave me.
You told me all you ever wanted was a simple life with me. That was your happiness..
Which made me realize...
My happiness was you asking me to be your boyfriend.
You saying yes when I proposed to you,
Us exchanging promises, and "I do's" on our wedding day.
Us exchanging love in our honeymoon.
Our late night talks,
Our late night cuddles,
You, Kim Seokjin was my happiness.
I just keep on wishin' that the money made you stay,
All this success became greed. If only this riches and fortunes can be refunded just to be with you again..
You know I would throw it all away
I just keep on wishin' that the money made you stay
I have done everything to find you but you're too fast and runaway. The only thing I can do is hope that one day you'll come back to me...
Price went up, my price went up,
I continued living my life, luckily my career continue to succeed. But the feeling of emptiness is still here.
We went our separate ways
I heard the news....
You're happily in a new relationship and wanted to get marry.
As my gift, I've send you a signed divorce paper.
I don't even wanna go home
In a big house all alone
Time to let go of this big old house. Left untouched for to long but I didn't sell it. Hoping you might come back.
But....
Congrats with your wedding, I hope you've found your happiness as I've wasted mine.