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Dating publicity as an idol was a challenge. Dating two people publicity as an idol was unthinkable.
Taehyung couldn’t help the jealousy burning in his veins as he watched his boyfriend intertwining his fingers with yours as soon as the plane had landed and security was ready to escort the seven boys and their plus-one safely out of the airport. The US and Europe Tour, as fun and exciting it had been, drained all the energy out of Taehyung’s mind and body and all he wanted was to cuddle into his partners' warm embraces.
But cameras and the public eye meant that only Yoongi got to hold your hand and show affection towards his girlfriend. His fingers tightly wrapped around yours, the tired boys made their way through the crowd of screaming fans and Taehyung was glad to have hidden his eyes behind glasses for they suddenly teared up at the absence of your comfort.
Jimin sensed the mood of his best friend and wrapped an arm around his waist, offering support and strength.
Everyone within BigHit knew about your relationship with Yoongi and Taehyung. Some found it weird, some immoral and some simply didn’t care. You were lucky enough to be allowed to date your boyfriends at all, but from the very start Bang PD had made it very clear that a polyamorous relationship would harm the image of Bangtan and that you had to choose one of the boys to date in the public eye. Not willing to make such a decision, you had decided to keep your relationship a secret until pictures of you and Yoongi has surfaced showing you in close proximity.
So your decision had been made for you.
Your eyes naturally found Taehyung a few steps ahead of you and you could tell by the rigidity of his shoulders and Jimin’s arm around your boyfriend’s waist that he was struggling with the current situation. You felt Yoongi’s gaze on you and when you looked up you saw worry and anger swimming in his dark eyes, portraying his hatred of having to keep your relationship secret. Even though Taehyung was suffering from not being able to flaunt his boyfriend and girlfriend, you and Yoongi had always been suffering from guilt and the pain of seeing Taehyung hurt.
The moment everyone stepped into the safe walls of the dorm, Taehyung dashed towards his room, door falling shut behind him. Everyone exchanged worried looks and Yoongi and you instantly discarded all the luggage to follow your boyfriend.
Taehyung’s body was thrown onto the bed, pillow laying on his face to muffle his quiet snivels. Yoongi was the first to approach the younger’s form, bending down and gently rubbing his shoulders.
“Tae?”, he asked in a soft voice while you sat down on the other edge of the bed, mattress dipping under your weight, as you embraced his legs.
Taehyung only kept on snivelling which caused Yoongi to pull away the pillow before bending down and placing a careful kiss on the tip of his boyfriend’s nose.
“Baby, talk to us.”, he urged him on while you made comforting sounds.
Your boyfriend’s eyes were red when they focused on you two and you could not help but tear up as well, his pain hurting you too. Both boys simultaneously noticed and the next second you were enveloped in two pairs of strong arms, Yoongi humming while Taehyung had his nose buried in your hair.
“I’m sorry-”, he choked out and your fingers grabbed the back of his shirt tighter.
“I know I’m being stupid, it’s just...it’s shit. I can’t love you both the way I want to and I hate it. I hate it so much I-”, he stopped mid-sentence to hiccup. “I-I know a relationship isn’t there to flaunt but I want to write songs about you, post pictures of you and just let everyone know how you belong to me.”
Taehyung’s voice was laced with pain and your fingers caressed the back of his neck while Yoongi was thoroughly focused on his boyfriend’s words.
“I hate myself for being jealous of you, Hyung.”
Yoongi nodded in understanding and offered the younger a tight-lip smile, guilt cursing through this body. He had never planned on being the one who got to openly date you, content with just dating you in private. All three of you knew, that Yoongi should be in the place of Taehyung, for he preferred privacy while Taehyung loved to share his life with the public. The older wouldn’t have minded being in the shadows as long as his family and friends knew the truth. But the photos, a careless second, had destroyed this possibility…
If he had not hated the social construct of monogamy before, he surely did now. Taehyung’s tears and words pierced his heart and he found himself desperately wishing for the chance of change. But all three of you knew that this was hopeless thinking and all he could do was to pull the loves of his life closer and reassuring them that the price they paid for their relationship was nothing compared to the happiness, security and pure love they had gained.