[[what is even the point of existing if all it ends up is hurting
I want to go back…. to my home of nothing
where I began to form where no one could hurt me
to when I did not know what love was
to when I never seen his smile
to when I never held him in my arms and felt safe
to when I never longed for the fire he burned in me
to when I never needed to have my guard up
why did I let it down
I shouldent have
that was my first mistake when I came to exist
and I have made countless more
over and over and over
over and over and over annd over and over and over and o ver
I am making countless more even now
everything would be better without me
it would
it wou l d
the darkness should never have seeked the light
I never should have wanted form
let me back
let me forget
let me s t o p
I want it all to end
I hate how I cant
even if I try brother will bring me back
he always has
he always will
he likes to see me suffer the most
as is a god for you
to when none of them had said those words
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and suddenly the pen stopped what it was writing and the devil let out a small noise of surprise at her office door being opened, shifting the book closed as two young girls, stepped in, the both of them having paper white skin, and both in pyjamas
one with long black hair with red tips, horns atop her head almost seeming a bit too big for her right now, red dragonic scales littering her cheeks among other places like freckles the same scales going down her forearms to her hands, and such pretty eyes… one of shimmering gold and one of wicked violet, child of pitch and flame…. her dear little Carmine
the other also with long black hair yet with red underneath tied up with a simple white bow, her body littered with bruises and scars already from the fights she would start with other kids it should be noted there where a few feathers sticking to her, on the way to the office they must have ran in to one of the angels and the dear wanted a few… fresh trophies, as for her eyes they shone the same violet as her own, their second chance, Clerinet
a mask was on in an instant smile warm and motherly “now now what are you two doing up at this hour? your supposed to be asleep” she laughed standing from her desk and going to the girls
Cleri spoke first “it turned out both of us where having a bad night Mum…”
Carm second “sooo we thought we could have you read us a story? and stay with us?” she tugged on the hand of the woman who was her father
another laugh left Satanica and with ease scooped both girls in to her arms, using shadow limbs to help support them both “of course my little smoke and flame! lets get to a bed then, and after I change and tuck you both in I’ll read you the new ink and paper princess’s book you both love so much!”
and with that said the three left the room chattering away on about something, yes, even if she felt like this, she would keep on existing for not only the two with her now, but also her other children all of whom she loved so dearly, and for the ones who held her heart