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Dear Diary
I think I’ve finally figured it out. Barry and Caitlin, I mean. Or the ‘Snowbarry’ of it all.
Remember when our adventures started, back in 2014-15 or *Season* 1 as I like to call it, when I was so sure that Barry and Caitlin would end up dating. I mean the signs were all there, the glances, the stares, the smiles and the hugs, I think I would have to be blind not to pick up on it. But then nothing ever happened? Well, I stand by my thesis that they had (and let’s be honest here still have) feelings for each other, but back then I think neither of them acted on it because Barry was hung up on Iris and Caitlin still grieving Ronnie. But then after Ronnie died, I think Barry, even though finally over Iris (at least so I hoped), felt way too guilty to make a move on Caitlin. And as you know, they then ended up dating rebounds.
Why rebound, you may ask? Well, let´s see. Caitlin is grieving Ronnie and a scientist speedster shows up, with Barry she shoved her feelings deep down, with Jay, she started dating him. Dear diary, you tell me who feels like the rebound here. Good thing too, with Jay being killed in front of her and then turning out to be Zoom… what a mess that was. Now Barry and Patty´s relationship felt more real, I give you that, but still… Linda, the dark bold journalist, was definitely a rebound Iris, who helped Barry get over his obsession with her, but Patty, who does she remind you of? Fair, smart, brave, funny, shared his interests and was led into her profession because of her father´s death… you’re right, dear diary, no need to say anything more ;)
But then, dear diary, this is where my theories got upheaved. I fully expected Barry and Caitlin to get together in *season* 3, but no, Barry starts dating Iris (and you know my feelings on that…) and even their friendship starts deteriorating over the next 2 years. Now I’ve always had my suspicions that something happened between them, but since Barry was in a relationship and then got married, he put some distance between them. But here we are, Barry is still married, supposedly happily, and yet they are getting closer and closer again. The glances are back at full force, the stares, the smiles…
So dear diary, my theory that they are more distant because Barry’s married seems to be upheaved. But don’t despair, as I’ve mentioned, I have a new theory, one I think you might agree with.
You see, the changes in Barry’s personal life can’t have been the trigger, so it makes sense to analyze Caitlin’s personal life. And what do we find here? Exactly, Killer Frost. After Flashpoint, Caitlin developed powers and became Killer Frost. Even later, when she was starting to accept and control her powers, nothing changed between Barry and Caitlin, nor when she lost Killer Frost. The moment things started changing again, was when Frost was back.
So now for my long-awaited theory. I think, Barry felt so guilty that because of his decision, because of Flashpoint, he put Caitlin through the whole Killer Frost ordeal, he couldn’t really deal with it, so he had to stay away from her. There’s power in denial, diary. But when Frost came back and we, and more so Barry, learned that Frost has been a part of Caitlin since her childhood, her father’s cure for her, and not the result of Flashpoint and Barry’s actions. I think that Barry has finally been able to forgive himself and start letting go of all the guilt he’s been carrying around and now he’s finally able to let Caitlin in again and be as close to her as he used to be, hence glances, stares and smiles.
As to the future, and how this affects it, that has yet to be seen. And you may call me stupid or naive, but I think, deep down, Caitlin and Barry love each other, and one day, they will realize it, too.
As always, I’ll keep you posted on further developments, until tomorrow, dear diary
Love Cisco