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It was something to be expected. He sacrificed everything, his own life, for her. He ended the war. He even lost an eye and one arm, but he was ok with that, honestly, he just expected to die there. Die for her, it would have been a better resolution because living like this is hell, probably what he deserves.
He wasn’t executed like he expected. But he was exiled, living alone in an isolate planet. it was a rather nice place, but he was completely alone.
Right now while he was cleaning some wounds caused by an estrange creature, he was thinking about her, in truth, he was always thinking about her. Rey, he did all of this because he understood he loved her, more than anything, and he wanted to do the right thing, just for her, he even confessed his love but never got an answer, she just stared at him without saying a word.
It was to be expected, he was a disgusting creature, almost as disgusting as the one who attacked him, Rey was a goddess made of pure light, so impossibly beautiful. She was never going to love him.
He wasn’t an idiot, he saw the way the pilot looked at her, and all the pieces went together at that moment, she couldn’t say a thing, because she already loved the pilot.
He smiled, a sad smile, and stared at the sky, near here was a small village, the humanoids here were nice and welcomed him, but he decided to isolate himself. One day, while he was in the forest, getting something for dinner, he saw a big creature, so horrible he decided to go back, as soon as posible, then he saw it, a young man and a little girl, possibly his daughter, they were being attacked, without a second thought he just ran in front of the creature, he saved them.
Ben ended up badly, the fact of not having his left arm made things more difficult, but he saved them and that was the important thing.
Both of them, father and daughter, insisted to take him with them, to tend his wounds, he refused but they were to insistent that he had no choice and honestly he was feeling horrible.
Patrick was a good man, friendly and a hard worker, his daughter Daisy was five years old, she was a really sweet girl and the wife, Liss, was a beautiful mother, she was so grateful that she still had his family with her, safe and in one piece, all thanks to Ben. He felt something new in him, warm and nice, it was the feeling of doing the right thing, the feeling that he wasn't that despicable and vile. They treated his wounds and gave him some bandages so he could change them later, they insisted he stayed until he was fully recovered, but Ben refused so many times.
He left that house with a weird feeling that made his stomach recoil. He saw all he dreamed all nights, becoming true in that small family. A beautiful baby girl, a warm home, and Rey as the mother of his precious baby, his wife. He would love her so much, always make sure she knows how beautiful, how special, how perfect she is, love her all nights just like she deserved. He would live for her and his baby girl. His dreams always eded up with him in tears or him really hard.
That was a life he could never get, he didn't deserve it, he could just dream and pray that Rey could get happiness , with the pilot, even if the mere thought made him sick.
He had made all for her, even if Ben never see her again, he would make sure she is always happy and safe. He knows that, he will watch over her always.
He didn't regret a thing.