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Natasha,
It’s been four days without you. Wanda suggested that I write what I’m feeling in this notebook. Apparently it helps with the grieving process. She told me she did this after Pietro died and she’s doing it again to help with the loss of Vision. I know you won’t be able to read anything that I write, but...I don’t know, I guess I could use any help I could get I suppose.
After everyone was brought back I used the time travel again to bring the stones back to where they were right before we took them. It was difficult, especially when I had to return the soul stone. I don’t remember much of what happened, my head was clouded, and my thoughts were all over the place. I never thought that I would lose you, or Tony. No one did. I tried to bring you back Nat, I really did. So did Bruce.
I’m sorry that we never got the chance to live a life together. I remember when I first met you, on the helicarrier back in 2012. You were so beautiful. You always have been. I wasted so much time and I’m sorry. It’s not fair. I know that you’re not really dead. There’s just no way that you’re really gone, it’s not possible. There is always another way, I won’t give up.
Love, Steve