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A vellichor.
That’s what I felt when I thought of him. That sense of longingness for the forgotten but latent memories. One that is carefully kept yet blatantly ignored. One that is hidden in the deepest corner but has always been missed.
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It started with the tingling in my spine. A sensation that awakened my entirety. One that I hadn’t felt for awhile. One, that for some absurd reasons, only a certain person can rouse such feeling. But that is impossible, right? Not after everything that happened. Not after nine years. Not now. Not ever.
But as if destiny fancied me so much, I saw a familiar pair of doe eyes that immediately pulled me into oblivion. I closed my eyes for a second, frozen in my place. I tried to stand on my ground attempting to hold on to the vestiges of sanity despite the clamor happening inside of me, that is my heart frantically beating upon the sight of him.
A sense of both relief and panic surged within me. My mind kept telling me to walk away but my heart was telling me otherwise. And as he made his way towards my direction, the mixture of emotions visible in his face seemed to mirror mine.
The once busy and crowded airport faded into the background as he neared me. Everything slowed down as I waited for seconds to go faster. His longing eyes never left mine. The yearning came across like bullet grazing my direction. My heartbeat echoed loudly drowning out the noise around me.
Soon, we were just a meter apart. The closest we had ever been after the break up. And before I could think, my hand automatically reached for him so naturally, eager to touch and feel the warmth of his hands to mine. But then, a strange yet familiar voice yanked me back to reality.
“Tae! You coming?”
Like a switch turned on, everything went into motion again as I averted my gaze to the voice that called me. And instead of reaching out for him, I extended my hand high to wave at Jimin.
“Yes! I’m coming.” I shouted back.
I took a deep breath and forced myself to move my feet. That moment, our special moment, came and went by hastily as if destiny had just created a 30-second glitch for us to be lost in each other’s eyes replaying the fondness we had years back before completely pulling us out again to reality. We were not supposed to meet each other again. We should not be crossing each other’s path ‘cause that is what we decided to do, that is what we agreed - to make our separate ways because “it is for the better” he once said.
Nonetheless, I could not help but feel grateful for that glitch, for that chance of seeing him again, seeing him doing well and looking fine as always.
“I miss you.”
I uttered more to myself as I passed by him in order to relieve the tension brewing inside me. And before I completely walked away from him, I heard the sweetest sound I never thought I needed again - a sweet melody of his whisper.
“I know. Me too.”
His voice still had the same effect on me. I was glad that the feeling was mutual. And with a content smile, I stride happily towards Jimin and held his hand tightly imagining it was Jungkook’s hand I was holding. My smile grew wider with thoughts of him.
“Who was that?” Jimin asked.
“No one.” I immediately answered trying to be as composed as possible.
I could not tell him yet but I would definitely tell him later upon boarding the plane because surely being the best friend that he is, he would gush over it once I tell him that I just met my greatest love. For the meantime, I wanted to keep that moment for myself. Spilling it now will be a sacrilege to that special time.
That abrupt interaction made me realize that after all this time, I never stop loving him no matter how long we had been apart. I hope destiny creates another glitch or maybe I will create another glitch so we can meet again – maybe when I come back. When that time comes, I promise I will never walk away from him again.
~Please wait for me. Please be patient, Kookie, until we meet again. ~