Chapter Text
mold me
make me
what you want
make me what you--
what you want to be
pose me
dose
me
break
me
down
down
down
touch me
control me
absolutely crush me
hold me
enfold me--
do
what
you
please
mold me
make me
pose me
break me
Notes:
this was the first thing i posted on HePo back in november and it remains a work i am very proud of, as weird as it is.
thanks AO3 for messing up the formatting
Chapter 2
Summary:
big big TW for attempted suicide in this one
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
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you get a call
it’s too early
but too late all at once
you get a call
it is after midnight
he has the bottle in hand
you get a call
it is early morning
the pills are down his throat
you get a call
it’s one am
he tells you not to worry
you get a call
you don’t know how to feel
he says he’s done the bottle
(you don’t know if he means the pills or the water)
you get a call
you don’t know what to do
you get a call
it ends too soon
Notes:
this one hits close to home, more than most would ever know
Chapter 3: you hurt me
Summary:
this is to my ex-girlfriend. you damaged me, and further hurt my ability to trust. thank you for inspiring me to write this
Notes:
TW for implied emotional abuse
Chapter Text
you made me feel so loved
i adored you
i don't know how to feel
why am i apologizing
for you hurting me
why do i feel guilty
for something i didn't do?
why am i coming back to you
even after you caused me so much pain?
why am i talking to you
after you stole my voice?
why do i see you as beautiful,
when you made me feel hideous?
why am i crawling back,
after you tore me apart?
why do i keep coming back?
Chapter 4: you
Summary:
no TWs this time
Notes:
dedicated to my father, who i wasn't around long enough to be hurt by
Chapter Text
in me, i see you—
a young man, small, timid;
dark hair, dark eyes
stubborn, irresponsible—
full of bad decisions
somebody who has no control
someone who has no freedom
for whom love is not enough
who has everything that he could ever want and still be unhappy
a home
a family
some faith in the universe
you still want more
in me, i see you
and that is something i wish wasn’t true
Chapter 5
Summary:
strong TW for suicide
Notes:
this was written when i was in a much, much worse place. i'm still not too good, but i'm better than i was
Chapter Text
if i grabbed a handful of little red pills
and put them in my mouth,
would anything matter?
or would the world just fade to black
and forget about me
uchihasuicide on Chapter 5 Mon 16 Dec 2019 02:19AM UTC
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