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Nolan Hirahara

03 October 20XX

AP English & Literature Poem

 

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"Close your eyes"

"Say your goodbyes"

"It's time to go home"

 

Never got to play

The comforting words they didn't say

In this world I am alone

 

Don't try to help me now

The tears and blood have already stained the ground

Where were you when I needed help the most?

 

Hospital visits to see the ill

With each day, the higher the bill

Though no one treated my hurt

 

No tears from the stone man

No fears that they bore

However they burdened me with negativity in my core

 

No pity while they watch

No sympathy for what I've lost

No regrets to ease my pain

 

Why do I try?

For me they won't buy

Always care for my own

 

Though no matter what they do

No matter they don't

I will continue my strive to be something I know I won't

 

Hopefully so one day,

Far from today,

They will welcome me with open arms

And do something I've always hoped for them to do

For them to tell me

 

"We love you too."

 

I stare at the computer screen.

 

Finally done with the assignment.

 

Ugh.

 

I can't.

 

I highlight the entire poem.

 

Delete.

 

I'd be an idiot to write what I actually feel.

 

Notes:

So I decided to give my little Author's Note thing in the end this time because I feel it would, idk, ruin the mood a little if it were in the beginning.

Last night I was trying to create an Aegi story, but instead began writing a poem, and I genuinely don't know if I wrote this from Nol's perspective or from mine, but I decided to post as Nol's perspective.

If you didn't understand, the story above is Nol receiving an assignment for his English class where he had to make a poem, writing how he truly feels inside, disregarding any facade he might put up in real life. Nol did write from his heart, though in the end deleted it, believing that it's better to hide his feelings.

Anyway, expect some hopefully more happy stories from now on!

(Y'all I actually try to make happy stories, but it always takes a dark turn lmao).