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reliance
I keep going to her anytime something happens
She takes everything in stride, and she's so easy to talk to, I always feel like I can talk to her and she'll listen no matter what she's doing and she's such a good listener!! I honestly wish I had met her earlier but I'm so glad I met her anyways! am i gushing?
I know I shouldn't go to her for everything, that's what my therapist is for but she insists in her soft way again and again that it's okay, that we are friends, that this is what friends do not that i would know anything about that
So I go back to her, tell her about Seth and how I don't feel like things will be the same again. I cried the first time I admitted that out loud, it was so embarrassing, but she just smiled and hugged me until I stopped and we went for ice cream even though I know she was supposed to go out with Andrew
I don't just talk to her about him, though
I get soo carried away talking to her, like, I finish with my classes and we just move around the dorm, talking the entire time for hours at a time, stopping only 'cus an alarm to go eat before the hall closes goes off she didn't have those alarms before, did she?
It's definitely not the same as when I talk to Dan, though
Dan is easy to talk to, too, just in a different way.
I joke with her about anything and everything and we talk about our relationships too, so I know about all of the dumb shit Matt does
I don't know how to put it into words yet but the way I talk to the girls is different
Not bad, though. It's nice.
Maybe Renee might be my first actual best friend?