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love, romance love song it is the most common topic that everyone could relate to. the blinding feeling of emotion, the feelng of the heart almost bursting from joy just seing your lover. The slow motion when you look in to their eyes. that certain voice whispering softly, telling he/she is the one. the feeling of soaring so high just with the simple touch of your hands. thats the common stories we hear when people start talking about love. but is it really that special? Does love really have that earth shatterring moment when it hits you?
Lalisa Manoban is an ordinary girl who were fond of reading romance novel and listening to love songs. She read hundreds of stories explaining and describing, what love is really about, she could explain it without needing to read it on the dictionary but why does love feel so foreign for her.
why does it seems like love is like a concept she could understand but never have the grasp on it.
Lisa always feels like drowning she always feels like even how hard she tries to float she cant grasp the true meaning of love is there really something wrong about her? why cant she be like her other friends why couldnt she...
"lisaaaaaa"
"lisa yah!"
someone snapped lisa from her thoughts
Wehhh??? lisa said abruptly like she didnt zone out for a while.
"neh?? what wrong lisa yah i ve been talking here and all you do is stare at that phone whats wrong? come on you could tell your suelgi unnie!" the hyper girl said with out even pausing.
"yeeeeeh lisaa whats wrong? by the way what club do you plan to joined here?" the shorter girl beside the hyped girl asked then side eyed the tall blonde stiff as a pole sitting in front of them.
the blondes eyes are still glued to her phone. then she looked up to both of her friends then give them her warm smile.
"suelgs chichu im okay nothing to worry about and i dont have any clubs in mind yet i just want to enjoy highschool without any pressure from club responsibility" she said then slouched on her sit
"ehhhh???why dont you join me with the track and field club? come on i know how atlethic you are and besides you joined softball team during muddle school right?" suelgi explained then then grabs the nearest chair then sit on it
"yeahh limario here was so great during thosee..."
"lalisa" the shorter girl tried to teas her friend lisa but was cutted short when thier adviser called out lisa's name
"what is it Mr. Song?" lalisa stood up then bowed to thier advicer
"i heared youre not that busy as of now" he said then smiled at lalisa.
Lisa knows she cant say no to whatever favor her advicer would ask of her
"would you mind helping in the student council?" Mr. song asked as if giving lisa an option to say no but here goes nothing.
"o-okay Mr. Song you can count on me but I would like to see whats happening there" lisa said then smiled warmly to her adviser
"you really cant say no huh? lalisa." her friend suelgi teased her. Lisa just shrugged then starts walking to find the student council office
"she may be always go with the flow kind of girl but once she do something she will give her 100% onto it" jisoo smirked then looked at her other friend suelgi
"yeah youre right lisa is always like that" then they smiled at the back of their retriting friend
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lisa was really trying her best to follow the drawn out map given to her by Mr. song on how to locate the student council room but she cant get the idea why in the world it is she outside the school building. she dont know if this is stil part of the campus. Lisa just realized how big their campus is to have the student council office on a different building.
Lisa was walking slowly when she was startled by a voiced booming
"Jennie!"
lisa heard from the other side of the building. she slowly walked then looked at the commotion happening at the rear side of their school building
"jennie Ruby Jane Kim please accept my feelings for you i-i really like you Jennie" the guy bowed down
lisa was shocked to the event unfolding before her. so she hid herself again then crouch behind the plants to cover herself from the two people not 20 ft beside her.
lisa sighed then looked up to the sky. Then she remembered her current dillema.
it has been a month and she kept dodging the calls and messages from her former classmate in Junior high school.
"lisa i really like you could you be my girlfriend "
jungkook asked her then give her his warm smile. she wanted to answer right away after the confession. She waited for that sudden feeling.The feeling of flyinghigh from a love confession. She waited for the earth shaterring moment, form the feeling of free falling to the unkown motion. but nothing. she felt nothing this made lisa panicked not because of the granduer emotion but because she doesnt feel a thing. Nothing.
she was startled when she hear a velvety raspy voice from the first time so she tried to looked at the scene behind.
"im sorry hanbin, but i dont want to go out with any one right now im sorry"
Lisa could see the soft smile the girl gave the guy. She could see the gummy smile this jennie girl is giving. then she have this split second of eye contact with the girl. this made her heart beats faster so she slumped back on her hiding place faster then a blink of eye.
"im so sorry again hanbin" lisa could only hear their muffled voices
"i-its okay jennie i get it i have no chance for someone like you" the guy said
"its not like that hanbin i know you will meet someone for you"
lisa closed her eyes wishing that the ground could just swallow her and let her disappear but the thick velvety voice made her eyes cracked open
"I know you are in there" jennie said in a sing song voice
"i-im sorry unnie i -i dont intend to listen to that sorry " lisa bowed
"its okay " jennies soft voice said that made lisa look at the girls direction
"it is our secret okay" then jennie motion her hands zipping her lips. lisa could just nod her head rapidly that could cause anyone with dizziness
"so what are you doing on this side of the campus by the way" jennie asked looking at the taller girl in front of her quizzically
"i-im going to the student council office but i- i cannot find it i really suck at reading this map." lisa waved the piece of paper in the air. then pout childishly
lisa heared a gigle then she looked in front.Then she saw that jennie is giving her that gummy smile. when suddenly a strong wind blew that slightly disheveled the perfect hair of this Jennie girl.
The wind blew that made the fallen leaves flying everywhere. The wind may disarrayed Jennies hair a little but lisa can still say that this Jennie looks so beautiful.
Jennie tucked the stray hair behind her ear then she held out her hand in front of lisa.
"student council room was this way it is an abandoned room for some club before so the stu.co made use of it"
they started walking side by side at first but jennie is just a lil bit ahead of the younger girl.
"she wears a red ribbon she must be year older than me" lisa said to herself she couldn't stop herself steling glances to the shorter girl ahead of her.
Jennie might be a lil bit shorter than lisa but she gives of the vibe of authority she seems approachable and friendly someone who seems to be perfect but their is something about this girl that lisa cant pin point at.
just a few meters ahead lisa could see a small but beautiful cabin surrounded by trees and plants.
"this is the stu.co office go ahead" jennie said then motioned lisa to enter the cabin.
"thank you very much for your help unnie" she said then entered the stu.co office.
lisa saw someone sitting on the table at the center of the cabin. a red haired girl looked up and she stares at lisa as if contemplating what is she doing there then she saw something behind lisa then give this warm smile.
"Chaeng you' re early" jennie walked between lisa and her friend chaeyoung ,also know as rosé then she looked back and fort between two girls
"chaeng this is..." Jennie stopped waiting for lisa to introduce herself
"i-im lalisa manoban"lisa bowed
"im jennie Kim and this is roseanne park " jennie said then she sit in front of rose.
"you must be the help mr. song told me earlier"
jennie said then she started working on something on the laptop
"yeah just tell me what i could do to help" lisa said then smiled at the two girls in front of her.
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The student council office was not that big but big enough for a senior highschool student council office. The cabin give the stu.co their own place, the cabin seem like there own home in the campus.
Lisa prepared drinks for the two older girls. She cant believe the school allow them to use this beautiful cabin as their office.
"so.. jen i heared someone confesseed to you what happen?" rose asked smirking at her friend
"h-how din you know cheang?! it just happen before we got here!" jennie asked fidgeting on her seat but then she pouts at her friends teasing
"dont underestimate my network Kim, and besides i heared it first hand from hanbin" rose said nonchalantly then returned to her work.
"chaeng nothing happen, you know i dont do that" Jennie answered defensively
"yes i know jen and besides whats new you received letter left and right a week wont pass without someone confessing to you" rose said then smirek at her friend.
she noticed that Lisa is looking at her and jennie curiously. so she smiled and decided to tease her best friend again
then rose leaned a little to lisa then whispered but Jennie could still hear her friend.
" she also recieved confession from girls" rose whispered but Jennie could still hear everything
"Hey! Roseanne Park you didnt have to say that! "
"uuuuhmmm u-unniee" lisa started that made the two other girl look at her direction
jennie just looked at Lisa then give her a warm smile encouraging her to continue
"why are you turning them down?" lisa said then looked straight into jennies eyes.
Jennie matched lisa's intense gaze then she breath calmly
"i just dont feel anything when someone confessed to me" Jennie said then she shrugged then smiled again at lisa.
"My heart is not beating like crazy, when someone says that they love me .whether if it is a girl or a boy" Jennie continued then give her gummy smile
Lisa was taken a back by the answer of jennie, maybe jennie unnie could help her. maybe what she feels or not feel is just a normal thing.
a spark of hope was ignited within Lisa. She could see a small light of hope in her drowning emptiness. Jennie could be the same as her. They both dont feel anything towards love.
"You just dont want to go out with anyone Jen" Rose said seriously lookng at the tea in front of her. There is spark of saddness in her eyes but she hid it immediately then drank her tea. as if nothing happens
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Lisa was resting her head on the desk in front of her when someone interupts her peaceful rest
"Lisa-yahhh" lisa looked up then she saw her two friends.
Jisoo was holding a book and Suelgi is smiling from ear to ear. Then Jisoo took the seat in front of lisa then Suelgi sat on the chair besides Lisa.
"So Limario hows the student council?" Jisoo asked giving her a warm smile.
"Its okay i meet this cool junior student council member then helped me with the direction" Lisa said then scratch her head remembering how she almost got lost earlier.
"whoaa Lisa is he handsome? why didnt you tell us you meet someone?!" Suelgi bombared lisa with question.
"nope he is a she and she's really cool and gorgeous she is kind of nice really Jennie unnie is really cool" Lisa said nonchalantly then looked at her two friends.
"Jennie Kim?" Jisoo asked then continued when lisa nods her head
"I heared that she is really beautiful and smart too. Ive heard seniors talking about her she is quite famous here." Jisoo said then nodded with lisa.
"I thought you meet a boy. I taught we could have the girl talk now you know but yeah she sounds cool i guess, but my Sehun oppa is much more cooler, he is really great you know he is so great earlier during our club meeting " Suelgi starts rambling about this Sehun then jisoo starts asking question then the two start conversing.
The scene infront of Lisa made her felt like drowning again. Why cant she be normal like her friends.
After that incident Lisa decided to talk to jennie tomorrow after she helped in the student council. She could finally end the torture she put jungkook in.
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beeeeep
Lisa read the recent message jungkook send her.
she needs to give her answer today but first things first she needs to talk to Jennie
after that last bell signaling for the end of the day Lisa bid her goodbye to Jisoo and Suelgi who just looked at each other not thinking too much of the sudden departure of their friend.
Lisa run to the student council and when she opened the door then she sees no one inside the office.
"why am running it would be too early" Lisa mumble to herslef then when she was about to slouch on the nearest sit someone startled her
"you're early" the person lisa wanted to talk to just appeared behind the door then smiled at her. Jennie slowly walked then placed her bag on the sofa then sit across lisa.
"Unnie i-i just" But lisa was cut off when the door suddenly opened revealing a guy standing outside with his hoodie coverig his face.
"sorry i just came here to inform you that i would like to join the student council" the guy bowed then enter the office.
"hey welcome it is nice to have extra helping hands around..." jennie tried to asked the guy his name without asking him
"oooh my name in taehyung but you can call me V " he said then smiled warmly at the both of us
"nice meeting you I'm jennie Kim and this is Lisa Manoban"
Lisa sat there while Jennie was talking to the taehyung guy she cant start the conversation she wanted to have with her jennie unnie. So lisa just sat there staring into the nothigness infront of her.
"her drink some tea" Jennie slide the cup in front of Lisa
"where are Rose and taehyung?" lisa asked then she looked around to find the other member but there were no one besides her and jennie
"Rose have some emergency while taehyung said that he will start formally tomorrow" Jennie said then she sat besides lisa.
"ohh i i should go home as well" lisa said but when she was about to get up.
Jennie hold her hands stopping her from standing up
"i know you went her to talk about something"
Jennie said them give ther perfect friendly smile
"h-how did" Lisa stammers but Jennie cut her off
"I can see it on your face Lisa you want to talk about something" Jennie said seriously
when Lisa heard that. sShe told jennie everything about jungkook. what happen during their junior higschool school years and her current dillema
"when he confessed to me, i-i want to say, okay lets date but it doesnt feel right." lisa said then looked at jennie directly.
The older girl just have this poker face on but she is listening not giving any judging look, so Lisa continued.
"i-I waited for that special feeling but nothing, i felt nothing" she continued.
Lisa reminisce that moment when Jungkook asked her to be his girlfriend. She waited for the feeling of blinding happiness, the moment where she will float due to extreme emotion, but nothing happens. She taught that maybe it was just a little too late so she asked Jungkook for some more time, but as days, weeks passed she was sure that it wont ever happen to her.
Something is really wrong with her, but her train of taughts were suddenly disturbed.
"is this because everyone wants to talk and read about romance and if you dont feel the same, you felt like you are a weirdo? " jennie says then she looked outside. but she is still holding the younger girls hand.
"unnie,how I wish i could tell him, like how you do it." Lisa said then give her short smile
"i guess feelings are not for me, i cant have it unnie" lisa said then stared at the cat eyed girl in front of her.
riiiiiingggg riiiiing.
"is that him?" jennie asked then Lisa took her phone then stood up.
before lisa could further her distance with jennie. The shorter girl caught her wrist then stood up as well.
Lisa looked at jennie and she could she the calm expression in the older girl.
Jennie is just like her this thought helps lisa a lil bit in her situation
"Lalisa you could tell him how you fell, just like how he tells you what he feels."
jennie says then holds lisa's both hands giving her the support that she currently needs.
"you are fine, there is nothing wrong with you"
but Jennie held on to lisa's hand she didnt let go of both hands to show her support
"h-hello" Lisa said when she answered the call. she felt self-conscious all of the sudden, she felt terrified in hurting a friend.
Romance novels, movies and love song lyrics were all blinding to lisa, she could understand love but she get it now it is something she could never reach. She may understand love she could even described it without looking it up but love is something she could never have.
"jungkook i-i m sorry" lisa said then seconds passed before she heard the response she tighten her hold on the hands giving her support
"thank you, its okay Lisa yah .Thank you for being honest with me"
Jennie could only hear the muffled reply. she was just looking at Lisa, staring at her side profile while the younger girl was talking to the guy she just dumped.Jennie find Lisa mesmerizing then suddenly it hits her unexpectedly.
"unnie" lisa said then she looked ate jennie but something feels different.
"unnie"
she repeated but there were still no response.
she looked at their joined hands then she obsereved something, it is not her hands that is shaking and sweating right now.
then she looked at the older girl infront of her. She dont understand the look jennie is giving her. what happen all of the sudden.
"You said you dont have anyone special to you right?"
Jennie asked still holding the younger girls hand possesively. This action made Lisa nervous. She tried to remove her hand but Jennie wasnt letting her. what the hell is happening.
"ye-yes" lisa answered almost whispering. but Jennie could hear her loud and clear
"You said you cant understand that special feeling of falling right?" jennie continuously asked the taller girl but still looking at lisa straight in the eye.
lisa's mind was working overtime. then she felt a sudden pull on her arm. Lisa was caught of gaurd then she tumbled in front of Jennie.
her hands was on Jennies shoulder then she can feel the hands of jennie on her waist holding her tightly but not to much to hurt her.
Lisa was just standing there understanding nothing on the situation
"I think i'm falling in love with you" Jennie said having this twinkle in her eyes looking at Lisa lovingly.
this line baffled lisa's mind. she taught that Jennie was the same as her, but what is happening.
"you make my heart beat like crazy" the older girl continued having this sudden sparkle in her eyes, still holding lisa protectively afraid that the tall blonde would just disappear.
"I cant understand this, I cant understand this girl in front of me"
lisa said to herself